/hauls favourite artists out of the trashfire of twitter & instagram, sits them nice & neatly and categorised in my personal Discord, feels at peace with the world & super inspired to create
/goes to her writing club discord for 5 minutes ONLY TO GET SMASHED IN THE FACE BY RAGING SCREAMING TERMINALLY ONLINE PEOPLE who are saying you deserve to KYS because of inane semantics and/or apparently Nazi hand signs or whatever the fuck have you
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havel: o hey
havel: youre a diaper
harm: im a panty............................
havel: cool
harm: too influenced by ddlg shi
havel: i rly need to pee hold on
havel: yea u r
havel: brb
harm: nou
harm: tyt
havel: back
havel: i got pizza
havel: n put some in the oven
modernize: wb
havel: thanks hi
havel: hello o_o
Guest_duckydanky: yo
havel: yo
Guest_duckydanky: whats good
modernize: hi
havel: nm might watch mob psycho 100
havel: wbu
Guest_duckydanky: i just got home nd saw harm was in here
havel: u know her ?
Guest_duckydanky: ye
harm: watch mitey ducks
havel: mitey ducks ?
havel: .. the movie ?
harm: yh
Guest_duckydanky: yes
havel: ok
Guest_duckydanky: wassup harm
harm: laying
harm: music
harm: mite play gam e
Guest_duckydanky: dbd?
harm: man
harm: i met some1 RELY cool frm dbd server
harm: n we got on p well convo wise h added me
Guest_duckydanky: did u inv em in server
harm: but then i sed bf n he stopped tlkin 2 me
harm: no
harm: i knew tht shit wud happen
Guest_duckydanky: lmaooo
harm: so im traumatized frm game
harm: atm
harm: gna play bunnypark
Guest_duckydanky: he wanted the pssy
Guest_duckydanky: z
harm: he wuz so cool
Guest_duckydanky: but as soon as u said bf he dipped
harm: if i were som1 id wait 4 me to not have a bf
havel: lmao what
Guest_duckydanky: i mean his reaction makes sense
Guest_duckydanky: still kinda cringe
harm: yea i get it
Guest_duckydanky: im also annoyed when i speak to a hot girl nd they mention having a bf but like if they r cool ill still talk to them
harm: jus sucks bc i dont have any close friends since john left
harm: lik i have party friends
harm: i tlk to occasionally
harm: sum jackbox skribblio shit
havel: john?
harm: but i dont have substance friends
Guest_duckydanky: john was cool
harm: my bff for like 6 years
harm: well ex now we aint friends
havel: id hope that any1 thats crushing on u isnt just ur friend n waiting for u to be single
havel: that would be weird like
harm: if i were a person
havel: praying every night bad shit happens to ur relationship
harm: n i rely liked them
havel: praying on its downfall
harm: idk in this day i eel shit dont last
harm: feel*
harm: esp w all the emotionless egirls
harm: brekin guys hrt so easily
Guest_duckydanky: yeah i can vouch
Guest_duckydanky: z
harm: so id keep talkin to the person
harm: just inc ase
harm: but still build up a friendship
harm: n care bc they cool
havel: brb rq
harm: friendship is a good base regardless
Guest_duckydanky: i mean if u consider dating someone u met like 2 days ago is cringe anyway
Guest_duckydanky: they literally a stranger
harm: it aint ab tem considering dating
harm: its jus
harm: initial chemistry from first convo
harm: sometimes
harm: continuous convo tht can go for hrs
harm: tht how it wuz w us
havel: flirting online is so weird
havel: like irl dating isnt jumping into a relationship
havel: but its considered jumping into one online
Guest_duckydanky: i flirt w every girl i speak to
Guest_duckydanky: z
harm: ive never felt tht
Guest_duckydanky: except harm
havel: oh for sure except harm
harm: w all my online rships they were natural
harm: friendship ten date
harm: then*
Guest_duckydanky: harm is my truest online friend
harm: its the only way i go ab them too
Guest_duckydanky: realest homie in da hood
harm: i like bn tht close to someone first
harm: before i consider
harm: i ned tht trust n comfort n inside jokery etc
harm: rly knowing someone n them knowing me b4 u commit to sumn srs
harm: n i think bc of tht i dont regret any of my exes
harm: they wuz all gud
Guest_duckydanky: without john i doubt i would have got a pc
Guest_duckydanky: so i salute him
harm: yeah ur a dick 4 tht btw
havel: damn wtf
Guest_duckydanky: z
harm: i told u so long
harm: u get 1 dude u dont evn know
modernize: purr
harm: n he convinces u
havel: guys this is my mute
havel: they dont talk
Guest_duckydanky: yeah ur right
Guest_duckydanky: it wasnt cool for u
modernize: who’s ur mute
havel: u
Guest_duckydanky: but the outcome in the end is the same
modernize: im not mute
Guest_duckydanky: i have a pc so it allows me to play with games w u
Guest_duckydanky: sometimes
havel: ok mute
modernize: Im just gay
Guest_duckydanky: when i want to which is rare
Guest_duckydanky: but still
harm: think ab how i met ur mother
modernize: hazel
harm: they dated each other n wet thru sm sit thruout the years
harm: thts y i say keep the person u still like arnd
harm: anyth can happen when u get older
Guest_duckydanky: not when they block u
havel: ^
harm: nott dumb ewhores obviously
Guest_duckydanky: true
harm: im talking b ppl actully worth it .
