#ihiap

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one of the most annoying things about writing is that sometimes the solution to a miserably dull chapter/portion of the story is to delete everything and start over from scratch.

#i just deleted 8 thousand fucking words of chapters 14 and 15 of ihiap #and i hate it but i hated the words more #i made a pact with myself that im going to stop posting chapters that i hate just for the sake of updating #and this is how you go almost six months without an update #on the plus side we get 1500 words of Zuko and Katara talking shit about everyone else #i think im going to combine what i was originally going to do for 14 and 15 #and also combine what i was going to do for 16 and 17 #so i can post two pretty long chapters instead of 4 normal chapters #that means this next chapter will be the last one before things get really interesting and im so excited #ihiap #max thinks shes relevant

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Writing the beginning of cots vs writing the beginning of ihiap is such a funny yet drastic difference.

Ihiap zuko and healer ™️ interactions went like :

Zuko: i am but a scared child, trembling and wanting no more than to find my Uncle whom lovrd me so much 🧡

Healer : hes just a baby :( can we keep him

Meanwhile the cots healer and zuko interactions look like this so far:

Zuko: all your people are actually extremely stupid and im glad your all almost dead

Healer: *drugs him twice*

Other member of the crew: fucking drop kicks him

#i love cots so far #i have 3 chapters drafyed #im.so excited #ihiap #max thinks shes relevant #cots

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twbb Chapter 14 :)

#JESUS FRICK #THIS WAS A RIDE #is any chapter of anythign ive ever posted were to make me quit fanfiction #it would be this one #FICE ANF A HALF MONTHS #i thought i was going to die #writing fanfic has to be some sort of self destructive thing or something because jfc #is this chapter good? #no #mediocre #is it long? #ish #for my chapters it is #it has a lot of sweet moments tho #so theres that #hakoda wants to kill himself istg #anywho #enjoy <33333 #ihiap

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why do you talk about hating ihiap so much 😭😭 its not even bad

if my fics are my kids ihiap is the problematic oldest child.

There are so many plot holes and things that were written impulsively and i dont like the chapter lengths and just stupid details and I hate how i wrote azula and its a mess.

#like ihiap is the fic that got me back into fandom #and got me into writing fics and i love it dearly #i love my ocs and the general plot #but there is just so much wrong with it #im going to rewrite it some time. #im debating how im going to approach that still though. #but like i said there are so many plot holes and unnecessary story lines #and ive mentioned on here before that i know im not a bad writer #but ihiap was done very impulsively and nothing was thought through #and i didnt think more than like 12 people would read it #but low and behold 70 thousand people did #ive almost deleted it so many times #i just hate it so much #and also love it like ihiap is my baby #totp is the middle child that i keep forgetting about #cots is the youngest child that i have to force myself not to give all of the attention to #max thinks shes relevant #ihiap #asks

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my wips are stressing me out so you guys have to hear about it

or not i dont care

Cots

literally fighting for my life out here with this new wip. I could have the first chapter (???) out in like a few days but like,,, i dont want to do that

but im also not getting any immediate dopamine from this so im having trouble working on it.

Im also scared of having a new audience because like aside from a set few people most of my mutuals know me from ihiap and yall are nice and new people scare me

I even gatekeep ihiap, like if you dont know me from ihiap your not allowed to know about ihiap

a lot more people read that fic than i thought and it stresses me out

off track

i do genuinely think cots is going to be better than ihiap because ive had like two years now to figure out how to interact with fandom and im friends with other writers not and have more of a grasp of my writing style than i did before.

so im really excited about this

but i have enough trouble updating ihiap idk about doing two fics at once

but if i wait until im done with ihiap thatll take like two more fucking years

and ill lose focus

and wont do this fic

again, getting off track.

theres still so much that im not sure about with this fic. Like Zuko I think is the main character

But Sokka is EXTREMELY relevant

so i think im going to split the povs

But theyre at opposite ends of the world at any given time and sokka isnt going to (physically) be doing much.

so im not sure how to approach that

also i have no clue what the fuck kataras doing

like miss girl has two options and what she chooses will DRASTICALLY change the story like SHE controls the plot not me.

