#if u wanna see me go off then (:

[hungharrington]

something about teasing steve in public to the point where he's just flustered and so whiny and can barely keep a conversation... aaah

MMMM ANON U ARE SPEAKING MY LANGUAGE 

it won’t even be your fault in the beginning, he’s just a little more keyed up than usual - a steamy dream of your lips stretched around his cock that felt a little too real, had him squirming in his sleep— and worse is, he slept later than usual because of it so he hadn’t even been able to get out of his system before heading to work :( so yeah, his hormones might be flowing a little easier today but steve is fine! he’s fairly confident that the boring lull of his solo shift is precisely the boner killer he needs. 

except, of course, you decide to visit him— because you’re so nice to your boyfriend! and somehow, it’s like you manage to look actually mouth-watering today, like steve does a double take when the chime of the door goes off, head looking up twice and it’s like a visceral reaction, a pulse of heat that runs through his body. steve out right groans a little bit, covers his face with his hands for a moment and then runs them through his hair. you’re frowning a bit because what kind of welcome is that? and steve’s like “no no! not like that!” but fuck, wait those shorts you’re wearing are quite short— showing off your thighs sinfully and steve actually can’t control how he eyes you up and down unashamedly, tongue darting out to wet his lips — you clock the horny in him in a second

“my my, what’s got you in a such a mood today?” you ask, an elbow meeting the front counter as you lean on it, but you might as well be purring the words to steve- the way you just read him in an instant does not help all of the morning’s unforgotten feelings from crawling back into his body— steve groans aloud again when he feels his dick twitch in interest in his pants. 

“don’t,” he warns, jabbing a finger in your direction as his other hand as subtlety as he can readjusts his pants, “i was already nearly late to work because of you!” that makes you frown a bit in confusion, moving to round the counter to properly greet him since it’s so quiet in store- you plunk down a bag containing some lunch of him that you’d brought with you. steve arms are waiting and twine around your waist as your sling over his shoulders and round his neck, a sweet embrace with his back to the door. you smirk up at him just a bit, “late because of me? and how did i manage that all the way from my own home?” 

steve glances at the front door, dutiful in checking there’s no one coming, but even so his voice drops a bit quieter when he says, “you… i had a dream about you.” his face manages to get a little warmer, given away by the colour in his cheeks, and if you weren’t clued in before you definitely are now. steve’s funny about dreams, even though you assure him you’re quite flattered he searches for you even in his subconscious— but he always admits them a bit shyly, like you might react badly.

“a dream?” you echo, slithering your hands from around his neck down his chest purposefully — and steve shivers at the motion. before he gets a moment to tell you knock it off, you’re speaking first, hands travelling to trace over his tummy, “what sorta dream?” you ask, even though you know. steve glares at you because he knows it too. he glances out the front window again and speaks in a hushed voice when he turns back, “y’know,” he says, face somehow growing redder. “like a… a sexy dream,” 

and that makes you laugh a little bit, because how can he be so good at dirty talk in bed and still call it ‘a sexy dream’ like a 13 year old? you’ll never know. all you do know is that you’ve decided mischief is what you’re after today, hands slipping under his polo to scratch lightly along his v line — and it’s enough to make steve’s breath stutter. “what are you—?” he asks, his hands around your waist beginning to move, like he might seize your torturous hands. “what happened in the dream?” you ask instead, cutting him off. you pair your question with a hand that runs down his front, not at all subtle with the way you brush against his cock. it shoots a thrill through you to feel he’s already half hard in his pants- your hand ends up atop his thigh, fingers rubbing the sensitive inner part of it as you ask him again, before he can catch up, “what got you so worked up, stevie?” steve’s eyes scrunch closed, whether from the memory of the dream or your inching higher hand— the other stays on his tummy, thumbing light circles on his happy trail. 