Guest_duckydanky: especially not dumb e-whores
modernize: hi
harm: ppl lik me
harm: hi
modernize: im at work
modernize: teehee
harm: ok
havel: i had a dumb ewhore block me yday
harm: it hapens
Guest_duckydanky: it happened to me like uhh
modernize: that’s why u should be gay
Guest_duckydanky: a few weeks
harm: im used tto tht shit now it aint evn faze me anymore
havel: i called out the annoying shit she did n stopped talking to her
havel: n she threw a fit
havel: i dodged a bullet
Guest_duckydanky: honestly same
Guest_duckydanky: kinda
Guest_duckydanky: well thats p much what happened w me too
harm: its worse when they pretty they think they privileged n ull let em do w/e
havel: mhm
Guest_duckydanky: right my issue is random hoes calling me daddy when i met em like 2 days ago
Guest_duckydanky: z
Guest_duckydanky: right now*
Guest_duckydanky: so annoyin
harm: ew wtf
Guest_duckydanky: yeah i just ignore them
harm: idm daddy but not wen it comes 2 u
havel: duckydanky the daddy
harm: ur too autistic to b called dat
Guest_duckydanky: fr
harm: lik i jus cant c it
havel: daddydicky
Guest_duckydanky: when someone says daddy i imagine a fat hairy guy w beer belly
harm: wen it comes to hazel i cud c it
Guest_duckydanky: im none of that
harm: but u
havel: oh true
havel: beer belly
harm: plus the femboyism
harm: which ik shudnt influence
havel: lmao
harm: but i cant get over it wen ive known so long
Guest_duckydanky: im too feminine to b a daddy
harm: exactly
Guest_duckydanky: im twink
harm: xaclty
harm: u need a hefty dom woman
havel: yikes
harm: w gud music taste
Guest_AriesFire25: Hi
havel: ppl dont rly have good music taste . .
havel: hello
Guest_duckydanky: tbh
Guest_duckydanky: id rather educate someone clueless and then they progressively get gud taste
havel: theyre just into w.e shit they relate to like
Guest_AriesFire25: How is everyone doing?
Guest_duckydanky: than someone on par with me
Guest_duckydanky: music taste wise
havel: music taste is more ab someones identity
Guest_duckydanky: ye
Guest_duckydanky: if u have good music taste to me ur like more attractive
Guest_duckydanky: i dont mean necessarily ur looks but jst like
Guest_duckydanky: who u are is more appealing 2 me
harm: Guest_duckydanky: id rather educate someone clueless and then they progressively get gud taste
harm: mebe u do have daddy trait
havel: if they would even care
harm: 10%
Guest_duckydanky: yeah
Guest_duckydanky: if they close minded then they suck
Guest_duckydanky: but obvs id try showing the same interest in whatever thing theyre passionate about
harm: havel: ppl dont rly have good music taste . .
harm: disagree
Guest_duckydanky: but tbh i havent met many passionate people
harm: thrs 'objectivey' gud artists
havel: i have a fucking huge music library
Guest_duckydanky: what do you define has objectively good harm
harm: then u more likely to have good taste
harm: also
Guest_duckydanky: do u mean someone succesfull
harm: ppl who lisen 2 diff genre
Guest_AriesFire25: Sorry to but in but what kind of music do yall listen to?
harm: most of the time do too
Guest_duckydanky: i have a copypasta
Guest_duckydanky: of like 50 genres
harm: i dont lisen 2 music
havel: wb
Guest_duckydanky: harm
Guest_duckydanky: silence is also music
havel: lmao ok
Guest_duckydanky: we continuously listen to music
Guest_duckydanky: and sounds
modernize: ty
havel: were talking about tracks dude
havel: artists
havel: theres ambient noise artists and lofi hiphop beats to study to
havel: theres even ost background music
Guest_duckydanky: i dont mean that
havel: but nothing ?
harm: ducky is too artistic u will b here all day ab music hazel i widnt start lul
Guest_duckydanky: i mean literal silence
harm: hes too pretentious
Guest_duckydanky: silence doesnt exist
havel: nonono this is my topic
Guest_duckydanky: as in total silence, 0 sounds at all to be heard
harm: okgl
havel: music as in shit thats listed on spotify or some other music source
Guest_duckydanky: music is more than that
havel: smh
havel: do u have a last.fm
harm: iwillkm
Guest_duckydanky: ye
harm: s
havel: link it
Guest_duckydanky: https://www.last.fm/user/DuckyDanky
havel: https://www.last.fm/user/horcrux9000
havel: ive been on lastfm for way longer but i mean u do have a lot of artists
havel: scrobbled
havel: i still got like a grand more
Guest_duckydanky: i mean u made ur acc in 2013
Guest_duckydanky: so thats kinda to b expected
havel: u do listen to a lot
havel: i changed it to the last 180 days n its just 300 less artists
havel: ur shits mostly hyperpop..
