#i ironically stopped giving a shit

[elexuscal]

you know existing in the modern media landscape is funny cuz like

i genuinely love adaptations. like as a concept. they're transformative works, right? ideally, it's the same soul that drives all fandom write large

you go 'how do translate this story?' how do you take words and make them into images? how do you take images and turn them into film? how can a film use a score the way a book used narration? do you cut this character, prune that plotline, like a bonsai? or conversely, do you need to lay a new bed for under explored story-beats to grow?

a well told adaptation is amazing. it deepens the story, it expands your understanding of both texts.

but as more and more of the stories i love get adapted the more i realise the vast majority of the studios and/or the people they hire for these jobs don't give a shit of any of that, and are just looking for a new IP to toss into the Content Regurgitation Machine

#media #adaptation #and like i'll be honest individual cases don't even make me feel that bad anymore #it used to hit me really badly #but some time after the Giver i think #i ironically stopped giving a shit #because the source material is still there and the people who will love it can still find it #the atla movie didn't kill love for the show etc etc #but in the scope of things #it makes me sad #in the sense we're putting all this time and money and effort #into story sludge #where we could be doing genuinely really interesting with the craft

[orbiyoo]

my half finished clown :] happy halloween

#i really like how the hat n neckpiece came out :) wanted the sleeves a lil poofier but incan always give them a lil fill or something #im gonna finish the full cosplay on my own time maybe formmarch maybe nit. #i got up at 6 this morning to sew the sleeves on USBDUFBFGFJEBHYNSH #i did start the vest i have it all sewn and lined + the collar pinned to it but i just. uhg. the gold edge. fuck that #shoutout to my awesome classmate who gave me gold fabric to do it. sorry i didnt do it yesterday. too sleepy. ONE DAAAAY #i was like NO gold on the sleeves NO red on the puffs ONE button ebcause i dont feel like sewing more #AMEN. #that red fabric. OKAY THAT RED FABRIC FUCKING HTES ME ITS SOME SYNTHETIC WOVEN SHIT THAT WANTS ME DEAD. NOT WORTH IT #sits nicely for the hat. frays like a bitch. skips stitches like a bastard. does NOT want to press or iron. #i only just learned abt the burning synthetic fabric edge to stop it from fraying umm Yesterday thanks to aforementioned awesome classmate #so umm teehee.nits fine zigzag stitch works well enough. Okay im so tired i hust wanted to show off my gay little hat goodnigit #EDIT AAAAH THE PICTURE IS FLIPPED its ok i made sure to get the colors on the proper sides. red is on the left. believe me i made sure.

[the-acid-pear]

The thing about the painter analog that people don't get and makes them hate it is that at heart this isn't a serious horror story. This is pure gore not only for the sake of gore but for the sake of camp. Once I was talking of to my dad laughing at the guy who had his face sanded off and he was like yeah not new they did that in Jason already 🙄 which was later reinforced by UrbanSpook admitting this is inspired by those old 80s slasher which should tell you everything.

I'm saying this bc i saw a video pairing it with Playground and the incest game and while I don't know the second I watched a video on playground once and the difference is that that book is trying to tell a story and say something on top of the gore but the later makes it hard to care. Which is kind of the issue another "gone too far" piece of media my beloved A Serbian Film runs into where you cannot take yourself too seriously if you also want to show over the top violence or you'll lose the audience.

OF COURSE there are exceptions like Hostel, Saw and 😏 the human centipede ☺️ (cocksucker for that movie and it's more serious points, though it barely counts bc the gore is very tame save for in 2) and I couldn't exactly tell you what's the difference between what makes them work and what doesn't but still.

But I'm getting off topic I'm not here to say which media is good or not I'm here to point out the painter is not a serious story that asks you to care for the characters it's a over the top schlocky gore that asks you to go GROOOOSS or laugh at the over the top brutality it presents. Which is very standard in horror.