“you-“ he starts, cutting himself off with another little shiver. one hand leaves your waist like he’s going to grab your own but you’re already trailing further up, beginning just lightly palming him through his jeans - and his hand just hovers instead, clenching into a fist. his gaze has moved to watch your hand work him intently “fuck, wait,” he says, breath a little heavier than before. “you— you were,” he’s scarlet in the face by this point, words getting a little weaker. you properly rub him, curling your fingers around what you can feel and giving it a good squeeze and steve audibly swears, some pathetic noise escaping his throat before he can stop it. 

“you gotta stop,” he manages to exhale through a jagged breath, even though his hands stay exactly as they are, flexing through his pent up hormones. “it’s— someone could…” he trails off breathily as you dip your thumb beneath his waist line as you give another delicious rub along his cock, enough that another strangled pitiful noise comes from steve’s mouth, along with a whisper of your name. you can’t tell if it’s lucky for him or not that nobody has come into the store in the time you’ve been toying with him. you pout exaggeratingly, “but you didn’t even tell me what happened in the dream?” 

you choose that exact moment to retract your hands, pulling back just a bit and standing on your tiptoes to press a kiss to his scorching cheek. steve’s blinking, confused by the whiplash of suddenly having so much touch turn to none but you’re already rounding the corner— “you’ll have to tell me later, i guess! enjoy lunch, baby” and he’s like stammering, turning in time as you approach the door and barely get out his own goodbye before you’re gone, the bell chiming as you go. steve huffs, taking one glance at his pants and resigning himself to spending the next hour pressed against the counter and not moving at all. “little minx,” he curses, tugging his collar away from his neck to try cool off even just a bit. he swears that is the longest shift he’s ever worked - but can’t even be too mad about what you did, considering you were well & truly waiting for him when he came home, ready to bring his dream to life 

#MMMMM #anon u and me got the same thoughts #i just wanna sit in the back of the theatre and see if he can keep quiet while i jerk him off <3 #get him all riled up so he can come get revenge later <3 #steve either actually has to flip the closed sign and go finish himself in the bathroom #or is the Most pent up you've seen in awhile and literally cums from you grinding on his lap #<3 i love whiney steve #steve harrington #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington smut #steve smut #jay writes

[socksandbuttons]

anyway i am going to convince you all

KC brought eclipse back

#WHY??? because itd be the plot twist clickbait they would pull #BUT ALSO... just humor me #every ruin fan: NOO HES DEADDD #YEAH EVERYONES DIED AT LEAST ONCE AND BROUGHT BACK NOW #WHOS TO SAY KC WASNT BROUGHT BACK SOMEHOW #BLOODMOON COULDVE MISSED A PIECE! #CREATOR COULDVE BEEN INVOLVED WITH THAT. #KC RAN OFF (AGAIN) BUT THIS TIME JUST MAD AND DECIDES TO PULL SOME OF THE WEIRDEST DISTRACTION #BRING HIS SON BACK. but dont tell him that hes got a fragile ego who cant handle the implications #u get ur evil kc but also eclipse but also bloodmoon no ones the same as they were except SUN #(im just throwing it out there really i have the bean au with eclipses return and kc and bloodmoon and- yeah) #we cant hgave ANOTHER au but i wanna throw this in the ring see what happen #would they go for that #WOULD THEY?? WE'RE GETTING SOLAR FLARE ASSUMINGLY BACK