Guest_duckydanky: right now im on a movie phase so ive been slacking off
Guest_duckydanky: my recent stuff is 96% hyperpop yeah
Guest_duckydanky: thats my current music phase
havel: me in 2020
harm: autism24
Guest_duckydanky: autism is cool though
harm: i madeitcool
Guest_duckydanky: do u use rateyourmusic havel
havel: no but i should :\
Guest_duckydanky: https://rateyourmusic.com/~DuckyDanky
Guest_duckydanky: feel free to check otu doe
Guest_duckydanky: out*
havel: i just listen to a lot of shit n find new music
Guest_duckydanky: me 2
harm: im in distress ab this guy
havel: youre obsessed w the smiths
Guest_duckydanky: i was
Guest_duckydanky: yes
harm: but wont lisen 2 morrisey
Guest_duckydanky: too macho for me
Guest_duckydanky: i prefer femboy morrissey
harm: mm
Guest_duckydanky: ill listn to morrissey whn
havel: i love david shawty
Guest_duckydanky: i get my jangle pop phase
Guest_duckydanky: david shawty so based
harm: mebe staying high for a week til im over it is the play but i hate removing days of my life by spending them numb now
harm: TREY888734
havel: its not the play
Guest_TREY888734: Yoo
harm: help me
harm: TREY888734
Guest_TREY888734: You cool
harm: its the play bc i have no friends to talk to and ion wna start therapy jus for tht bc i been fine otherwise
harm: i jus miss my bestfriend
Guest_duckydanky: huh
harm: n ducky ion evn feel comfortable mentionin this shit arnd u sumtime
harm: i fel lik u cud go tell john stuff
Guest_duckydanky: oh yeah sorry again about that
havel: what happened w john
Guest_duckydanky: and i dont speak to john
harm: ik u dont bc i told him to not talk to u
Guest_duckydanky: i mean idm u telling me or not
Guest_duckydanky: u do what u want
harm: im js it makes me evn more sad bc i have no 1 im close to tht i can trust
harm: was the point
Guest_duckydanky: i understand why u reluctant to talk about that stuff w me so
harm: not jus to diss u bc u betrayed me once
harm: yea
harm: i jus hope u understand why
Guest_duckydanky: ofc
Guest_duckydanky: its up to u if u wanna trust me or nah
havel: o_O
harm: it ainjt rely ab this guy but this guy made me think ab john n how i have no close friends now n how im prolly gna bcome codependent bc of it
harm: john long story short
harm: bff for 6 years, only familylike thing i eva had
harm: stopped bn fren bc i wudnt date him
harm: wen he tried to get w me wen i wuz into new bf
harm: current bf
harm: n now he wont speak to me
harm: bc it hurts him too much tht i wudnt give hima nother chance
harm: @hazel
havel: got it
havel: he was crushing
harm: we dated years ago but broke up n he wudnt take me bk, been friends ever since, this desperation to b w me wen new bf came
harm: wuz random n out character
harm: i cud c if thr was any sign
harm: thr wasnt
harm: its like he bcame crazy n mid life crisesy
Guest_duckydanky: ppl get more attracted to people who are harder to reach
Guest_duckydanky: thats y people seem to get hit on more when theyre dating someone
harm: nah, bc i dated ppl before zak
harm: i ju think he always thought
Guest_duckydanky: i know dat
harm: id break up w em
harm: but wen it came to zak he was like different and he prolly thought i cud possibly stay w him for good bc of it
harm: n got scared
harm: copeland is so good
Guest_duckydanky: cop
harm: they make me wna kill myself ina happy way bc sumn so beautiful yk
harm: u evr feel tht
Guest_duckydanky: no
havel: yeah tbh
havel: early escape the fate
havel: when i was like 15
harm: cute
Guest_duckydanky: the good thing out of our current friendship harm
harm: ?
Guest_duckydanky: is how i feel way less dependant to you, as in less clingy and less idk moody and affected by what u say
harm: ya u dont like me anymore
harm: its jus genuine fren meow
havel: bet
Guest_duckydanky: yes
harm: <3
harm: ik thts wt u needed
harm: the break wuz good
Guest_duckydanky: yes
Guest_duckydanky: tbh yeah
Guest_duckydanky: it helped balance things out
Guest_duckydanky: and restore order
Guest_duckydanky: in my mind
Guest_duckydanky: i had come to the conclusion that angels belong in heaven so there would be no purpose in trying to reach one
Guest_duckydanky: xd
harm: thts kina sad
havel: o_o thats the most simp thing ive ever read
harm: LOL
harm: no its
harm: ik me saying this sounds biased or wtvr
Guest_duckydanky: its the opposite
harm: but i rly am a hq person
harm: n i get why
havel: hq?
harm: high qality person i dont jus mean female
havel: o_o
harm: like good friend as a base n likeable quality
harm: quality*
Guest_duckydanky: realistically speaking ur also jst too old for me
Guest_duckydanky: xd
havel: ur ego is massive harmony
harm: this sounds like slutty but ion mean it tht way
Guest_duckydanky: i mean
Guest_duckydanky: i may be biased or wtvr
Guest_duckydanky: but she kinda is
Guest_duckydanky: xd
Guest_duckydanky: shes like one of the 3 online people ive known for more than a year
harm: i rely wish i cud clone myself so i can date all my friends bc ik id b the best for them n ion trust women w them
Guest_duckydanky: nd still speak to
harm: n ion mean it in a way i like my friends romantically
harm: i mean it ina protect / wanting best for them
harm: way
Guest_duckydanky: see
Guest_duckydanky: actual angel
Guest_duckydanky: fuck
harm: mebe i will go to therapy
harm: jus annoying
Guest_duckydanky: i wanted to say instead of praying virgin mary imma pray to virgin harm
Guest_duckydanky: but it dsnt work anymore
Guest_duckydanky: z
havel: this is so weird to read
havel: u rly have a harem of guys harm
harm: ik how it sounds hazel lmao rly but u aint know me thts y
harm: i dont
harm: ducky is my only close friend
harm: well person id consider
havel: u got like 11 e-simps huh
harm: closest thing to friend
harm: 2day
harm: closest thing toa close friend8
harm: *
Guest_duckydanky: im not a simp bro
havel: ducky do u give this girl money
Guest_duckydanky: z
havel: ohgod
harm: i make my own money
harm: i dont need money evr
Guest_duckydanky: she bought me nitro once
Guest_duckydanky: and wanted to buy me something for my bday but she stopped talking 4 a bit before it
Guest_duckydanky: z
harm: 2 yrd ago lol
Guest_duckydanky: yes
Guest_duckydanky: we*
havel: stopped talking for a bit before it
havel: smh
harm: like we fell out
harm: completely
havel: nice timing
harm: ya it wuz guna b so cool too
Guest_duckydanky: for real my biggest worry wasnt harm it was not getting any gifts : (
Guest_duckydanky: jk
harm: i wuz gna hide thigh highs in japanese candy shit for him
harm: bc his rents dint kno ab the femboy shi
harm: also ruined surprise now but u aint femboy anymore apparently
harm: so ig i wont ever geta chance 2 do it !