#luly talks #urbanspook #the painter analog horror #also yes actually I'll mention THC again bc that movie is deemed to go ''too far'' which is joked about often in its sequels #in 3 after the inmates at the prison watch the movie they echo the opinions of the public (calling the director sick saying he'd be jailed #etc except for my best friend who GETS IT and is laughing ILY BESTIE) and 2 is a direct response to the reaction of 1 #while 1 is an extremely fucking tame horror movie BY ALL FUCKING MEANS (1 surgery scene and its so clean. after that just a tad bit of blood #and some minor infection) they made a movie that ACTUALLY went too far #and i ironically enough hate it despite appreciating this bc it just isn't fun for me. because it's trying a bit too hard. #but in case you don't know. one of the links of the centipede is a pregnant woman. she escapes and gives birth in the car. baby falls on the #brakes. she steps on its head. #pointing it out since children seem to be the point ppl go THIS IS TOO FAR #i personally found the baby squishing the highlight of the movie. second to that is. the barbed wire rape #which i didn't like because i don't enjoy seeing women be raped in my movies but its like #so funny man. literally bro put barbed wire on his cock. like that's just iconic #what shit like this and the painter are trying to achieve is simple shock. and that's FUN. #if you dont find it fun that's literally okay it simply isn't your piece of cake but that doesn't mean its bad or it shouldn't exist. #like i still see ppl insult it like GROW UP... THIS KIND OF HORROR HAS EXISTED FOREVER STOP BEING SUCH A BABY MAN

[oc-cinematic-universe]

i LOOOVE thinking about fantasy disabilities!!!! i love figuring out what people would have to do to accommodate them! it's literally awesome!

#fun after-comic joe facts time yayyy so joe's soul got a little bit fucked up #its just this small crack. which makes him entirely unresponsive to anything for like 5 minutes max #at seemingly random intervals. it slows down and doesnt last as long as it heals but its still like #not good lol #and its just gonna keep happening the rest of his life because souls fuckin heal weird #its one of many problems disorders he has to deal with this ones just special because doctors have #NO clue what to do with him so he and his friends just gotta figure out how to cope with it themselves #after a while he can kinda tell when its about to happen a few seconds before it does #so because he's rarely left alone anyways because he. cant take care of himself much anymore #he can give them a warning and they will make sure nothing dangerous will come from it and just wait for him to come to #as it heals and becomes less of a problem it kinda becomes more of a problem ironically #he does reach a point where he can mostly handle himself. but he cant do shit when that happens #except try to sit down asap. so while it happens less often it causes More Incidents. alas #i think kiara's way of dealing with it happening in particular is so silly #cause she just. grew up with him like this. this is just normal to her she's never questioned it #like oh ok dad's blanked out again i will just wait so patiently for it to be done so i can keep showing him #my mlp toys and explaining mlp lore to him #it happens and she just stops what she's doing and waits for him then continues as if nothing happened #everyone else gets so fussy about him when it happens but kiaras just #are you done? ok so pinkie pie is the laughter pony #he thinks its awesome he loves her so much

[space-lorde]

If someone is drunk, they cannot give consent.

If someone is drunk, they cannot give consent.

If someone is drunk, they cannot give consent.

If someone is drunk, they cannot give consent.

If someone is drunk, they cannot give consent.

If someone is drunk, they cannot give consent.

If someone is drunk, they cannot give consent.

If someone is drunk, they cannot give consent.

If someone is drunk, they cannot give consent.

#Rammstein #stop defending creepy ass behavior #have some fucking morals #in other news i guess zeig dich is ironic now #stop defending a bunch of millionaires who dont give a shit about you #flake lorenz #till lindemann

[loop-deloo]

hi if a pregnant person doesn’t ask for your advice/opinion/commentary on them or their pregnancy, STOP FUCKING GIVING IT.

and i canNOT stress this enough, if you have never been pregnant shut your mouth unless asked directly.

