#im having withdrawal for these two this week

[desperatepleasures]

well I chose today to start a Caffeine Hiatus so needless to say I am probably not getting any writing done today 😵‍💫

#I'm glad i did this on my day off tho fr #and i still got a decent amount done i just also had to spend a lot of time Not Doing Things #I hate that the Caffeine Hiatus works every time i do it akadkdk it just hurts so bad the first day or two #and i cant even take nsaids bc part of the reason im doing this is i was getting rebound pain #from having to use them a lot when i was withdrawing from my migraine meds #WOW IM A MEDICAL MESS HUH!!! #well at least im On Meds again and it should only take a week or so without caffeine/nsaids to reset things #then i can proceed as normal #doth oversharing hour

[widevibratobitch]

aaaaaaand it's starting. mom's bestie just texted me asking to come over this weekend cause it's Bad and it's probably the last chance to talk and maybe say goodbye to my mom's husband and i need to take care of her. god. i wont get through this weekend unless im high or drunk istg.

#time to slightly overdose my depression meds again ig lol #anyway. it is a little better with me these last two weeks. turns out the meds do work when you actually take em regularly #but first my best friend's break up that she's blowing up to unimaginable size #acting as if she just got divorced with the love of her life after 20 years #and not ended a few months long relationship with a guy who's been the source of most of her troubles since the moment they started dating #(ofc she's valid and id never tell her that because like. i get it. some people feel stuff more deeply. but its hard to be supportive #when you genuinely feel like this is the best possible outcome for her and that the relationship was only dragging her down all this time) #and now this. and this is gonna be infinitely worse. and then it's gonna get a million times worse when he actually does die. #and i feel like the worst most selfish person ever which like. probably am. but i did tell my cousin who actually knows my mom really well #and she said she understands and that my fears ARE valid because SHE'S terrified of how she's gonna handle my mom #and she wouldn't wanna be me in that situation cause it's gonna be so much worse for me lmao #like i feel like people who know my mother casually really dont understand just how unhinged emotionally she is #anyway. i feel so overwhelmed. i cant handle this jesus. #but im also emotionally unavailable and refuse to actually confide in another person because i dont want to be a bother <3333 #god i love tumblr. i can literally type anything in those tags lol it's the perfect form of venting since you can just scroll by #but i will still have let it out of myself anyway uwu i literally dont need that therapy fr #anyway. i feel so unbelievably fucking lonely and on one hand it's my own fault for withdrawing and refusing to ask for help. #but on the other hand. i AM alone. like there's no one who can help me in this particular situation. #i have no siblings. obviously my dad isnt gonna help. it all falls down to me. good god. i wanna throw up.

[ddenji]

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#hiii guys sorry ive been neglecting this blog college is beating me up lol #midterms and such #however i have a day off today! and i think im gonna update my theme and my pinned #and go on a queuing spree #two week break from csm sucks i need it like a drug & im having withdrawals #asa chapter when yknow what i mean??? #i also just did a reread of part one and i have been cooking up some thoughts on that but those might have to wait until im less busy #however just know. i am seeing connections i am piecing together the puzzle. #its the false dichotomies and the themes of truly understanding another person and acts of violence as love and the dog motif. #i have much to say #but anyways i just wanted to say hi and that im still here lol #spence.speaks #spence.personal

[seedlessmuffins]

SCHEDULE JUST DROPPED

#im having hockey withdrawals guys #there is no hockey left being played it's been two weeks what do i do without hockey AND footy #suffering #BUT THE BOYS ARE BACK OCT 11 #(obviously preseason and training camp) but im sooo excited #canucks posting

[child-of-leviathan]

I'm trying to quit smoking weed since it's been making me feel shittier more and more often the last months. Been avoiding that reality because when I'm not high I almost forget, but when I'm high it swallows me and brings me too far into my head which is what I want to escape. Yet I really want a fuckin joint now and I know what the result will be

