#i will not lay down and accept

[sword-faerie]

to stop fighting is to surrender

#and i won't do that #i will not lay down and accept #i will take matters into my own hands

[medicalunprofessional]

never change, man !

#phantom of the paradise #potp #swan potp #nightmaretheater #65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp #Look into my beautiful mind boy #Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw #but i had to push a specific look for this piece #hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look #Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan #I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistal…. it lead him to be Like That #as awful as he is he desperately needed help #it might seem like vanity on the surface #but i think its… more than that #long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry #It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again #i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems #he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away #anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him* #i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal #sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick #i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad #*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha #sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please #adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse #to remind himself what he ‘’’’really’’’’ looks like #the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this #sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol

[tubbytarchia]

My Vocaloid phase was half a decade ago but h.... fish Pearl... Deep Sea Girl Pearl..... GemPearl... hh

#blabber #“the deep sea still wont allow her the courage to bare her heart” #“My smile is so unsightly twisted. I couldnt possibly face anyone like this” #“ 'See now. You too were hiding a wonderful color' ” #and the bit in the lyrics that was like “I saw the light - who was the liar giving off that light?” and then #“You reached out to me but I turned away and lied” HHHHH #once the blame can no longer lay with the other person she shifts the blame to herself instead #and to me I love to imagine in SL that she grows somewhat of a grudge towards Gem after how easily she's accepted back with open arms #after doing what previously got Pearl ostracized. But then they start talking and get on really easily and she's like “oh” #(There was no fault that you ever bore) #does this make sense Im going insane #“You were so graceful as you effortlessly swam down” RRRR Im still listening to this over and over again going more insane #tubby art

[aphverse-confessions]

i hate how zanechan invalidates the ro'bros arc from s1. ik its a really minor complaint but it's always bugged me.

like, the whole point of the robros trilogy was zane learning that he isn't obligated to make his parental figures happy at the expense of himself and zianna finally realizing that she's been pressuring her kids to live the life that she thinks is best, and resolving that, as long as they're happy and safe, she's supportive of their life choices (mostly in regards to zane since it's the fake zanemau arc and he's the furthest from her idea of gaining a big social crowd and settling down with a cute girl willing to pop out seven grandkids for zianna to spoil).

and then zanechan happens and zianna gets the perfect daughter-in-law. kc has a big social group that zane is forcefully integrated into by virtue of dating her. kc and zianna share a lot of interests (romance, baking, sewing, zane, etc.) and mannerisms. kc's a meif'wa from a big family so she's more likely to give zianna all seven hypothetical grandkids. etc.

it's not necessarily bad that kc and zianna are so similar, but it does make zianna ultimately right in the end and makes the whole arc feel kinda pointless. it retroactively turns zane finally standing up for himself into a stubborn refusal of the single solution to all of his problems. and i don't like that it feels weird and icky.

ik jesson probably forgot about the ro'bros arc by s5 but still...

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#aphmau #aphblr #aphverse #aphmau confessions #aphmau mystreet #mystreet #that's an interesting perspective on it #but I do have to disagree #I don't think Zane dating KC retroactively ruins the arc with his mother #because in the end he started dating KC on his own terms without imput from his mother #and to me the arc was about Zane telling his mother to accept his life and choices #and to not push him into things #and maybe I'm a little biased because it is a similar situation to my life #but laying the law down as 'you don't get to make that decision for me' and then coming to that decision on your own #does not mean the conversation wasn't important #if that makes sense #at least that's how I see it #Zane didn't want that relationship then #but people change and maybe he wants it now #the important factor is whether or not he made the choice #not if his mother would approve

[guckies]

Just watching your cubitos build and they don’t use the terrain to their advantage

#especially before they lay down the actual plot of the build #but like guys please just terraform a little bit please 0_o #qsmp #its like everyone on qsmp that does this #the only acceptable person that does it is foolish because he actually knows what he’s building & has already done the landscaping in a day #but tubbo fr just has a flat plot over water #roier is like the opposite he has a flat plot on some hills and doesn’t terraform the land to make paths to the build 😞 #he does terraform paths a little but its so rare #and then jaiden just dug out a hill without a plan for a house which made me so stressed #don’t even get me on bbh sometimes 0_o #i think baghera terraforms nicely but i haven’t seen all her builds yet apart from the castle with is very nice rn

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

[pericky; a look into ricky's head during their meeting.]

