#i have extreme anxiety and dont like tagging ppl if i dont have to LOL

[mistralxsoul]

GETTING TO KNOW YOU.

respond to the following prompts out of character. then, tag others that you'd like to get to know a little bit better!

tagged by: @bravewolfvesperia tagging: i think a lot of people have already done this so I don't know who to tag (and also anxiety LOL) i dont think ive seen @charmsol do this but i cant keep up so sorry for the tag lol. Q_Q

ROLEPLAYER NAME: I mostly go by Natty tho can also go by Crest too!

ROLEPLAYER PRONOUNS: Any Pronouns

MUSE NAME: Flynn Scifo (for now........)

PREFERRED COMMUNICATION: You can always DM me on Tumblr or if we've been mutuals for a while, I don't mind sharing my discord!

EXPERIENCE: I've been roleplaying for a very long time but its been a while since i've rped on Tumblr so im relearning a lot of the etiquette lol Most of my rp was through discord.

PREFERRED ROLEPLAY TYPE: I like any genre honestly. Fluff, comfort, angst, drama (ic, not ooc of course LOL) high tension, love it all! Of course, when it comes to sensitive content, I would like to discuss that before hand just to make sure both parties are comfortable!

PET PEEVES & DEALBREAKERS:

This list will probably grow as I establish myself on Tumblr rp again but the usual tbh?

-No Force shipping. This goes both ways. I do ship Yuri but I would of course like to discuss that with the mun first if you are wanting to do a ship. On the other end, I will not automatically try to initiate a romance with a Yuri rper if we have not established that that is what we want. As other other ships, I usually like it when things establish naturally. If the muses seem to be getting along well, hit me up! Ask me! I'll let you know how the Flynn muse is feeling at that moment! But other wise, I just like relationships to develop naturally. (hopefully this makes sense LOL)

-No God Modding. If our muses fight, lets discuss via DMs about the outcome of the fight. And to be honest, I kind of usually determine my muses moves via dice roll to keep my muse from performing perfectly all the time. (I also hope this makes sense LOL)

PLOTS OR MEMES: If you have a plot idea? PLEASE send it over, i wanna hear it SOOOO bad! But I also live for any type of meme you send my way.

LONG REPLIES OR SHORT REPLIES: I can do either! I usually try to match my current RP partner so I dish out what is given to me! You do not ever have to match my length if you can't. Sometimes I do like to ramble. But I do try and keep it equal if i can.

BEST TIME TO WRITE: I usually do my replies in the afternoon or at night. I'm usually at work in the day time and sometimes I'll work on replies when I dont have anything going on in the office but I can't post them until I get home.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSES: I'm sure if I sat here long enough, I could probably find some similarities! I probably share Flynn's hot-headedness LOL Or his more personal, inner traits LOL But hey, our muses always carry a part of ourselves right?

#// ooc #//i guess the summary of this post is "If you're unsure then just ask me!! #in the future probably wont tag people in these #i have extreme anxiety and dont like tagging ppl if i dont have to LOL #i get nervous

[calciferstims]

o no, dont worry about it, i didnt mind!

oh the ones i seen are neurodivergent but they had them tagged as aesthethic. but they may have spoken about neurotypicals though, now that you do mention it. i didnt think about that lol.

i think that idea is strange. i mean they arent exclusively done to nd's, i think everyone should be able to enjoy them. as long as they obviously dont break whatever dni's they have and behave nicely, it should be fine. or so i think at least. but you might be right though.

lmao i definitely agree with you. i mean lets be real though, they are aesthetically pleasing to look like. maybe they have beef with the word aesthethic lol.

so ironic you mentioned about whether your anxiety is normal level or nah, i have gotten a video recommended to me a couple times now about whats normal anxiety and what isnt. aint looked at it because i already know my shits out of control bad lol. like severe n whatnot.

oh my god can you please share a link to it? i wanna see it! sucks to hear it may have not helped, but may have been able to provide some kind of distraction at least?

HI SORRY I KEPT FORGETTING TO ANSWER THIS I have just had. A Week™️

But yeah I definitely I think stimboard should be enjoyable to anyone!! It’s just aesthetic fun times 😌

And yeah I need to do more research on anxiety tbh 😂 for years I’ve really written off my anxiety (even though other ppl picked up on it) because it wasn’t that ‘extreme’ but it wasn’t until pretty recently that I was like. Ok yeah maybe this Isn’t Normal for realsies…. (Meanwhile my mom and my therapist and my friends are all sitting there like yes congrats you are literally the last one to know 😂) but I’m still not sure???? Idk.