Sokka and Zuko are just there for the ride

Azula is also going to be relevant

like the story is about them 4 no one else matters

except aang maybe but like hes actually the avatar in this so thats a given

my first story where aangs the avatar!!!

also outlines are hard

and prologues are hard.

Ill be back with more complaints later

Ihiap

I have a love/hate relationship with ihiap. The characters in it are amazing theyre my favorite people ever. Some might make a cameo in cots, i havent decided yet.

REasons i hate ihiap:

-I accidentally stole half my ocs i talk about this a lot and ive been reassured but im not going to get over it. I hate myself

-Its so badly written like half the time There are some parts that i absolutely love and some that make me want to delete the entire fic. Like ive actually considered it multiple times. I hate it so much, so much second hand embarrassment. Is it second hand embarrassment if I'm the one who wrote it???? -Zuko is so ooc he might as well be an oc

-I dont even know twf azula is doing Azula and Mailee is one of the plot holes that drives me nuts. Because like I wrote Ty Lee into a scene but miss girl is supposed to be in the circus by now. I forgot about that part. Also Theres a certain detail about Azula and MaiLee thats going to be very prevelant near the end of book 3 but i forgot to imply or write that in so thats going to come out of no where. -most major events were impulsive and had no value to the actual plot Examples: That stupid soldier dude, the islands thing. I hate these parts and im going to write them out eventually -PLOT HOLES Reasons why Ihiap is the best piece of literature ever written:

-Relationships and characters

So the thing is despite the fact that theres so many things im bad at doing in writing/havent had enough practice yet, there are things that I know that I am great at writing.

One of these things is delevoping relationships.

I'm really good at making people and relationships very complex and this isnt something that someone can change my mind over, like this is something that i love the way i do it.

This is one of the only redeeming qualities of ihiap.

-I love the plot.

I really want to redo this to do the plot justice because i do think it has potential.

Overall i think that ihiap has more good than bad but the mad really does bother me. If your ever rereading and there seems to be some stuff missing or changed its because im eventually going to go through and edit the shit out of it.

As of now the next chapter (chapter 14) has like 600 words. Chapter 15 has i think 445 and chapter 16 is completely done, chapter 17 had like half a sentence, then were done with twbb.

Chapter 16 is where stuff gets interesting.

Im perfectly aware that TWBB is boring but it was meant to be. I needed it to be for Zuko to not go insane and then also develop Tomnooks relationship (because believe it or not theyre not COMPLETELY self indulgement and they are important) and also Sokka and Katara and Zuko needed that sibling relationship. So i needed like a 17 chapter book in between the two main books for that stuff.

I'm so excited for the next book. Especially like the second half. Its also (most likely) going to be updated a lot more frequently than twbb. Twbb was a pain in the ass because there was very little actual plot and it was just day to day stuff. So i had nothing to go off us.

Like Book 1 was all about the crew and Zuko to kind of learn and build relationships and shit and Book 3 is going to be a lot easier because it has a lot of actual plot and a goal and shit.

Totp

" idk about doing two fics at once" miss girl you already are supposed to be doing two fics at once.

Im not even trying with this fic, if your invested, im sorry. I've thought about deleting it but i decided against it just in case i want to come back to it.

Its not looking good though.