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"I'm glad you came, I wasn't sure you would." The wine pours, the sound of it drowning out the missing word in that sentence: back.

Of course, is the response, and the part of Ricky that's spent twenty years tearing itself apart to understand why vibrates with relief. It doesn't matter anymore. Of course, of course, he thinks giddily along with the words. He never needed to wonder why Pericles wasn't coming back in the first place; he was always going to.

I'm happy you invited me, and of course he thinks again. A lifetime of pretending he wasn't always going to either falls away. However harsh and lonely the world has been, all's right with it again; and the shy voice of the boy inside him that he's tried so hard to kill says, so quietly, I missed you.

#sdmi #scooby doo: mystery incorporated #pericky #ricky owens #professor pericles #anyway fucking end me actually. lay me down to die #i said i was gonna write more pericky and by fucking god i did #the 'why did you do this to me' to 'oh thank god you didn't actually do this to me' pipeline of abuse folks 🥲 #which like. their last conversation is yet another devastating example of ricky finally standing up to pericles' bullshit Too Late #ricky denounces him in the strongest terms he knows; based on his own feelings and opinions and the way he sees the world #(which: even then he can't bring himself to say 'i don't love you anymore') #(the closest he can get is 'i chose you and i can't take it back; the only way i can imagine not loving you is if i never had at all') #and pericles tries to go 'nyeh nyeh whatever i don't care' (and does a real bad job of pretending he is not obviously hurt lmao) #and ricky doesn't try to understand his logic; he doesn't try to reconcile a world where pericles didn't *really* mean to do anything wrong #his response is MAYBE YOU *SHOULD* CARE. #pericles' view of the world and what's right and acceptable are warped and *wrong* and he's the one who needs to get his shit together #'you shouldn't have abused me you shouldn't have killed cassidy you shouldn't have murdered a child in cold blood' #that is MASSIVE and i think it is really telling that pericles' response is to shut him down with force instead of trying to argue any more #and that in the end is the real true fucking tragedy of it all #ricky is making huge strides one after the other to take back his freedom from pericles emotionally #....and materially it makes no difference to improve his situation in the moment; because pericles doesn't have any less power to abuse him #he never has a triumphant moment where he Overcomes His Abuser and Breaks Out of His Control #there's nothing he can do to fight back until pericles is too Literally Dead to control him anymore #it is one of the rawest depictions of the reality of abuse i've ever seen and just. God. i love it so much #(at the same time i REALLY want to explore a version of events where he got the chance to expand further on that growth) #(the 'all witches are selfish; make all things yours; i have a duty' speech from the wee free men comes to mind) #whosebaby makes things #whosebaby writes #SDMItag #dyn: when i die i want you to die too

[reitziluz]

just read the newest chapter of one piece and i'm having a moment because "the first one to be called pirate" made think like huh. that puts some... emphasis on the word. and oda does do kind of hyper-literal worldplay sometimes. and pirates in one piece don't really function like irl pirates. is... is there something going on?

so.

i knew kaizoku is "sea robber"

i just learned zoku is also rebel/insurgent.

like. of course. of course. of course that's what that is.

the first revolutionary on the seas

goddamn

#laying down #of course #this is hitting me almost as bad as the reveal that luffy's dream isn't to become the pirate king #and realizing he has always said he will become pirate king not that it's his dream #i wasn't going to put in a spoiler tag before but after those tags maybe i should #one piece spoilers #like not really but just in case #this is infinitely more acceptable than the grand reveal that magic girls grow to be magic women

[illuminatedferret]