#to answer ur last question…. it was the red otto board 😔😔 #he comforts me ok #ask box

[unproduciblesmackdown]

Neptune, Black Hole, Cancer (I was debating on if Cancer was too heavy or not but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

Neptune- Describe yourself in one sentence.

oh man lol i’d just wanna like, use a string of words…..but how about “i live inside my own head and i have a kind of je ne sais quoi but in a bad way, so that i don’t do very well socially, but unfortunately i’m also a very social person, and i’m passionate.”

Black Hole- What are you most afraid of?

uhhh well what i’m afraid of personally is different from things i’m afraid of like, happening more generally, and the latter is of more concern to me lol….but uhh personal fears, i’m anxious abt teeth problems b/c i will never be able to afford dentistry and just have to off myself, i generally just ignore that worry until it becomes a problem tho and then i can just off myself. i find many forms of mold perturbing especially if i come across it unexpectedly. i don’t like dead bugs. but those are just peturbations. my fear is prison because prison just like, consumes human life. it is like made to happen in its own isolated world and you no longer exist to people in the real world. in some ways it’d be like, well not much is new for me, but at least now i technically can feel like there’s a chance things could improve. if you’re incarcerated for however long you know that for however many years, things can’t change and there’s no chance you’ll be treated as fully human (coz you wouldn’t be there if you were). and even just one year is a long time. sometimes the idea of things being the same even for a few more months is too much for me to be okay with. and my connection to other people and my own future is extremely tenuous and i don’t exactly have much hope and if i went to prison, then, yknow i can adapt to anything and lifes always been crappy and i always tolerate new crap and drag myself along and i always wanna find small ways to make a difference to others in however i can but like. speaking of offing myself lol. then there’s also other anxieties i have abt my future and if im “properly homeless” aka on the street instead of on the street but in my car like i used to be. there’s some things to worry about there.

Cancer- How do you want to be remembered?

this isn’t too heavy or anything lol i can’t think of any offlimits topic for me…but i’m generally too Shy to send other ppl ~heavy~ topics myself lol like you can’t always feel sure…but like in case ppl didnt know i think abt my own death like probably multiple times a day and it’s basically a casual subject for me. i don’t much care about being remembered at all, i don’t have family or anything and the only thing abt dying as an Unknown Person is you get misgendered lol. just idk…do whatever w my corpse i dont want it its gross….give ppl my bones or whatever. gross but great. anyways honestly this blog has the most info abt who i really am than anyone else has anywhere lmaooo…thats why i get depressed abt whenever ppl get the idea that tumbs is abt to be deleted…this is my memoriam right here or whatever. look at my weird art tag and remember that i was a gay. i hope i’ve managed to make a good impact on some ppl’s lives in small ways, tho i don’t need them to remember me for it, i just hope the effect outlives me. i don’t really care abt being remembered lol if i’m out i’m out and i feel i’ve tried to be a genuinely decent person and don’t really need testimonials for that. skip a funeral god knows nobody wants that and anybody i’d even vaguely be ok w attending one is all over the place. basically if i drop dead i hope ppl come across some content i’ve made and are like “nice” aaaand beyond that idk. Remember I Was Fiery And Queer

#thank you !!!!!!! #i like taking on Solemn Asks actually so ty for that chance also

[clefairytails]

lesbian tag game

thx for sending me this @redcladsheikah <3 all my lesbian friends should do this too, if you want uwu i’m too lazy to tag like 50 ppl hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh @lebians @tiedyked @talaxian @lesbian-mcelroy @ireallylikecameras 

1: did you ever think you were straight?

not really, i knew i liked girls even as a child. but i did go through multiple periods of trying to convince myself i was straight, needless to say it didn’t work out lol.

2: what’s your favorite element of gay culture?

our sense of humor! it’s amazing that we’re all so funny despite putting up with so much bullshit.

3: are you femme, butch, or neither?

femme! i’ve been looking into femme history lately, bcs the idea that femme is just an aesthetic is a misconception c:

4: do you prefer to date femmes or butches?

tbh every time i declare i have a type i immediately fall for someone that’s the complete opposite of that, so i have no idea. lately i’ve been wanting a goth gf, but i just developed a crush on a prep soooo i’m terrible at self-reflection. this bitch don’t know what she want.