Guest_duckydanky: hope isnt lost
Guest_duckydanky: its just temporary
harm: phase?
Guest_duckydanky: yeah
Guest_duckydanky: i just dont feel comfortable calling myself a femboy w the way i look rn
harm: u 2 swag
Guest_duckydanky: and i dont mean it in a bad way like im ugly
harm: ur in eboy phase
Guest_duckydanky: just femboy label doesnt seem right
Guest_duckydanky: yeah
harm: ya u jus v masculine rn
Guest_duckydanky: yeah i got a virgin beard growing
harm: woa
Guest_duckydanky: i gave up shaving
Guest_duckydanky: and it gives me a cool look so idc
Guest_duckydanky: i look 22
Guest_duckydanky: ill shave only if i see i grow a neckbeard
harm: brb
Guest_duckydanky: but thats unlikely
harm: ya u do lok older
harm: not ina 40 way
Guest_duckydanky: yeah i look old cool
Guest_duckydanky: ive never been id'ed
harm: opposite 4 me
harm: @id
harm: happens all the time
Guest_duckydanky: tru
Guest_duckydanky: when we 1st met i thot u looked my age
Guest_duckydanky: so thats valid
Guest_duckydanky: i feel less rtarded knowing it happens all the time doe
harm: ya
harm: beginning of year i went to races n dude thougt i wuz 16
Guest_duckydanky: do u view it as a good thing
Guest_duckydanky: that ppl think ur young
Guest_duckydanky: i think thts kinda flattering
harm: i used 2 feel no way ab it only wen annopying things happen lik went on vacay w fam n got talked to by employee ab bn on casino floor or sumn
harm: which happens but i used to have bad anxiety tlkin to ppl irl
harm: s i hated it
Guest_duckydanky: u like it now?
harm: after my x cheated on me w minor i think it traumatized me a bit n i feel beneficial frm it in an odd lame way
harm: jus shit i gta get over but keep w me ig
harm: beneficial frm lokin yunger*
harm: not bn cheatd on
Guest_duckydanky: what
Guest_duckydanky: who cheated on u
Guest_duckydanky: i nvr heard abt that
harm: wuz named cameron u dont kno him
harm: irrelevant rely
Guest_duckydanky: oh
Guest_duckydanky: nvm
Guest_duckydanky: u told me about it
harm: ya
Guest_duckydanky: u were 22 he ws 27
Guest_duckydanky: right
harm: ya
harm: wait
harm: no 23
harm: /28
harm: she wuz 15 iirc
Guest_duckydanky: thats kinda gross
Guest_duckydanky: xd
harm: xd
harm: shit jus made me paranoid bc i knew him since i wuz 15 n it wuz lik wooooaaa did u only lik me wen we 1st met bc of tht or bc of age acully
Guest_duckydanky: so cuz of it i guess u see comfort in looking younger
harm: like 20% bc of tht yea but i realize how irrational n lame it is
harm: jus nvr got ovr it ig
Guest_duckydanky: where did u guys meet
Guest_duckydanky: myspace?
harm: vu lool
Guest_duckydanky: so u were 15 in like 2007 right
harm: idk wuz i
Guest_duckydanky: i just did quick maths
harm: duno
Guest_duckydanky: well lets say yes
Guest_duckydanky: dam thats a while ago
Guest_duckydanky: i was
Guest_duckydanky: 3
Guest_duckydanky: z
havel: feels kinda nicer in here now
harm: ya dis rm beter new rm trash
harm: no offenze
havel: this rooms old asf
harm: ya but it best
havel: this rooms probably 5 years old now
Guest_duckydanky: looks ghetto
Guest_duckydanky: is tht the carnifex logo
Guest_duckydanky: z
havel: yeah
Guest_duckydanky: ded
harm: looks eboy but ina acceptable way bc creative
Guest_duckydanky: id like to make my own imvu room
Guest_duckydanky: but poor
harm: uh hello
Guest_duckydanky: oh tru ur my imvu sugar mom
havel: harm buy out my wishlist
havel: eventho i havent shopped in like a year
Guest_duckydanky: dont i need vip to make a room
havel: i think so ?
harm: 2 much clicking but i will try 2 get a lot til im tried
havel: ok =)
havel: how many credits do u have anyway
harm: did u private wl
harm: msgs
havel: huh?
havel: ... u can do that?
havel: what
harm: it sed i aint permitted 2 buy prod on like 5 now
havel: weird
harm: so i figured u took it off
harm: nah its bc
harm: creator disabled
harm: most likely
havel: oh theyre from disabled creators yeah
harm: or quit vip or sumn
havel: yeah
havel: banned maybe
havel: i need to clean out my wl
havel: i havent in idek how long
havel: so many years
Guest_duckydanky: clean ur room too
havel: my rooms fine
Guest_duckydanky: no theres trash
havel: :0 really? where?
