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#i haven't had a nostalgia attack for early 2014 since probably late 2014 lol
eggmeralda
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oop just unlocked 2014
#terrible idea
#it's a really long story but basically i was massively obsessed with the clash in the first half of that year
#and since then it was always seen as the most sacred hyperfixation of my life
#so i never wanted to think about bc that era of my life was too good i couldn't even handle it
#for the first time since then i am ascending to the clash and it's giving me an existential crisis
#god i had such a solid identity in 2014 where did it go
#i always split my ages as if they were separate people who i used to know
#like deep down i know I'm still my 14yo self and she's still my 18yo and she's still my 3yo self etc. but i can't accept that?
#some ages i can accept more than others? but some are almost off limits
#''19 was too perfect don't touch it or you'll ruin it'' ''12 was too long ago you're not her anymore and you never will be again''
#but 14
#oh my god
#i haven't had a nostalgia attack for early 2014 since probably late 2014 lol
#I've never delved into that year
#possibly bc i knew exactly who i was and i was aware of my existence but wasn't really bothered?
#by the end of that year i started questioning everything but the start i was just vibing?
#and if i think about my 14yo self i have to think about the fact that i am still her
#which means i have to acknowledge my own existence
#which is literally horrendous and also terrifying and i might die in the process
#fuckfuckfuvkfuckfuvkvikvufivuccuvidifjdifisifjsisjdjfbsjfishdufysi
#i just wanna go back in time and have a really long chat with my 14yo self and all my past selves
#not about anything in particular we just talk about songs we like and who our fav characters are etc.
#but they all die every new year to make way for a new age who will be having a completely different existential crisis to the previous one
#what the fuck am i talking about
#I'm literally still listening to the clash if my 14yo self could see me now she'd probably agree but she's dead rip :/
#ramble
#sjdbsofbs
#sjdbsufhsufudsnndefjfjaai
#Kvuajdhcahduyahdcyuz
#hell yeah boys i reached 30 tags
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