#i slept like shit because if i dont smoke a bit before sleeping uhhh #well im waking up way too much so not getting rest #if cold turkey i get night sweats and more nightmares #so im trying to keep it just before sleeping for now #i have finals in a little less than two weeks so really don't need more withdrawals than i already have form benzos #can someone give me a non-addict brain pls? thanks #personal

[szczylpierdolony]

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#im so stressed out im so tired ive done nothing and i need to start writing the essays #i have 3 to do plus there are like 6 exams most of which have a lot shit to remember plus im having a psychology short test #and the results of another short test next week and i need to start this economy assignment #and im late almost two weeks with a russian assignment and i want to cry #my meds arent working so im a mess and i stopped taking them bc they give me nightmares but now im having withdrawal and my heart is being #weird and i want to cry i need to kill myself i need to call my doctor #and maybe ask her abt that thing that makes you not have to take all your exams if youre mentally ill #but i feel bad asking for it like its not like im really sick and it feels like im just constantly lying #and she already signed the crap that makes me not have to go to pe thankfully #so i cant go and ask her abt this too like whatever worst case i fail everything and rip my guts out and die #i dont remember when i showered last time and im just so stressed out and i cant do anything productive #i havent been drawing or learning or revising or even doing my reading #speaking of which i have like 300 pages for next week maybe more and i cant take this anymore i need to die #also i think my parents would get mad at me if i said i cant wrote all my exams #bc whatever im not really sick im just lazy and annoying and a bad person and i wish i could get hit by a car so bad i need my head to be #crushed and my brain to get wplattered across the street #also im so gross and sweaty i hate myself sm and i feel so guilty over everything all the time #and them i go to therapy and i cant talk abt anything bc i hate talking abt my feelings its gross and i dont deserve it #i wish there was easy access to guns here suicide would be so easy jesus #and im having insane mood swings again i need to get off social media even tumblr it just makes me feel like shit abt myself #tw suicide mention

[loudanqueer]

#been avoiding people a bit lately #withdrawing a bit #i guess that's just a symptom of fall #i took this photo a week or two ago when i went and saw my sis #she lives like two minutes from Lue so ofc i stopped by to visit #miss him #im making this post to apologize to those im avoiding because im hoping youll see it and i dont have the... idk something to message back #im sorry guys

[mirroredaura]

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#cupid.txt #i dont have enough to pay my bills #let alone groceries #i cant wait for two more weeks of nicotine withdrawal #im so fucking stressed out #i just wanted to have a good weekend and go to pride with my boyfriend #and celebrate its birthday #but i cant even do that because THANKS LOUISVILLE you have to pay $5

[jazzzhd]

I know it's coincidence but I reblogged one of those lucky posts and it WORKED

#ive been struggling hard bc my wife lost her job again #but today i discovered that i have money in my 401k from my old job tht i can withdraw #AND the payment from our most recent grocery order for two whole weeks of groceries didnt seem to process #so i have a bunch of extra money now to actially pay rent which im already a month late on

[nonamefangirl]

i’ve for the most part avoided most social medias (mainly tumblr) for two weeks now bc i don’t want any spoilers for the 5sos show tour but holy FUCK i miss the guys & the community here SO much & my first show cannot come quick enough this is so hard 😩

#the one other time i popped on here i saw two spoilers & one of them is. WHEW #but like im not even checking their socials out of fear & i fee so disconnected (hehe) from them & i hate it!!!!!! #feel* #anyway i miss seeing all the pocket besties on here every day i’m having withdrawals i had to come check in #my first show is three weeks from tomorrow idk if i’m gonna make it tbh

[corpsecxnt]

WISH ID STOP BLEEDING SO I COULD SELL SPICY PICS AND AFFORD AN ICED COFFEE

#i have a badass caffeine withdrawal headache pleassseeee godddd #ITS BEEN OVER TWO WEEKS IM GOING INSANE

[kuiinncedes]

how have i lost my grip on my assignments so much lmao ;-;