This is what happens when i dont outline my fics

#did anyone ask for this? #no #but its how i sort my head out and i supposed it wouldnt hurt to share with you how this stuff is going #just in case you want to know. #cots #ihiap #totp #uhh what else #twbb #max thinks shes relevant

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Fic stats are so wild because why does ihiap have almost EIGHTY THOUSAND HITS

yes i realize its people coming back for each individual chapter or for rereads or whatever but its still insane to me that there were almost eighty thousand times that someone saw of or thought of my fic and was like 'im going to read that :)' and clicked on it

Whyyyyy

Going feral over this genuienly

#577 times someone was like 'im going to leave a comment :)' #thats almost a hit for every word in the entire fic #anytime i think about this too long i have a crisis #this is *just* ihiap not twbb too. #twbb has less impressive stats #and ik its not a lot compared to some otber fics but its still so wild #this is double the anount of people who live in my county #bleh #ihiap #max thinks shes relevant

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im rewriting ihiap and im changing the names of pretty much all my main oc's (iykyk) and so its so confusing because a) i cant find names that vibe with the characters well, and b) i cant remember what the new names are for each character. So like 3 times a chapter i have to sit there like who the FUCK is this guy.

#im genuinely grieving these names guys like i am distressed over this #i am in mourning i am wearing back for six months #every time theres dialogue or something thats specific to how the characters talk or their personalities and stuff #and i have to use their new name------ #im rocking bath and forth there is tears like thats not hiiimmmmm #these have been their names for like over three years now i cannot cope #ihiap #max thinks shes relevant #fic talk

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Fic talk part (?)

Ihiap/twbb

I want to go back in time and interrogate 2021 max on what kind of drug she was on. Tell me how i did 48 chapters of ihiap in 10 months then its taking me over two years to do 15 chapters of twbb. Im not good at math but thats a drastic decrease.

I really want to delete ihiap/twbb and do like a complete rewrite but im scared of losing all my comments and stuff on them. But i also dont want people to read them anymore. Its a struggle.

When i do the rewrite im doing everything so differently. Names are getting changed certain things are getting taken out its going to be a whole new fic.

The way i got 48 chapters in 10 months was because they all sucked ass. I hate ihiap with every fiber of my being.

Ik the actual answer (is a combination of that) and the fact that 17 year old max was going through some shit ™️. It was just all around not a good time for anybody.

Something funny that i did was that i really hated being a minor on the internet so id only talk about the more 'adult' expieriences in my life. Like i didnt out right lie about my age but i just tried to make people assume i wasnt a minor. Not because i wanted into 'adult spaces' like i very much respected 18 + blogs and stuff but because some of you guys are so fucking weird to kids.

Anywho Ihiap and Twbb are on hiatus now (have been for a while actually) and idk when im going to get back to them. Might be a while.

Cots:

When i did that wip ask game a while back i got enough asks about it to assume some of you guys are slightly invested.

Cots isnt even the real name of it anymore but im still not completely sure about the new name so were keeping it as is

I lost the fucking outline to it and im genuinely so upset 💀💀

It was in a notebook thatvi lost and im terrified someones going to find it.

Ill die

Anywho i cant remmeber what all i mentioned about cots but its a sokka centric fic. Zuko is probably the second most prevelant followed by katara and azula and those four are the main characters.

Sokkas a bender!

The fire nation is shitty as usual

And i dont want to give away a lot bc idk. I like being mysterious.

I wanted that to be out by the end of the year but thats not looking good bc i lost the outline. Even tho i have the first like 5 ish chaoters written i want more before i post it.

But all in all ive never been so excited about a fic i love it sm

Totp:

This doesnt even exist in my mind anymore

#ive mentioned before how my fics very much meet the age order stereotype #ihiap is both my favorite and least favorite. it was my trial and error fic that taight me what worked and wgat didnt #now shes just standing off watching me coddle her younger sibling and hive her mucb more attenikn and care #ihiap is my pride and joy but also my greatest disappointment its so complicates #i never remember that totp exists and ik exactly whats going to haplen i just wont write it #like shes off doing troubled child shit and i couldnt care less #totp who? #COTS IS MY BABY #MY FAVORITE #MY PRIZED CHILD #I COULDNT LOVE HER MORE #mwah #max thinks shes relevant #ihiap #cots #totp #fic talk

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Fic talk

Currently resisting the urge to post the first few chapters of 'cots' (i think im going to use q different acronym after i actually post it).