5: what’s the worst part about being a lesbian?

the feeling that there’s a part of you that needs to be fixed, but you can’t do anything about it. it’s like seeing a picture on the wall that’s crooked, but it’s stuck like that and you can’t ever straighten it. or having a hair out of place that keeps sticking up no matter how much you try to gel it down.

6: what’s the best part of being a lesbian?

is women too obvious of an answer? girls are angels and i’d die for all of them

7: how long were you questioning for?

pretty much never, i guess. i had crushes on girls since kindergarten, then in 2nd grade i was told girls could only like boys, so i tried my best to be straight even though in my heart i knew i wasn’t. since i couldn’t make myself like boys, i kinda just ignored the idea of liking anyone at all until middle school, when i found out what the word “lesbian” means online. of course, all the stuff i found about lesbians called us disgusting perverts, so i went through many phases of calling myself literally anything else but a lesbian. i’ve only started using the word lesbian specifically in the last few years, especially since i joined an amazing discord group. i love them so much, they’ve helped me feel so proud of being a lesbian <3

8: what’s the most annoying thing straight people do?

exist. 

jk lmao, i’m honestly not annoyed by straight people, but i like making jokes as if i am. it’s hard to annoy me in general, i’ve got a high tolerance for that type of stuff. if i have to answer, i hate it when strangers (usually straight men) pry into my sex life, but i’m not really annoyed by that as much as i am creeped out.

9: what do you look for in a girl?

vampirism is my only requirement.

10: if you had to marry someone you know right now, who would you choose?

@lebians bcs i feel they’d be the most able to put up with my bullshit. everyone else would kill me on sight. if only @ireallylikecameras was still single, then when we got married we could put together our 50% employee discounts at BK and get infinite food for free, ending world hunger. i think that’s how it works, but also im gay and therefore bad at math.

11: do you have a crush right now?

does being in love count as a crush? if so, then i have three.

12: do you fall in love easily?

i crush easily, and i say i’m in love easily bcs i’m a leo (meaning i need to exaggerate to live), but actually feeling love? only once.

13: is there anyone in your life right now you think you’ll date in the future?

fingers crossed.

14: is there anyone you want to be kissing right now?

at the moment i’m feeling very touch repulsed, so no. but i also go through periods of feeling touch starved, and during those times i’d kiss pretty much anyone lmao.

15: do you think you’ve met your future wife yet?

i don’t know if i want to be married. i hate making commitments.

16: top, bottom, or vers?

i suspect i’m a bottom, but i’m also a virgin with no self awareness about what she wants or likes, so who really knows.

17: is there anyone you wish you could fuck right now?

still feeling touch repulsed, so no. also i have issues with actual real life sex. i always think i want to have sex, but when the situation becomes real, i feel disgusted by it and chicken out. i have no idea if this is some sort of asexuality or internalized lesbophobia. i should probably go to therapy lol.

18: rough or gentle?

rough, in theory. like i said, virgin who doesn’t know what she likes. but as a general rule, i don’t like slowness.

19: how many stereotypes do you fit into?

i’m fat, hairy, make lots of jokes about hating men (at least online, not in real life bcs i dont wanna get stabbed), i sometimes look like a guy,

20: what version of the lesbian flag do you like most? (butch, lipstick, original, etc.)

i like the femme one! i have it as my banner, it’s the lipstick lesbian flag without the lip print. the original flag was so fucking good, too bad it got taken by the terfs. the labrys is such a powerful image, and purple is a good color. also i saw a moon lesbian flag going around, that one is so good.

21: do you have a good gaydar?

hhhh i’d like to pretend i do but tbh i’m not very observant and straight up bad at reading people.

22: be honest, would you rather be straight?

yes and no. i’d rather have been born straight, because it would’ve saved me so much pain, but it’s a few years too late for that lol. if there was a magic pill that could make me straight today, i wouldn’t take it. i’ve been through so much as a lesbian, it means something to me now and i wouldn’t trade that for anything.

23: are you cis?

yep.

24: are you a sugar mommy or a sugar baby at heart?

hardcore sugar baby. my dream job is being an older woman’s trophy wife.

25: are you committed to someone at all right now emotionally?

hhhhhhhhhh unfortunately. i don’t want to be.

26: are you looking for a serious relationship currently?

yes, but i shouldn’t be. i don’t think i’m ready to be in one.