#i know this is ironic bc i’ve never been pregnant but like #oh my god #this lovely person at work just got to their third trimester and my boss will not stop giving their opinion. #i don’t even want to hear that shit i know she doesn’t either.

[hugevampiretits]

i desperately want to believe in a better future but it all just looks so bleak

#whats the point of coming up with new ideas abt how to stop climate change if corpotations are still killing the planet #nothing is stopping them #whats the point of anti war protests if the people in charge of doing the wars dont give a shit #they will kill as many people as needed to turn a profit #to extract more oil and gas iron and copper and everything the land has to offer #whats the point. whats the point. whats the point #i wish i was ignorant #меньше знаешь крепче спишь as they say #i want to rip my face off i want to stop being human #all humans do if suffer #pumpkin dont look

[adventuringalchemy]

seeing all the minecraft hate is ridiculous. 💀

like you kids realize that y'all can just play a different game, right? like you can stop playing minecraft anytime. you can stop supporting it any time and go play a different game. there are hundreds of survival games out there.

you are just so hard to please fr.

#⚗️ OOC . #( like half of the shit i seen isnt even justifiable because they literally explained what they were gonna do with this update ) #( and its kinda ironic that y'all are pushing for worker advocacy and giving people better working environments and better conditions ) #( then shit on them for taking their time with stuff so they can remain happy and healthy and have good working conditions ) #( 💀💀💀 ) #( be so ffr ) #( log out. play something else. ) #( go play another sandbox game that doesn't have the depth that mc has and stop complaining. )

[lightnersdream]

you know i forgot about the thalassophobia until now

#dont give a shit about those dead guys for the record #but descriptions still freak me out a bit #dib noise #really anything about the sea and wreckages. fuck all of that man #i couldnt stomach the game Iron Lung either its just EUH #STOP THAT #i dont think about the ocean very much in general im a #im hashtag landlubber4life

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

good thing i was already wearing all black bc this is officially a day of mourning now....

#bruh they really couldn't have given the last characters left a route... this is some bullshit 😒 #so no dean blanc or mousse routes??? and they said fuck all the sequels yall aint getting shit #they pulled a midcin on ikerev ig #kinda feel like i just wanna stop playing altogether out of spite... or just never give them a cent again... #saw it coming eventually but at /least/ thought the rest would get SOMETHING.... #ironic how ikevamp is one of the most popular bc its real spicy but imo.... it's always beenthe weakest in terms of plot 💀 #but whatever ig.. i shouldve just stuck to non mobile games bc these always break my heart when they shut down.. shit sucks fam #ik en isn't dead just yet but like... we're poking its body with a stick as we speak rn aren't we 😔 #aerin.jpg #my post 📫 #ikerev #ikemen revolution #yall were one of the only games i would shell out fr fr for so like.... rip to that extra money for yall ig

[todayisafridaynight]

DON'T EVEN WORRY ABOUT IT DUDE I LEAVE ASKS FOR WEEKS BECAUSE I'M EVIL (EASILY DISTRACTED AND INARTICULATE) SHDGKJDSHDSLGF see you got to it before I was even done with a stream...

But yeah The Smile Ruined My Life. It helps it's not as silly as his last card's though lol

The "soul patch" is a bit of both; it is amplified a lot by lighting, but you can see it's noticeably darker/less patchy than the rest of his facial hair in his texture even when lighting isn't a factor and it's like that for his younger model too. I rarely notice when Tsutsumi actually has one though because it blends in with the shadow lol (sorry for the disgustingly high res texture btw I don't know why they did that and Tumblr blows it up to max size anyway </3)

YAYAYAY HOPE YOU ENJOY GOD OF RISK <3 Genuinely don't remember a single thing so probably due a rewatch for me as well. I do miss Hit Me too...

That's exactly the vision! Sad dog left out in the rain. I love fish out of water (so to speak) type stuff where the character is normally So Serious and So Capable. Jo just Existing In Public is such an image, right... because he's like... this guy with a fifty-foot AOE "leave me the fuck alone" aura active at all times but wearing one of THE most eye-grabbing fits... Honestly kind of insane no one ever connected Aoki to the yakuza before Nick's call-out post, though.