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

#crazy that the mindset some people on here have is that theyre the only ones allowed to post their opinions #ive repeated this a lot on this blog but i rlly think people forget that the person on the other side of the screen is in fact a person #if ur harassing people and publicly making fun of them then ur just as bad as any real life bully #that shit isnt as funny or harmless as u like to pretend it is #not once have i ever targetted anyone or went on someones blog to harass them over my opinion #yet people think its fine to do the same to me and treat it as if its like. revenge or something #like ? me saying 'i dont like toxic yaoi' is not equivalent to someone going on someone elses page and going 'how tf do u like toxic yaoi' #I DONT CARE !! all ive ever done is sit in my own little bubble and had opinions and that makes people mad #honestly though the people who will publicly talk and post abt it are significantly meaner #and i want to act like im not bothered by it because i know most of them r just angry that someone has a different opinion #and they want all their followers to bandwagon off of them (idk why maybe for validation or whatever-same reasons anyone would bully) #but seriously if u actually do think that something i said was out of line and crossed thise boundaries- just fucking tell me ? #im a person bro. ur solution to disagreeing with me shouldnt be 'lol im gonna post abt this and make everyone harass them' #have a conversation with me dude i dont bite ? if u cant talk to me like a person then just dont fucking say anything wtf #its so cowardly to be like 'well no i didnt wanna say anything to u cuz i didnt wanna be rude.. so instead i publicly made fun of u!' #LIKE WHATTTT STOPPPPP </3333 #ok anyway this post wasnt supposed to get THAT serious. #MY POINT IS just be considerate of other people and dont base ur hatred off of assumptions #ur deflecting the blame onto someone else because u dont want to admit that ur just a fucking bully lol #being inconsiderate on here is something ive also been guilty of back when i first joined the fandom and was clueless #but grown ass adults who have been on here way longer r still doing that shit which is crazy #and i cant say anything because they have so much leverage over me and idk if its on purpose or if they dont even realize #ok im putting fandom tags cuz i want people to see this sorry. this is my one post thats actually targetted but its at a lot of people #so if u look at this and think 'hey i do that' pls evaluate urself<3 #i mean its also targetted at everyone who does this anonomously so i dont know who it is OKOK IM DONE BYE SORRY HOPE THIS IS UNDERSTANDABLE #watch nobody read this fr #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #meows post

[unovaslankiite]

Prolly gonna be my one and only rwde post (cus the fanbase is rancid and I'm not rlly a rwby fan, just a person who watches the show): some of you rwby fans are too comfortable using your queerness as a shield to silence BIPOC voices about the racist writing and your 'precious' bigoted CRWBY. You guys unironically act/think that just because you have to deal with queerphobia; you are IMMUNE to being bigoted yourself and you are INCAPABLE of parroting bigoted beliefs. Cus I know there will be a dumbass ant1-rwde posters who will try to drown out this post by saying its 'lies from the EVIL RWDE!!!': You would rather weaponize your queerness to bash on BIPOC voices, while claiming to care about our voices. You would rather be complicit with the racist writers and their racist writing, just because your racist writers gave you a queer ship. There is no shame nor issue in projecting the abused you suffered onto the characters, however you refuse to see through the characters and their writing through a BIPOC lens. You do not get the right to impose your perspective of the characters at the expense of BIPOC voices, you do not get to twist our voices to be alt-right bigots because we called out RWBY's rampant racism. You do not get the right to say you give a shit about BIPOC and have #BLM in your bio when you fervently defend your bigoted company. You do not get to pretend to care about racism when you buy merch off of your bigoted company. My fellow BIPOC (especially the queer BIPOC): why are you guys so comfortable dismissing your fellow poc about their discomfort with RWBY's racist writing? BIPOC are not a monolith with the same opinions about racism in media; but some of you guys are weirdly comfortable with turning a blind eye to your fellow BIPOC getting dogpiled by the white fandom. We can and will disagree, you not agreeing as a BIPOC about RWBY's racist writing is not what I take issue with. The issue lies within you upholding the racial colourblindness in the fandom; like how the fandom was ok with throwing the racism under the bus in favour of queerness, you are ok with throwing your BIPOC peers under the bus for white queerness. Sincerely, a POC who has been watching the fandoms rampant racism problem ever since 2019.