#bro idk how im gonna get this project done #at this point it's like #i can get it done if i absolutely screw over any chances for my exams next week #idk if i can get it done earlier #TT what happened this semester LMAO #bro lowkey thinking of dropping a class ;-; taking a withdrawal W on my transcript or fuckign whatever idk TT #a;lksdnfjdbghjdfgouwebrgoueyrhfejkfngjfdskgf i'll get thru it bc like #i have before it's just like WHYYYYY DONT I HAVE ENOUGH TIME #where is the time there is not enough time to do anything #:'))))) everything is absolutely fine #jeanne talks #had two sources of caffeine today in the afternoon and then at 10 LOL rip my sleep schedule truly never recovering #not that the caffeine is the cause of that bc id be up late anyway #but any chance of me going to bed earlier is gone bc now i have sm keeping me awake and actually able to do some work sort of lmfao #the thing is i know i'm sleep deprived and i would be able to do my work a lot beter if i got more sleep but also #i just feel like i cant bc of how much shit i have to do this week TT #bro one of my lectures was cancelled today and i read the announcement on my phone half awake and just whispered #slay to myself lmfao and my roommate was in the room idk if she was asleep / if she heard XD

[thanksfortheflaglove]

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#hi guys #havent been on since my last bad night and the last couple days werent good but i had a smoke sesh each night so xoxo #semi went out for the first time since the Traumatic Night! #just got v high and went to a house show (my fav pastime if im going out btw) #i was actually enjoying myself but my friends didnt really wanna be there so i left alot sooner than i wouldve liked to so i was kinda #bummed about that but we went back and my high ass watched my policeman for the FIRST TIME #me not seeing that yet just shows how bad of a spot i was in with everything in the past two months and the healing from those two months #like if im not on here or doing things for myself that make me happy something def isnt right and that was the case that whole time and #recently lmao #sorry this is a big whole rant but. i only had one drink tonight but im honestly kinda scared to start drinking again bc for two months #straight i was ***** ******** every weekend and everytime i was i was also doing redacted (i refuse to attach it to my name) #although my lucky ass unfortunately but thankfully got a reality check and i immediately cut off redacted person and stopped doing the #redacted thing that redacted person had introduced me to. tomorrow will be 4 weeks without it and its terrifying some of the withdrawal #thoughts and symptoms that ive been going through #and in my very bad mental health moments its terrifying that my mind immediately goes right back to it remembering how good it would make #me feel but after that night i know that it just simply isnt worth it and i think im strong enough to put that above my thoughts #anyway. its just scary bc whenever i thnk about it im like do i really not have to do it ever again 🙄 but like yes dumbass exactly that bc #its way too easy to fall back into that pattern and especially when u've built up a tolerance for something it can often be twice as bad th #second time around or anytime u take a break (can apply to alot of things but) from experience. getting in this kind of pattern is extremel #risky and again. simply isnt worth it #idrk where i was going with this but some days are harder than others which is why i havent been on the past few days but im trying to get #the healing process going and am signing myself up for therapy again and am just really trying my absolute hardest #in the new year especially i want to set alot of goals for myself like. with therapy im thinking about journalling again and getting into #spirituality and astrology and crystals and all the good vibes bc i really need to unlearn the things i was taught and get my confidence #back and rewire my mindset and find my peace again #that last time i went through something half the severity of this and was in this mindset i just looked at the world so much differently #and whether its through some of these things or not. im just really trying to find myself again after having that pretty much taken from me #and although its a process that im still starting i really am excited for it #anyway. HI lol #drugs /

[suniix]

Hiii!!! Request for Yuta, where reader knows Yuta has a crush on them, and gives them time to confess but ends up getting fed up with how shy he is, and just blurts out how much they like him, in the most random setting. luv ur writing btw (:

surprise confession | yuta x reader

word count | 1k+

note | IM GLAD YOU LIKE MY WRITING!! also sorry this took so long anon!! i got stuck on what random scenario to use, originally i was going to have the reader confess on a roller coaster but somehow it changed. if anyone wants me to write a roller coaster version lmk 👍 (also sorry if he’s a ooc im having a huge writers block moment 😣)

You thought yourself to be a patient person, truly, but Yuta’s hesitance was beginning to drive you insane.