It's fun to imagine RGG characters just living their lives too. I LOVED Mine's first event because he had a lot of commentary on random encounters you could have in Y3 and even achievements you could get, while offering a pretty good idea of what his day-to-day is like

he cant be smiling so sincerely while holdin a fuckin katana that looks RIGHT RIDICULOUSAELKJA (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)

if my followers can handle me posting masato and aoki's skinned face texture, then i can surely handle a bit of extra hi-res stubble ☠️☠️ BUT i dosee it. if i squint real hard (the shadows in the rggo card really do help point it out)

I'M ABOUT HALFWAY THROUGH THE FIRST EP RN (got distracted for a sec to hang with my bro) AND SO FAR IM ENJOYIN IT !! Business Bullshit has always entertained me, and esp when kaori's being so hard headed rn only to be faced with the facts that if she doesnt change Serious Shit is going to hit the fan is ABSOLUTELY pulling me in

YAYAYA THATS EXACTLY IT I LOVE FISH-OUT-OF-WATER TYPE OF SCENARIOS TOO. it really is funny that no one connected the dots when every other npc or character seem so deadset on clocking characters like kiryu frame one as yakuza. meanwhile there's alligator-print, perpetual-scowl and slicked-back hair jo and everyone just seems to be none the wiser. He Just Looks Like That Don't Be Rude☠️☠️

i LOVE imaginin charas doin mundane shit so much, it's probably why i really enjoy slice-of-life stuff. Oh The Beauty Of Everyday Life Etc Etc- esp when applied to yakuza characters where it should be hard for a day to be bland and not noteworthy ☠️

#long post #snap chats #got distracted. IRONICALLY SO. #my college mate was askin me how i make my art dynamic and emotive and im like girl idfk i didnt know you thought it was That #im just a goofball making silly shit.... i cant help you make art bro.... i can tell you the rules of comedy tho. Subjectively. #IN ANY CASE. i forgot what i was gonna say 🥰 #OH I REMEMBERED it took me looking at jo's goofy ass smile to remember #never over that PLEASE NO STOP IM CRYING #because ironically i did think about jo smiling this week. idk WHY- im lying i do know why #if i ever say 'idk why' im lying and 75% of the time it's just cause im embarrassed of the actual reason #in any case the actual reason why was cause Of Course i like it when tsutsumi smiles #i think it'll be a day in hell we see jo have a Smile smile but his smaller ones are Just Fine as well #also. every time he smiled in y7 it was to precede some heinous shit happening and it makes me laugh #fuckin smacking ichi with money/gauging a mate's eye in. yeah thats bout it ainit #crying thinkin bout it still IN ANY CASE NO I START LAUGHING CAUSE I WAS LIKE #'ah well i can draw jo sincerely smiling and that'll be that OR. i could redraw this meme 😭☠️☠️' #PROBABLY WONT I WONT LIE OR GIVE ANYONE HOPE but god the mental image made me hack up a lung #ive prattled so much tho i wanna at least finish this ep tonight i can worry bout all that in the future☠️☠️☠️☠️

[meme-loving-stuck]

the hardest part about having an addictive personality is like. you KNOW you can try to discipline yourself or just keep facing the consequences of the bad thing until you finally steel yourself and say 'no. no more bad thing. because it makes me feel bad'

like you KNOW youre capable of doing it. everyone is. and youve done it... maybe once? twice?

but for you, that resolve to finally stop and recover is locked behind a door that everyone SWEARS has a key and you just need to discipline yourself to find it. but you have disciplined yourself and you have tried everything and your fucking door doesnt have a key. it just doesnt. so you can hardly remember a time when you got to just... say no. and unlock the door

and you know that at SOME rare points in your life you have had something so catastrophically bad happen related to the addiction (usually involving hospitalization or something equally serious) that you broke the fucking locked door down and finally stopped. so you know it CAN be open and you CAN see the other side of that door.

it's just way fucking harder when the key to yours doesnt exist.