Guest_duckydanky: no wonder u got an eviction notice
Guest_duckydanky: L
Guest_duckydanky: if i was a landlord id b mad too
havel: this room used to be called trash pit
havel: should make it that again tbh
harm: i dont feel good
Guest_duckydanky: trash spit
havel: nice 1
Guest_duckydanky: vry clever
Guest_duckydanky: wassup harm
harm: meow
harm: Guest_duckydanky: no wonder u got an eviction notice
harm: yall know fridgebro
harm: story
harm: aint as bad as tht
havel: fridgebro?
harm: https://imgur.com/thZa3VL
harm: brb
havel: this is autistic
Guest_duckydanky: prolly mentally ill
Guest_duckydanky: for sur
havel: hello
AstralMiscreant: Hey all
Guest_Dinossaur: https://discord.gg/vmGj7ZXy
Guest_Dinossaur: https://discord.gg/vmGj7ZXy
harm: hi
Guest_duckydanky: yo
Guest_duckydanky: i jst ate
harm: im bk but guna watch yt ill check chat here n thr
harm: me2
harm: n watch ratatouille
Guest_duckydanky: imma shower
Guest_duckydanky: but i dont wanna
Guest_duckydanky: im lazy
harm: iwillstay stink
havel: i shower everyday
havel: but i need to do laundry but im lazy
Guest_duckydanky: i shower evry 2 days
harm: i dont shwer
Guest_duckydanky: when the last time u showered
harm: shrug
Guest_duckydanky: do u have grime
Guest_duckydanky: on ur skin
Guest_duckydanky: today i just learned something weird
Guest_duckydanky: in da old day japanese women has black teeth
Guest_duckydanky: looks so cursed
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: hey
havel: ive seen that little floating grim reaper pet a lot
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: i've had it for a while, so i wouldn't be surprised
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: how you guys doing?
havel: im just kinda bored watching twitch
havel: when i should be doing chores n working out
havel: todays my day off so im just being lazy
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: i can't relate watching twitch, since i do twith xD
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: i can relate to the lazy tho
havel: youre a streamer??
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: ye
havel: whats your stream
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: a small one, but a streamer non the less xD
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: artsykokoro
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: i mostly do art and then stream games when i feel like playing something on a stream day
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: currently on a break, since i have too much going on irl atm
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: have a big comeback planned tho, so i just hope it goes to plan... unlike my last depbut ^^'
havel: oh cool youre a vtuber
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: ye
havel: nicee
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: fingers crossed that i can start streaming again at the start of november.
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: but all depends how soon the irl stuff calms down.
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: i quite like this room
havel: thankss
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: and i just realised you're the room owner xD
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: god i'm blind sometimes
havel: yeah i made this forever ago
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: noice
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: this room might be my new go-to
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: the last one got deleted
Guest_duckydanky: im bck
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: welcome back
Guest_duckydanky: whts good
Guest_duckydanky: oh u a streamer
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: ye
Guest_duckydanky: r u famous
Guest_duckydanky: gimme a shoutout
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: and currently nothing's good really ^^'
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: i'm not that big. only a little over 300 followers
Guest_duckydanky: how many viewers u gget on average
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: depends on what i stream. since i'm a variety streamer, it can be anywhere between 1-3 to 5-10
Guest_duckydanky: u do art?
Guest_duckydanky: like wat
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: i do digital art. mostly humans, but trying to get better at animals and landscapes.
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: why don't you come sit
Guest_duckydanky: no way
Guest_duckydanky: u should draw me im like vry handsome nd cool
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: i mean that sanrio shirt is cool xD
Guest_duckydanky: im hotter irl
Guest_duckydanky: i mean
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: hmm... dunno, can't judge. don't know what you look like
Guest_duckydanky: literally my pfp
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: i haven't looked at your profile yet. hold on
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: sent you a friend request on dc
Guest_RainbowCupcake2000: i mean tbh. you are good looking, but i don't draw people for free. you can commission me tho, but my commissions are closed atm.
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i will ask about it
tell me your thoughts of vita sexualis, even if you shared them to discord already lmao
I ALREADY SHARED GHEM ON FHE SERVER hsjdjfjfjfjfjf
ok lemme just copy paste my goodreads review here instead:: (the whole thing got long so I’m adding a “keep reading)
before starting this book (or any of mori's writing), i had little to no knowledge about him.
having read bungou stray dogs and enjoying seeing how asagiri desinged his characters based on the books they wrote, this book was one i was certainly looking forward to. more or less i had a guess by the end i'd either be weirded out or be confused (about asagiri's intention/interpretation)
and now that i'm finished, i can certainly say: What the hell was Kafka Asagiri thinking?..
same goes for any website that advertizes this book as erotic because this is the furthest from that genre, trust me.
anyways, i don't come across examples of talking about sex, desire and so on (or the lack of the said desire, low sex drive et cetera) in the media so that was an interesting read in that sense. yet just like Wild Geese, the story from the start to finish feels static, the few exceptions it doesn't, you forget by the time you reach the end and you're left with a "So that's it?" when you close the book.
also I said this in the server as well but while reading it I was reminded of this convo I had w a classmate who wants kids. What she said that day was like abt dressing them up and playing w them etc etc so I asked her if she wanted a kid or a tiny human to dress up (like a doll) and play with. So considering (apparently) Vita Sexualis is like a partial autobiography of Mori (Just like most of Dazai’s works) this whole dressing up logic, Vita Sexualis as a book and the existence of Elise makes more sense to me? In a way, kind of like how you seek company when alone at home so you turn the tv on or get a pet. (bc fr what we saw of mori and elise through others eyes that we also considered red flags were the dress up scenes- Mori going shopping to get elise dresses or begging her to try a dress. and considering he doesnt let many people around himself due to his position -and as a person- he must be more or less desperate to have someone around him without any hidden agenda)
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hi babe ! its snowing so much here today i’ve been cold all day :( but i got some chai latte and made snow angels so i’m feeling a bit better,.. <3
i wish there was a way to trade objects or send them away!! ik it would spiral into hacking, scamming and would probably defeat the purpose of the game by making it much easier but still :( it would be nice to help out friends with some objects.. :(
actually the most annoying thing about mobile is the camera. it sometimes glitches especially during battle and i find myself stuck facing a mountain bc the camera. so i see why people might complain. also sadly NO :( i wish!! i have an old laptop i thought of using but idk if it can handle it. i think i wanna try it out though. do you use a laptop or pc?