27: is there someone you’d like to be in a serious relationship in?

yes, but she’s straight and already married lmao. whoops.

28: do you want children?

no, i’m too selfish and irresponsible.

29: is your family accepting of your sexuality?

my mom and dad are, though they don’t take it very seriously. pretty sure they expect me to grow out of it one day. can’t blame them tho, i’m waiting for the same thing lmao. my extended family is huge, and their opinions range from being extremely homophobic to being gay themselves, but i’m interacting with them less and less as i get older.

30: how confident are you in your sexuality?

very confident, though i don’t want to be. i’m still secretly hoping one day i’ll see a guy i’m attracted to and he’ll fix me, but being realistic, i’m a huge fucking lesbian. women are enchanting.

31: are you polyamorous or monogamous?

monogamous. my insecure ass could not be poly hhhhhh.

32: what advice do you have for your 12 year old self?

be more selfish. you don’t have to put yourself second for the sake of others, especially at your age. nothing you do will matter in a decade, go fucking wild.

33: have you ever been to a gay bar?

nope. i want to go one day, but i have terrible social anxiety.

34: leather jackets or flannel?

both of those are really hot, but i’m gonna go with leather jacket.

35: describe your dream girlfriend

- vampire

- big tiddy goth gf

- nice personality or smthn

- uhhhhhhhhh tiddy

(ok but srsly, i can’t answer this question bcs i NEVER know what i want!! i always thought my type was THICC for sure, but all three of the ladies i have feelings for rn are pretty skinny and flat chested)

36: do you have any lesbian friends?

at least 50 lol.

37: what elements of gay culture do you actively participate in?

air, water, sometimes earth. never fire.

38: do you find straight people irritating?

nope, but i do find straight pda uncomfortable to look at. mostly bcs it reminds me of what i'm supposed to want. but i’d never tell a straight person that, obviously. i’m not rude.

39: would you rather adopt a kid or have a biological kid?

i’ll adopt a tortoise, and feed her any children that cross my path. but if i did ever have a child, i’d want it to be biologically mine and my wife’s. mostly bcs i’d want to know what it would look like, which is a selfish and stupid reason to have kids, and exactly why i’m not gonna lmao.

40: do you love yourself?

i’m a LEO (jokes aside, i don’t know. sometimes i do, sometimes i don’t. but i love myself more as time goes on. definitely more than i did than when i was a teen, at least.)

#tag game #long post #im a LEO

[witchfall]

Getting to know you ask meme

Rules | Answer the 20 questions and tag 20 amazing followers you’d like to get to know better! Tagged by: @kodrevas thanks yo!!

Name: Kathryn

Nicknames: Katie (but only for family), various people I interview think I shorten my name in lots of fun ways that are all incorrect, but my favorite is Kat and my LEAST favorite is Kathy

Zodiac sign: Cancer

Height: 5′5″

Orientation: Hetero-greyace

Nationality: American

Favorite fruit: “Ian what is my favorite fruit?” “You don’t like any fruit.” Yes I do! If strawberries count.

Favorite season: Springgggg

Favorite book: I always revisit Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, tbh...especially Sisterhood Everlasting. Jane Eyre is up there too.

Favorite flower: Daisies! How dainty~

Favorite scent: Lilac

Favorite color: You know I’ve been thinking about this and these days pink is my favorite...that soft pink that is fashionable right now. Thanks fashion for catching up to my taste!

Favorite animal: Sloths

Coffee, tea, or hot cocoa: These days I gotta say coffee.

Average sleep hours: 6.5. Because I cannot get to bed on time to save my goddamn life.

Cat or dog person: I love my cats but I miss my doggos at home. Hard to say. Dogs crack me up tho.

Favorite fictional character: Rey!!!!!

Number of blankets you sleep with: Sleeping with a big hairy man requires sometimes only a comforter (in the summer) or a flannel sheet and comforter in the winter.

Dream trip: Travel is an extreme anxiety trigger for me but if everything was guaranteed to be arranged for me in a good way, I’d love to go to Greece/The Mediterrean and then the Swiss Alps.

Blog created: June 2011 when I was sad and pining for Ian. Man, those days huh!

Number of followers: 202. Most of you are pronz. Lol.

Tagging: A couple ppl have tagged me in this by now! I can’t rememer who all did it. @funkadacious @ghidragon @concertconfetti @emtechie etc etc etc anyone who wants to take part because clearly i dont have a big following on here lmao