#BLOGGING LOUDLY #i guess this is why im scared to drink more than a tiny bit #and like i dont want to i definitely have gotten past that i dont ever really feel the compulsion to make myself more miserable #like i used to #but. i still feel this with other things #that are definitely self destructive and just. not good #or even innocuous things that arent terrible but i just. cant stop. even when i DO #and i FINALLY want to stop and really WANT to. and i think ill find the key any second because ive said no and stopped! #but the key never comes and i can never get to that next step of STAYING done. as soon as something bad happens i want to do it again #and i go WELL FUCK IT I CANT FIND THE FUCKING KEY ANYWAY and i give in and do the thing again #its just #its so tirinf #i miss having that resolve #i spend too much time feeling completely alone to ever really feel in control of it #whch is another form f dysfunction in itself but yknow. cant get past it. i hate being alone #maybe if i fix that it will get easier to deny myself things #god i used to think i had an iron will when it came to this shit. heres to my idiot past self who thought the drinking was the hard part

[arolesbianism]

Shakes the bars of my cage I need to draw soooo bad I need to draw I need to draw let me draw I have to draw I need to draw I must draw (<- has been too sick to be on electronics much and doesn't like doing traditional art)

#rat rambles #Im starting to feel better tho Im betting within a day or two Ill have made a full recovery #but I just have so many things I wanna draw all the sudden and its killing me #its because I've been thinking abt ocs again and that gives me a lot more options lol #in particular I've been thinking abt marci and toon more again recently #its just the two of them flirting in their mutual workplace environment with toon being dead serious and marci doing it ironically #the main thing is that marci was rly under the impression that toon like. hated her and was taunting her since they're friends with loonie #who long story short is marci's ex childhood best friend who she fell out with after the death of loonie's mom #the two are not on good terms in the slightest and marci knows very well that loonie would want her dead if she had been more honest #so as toon starts to like get more casual and like genuine with marci as the two spend more time together marci warms up somewhat but still #doesn't rly see toon as a friendly figure until they take her out to a museum and marci kind of snaps a bit and asks toon to stop beating #around the bush and is caught off guard when toon seems genuinely kind of hurt and meekly explains that they were just trying to help her #because she had seemed rly stressed and sad all the time and they thought that their lil dates had been helping her relax a bit #that confrontation left marci initially feeling confused but after the initial shock she was mostly left with a sense of dread and guilt #partially because she had just snapped at someone who she had grown to care abt for no reason and partially because she now felt that she #was hiding stuff from toon that would cause them to change their mind on her immediately if they knew #aka that she and loonie are divorced and that she thinks its mom sucked absolute ass (which she did) #oh and also that she used to have a crush on the guy that killed its mom who was also his mom which is also the reason she hates said mom #said mom treated him (aka midas) like shit and tried to get him killed several times #so when all hell broke loose marci at the end ended up mourning midas much more than his mom who everyone else was mourning #including loonie since it actually had a very positive relationship with its mom and a very distant relationship from its siblings #now marci never admitted all of this to anyone but she did act on those feelings to eventually lash out at loonie causing a huge fight #basically she yelled at it for being pushy and clingy and forcing her into a job she didnt want and expecting her to solve all its problems #the two dont necessarily hate eachother but they definitely heavily resent eachother #they still often long for eachothers companionship but not nearly enough for either to wanna make ammends #so toon quite liking both of them causes some internal conflict for the both of them #loonie is fully aware that toon has a big ol crush on marci but doesnt stop them from being friends with her even if it makes it sad #and marci rly wishes that toon wasnt friends with loonie but feels guilty for feeling that way #its a complicated situation and one that rly isn't helped by the fact that one of the three has the dead god queen mom #loonie could get away with a Lot and everyone knows it

[ithinkimauggie]

As someone who used to participate in online discourse and flame wars, I will personally hunt you down if you engage with that dumbass youtube comment.

