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justarandompersontryingtolive · 3 years

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i dont even know anymore lol

so.. theres this person that i know. she's been my friend since elementary school, and i lost contact of her at one point. but around quarantine time, i suddenly just started talking to her again because we found each other’s contact info. it was going good for around a few months until we stopped talking again due to personal problems. but then around dec. 2020 she started contacting me again. it went pretty good for a few months but then it seemed that she was starting to change..

alright so for a little more context, i’m just going to say that after elementary school, i moved away to another city, so everything was just kinda complicated because we were far distanced. plus it was like a year apart so yeah.

i would say that we had pretty good interactions for like 2-3 months, but then she would start causing these arguments. arguments about dumb things (well not really), like not responding to her immediately, even though it wasn’t an emergency, blaming me for things that SHES done (like having her volume up to max when i send her a video that isnt even loud), when i simply talk about something, and etc. she always ends up blocking me in the end.

another thing is that she loves to insult me, my interests, and even my family sometimes. she always says that “its just a joke bitch, learn to take one” but it doesn’t even sound like a joke. it all just ruins my excitement for some things and lowers my confidence and she does the usual “act like nothing happened” tactic. for example, i get this new guitar as a gift from my brother, so obviously i get really excited, like ALL CAPS excited. but when i tell her about it, she goes like “ok, and? there’s no need to scream. it’s just a guitar. anyways, help me with my music playlist”. that one moment just kinda ruined the mood, and when i was showing it, she was all like “stop doing that, plus i don’t think you would be any help so bye”. that one conversation was just confusing, and there’s many of our coversations that are just like that. anyways, i actually have kept track of most of the insults and stuff, but i think that should be for a different time haha

these are the most recent events; the ones that lead me to write this tumblr post. she suddenly started being even more rude, calling me a liar out of nowhere, spamming me insults, etc. then this happened. i sent her this video of a person on tiktok, who i thought was really pretty. i do it allll the time, and she knows that. the creator goes by they/them pronouns so obviously, i tried to respect them, going like “ahhhh they’re so stunning omg” but this girl literally goes like “omg i dont like her, shes freaky” when i was clearly stating that the creator goes by they/them. she then says “idfc, now stop texting me because i don’t wanna risk losing this show on my phone”. i just looked at her texts in shock, because i’ve never rlly seen her disrespect someone to that level. she always says that she never acts rude, but the past texts say otherwise..

then, earlier today, i wake up to a few texts. from her. she sent me a snap to maintain our 40-day snapstreak on snapchat. i was going to send on back, but then i read these texts from her.

“BITCH, WHAT THE FUCK” “SNAP ME BACK. I STG IF YOU WASTED 40 DAYS OF MY FUCKING TIME YOU’RE DEAD” “DOES YOUR DUMBASS NOT SEE THE LIMIT? BITCH HURRY” “WTF I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU” “HELLOOOOO?” “fine. you suck anyway... i’ll just get rid of it for you”

all in the span of a few minutes. where i didn’t even have the chance to respond. she blocked me. on all platforms. all because of a snap not sent early in the day.

aaaaand yeah. there’s much more to all this that i could probably say to clear up, but i just can’t think of it all right now because my brain’s all fucked up lol

what even am i supposed to do? i dont even feel like i’ve done anything, but i kinda want to say something. but i also don’t. talking to her was so mentally exhausting, and when i wasn’t it just felt.. relieving. but i also felt a little fun in texting her, so i’m confused.

she’s a good person, i swear. but these moments just kinda prove it wrong. ik that she’s nice to others and etc, so why am i one of the only exceptions? kinda feels unfair. but what if this is rlly a joke and i’m just taking it too seriously? agh, i need help

sometimes i feel like i’m at fault, because i could’ve said some things to provoke her but i always try to prove myself, and i actually do it. has she? not really. but i don’t wanna seem like someone who just complains about someone who probably hasn’t done much bad. i hope i haven’t been overreacting abou all this, but this is how i’ve really been feeling about the situation, and instead of being targeted, i decided to write this anonymously. but yeah, thank you for reading this. :)

#friendship? help idk #rant

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