Ive mentioned a million times before how when i posted ihiap i was going through some shit and i needed a source of dopamine and random strangers on the internet praisingnyour writing and characters is such a wonderful source of dopamine.

But ihiap was all very impulsive and i didnt know what the plot is until like chapter 30 of the first book and i love it sm but i also hate it with a burnjng passion like its ridiculous. Theres so many plot holes and details that dont make sense and events that are just really dumb and that i regret sm. like i really love ihiap as a plot and chatacters and themes and relationships and such but 17 year old me just wasnt doing it justice.

Another thing about ihiap is that its the first long project ive done. Like ive made so many short stories and snippets of longer projects but ihiap is the first time i like, worked out a plot and character development and such. There was so many different things that i didnt realize i didnt know how to do until ihiap. For example balancing side characters and main characters and main plots vs side plots. Also pacing. Also characterization. But since i learned more about that stuff im more confident in it. Like everything i hate about ihiap i did because of inexpierience and stuff. Obviously fanfic is just a fun hobby and not anything serious so it really isnt that deep. But like PEOPLE STILL READ THAT SHIT STOP ITA!!!

this post is definetly following my whole "make a post about cots and then talk about ihiap most of the time" thing.

Anywho, because of that stuff im much more confident in cots and that ill actually be able to tell the story in a morenput together and comprehensible way. So im very excited about it.

But i think im.overcompensating a lot. Like i refuse to post this until i have every last detail plotted and written down. No plot holes nothing.

Cots is actually based on an ihiap au that i plotted out an actual (non fanfic) story for and then redid it again to get cots. So like an alternative universe of an alternate universe of an alternate universe of atla.

Sokkas the "main" protagonist in it but the first book is zuko centric more so. The second book is sokka centric and the third book is both.

But (like i said) sokkas the protagonist, zukos probably the deuteragonist and azula, katara, and aang are all tritagonists.

Azula is somehow the most put together one in the series.

But its a mix of a lot of different tropes. (The swt and zuko trope ofc is there its my favorite) but its a lot more complex than ihiap.

Everything is a lot more complex than ihiap actually. Like i cant figure this shit out.

Some ihiap ocs are making an appearance (not nankin) (the more backroundish ones) and theyre always fun.

I really love my ocs and i think its really funny how theyre simutaneously my most critisized and praised things about ihiap.

Cots has been something ive been working on for about a year now 💀💀 and im really hoping to get it put out by the end of the year but well see

Ive said this on here before but i also think its funny how my fics follow age order pshychology. Like ihiap is my first and i love her sm but ill be damned if i dont want to just delete her sometimes and pretend she never happened. I always forget about totp and she only has 2 chapters up despite being posted like two years ago. Cots is my baby shes my pride and joy and can do no wrong. (Yes all my fics are girls)

Ive started this semester of school again recently so ofc that means im going to be procrastinating my work by working on my wips.

#ihiap is being rewritten and im debating whether im going to completely repost it or not #i think im going to but who knows #but im actually really excited for ihiap to be somewhat comprehensive #and not suck! #max thinks shes relevant #ihiap #cots #fic talk

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Random fic rambles ⬇

The new fic im working on (cots) is really annoying because the two Main main people are sokka and zuko bc you know zukka

(Azula and katara are the secondary main people)

But i dont know what to do with zuko in the first part of the fic. So im Thinking i should make this another 'the swt adopts zuko' fic bc i miss that part of ihiap so much. And because of the certain circumstances of this fic it would be so much more interesting

And it would give me a chance to develop certain ocs more that dont get enough time in ihiap. (Kali, Kiona, Nayeli, Kima, Ilik, Baniq, Kovak, etc). Because their dynamic and their upbringing is so interesting and fun but its not relevant to ihiaps plot.

Theyre so different than nanook and tomkin and i just think it would be neat to keep their backrounds that are implied AT BEST in ihiap in this other fic.

Especially the dynamic between Kovak and Kali (who are twins) is so interesting and complex. Theyre slightly comparable to Azula and Zuko but also not really idk.