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#im just kinda mentally on the floor now #am i really gonna have to increase the chapter count #and the best part is! i still cant post ch 4 anytime soon! #because i have NO IDEA what's going on with the pacing right now #which is why i am. probably gonna have to bump the chapter count. #-lays back down on the floor- whyyyyyy #i really should just stop complaining and accept it's gonna happen #im at a good ending point rn anyway.... but i was really determined :( #illuspeaks #ghost marriage au

[bijoumikhawal]

Then I had a turning point: an encounter woth a rabbi named Paula Reimers who came to speak at Wesleyan. She claimed it was forbidden to imagine God as a mother, because the mother-God would love and forgive us too much. We would have no morality, and we would all become pagans. I knew from my reading that goddesses around the world had severe as well as nurturing attributes. I knew it was wrong to claim that a female God couldn't make laws. I knew it was wrong to say God couldn't appear as a woman. And I knew her dismissive words about religious traditions that revered goddesses were simplistic and bigoted. I was especially angry when [she] waxed eloquent about her personal experience of having God as a male lover. Why couldn't I have God/dess as a female lover?

The Hebrew Priestess pg 5

#cipher talk #Kohenet Judaism #I read a paper recently that argued Asherah at a certain point in the literature wasn't being worshipped as a seperate goddess #But as G-d- just female. It was interesting #Especially because a Prophet predicted the groups destruction which failed to come to pass which is pretty unusual in condemnations #They also made him mad by moving to Egypt #Another thing about this passage is as a person with an abusive mother #It is an egregious example of benevolent sexism to assume all mothers are purely nurturing and can't lay down rules #Because if you can't accept even that then how can you discuss abuse?

[darkmagicmirror]

I could write an essay (literally) on why I think dark magic being inherently evil would be boring and uncreative and how I think that coming to a conclusion of "dark magic should never be done, ever, and should cease to happen" would be a huge waste of an opportunity to expand on the themes of healing from history by adjusting misunderstandings and moving forward with forgiveness and the openness to learn that things taught from a young age are not necessarily correct -- but do I really have the spoons for that?

#the answer is no #also I'm entirely drained of energy and burnt out and have had the most stressful few weeks- #so this post may be worded horribly for the point I'd like to make #but I literally can't tell and don't have the mental energy to try to think about all the ways my words could be misconstrued #I just have SO many thoughts on why acceptance of some level of dark magic feels like it is the right move #based on how things in the rest of the show are #and it's interesting that 'you can get so corrupted you look less human' is considered a bad thing #when the majority of the cast isn't human ??? #but right now I just want to lay in a dark room and do absolutely nothing so I can't really elaborate #my posts #pls canon don't let me down we have two seasons left to see #dark magic

[snackugaki]

tmnt au hanfu edition

#did I give my April the jzhong flame shades? yes #did I give my Venus the celestial corner fairy wing shades? absolutely yes #when they visit they bring each other a luggage's worth of gifts #April still has to chase Venus down to accept her lai see if she vists during new year #she ends up hiding it inside her luggage and texts her where it is once she lands #tmnt au #April and Leo are both still a little upset they're both on the low end of the height chart #Chilli level baby hairs

[sirbasil]

Spending time together on tired days

#i dont actually really like the other 2 #but i felt obligated to post them #cuz i just finished with the one i put on the spotlight #and yeah the other ones r a few days old #anyways maybe you guys will like them either way #whispangle #whisper the wolf #tangle the lemur #idw sonic #i think theyd like reading stories together #borrowed all of jewels books #and i think tangle would have a big comic collection #they need a break #just lay down sometime or sit somewhere #without caring about anything else and relax for a bit #yeah #i'm sometimes nervous to show ship art to ppl cuz like what if they think uts cringe #but this is tumblr so no complaints are accepted #fanart tag