#rwde #bitches be like: 'yeah we know that rwby handled racism bad :)))' #then get fucking furious when you say 'adam taurus being retconned from a minority rights fighter to an abusive ex was kinda bad' #go watch unicornofwar's white fang video and think about it holy shit. listen to the white guy if u dont wanna listen to poc #white fans get furious when you say that rwby has a racism problem TO THIS DAY #you dare mention how the 'villains' are all poc with visible ethnic traits/darker skin tones #while our heroes are white as fucking paper with zero ethnic traits #they would scream to the heavens that ruby and yang are chinese #despite being very much modelled off of white women/afabs #while also be giddy about whitewashing james to fit their evil facist dictator narrative #despite james being modelled off of an ACTUAL asian man unlike ruby and yang #and is one of the few characters who have visible ethnic features unlike ruby and yang #fandom racism goes unchecked over here and i have never felt so unsafe in a fandom #at the end of the day: ig white ppl will always prioritize themselves at the expense of bipoc #'omg we're ur allies #i totally understand how it feels like to be discriminated against 🥺' #<- not even a week later you borderline gaslight a poc rightfully saying its fucking weird to be making animal jokes about blake #at this point? call me a slur #dont pretend you give a shit about me as a poc #dont even fucking bother being my friend as a white queer if ur just gonna spout the same shit i see online #rwby fans you guys are one of the most racist fandoms out there #btw if you guys are gonna come at me with racism and harassment #you will be blocked <3 #especially if u are as slavic as the vikings #do not bother lecturing a poc about how ur racist anime isn't that racist

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[marblerose-rue]

completed my sophomore year of college :-) (and now im gonna sleep for the next 2374039475347 years)

#meandering #HI GUYS SO SORRY FOR GOING SUPER AWOL longtime followers will know this is usual for me HAHA #first semester where i end things off with all a's :-) safe to say changing my major to art was the right choice #(what was it before?) bio HAHAHA im not super cut out for it which is unfortunate given my love for biology but thats okay #i hope u are all doing well!!! hopefully i can get back to drawing as usual #things have been very busy as of late but now that im on break i will Not be as busy which is cool #i am currently drawing spottedleaf as a request from a friend just to get back into the swing of things so keep an eye out for that #and for the folks who read my tags if yall wanna make a request for me to draw a warrior cat u may do so ^_^ i wont answer them but i will #hopefully see them and get to them and i'll just use them as practice to get back into the swing of things #but i will not change my requests are closed thing HAHA but thats ok bc if u read these tags u know u can do so

[bunnihearted]

🐰🌧️

#so on my way home.. #i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :) #you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :) #you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!! #you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u! #whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️ #god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it. #or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!! #not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭 #my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

[pigeonliker420]

whatevers wrong with this man i like it

#i didnt expect to like touchstarved from what id seen from its fandom but when i finally tried the demo i was pleasantly surprised #i looked at the meta first cos i do things backwards and. man. what a good reminder that the most vocal fans also are the most stupid #girl you are misinterpreting The Text so badly that what you consider the subtext is suspicious #i felt bad for the leaps i was making from a single prologue but i see you people are jumping straight off the cliff with nothing so nvm #anyway leander do you want to fuck all your friends. do you want to fuck all your friends that hate you leander #i fear them making a green character associated with flowers snakes ouroboros masks and 8s was specifically an attack against me. #if only i hadn't found this like a year before official release. got dam #i could and would go on but the nurse has arrived with my sedative #its actually genuinely hard to pick a favourite they all have aspects i really like so far #at first kuras' subdued personality kind of washed off me but then his ending to the prologue was v fun and put him in a different light #wtf a vn with characters that are all hits for me. unfair #i love that u can ask them all about each other at the end there. love how its modelling its characters social fumbles #in particular given everything the promo material says about leander and vere and how they talk about each other #u can get a picture of a very fumbled situation there lmaooo between leanders savior complex and veres inability to set down real boundarie #butttt you know them all for less than a day... i wanna know what happened there

[deus-ex-mona]