#its different if the discourse is ironic lol #but fr #stop giving a shit i gurantee you your life will be infinitely better #xoxo gamer girl #aug tinks

[inkskinned]

it's been said before and i'm sure said better than i can phrase it. but really, really - if you like making "i'm going to kill myself" jokes, please try switching to being ironically conceited instead.

anytime something goes wrong, say things like "ah well at least i'm beautiful and charming and everyone loves me." when you forget something, try "my big huge brain is so smart and thinking about too many other very big wizardly thoughts you wouldn't even understand." when you're frustrated by one of your symptoms, start talking like you're in My Immortal. "Life has come for me but my eyes are beautiful pools of gorgeous fire and my hair is amazing. I stuck my middle finger up at life and told it to fuck off and it did."

just... try it for a month or two. try saying the most absurdly self-congratulatory shit you can think of.

i know it's tempting to make suicide or self-harm jokes. and for me at least, a decade ago (!) when someone suggested i stop making those kinds of jokes, i was kind of at a loss for what to replace them with. i wanted to make light of these moments, but genuinely (at the time) my first thought really was suicidal ideation. there was a part of me that even felt like ... i was kind of "making light" of that voice. that if i could say i want to die lol, it would help take the sting out of that genuine (albeit passive) desire. like i could turn my illness into a joke.

when i started complimenting myself instead, it felt awkward and stupid. it felt really, really ironic. what i was actually saying was nobody would ever think this stuff about me, that's what makes it so fucking funny.

but. the effect was immediate. first thing i noticed was the people around me. when i dropped a glass and said ah my skin is too beautiful and sleek the glass has swooned and broken for me, other people were suddenly overjoyed to jump in with the joke. rather than making an awkward moment, we'd both start cracking up. ah princess sleek hands, i've heard of you.

i was 19. i hadn't noticed i'd been making others tense when i said i want it all to end. i know now that it's incredibly hard to know how to walk that moment - do you talk to them about your concern? do you potentially make them uncomfortable by asking if they're okay? do you ignore the situation? do you help them pick up the glass, or do they need to do it by themselves? are they genuinely made suicidal over this small moment? and most importantly, how do you - without professional training or supplies - actually help?

most people want to help you pick up the glass in your life, they just have no fucking idea how to do it. they don't want to make anything worse. they don't want to make assumptions about you. they love you, they're scared for you - and being scared makes people kind of freeze up. it's not because they don't love you. it's because they do.

now when something bad happens, my first thought is how can i make a stupid joke about this. it isn't my brain saying you're a dumb fucking bitch. i spend more time laughing. i spend more time being gentle with myself. i spend more time feeling good.

and the thing is - what's kind of funny - is that you'd be surprised by how many people agree with you. the first time i said i'm too pretty to understand that, someone else said to be fair you're the prettiest person in this room. i promise - you really don't know how kindly your friends see you. but they love you for a reason. they sort of reverse-velveteen-rabbit you. your weird and ugly spots fade away and you just become... the love they want to give you.

go love yourself ironically. the worst thing that happens is that you end up tricking your reflection into actually loving you.

#something something toxic relationships notwithstanding #(re: the friends stuff) #most people love you. automatically. for being alive. like people are just MADE that way. #and the reason kms jokes don't always land is bc people fucking love you and are like - ahhh how do i help #let them help you!!!!!!

[eevyerndracaneon]

There's a sort of exhaustion that comes from shit popping up despite me doing nothing to cause shit

#i dunno man im like. just living. #and just doing what makes me happy and inspired #shrugs! #honestly this shit tho....its causing the opposite desired outcome i think #cuz it just makes me wanna Stop Giving a SINGLE Fuck #instead of getting back to giving more shits abt things iykwim #ironic in a way. #irony and hypocrisy are the words of the week! #anyways. im gonna fixate harder on totk and some other stuff im excited for that i cant talk abt