[scp2337]

best thing about Fallout 4 is that, thanks to that classic bethesda polish, the cows in game are big and beautiful and dumb just like real cows but also sometimes they accidentally teleport onto a roof and immediately accept that they just live there now

now THATS realistic gaming

#i had to remove an entire section of fence in one of my settlements #because the brahmin kept accidentally teleporting on top of it while trying to get to the feed trough #THEN i went to another settlement right after that and the brahmin was clipped into the fucking building #like not even one of the houses it was clipped into a structure on the land that isnt accessible/doesnt have an inside #just chillin w its head sticking out of the wall lookin like a mounted head #all because i place the feeding trough the wrong direction (i didnt realize only one side of is intractable for them) #AND THEN AFTER I MOVED THE FEEDING TROUGH SOMEWHERE ELSE ON THE PROPERTY #went back over to the tower/building thing and homie wasnt there anymore so i was like 'ok cool moving it got him unstuck #and then i looked up. #mans was on the fucking roof. straight up vibing in the idle laying down pose #not a care in the fucking world. no classic confused turning back and forth in place because of broken pathfinding #dude got teleported and immediately accepted his new status of 'That Bitch Up On The Roof' #two heads and not a single brain cell between them #now THATS the kind of realism i want in my games

[chalcanthitedreams]

I like Rook I likehim I like him Ilike him

#Copper Convos #you are alright mon ami 🌹 #I think he invites Sirens to rock concerts with him #And Siren always accepts #Even though concerts are kinda overwhelming for him #He just loves making Rook happy and Rook is always willing to give him space afterwards #Grabs him some otc pain meds and just lets him lay down to destress

[papervo1d]

predicting what ajah egwene, elayne and nynaeve will pick as someone only a quarter-ish of a way through dragon reborn (just got to the chapter where they're healing mat):

nynaeve: the obvious choice for her is yellow, but i wouldn't be surprised if in some twist she picks green instead

egwene: instinct is saying blue, because she's ambitious as hell and highly dedicated, i wouldn't be surprised if she picked blue and her cause that she's dedicated to is something to do with helping rand with his dragon duties

elayne: i'm thinking blue or green simply by ruling out every other option. i'm not entirely sure which. i doubt she'd be red, yellow doesn't seem to suit her like it would nynaeve, i dont think she'd be grey and commit herself to politics, and white and brown seem to remain in the tower which i don't see elayne doing. so either blue or green

#wheel of time #the dragon reborn #i suppose i'll read and find out!! #only started wondering because i just read the part where siuan tells them they're going to do their accepted tests #so i understand that they might be a little way away from aes sedai :) #still!! laying my guesses down now

[doublekanble]

Hi. Read your fic WHAT THE FUC- (/POS ITS SO GOOD??) BRUH I WENT INTO IT BEING LIKE "oh I'm just curious as to what this'll be, I'm sure it's just like some short self indulgent thing" THEN GOT STABBED LIKE TWELVE TIMES OVER. INSTANT FOLLOW. OH MY GOD.

its actually IS self indulgent! just in the opposite direction! i want him to kiss me so badly but i also want him to hate me until its all he knows its a bit of trouble really

#im going with this not because i want to. but because i want to survive even if its horrible- #but i will also be complaining the whole way through. #alastor did one wrong thing that he thought would've been ok but turns out that of all thing is the- #invisible line he could never cross so oops he's hated forever and ever now nothing to do about that #/kbtalk #TYSM WAHHH WORDS LIKE THIS ARE THE REASON I WRITE SO MUCH #MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!!!! TY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 #and since whenever someone send me an ask like this i just start diving into my thoughts on al and shit- #i have great trouble processing my own worth and the fact other people think of me still makes me go ?? #also a general sense of #like very obviously morally corrupt protag but not to the point of murder on their own accord #my favorite thing ever is also #thats why al never get his happy ending fully its always him biting #im very firm on my take of al already its just dif flavor of him #if i want to kiss him i wouldve just kiss him but what about the fun part where he agonized over the idea of loving something so much- #he can die for it but also refusing to lay his ego down for it #to love is to be vulnerable and frail and weak and to accept the unknowing. alastor hates all of the above. in this essay i will-