yurusanta: the ✨gift✨ that keeps on ✨giving✨

#thank you cn lxl twt for your hard work #cn lxl twt: the only place with consistent high quality aiyuu fanart and the funniest of observations known to mankind #my birdsite dash is p much just ‘omg aiyuu necklaces’，[king yaoi (all 3 of them) lore]，[random fandom discourse]，’omg aiyuu necklace’ rn #that qrt i saw of the initial observation post with just the yurusanta lyrics made me laugh ngl #can’t believe we’re still getting samishigariya references in 2k24 though #maybe we’ll get to see them flirt in last stage??? i swear i’ll write an entire novel-length aiyuu fic if they become canon in last stage mv #yeah yeah tempting fate ikik they won’t become canon so easily anyway lmao <-has no faith in loserxloser #lxl is truly the only couple who could get married twice (nonfan and meoto) and still not be canon. smh. #at this point im just waiting for last stage mv so that i will finally have the motivation to update my kissmark tier list lmfao #i haven’t looked at it since the julieta album covers… hmmmmmm. maybe next week or the week after then #oh welllllll. time to go back to scrolling through king yaoi twts ig #i should really continue to read the o r v novel. why is yjh the og king yaoi when his ‘companion’ is the one who keyboard warriored for him #but mannnnnn. i also really wanna watch the final ll live dvd that came in a few days back… #so many things to do; so little time~~~~~~~~ #well. that sure went off-topic real quick. u m.

[averlym]

Can you do prompt 34 for araleyn?

no.34, gen: "you look happy" //sometimes i think too much about dlyh

#hello here is yet another thing you probably don't remember asking #thank you for the request nonetheless! #woke up w brainrot already going. hm #(hypothetical) you ever think about araleyn as such a Thing in the context of the musical #like. idk vague references in here to context vibes include #the animosity between the two throughout 'he doesn't wanna bang u somebody hang u' and the constant mockery of aragon throughout dlyh #and like. ig since halfway through anne wins over catherine. this would be where the excerpt comes in of 'you look happy' #but also there's the. is anne really happy? no one knows! i like the theory that was floating around that she's actually much smarter than #how she portrays herself in six the musical and the ditzy chaotic version is a front #you can kinda see the more true version in the 'guys i think he's actually going to chop my head off!!' #the panic the desperation the nerves!!! the laughing hysterical breakdown i associate w her for some reason #anyways. feel free to disagree with me on character interpretation ig (but please be nice i am not good w criticism and not crying) #in this one aragon is more concrete i think. because of all the previous posts i've settled on a sort of defined face for her? #anne has always been one of the most amorphous queens to draw for me and in here i am not quite satisfied w her face but idt i can do better #the fun part is that the sketchiness kinda adds to the unraveled look i think. some sort of poetic fitting there #taggity tag tag tag #six the musical #six the musical fanart #anne boleyn #catherine of aragon #araleyn #or if you are. accustomed like me to the other spelling however incorrect #aralyn

[merevide]

hiiiii i have returned from the depths of the underworld (self imposed hiatus) (3 week break that felt like 3 years)

#posting this then going 2 bed so i actually have incentive to start posting again i’ve been meaning to for like. two days now LOL #i’ve just been genuinely stressed LMAO but i started reading a new book n getting into new media so things mightttt be okay. #u know its been a wild time if smth convinced me to take a break from tumblr for like a month #n it was lmao. first it was the fatigue then it was the health issues which the fatigue stemmed from #then it was doing work n then it was literally nobody cares am i alive yes am i doing well sure(?) #am i gonna be active WE'LL SEE #genuinely missed my mutuals which is why i was bad at this i still checked in from time 2 time just did not post #im like 5 days off of this being an actual month long break but i was like waittt lemme post smth before #the month ends i dont wanna skip february so yeah #tldr most chronically online person ever thinks that like 3 weeks away from her blog is like 3 years. iam right #my text #🍅🍅🍅 this was a long rant boooooo get off the stage #i probs sound like a hectic mess bc i am anyway goodnight happy bhm happy valentines happy february hope it has been kind

[tomboyyyaoi]

i cant describe it but people just putting meryl and milly in the background of vashwood instead of just putting them front and centre in their own piece genuinely feels like im being cucked like why did u even bother

like damn maybe id like the ship more if people didnt just go "theyr so cute and soft and married aahhh so so gentle and femme and girly theyr so cyute" then the only time they draw them is like. idfk them walking in on vash and wolfwood fucking eachothers brains out like god. all talk.

