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#i love depression loveee it love causing problems for myself that i later have to bother other people about bc i can’t solve them by myself
szczylpierdolony
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life is falling through my fingers more that usually
#i’ve been in a pretty much constant state of panic since january
#and it’s gotten worse recently bc of 1. thesis writing (or lack thereof)
#2. administrative problems at uni that i caused due to the constant state of anxiety and depression
#like whyyyy do things like going to the uni office send me spiraling like nothing else
#and i’ve been feeling weird and disconnected for a while now and nothing seems to interest me anymore
#like i’m light headed in the worst way and i think if one thing goes badly i’ll genuinely fall down crying
#and i can’t seem to do anything productive bc of the anxiety either
#ok i checked usos. the administrative problem got more or less solved
#oh thank god
#i love depression loveee it love causing problems for myself that i later have to bother other people about bc i can’t solve them by myself
#esp when you have to admit to them that mental illness is what caused them bc even when they’re sympathetic and nice about it i still feel
#like such a pathetic idiot my god
#also i’ve been thinking a lot abt how a pattern that repeats in my life is the lack of closure
#from silly things to more serious ones
#like how i didn’t attend my elementary school graduation nor the hs one
#the first one bc of travelling and the second bc of covid
#so i just closed my laptop and then went to pick up my diploma after matura results and that was it i never saw any of my teachers or
#thanked them etc
#and how all my friendships that died out were this kind of sudden drop like nothing happened but we just stopped talking one day and that
#was it and idk where we stand
#and how i seem to leave loose threads everywhere i go and i can’t tell if it’s just a coincidence or if i do that on purpose but
#unconciously so as to not have to deal with things ending bc that scares me
#i’ve never felt grounded in any moment and it’s so strange
#also yeah yeah weird behaviour meant to save me from abandonment whatever
#📓
#niedziela wieczór i humor popsuty co mogę powiedzieć
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