that’s true. i wish we could like... unable easy mode and just chill LMAO hsjshdhdk. but combat does get more fun the more you progress, i’ve started to really enjoy it. now i get why you started to like dragonspine.... i think.... i’m still iffy about that place... 🤔 fuck the cold.
dude. they’re sooo good. i love how they just.. angrily reassure each other constantly. kageyama’s just ARGH *literally smacks sense into hinata’s head* and hinata’s just EEE *takes the compliments and spikes like a mf*
i actually didn’t know much about voltron when i first started watching. i only knew about shiro because an acquaintance had posted about his gay announcement but i never checked it out. i actually got into it in a funny way... i was on yt one day and i saw a video titled ‘are keith and lance gay?’ and i was like who the fuck are keith and lance? then because i’m such a gay person myself i decided to check it out and i saw keith and was like... wow that’s a cute boy... then i saw their dynamic and said WOAH. and well... i just started watching and got hooked and i thought everything was neat and fun so i watched up until season 3 without engaging in any fan activities so i had no idea what people were saying...,, then i did and i was greeted with the shit storm. and the rest is history. but i can imagine it must’ve been so fun... the excitement of not knowing where the story will go and getting new content and being in the fandom while it was alive despite everything.... ahhh how did you find out about the show?
dude YEAH!!! do you feel like university affects the way you handle your fandoms? we talked a bit about hobbies and stuff but what about fandoms?
(MAKES A SECOND REROLL ACCOUNT JUST FOR THIS.... 🥺 omgggg imagine how cute that would be wait omg i’m actually like ahhhh.. we could go on dates at liyue... or watch the sunset at cape oath.... or have picnics at any mountain top... 😳 YEAH PLS that would be so nice... help is anyway nice to have and you’re such a op now you’d just murder the villains in a second... 😳 oo. although i checked earlier and my server is in america for some reason? i really hope they do the cross-server thing life would be SO good. i’d ask you on a date in a heartbeat. 😳 which characters would we use on this co-op date?)
KOSMO!!! BEST PART OF VOLTRON???? kosmo... come back to us please.. please. ok maybe second best part after keith in the bom suit..... god keith in purple just sits so right <3333 sooo right <3333 I VOTE FOR KEITH BECAUSE HE’S HALF-GALRA SO I GUESS THAT MAKES HIM THE FUTURE *LOVE-SICK SMILE* yeah... hahaha fucking fools. ‘rewrite where lance was looking for keith to confess to him bc they were going back to space’ CRIESSSSSSSSSSSS... CLUNAAAA... 🥺👉🏽👈🏽 hi.. 🥺 now i’m just gonna think about this all night and clutch my heart. thank you for that. btw how would you feel about a voltron movie ?
(i love how our topics just jump from genshin to voltron to genshin to voltron again lmao)
lots of kisses from your m.a. <3333
(okay this ended up being very long bc i combined your second ask too and talked a lot so i hope it’s okay i put it under a read more fkdsjhfks)
omg snow!!! is it all pretty and fluffy 🥺🥺 also ‘chai latte’ and ‘snow angels’ in the same sentence when you said you were cold made me fhfksfjs but i’m happy you’re feeling better! muwah 🥰
yeah same!! i said that to my brother when i first started playing i was like ‘i wish you could trade characters’ and he just gave me a deadpan look and was like.. why would they allow that FHDSFKHD sigh but it would be fun!
ah yikes no! sometimes the camera fucks up even on pc so I can’t imagine what it’s like on mobile in the pivotal moments fhdkfjsd. and i use a laptop! i don’t have a pc ahaha. ahhh i hope you somehow manage to find a laptop/pc to try it out thoo
AHAHAH come on m.a. give dragonspine another shot 🤪🤪 but yeah the challenge is fun sometimes! tho i tried to do a domain like 3 times today and kept failing so... it’s also not fun. (i also tried to find some vids about how to build my characters and got overwhelemd fkhsdfks i feel like i’m going about it all in the wrong way ahhhhhhhhhhhh)
FSHDFKJSDHFKSDHJF THAT DESCRIPTION OF KAGEHINA YES 💯💯💯💯 the accuracy omg.. they’re such chaotic idiots i love them!!!!
!!! what a story that is ahah omg it’s like fate... icb you got that vid recommended to you lolol iconic... and i found out about it from my dash!! someone reblogged a screenshot and i was like “legend of korra?” FHSKFJHSKF so basically i thought it was a korra comic or something bc the art style was so similar fhskdfjd. and then i went searching and gave it a shot! and fell down the rabbit hole..
ooo wdym by handle my fandoms? i do know that last year when uni got overwhelming i locked my twitter and made a priv to vent and just. didn’t really go on social media if that’s what you meant FHSKJSDHKF but yeahhhhhhh uni fkn sucks. sucks out all the motivation i have for anything... i type so many words for lectures that i don’t have the energy to write fic :// FJKDSHKSDHFKSHF don’t meant to get so negative but yeahh lol. hbu?
(all those options got my heart going doki doki 😩 who needs real life dating when you can date in the gorgeous atmosphere that is genshin? AHAH. and oh? america??? maybe they just did that as default hm. as for which characters.... i don’t know that we have any that make up the popular ships fhdskjfj (xingqiu/chongyun, zhongli/childe, beidou/ningguang).. tho i see xiao/aether and xiao/venti on the rise so when the time comes ... AHAH you can be the venti to my xiao <3 LOL)
!!!!!!!!! okay i’ll list that down as the fic idea.. but no promises once again sdjfhksdf but i’m also very 👀👀👀 at the concept so! will def keep it in the back burner.
hm. i honestly don’t know if i would even pay any attention to it hfksdhfjds like voltron left such a sour taste in my mouth i don’t even know that i could consume any canon content ever again. but it’ll also depend on what the plot would be? lol. would you be okay with it?