#i think its the only reason i dont like the pairing like. i like them theyr cute but. idk for me theyr not romantic #and its like. really annoying when people just say they ship them but its just lip service bc they rlly wanna pretend they care #but the truth is is that ive seen maybe 3 people put milly/meryl front and centre in their own dedicated art #and it was good #ppl just dont know what to do w them #not that i do either but hey at least i dont claim to ship them #listen im not tryin 2 dictate or anything #but fr it annoys me sm when people pretend to ship them to either go 'see? i do care about women!!! (lie)' or to get them 'out of the way' #DONT SAY U SHIP THEM IF U DONTTTT FUCK STOP PRETENDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #id rather u just leave them out of it like genuinely its such an insult to their characters like god #even nightow doesnt shove them to the back this much and they werent present for like 30 chapters at one point #BECAUSE HE KNEW IT WOULD BE MORE IMPACTFUL TO BRING THEM BACK IN SOME BIG REVEAL AND GIVE THEM SOMETHING TO DO #bc he respected his characters enough to not have them just bumble about in the background doing fuckall while he figured them out #so they were temporarily removed from the plot and them coming back and being Ready 2 Fucken Go was powerful it was so cool #please just respect these girls ffs stop having them be the Background Cardboard Cutout Dykes #so so so so so so annoying 2 me as a meryl and milly lover #rbs off i dont wanna start discourse #also ive talked abt this before

[cerealmonster15]

Stupid silly sketchbook doodles of beloved basketball club shhdfbfbgby it’s so important 2 me that they act like annoying brothers to each other and also that everyone in nrc acts like they’d rather be shot than develop a crush on one of their bitch classmates

#cereal tries to draw #twisted wonderland #ummmmm. i don’t wanna tag anymore I’m embarrased LOL I wasn’t gonna post it #I was just doodling for private funsies but like yknow how Ywannatalk about ideas with people #even just goofy little headcanons lol #but like u don’t wanna directly place ur thoughts and feelings in front of someone sometimes #bc then it’s DIRECT and STRESSFUL A #but u also don’t feel like it’s worth a Post For All To See #we r keeping it casual here on cerealmonster15 dot tumblr dot com #I just wanna bully my sons #ok literally tho can u read my handwriting. this is the natural state #of on paper and normal not written with intent for others to need to see lol #anyway I think of Ace liked deuce he’d be soooooo complainy about it. and in denial #but I think once he wasn’t in denial he’d be bitching constantly #and I think Jamil would also want to die if he started liking azul lol #Floyd would bully them both. he’s having a great time. god for him I guess #Ace: well hang on let me pause my agony to go baby bro mode and annoy Jamil real quick #get the heat off him (which he started by complaining loudly first) #Floyd: haha you two like dweebs #can u imagine the turmoil of third years developing feelings #they r all allergic. except rook I guess but he’s his own flavor of freak #lilia is dad he doesn’t count he already had his romance agony [REDACTED BOOK 7 SPOILERS] #first years also allergic EXCEPT applejuice. Epel and deuce together are like bro I love u. #second years are mostly allergic but also contain Kalim and silver #shoutout to the light magic users mwah #actually silver I don’t know. I don’t think he’d be resistant but I think he just wouldn’t realize what he’s feeling at first #he’d be so 🧍 about it I think #well bitch you (me) better figure it out since ur actively writing Kalim/silver!!! girl help #ok I need to go to bed I have a long weekend ahead of me #Jamil blows Ace up with his mind the end

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ari.......... will u mutual bingo meeeee?

NIKU ……. say less >:3 here is your bingo hehe pls have a seat n sip on some coffee ☕️ made it extra bitter so **** won’t come and steal it from u….