I think im going to touch on them more in my side series.

Im getting off track.

So I want to intigrate that specific trope into cots and maybe even do it justice this time but I dont want to be repetetive.

But Zuko will be his canon age and the dynamic between him and everyone else would be SO different because of Sokkas part of the fic. idk if that makes sense, you'll just have to read it

Also itll get me a way to focus on my ACTUAL ocs and not the ocs i accidentally stole.

AND Id get to make more swt ocs which are my favorite ocs to make because if their culture and day to day lives and my hc for their beliefs and morals and values and whatnot.

I just love how familial the swt comes off as, so i love writing them.

If i dont take the 'zuko gets adopted by the swt' route again the swt probably wont be very relevant.

and i wouldn't know what to do with Zuko.

As im writing this I just thought of a new scene that would add so much to this and will be great.

But again i dont want to be repetetive.

#maxs fics #< new tag alert! #if your not caught up on ihiap you probably have no idea who those people are. #ANd if THATYS the case maybeee you should go get caught up ;) #if any of you guys have thoughts lmk #or not #do what you want #max thinks shes relevant #cots #ihiap

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I just want to say that I love your avatar zuko fanfic so much, it's so good and your oc's are amazing!!

Thank you! Im glad you enjoy my fic <3

#i love getting compliments on my ocs #not because im insecure about them #quite the opposite actually #because i hold these imaginery characters on such a high pedistal #i love them so mucn #and then when someone compliments them #i get to be like #Yes! You get it! #these people DO deserve every ounce of praise possible. #max thinks shes relevant #asks #ihiap

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YOU have playlists for the ihiap characters???

Can you link them?

Yes! My spotify is linked in my pinned post but here it is too

Also heres the individual playlists related to ihiap < 3

Nani

Tom

Tom and Nan

Zuko

Azula

Ihiap book 3

Traumatized Trio (Nan, Tom, Zuko)

#If youve noticed ive been shortening my ocs names and only exclusively using them #theres a reason for that #but i dont feel like explainging it #just know its intentional #if any of those links dont work lmk #im bad at linking things #ihiap #asks #max thinks shes relevant

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Chapter 12 is out!

#Linking things is hard #also i had this chapter written for like two weeks besides one scene that i couldnt finish #but i ended up deleting this scene #i love some parts of this chapter #and hate the rest of it #its very poorly written #but idk how to fix it so oh well #max thinks shes relevant #ihiap

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“But hey,”  Zuko turned to his side facing Tomkin, and saw that he was copying the position.  “No matter what it is, I’m going to go through it with you.  You’re not alone in this.  Okay?”  

#we get more of the traumatized trios friendship in the chapter after next #then its back to Katara Sokka and Zuko for a while #end then we get a new and very special character coming in #and then this books over <3 #im so excited #asks #ihiap

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Chapters: 11/? Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Rape/Non-Con Relationships: Sokka & Zuko (Avatar), Zuko & Katara, Zuko & the swt Characters: Zuko (Avatar), Sokka (Avatar), Katara (Avatar), Kanna (Avatar), Hakoda (Avatar), Southern Water Tribe Characters (Avatar) Additional Tags: OC's Galore - Freeform, Southern Water Tribe, Water Tribe Zuko (Avatar), Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Avatar Zuko (Avatar) Series: Part 2 of If Home is a Place, Where do I Go?

A direct continuation of 'If home is a place, where do I go?'

#I finally figured out how to link this the right way #you guy should be proud of me :) #ihiap #twbb

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These Wounds Bleed Blue | Chapter 10

Hakoda, Kanuk, and Chena left Nanook, Tomkin and Zuko at the Southern Water Tribe to keep him safe from Zhao.

Now Zuko had to navigate being the banished prince, the avatar, and a new culture?

A direct continuation of 'If home is a place, where do I go?

#Ihiap #how in the fuck do you get the link to display the actual information? #it annoys me so much