(lmaooo we be balancing many convos at once look at us 🤪)
ALSO!!! i’m watching spirited away rn and omg. i love haku sm. i love no face too!!! (at least in the beginning when he (?????) was helping sen <33) all the characters are really good as well tho and ofc the art and music!! i really wanna draw something for it now...... and it makes me very excited to watch howl’s moving castle!!
‘I saw the person my younger self had been enraptured by. I saw someone who took my breath away. And when I blinked, I saw the present you. A soul which, slowly but surely, I’d started to fall in love with.’
UMMMMMMMM CLUNA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! explain yourself right now.........., what is this goddamn beauty you hide ? why is that so beautiful..,,, i take it the last klance fic is a multiverse fic???? literally everything good in one????? i saw hints of royal au as well? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 you do us so good i literally love you sm just reading those small snippets just Ahhhhhh..... i love them they sound amazing i just wanna exist in them yk... 😭😭😭😭😭😭
FHDSKJFHDSFKJ IF YOU THINK THAT IS GOOD JUST WAIT UNTIL YOU READ THE LAST SECTION!!!!!!!!! but at the same time i’m surprised by myself too... me @ past me you ain’t bad! shdfkds I legit have no recollection or writing the snippet you sent but i’m glad you like it 😩😩 and thank you for being so kind always ilysm too 😭❣💓💖💫💞💘❣💖
oh and to answer your question (oops almost forgot) yes it’s a multiverse fic!! that’s why i thought it’d be good for the last one ehehe. just shoved in everything i loved and made klance in love in them!!
hope you’re treating yourself!! loveeeeeee your c.r. <3
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I want to be all diary like rn
so like I could just make a note of whatever I’m bout to say but I want it like live forever and i know literally no one on this damn site cares about what i have to say so here I am lol..
I’ve been in this weird pit of overwhelming emotions accompanied by the incapability of processing them for the past few years. It took me so much time to even realize I had such a problem with allowing myself to be a regular fuckin human and initially when I first started seeing the signs of how mentally unhealthily I was living I didn’t know what the fuck to do and abruptly cut off pretty much everything and everyone I loved. I became a fucking hermit. I kept telling myself I was doing it for the better, that I cut everything off and am gonna take my time to heal and grow as a person and when I feel better i will try to rekindle with everything and whatever doesn’t work, just wasn’t meant to be. Which is a mentally unhealthy thing to do in the first place and potentially not only harmed myself but those around me but life’s a fuckin cycle of realizing shit so,,,
Anyways I went through some hella hard times filled with anxiety and depression, literally every day was either full of tears and feeling every emotion at once or was empty and ghost like. But I pushed through it. I learned a lot about my self and how my mind works. I grew as a person and still am. I’m not sharpest in a lot of ways but i know I just want to be a kind and accepting person, not that I wasn’t all those years ago, it’s just that back then I couldn’t present myself as such as I didn’t even have the fucking motivation to live. I mean I like to think I was kind in others eyes but I also fucking hate thinking about what others might think me so again,,, lol. I just know now that I’m trying to be a better person, and I’m trying to learn more and do more this year than I have in the past four years.
I’m writing this now because I’m in a really good state of mind. This month alone I’ve had conversations I never thought I would with people that are so close to me yet knew so little about. That sounds so cryptic lmao. Basically i spoke with my closest family members about struggles mentally and the past and how emotionally traumatizing it was for them and in turn I allowed myself to open up about the exact same thing. A specific convo was with my mom, a woman who has been through hell and back. She told me about past abuse, most of which I was there to witness and we have talked about before, but this time it was different because we spoke as equals. I’m gonna be honest I didn’t open up as much as I could have but it felt like I finally walked over a hill I was dreading for so long. I used to just be a good fake and slap a smile on in difficult time probably not fooling anyone. It’s always been a problem opening up to my family and friends but send me a stranger and I’ll talk their ear off.. well sorta, so like in high school i saw a grief counselor who i guess was technically my therapist but she was a total stranger and the second she asked what I even need to see her for, I broke down. I swear she said like two sentences but I rashly explained all the shit i was dealing with in between fits of tears. At the second meeting I felt like she knew my whole life but somehow I still had more to say?? I literally don’t know how I was so comfortable sharing all that with a stranger so fast like I get it’s her profession and I would’ve opened up eventually and that it could’ve clicked in the back of my mind like ‘why waste time just tell her everything now!’ But idk I think if I were to talk with a stranger that is willing to listen, I would legit do the same thing.. idk.
Anyways, opening up in the slightest bit feels like a major accomplishment. And the fact that i could with my mom who, god bless her, did so much that was seemingly unhealthy and careless to others but meant the world to me, felt amazing. There’s that thing about high school being the time of your life and living it up- a pre show of college which I wasn’t really expecting to be true in the first place but what I didn’t expect was to be emotionally unstable dealing with anxiety, depression, self hatred and grief. So when all this shit hit me like a truck, I was left feeling numb not wanting to do anything with little to no interest in any previous hobbies and likings. I grew up feeling said things^ but didn’t realize until hs how worse it got over time. In the midst of all of that I didn’t know what to do and was having frequent anxiety attacks and even though I couldn’t explain it at all, my mom had a sort of understanding and allowed me to stay home like every damn day. Like I said wasn’t the greatest thing to do but it helped in its own way. In the first years of hs my relationship with my mom was rocky but towards the end she screwed her head on and became more mama bird then ever. We bonded and it felt much better, almost like we rekindled after a long time. Which is kinda true.