#i’m patting you on the head every single time i see you on the dash hehe . i see emu and i go pat pat :3 #also chomping your head off but VERY lovingly .. #WE SHARE SOOO MANY INTERESTS IT’S CRAZY…… it’s so fun to see you on my dash bc you’re just jumping from fandom 2 fandom #AND I LOVE THEM ALL #i feel like. we r both shoving fandoms in each others faces ….. me w tokyo mew mew n you w idolish7 #luring each other in w the promise of mahou shoujos / pretty megane boys LMAOO #AND. you harass me w twt links :(((((( I CANT LIVE IN PEACE (ty for the food <3) #i also lovelove hearing your fic thoughts!!! n forcing you to listen to my own rambles!!!!!!! #AND. the sib vibes…. you give off older sib vibes but like . the chill older sibling !!! #the one i’d go to when i’m eepy and wanna binge a new anime :3 #and then your writing…….. hhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i’ve alr said it but . your gojo is truly one of my favorite gojos Of All Time and i love your writing style sm i could live in it 😔 #IM STARING SO HARD AT YOUR COMFY GOJO DRABBLE its at the top of my tbr.. sniffle…. #ily lots niku <3333 i’m always so excited when i get to talk 2 u !!!! super happy to have u as a moot :33 #ask tag ✩ #niku !! ✩

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#holy fuck. knock on wood. fingers crossed. press my thumbs. i think the pain is cycling down #like probably its this bad bc my body is weak from fighting an allergic reaction and i think lam1ctal can cause some menstral issues #but like holy fuck. i cannot go thru that again. just hours of being nauseous and crumpled in pain #i was very very very seriously considering going to the hospital. but like ive ridden in an ambulance before and i dont wanna spend like #1000 dollars to go like 10min down the road. bullshit. god i hope its stopping #it was just like so much pain i didnt kno what to do. absolutely intolerable. ugh. #please dont let this happen tomorrow 🙏 please please please. i have to teach #and ny roommate is staying here the next 2 nights after not seeing her for like months #y now? 😭 im gonna have to b like hi *visibly disheveled* if i talk i might puke. bye. #i wish i could just sleep thru this. ibuprofen is not helping 😭 #im just worried if i went to the hospital theyd make me wait for hours in the waiting room. shaking with pain. and then id b fine by the #time they got to me. like yea srry i was jusy being a lil bitch abt a normal bodily process lol. god. ppl with high levels of chronic pain #how tf do u do it? i dont think im strong enough. but i guess u probably get used to it. god that sucks so bad #ugh. i wish my mom was here. i want her to just pet my hair until i feel better 😭 but nooo shes going off to have fun in canada #so she's gonna b even farther from me than normal 😭 #unrelated

[vogelmeister]

been feeling mixed on some of my friends recently

#i love them but im gonna explain #i don’t want this to boil over like the twins did #but one of my friends i feel so cast off sometimes #i get it bc shes full time adult job employed now #in healthcare no less #but im just getting fully annoyed at her lack of availability and it makes me sad #im getting even sadder actually bc she also always seems to have time to hang with her uni friends whuch hurts #like im like okay i know you have this from 6-7 so how about we meet for dinner at 7:30 bc i wanna see you casually and she says no #and i think i really need to talk to her bc it makes me sad and then i feel slapped in the face #even on nights out we always have to go home early. which my friend basically said: #i think in future if you wanna go home you can but others shouldn’t have to too #bc my other friend got so sad she was forced to come back early and i was like yea i would have liked to have sat at manly with yall #bc i feel we don’t do this any more #i honestly think it’s better to just let her figure it out and go #i don’t want me to sweep so much shit under the rug until i despise her #bc i know this isn’t her fault i just wish she would let loose or make an effort #my other situation is my childhood best friend #i love her a lot she’s amazing. but but but. sometimes i feel she can be too protective of me. #it comes from a place of knowing me for so long #and i do trust her opinions on people who i surround myself with bc she fucking hated those twins #but sometimes i feel she has been treating me differently since my neurodivergence diagnosis #even with a certain high school friend she held this dislike even when i said she was not like the twins #bc she was hanging out with the twins at the 21st #like this girl was also having her issues with the twins and was the person in the firing line of the breakup #even when i was in nl she was so worried about me and its nice to have her have my back #bc after that guy kissed me directly on the lips she suddenly became concerned about ppl taking advantage of me #and its like to me great she cares but also i did in fact learn from it #but she gets super defensive when ppl take advantage of me and i just wanna her to step back #i just feel sometimes i don’t need her feeling like she needs to protect me or that i need to hang neurodivergence up like a flag #idk its a lot. thank u for listening