Another thing I realized in the past four years was how normalized death was to me growing up. Like by the time I was eight I went through at least six funerals which to my Catholic Mexican/Filipino family meant six mortuary family reunions, six forty day prayers full of greeting mama and papas, being one of the only children to not be playing in the backyard but rather doing the rosary with the adults and what my fam called the ‘Filipino golden girls’ singing walk with thee. Not to mention the other annual prayers with said golden girls where we had a Jesus of Nazareth statue that traveled from the Philippines for a whole week and just prayed for mercy and the souls of our dearly deceased. Like this was the norm for me.. but ALL of that did not prepare me for the deaths of two of the most important people to me. I mean I guess it did because after one of the passings, after a ton of tears and goodbyes in a hospital room, I got in the car and on the way home and immediately thought about where the nice tablecloth was and the saint statues and how to move the table we used as an alter at the previous prayers. So yeah I was prepared but not for the emotions.
Back to why I’m writing this now, i just feel happy??? Idk why this past week was a rollercoaster but overall I felt happy,,,, idk. Imma elaborate..(holy shit I said I could talk the ear off a stranger and look at me spilling hella shit about me rn to the three strangers who’ll see this and scroll right past lmao.) So hmmm, there was a party hosted at my house recently and I was hella excited, I felt like I looked great and was ready to party but as all other times when there’s a gathering of any sort at my house, this weird overwhlelming feeling pops up and fucks everything up. It’s basically a fucking anxiety attack but soooo much weirder than the ones I dealt with in school. I mean they’re both basically the same but these ones felt worse. Because not being able to leave my room for school full of kids I barely knew and not being able to leave my room for a patio full of family and friends that I’m mostly close too should not result in the same form of anxiety. Idk tho it’s all in my sick brain!! but yeah that shit sucked I stayed in my room the whole night, hungry and sober which were two of the things I was absolutely not supposed to be!! There were tacos, &(oops) my fave tequila, good music and fun things planned but that didn’t stop my sick brain from telling me nO. And another thing in this glorious month is —Father’s Day. liSTEN I’m hella damaged nd am not trying to get into ALL of this but to keep it short, my dad who wasn’t in my life until I was one and only very briefly until I was thirteen which also turned out to be very briefly until I was eighteen which you guessed, was also very briefly, just isn’t a good dad. i have a half sibling who I feel so bad for because her parents are literal idiots that just shouldn’t have had kids because they can barely take care of themselves. But the very brief moment when I was eighteen was because of said halfsibling that I was worried for but as of now that family is it’s own and I’m nowhere near it nor do I want to be. But really I wasn’t struggling with my own dad issues this time around but rather my grandpa. It’s just that i know Father’s Day is hard for him because he lost my grandma who gave him his babygirl, my momma. And I didn’t push any emotional induced conversation at all. But as we ate dinner the conversation was about how well he used to get paid as a server waaaay back when and that he’d have stacks in his pocket lmao we were like yeh okay as a waiter all right,, and he sorta slipped up and said, “No really! Ask Mama!” And I’m pretty sure only me and my brother in law heard because he moved on really quickly and there were side convos happening but like a wave of emotions came over me. I teared up the second I heard him say her name because it just reminded me more about how hard this day must be for him. And my throat is swelling up jus typing about it rn so I’m not gonna get eVEN more into it.
But yeah overall June has been okay. I have felt okay. And after months of not going on here I just thought “why not type about this?? This content feelin is all I crave and have been longing for and whenever I get it, in even the slightest, it should be appreciated and remembered.”
Whoop so like what’s some good things that happened in the last few months. Hmmm
Well I’m just finally acting, in the tiniest way ever, as an adult. I didn’t take grip of my life yet but like I took A STEP!!
I’ve got new things I like and am more open than ever to new things.
I’ve got hobbies!! I’m growing mint and wanna start and herb garden. I’m reading and learning a new language that I’ll probably never use but I’m learning it for fun and not for a grade or something and am taking my time with it. And a new language brings so much more!! More people, music, shows and writing!! I mean I’m at a hella basic level but all of those things are helping me.
I’ve thought about reigniting old flames lmao that sounds like getting intouch with old lovers but no. I mean creatively. In the past three years I barely even thought about drawing and in the past few months I found myself thinking about things I could draw up and cool ways to mix medias. I actually looked for my sketchbook and was gonna test it out but I saw some of my old work and got nostalgic and was almost putting myself in my shoes from that year and like that didn’t sit well so I haven’t tried. bUT at least I’m thinking about it again. I really think imma start again soon and just the thought of that makes me happy!!
I took up writing and the result is exactly what I thought,,, I suck at writing lmao but I tried and it was fun and it led me to find some writers online that made me cry over some fictional characters. some were fan fiction and??? A writer no less.. which really doesn’t need to be explained more especially on this site lol
I’m getting healthier. Not that I was suuuuper bad before but it was good either. I did have some horrible eating and sleep habits. I swear I was addicted to food like I ate to fill a void in me idk but l changed that shit real quick. And as for sleep,, well it’s still shit. Considering I started typing this at nearly six am nowhere near tired. Lately I’ve been falling asleep around 6:30am which indeed results in my waking up at noon or past it even but it’ll surely go back to the usual 2:30 to 10:30am schedule. Not too bad...
I’m dressing up again! I don’t go anywhere but catch me looking cute in a fit at home or 7-11. lol I used to be hella into getting dolled up for school and used to play around with hair cuts and colors and different makeup but then suddenly it was like mAYbe I’ll do my eyebrows today and rather than choosing good outfits I would wake up and change from my actual pjs to my outside pjs, loungewear, if you will.
Idk man i just am okay right now and that’s enough to keep me going. I haven’t had a really low point for a few months now and like I said I don’t get this content feeling very often so I’m just really soaking it all up. It’s good, I’m good.. 2018 is fucking flying and I didn’t think I’d get into new things this year but I did and I’m exited for more!!
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