At first his shy behavior was cute. The shared glances, the way his cheeks would turn a cute shade of red whenever you complimented him, the way he’d stumble over his words when trying to compliment you back; you couldn’t get enough of it. Any day now he would pull you aside and pour his heart out to you.

But quickly a day turned into a couple of days, which turned into weeks, which then turned into months.

And quickly your patience ran out.

You began to think your feelings were once sided. Maybe you had just imagined everything. Maybe you had projected your own feelings onto him which caused you to misinterpret every gesture, word, and action. Had you simply over analyzed every encounter, searching for any hidden meanings behind his every action?

Doubt began to cloud your mind. You began to withdraw yourself from him, hoping that your limited actions would help your feelings disappear.

It wasn’t until while roaming the halls late at night you heard Yuta having a secret conversation with Panda that you confirmed it.

“Just tell them already!” Panda’s hushed voice was immediately silenced by another.

“I can’t!” That had to be Yuta.

“What do you mean you can’t? You like them, just ask them out!”

The two bickering voices began to grow distant when they started walking away from you. You stood leaning against the wall, a giant smile making its way onto your face.

With your heart nearly jumping out of your chest you happily walked back to your room.

Despite the conversation you heard between the two, nothing changed.

In fact, it seemed as though Yuta’s shyness increased, making it harder for you to even talk to him at all. You’ve thought about making the first move and asking him out first, but every time you try and bring up casually hanging out together, alone, he stutters out an excuse to talk to you later and nearly runs out the room.

At this point, you’re not even sure what to think. Instead of trying to come up with possible ideas as to why Yuta wouldn’t say anything, you've come to accept the fact he likely isn’t looking to be in a relationship. Which, given the whole Rika situation, makes sense. So instead, in an attempt to try and move on again, you went back to avoiding him.

“(Y/n), Yuta!” Maki called out, catching both you and Yuta’s attention. She began walking towards the both of you and gestured to the field behind her. “Both of you, on the field now. It's your turn to spar.”

But it seemed the universe had different plans for the both of you.

Before you even had a chance to protest, Maki and Panda walked past the two of you. “When I get back we’ll switch, until then keep sparring.” Maki stated, seemingly knowing you didn’t agree with the pairing.

You watched as they walked away, feeling Yuta’s eyes on you. Without saying a word, you stand up and grab your weapon and begin walking over to the field. As much as you didn’t want to be paired up with him, there's no use in arguing about it. You wanted to avoid any unnecessary drama that would come from asking to spar with someone else.

Once the two of you stood across each other you initiated the first move, charging at him with a force you normally wouldn’t use.

Yuta definitely noticed, stumbling a couple of times trying to keep up with your pace. “Hey, did I do something wrong?” Yuta asked, grunting as he tried to hold back the force of your wooden spear with his own.

“No, what makes you say that?” You respond, backing away to prepare another attack.

“It’s just that you’ve been avoiding me—” Yuta stumbles back when you suddenly attack, struggling to keep up with your pace. “What did I do to make you so upset?!”

Hearing those words made something snap in you. “That’s just it! You’ve done nothing!!” You yelled.

Yuta stumbled back, landing on his back while looking at you with wide eyes at your sudden outburst.

“I’ve waited and waited for you to say anything. I heard you and Panda talking in the hallway the other night, I know you like me, but it sucks just waiting around for something to happen! I’m upset because I like you too! A lot actually!!”

Yuta’s jaw slightly drops, watching as your eyes begin to water.

You quickly turn away from him and wipe your eyes. You didn’t expect to let it all out at that moment, but just hearing what he said combined with that confused look on his face made you angry. You felt as if you were the only one suffering in this situation.

The realization of what you said began to kick in and you felt your ears burn with embarrassment. Did you seriously just blurt out how much you liked him in the middle of sparring? You were definitely going to remember this moment years into the future when you’re trying to go to sleep.

Standing up, Yuta hesitantly approached you, afraid any subtle movement from him would make you run away. He clears his throat, catching your attention. You hesitantly look back at him, feeling even more embarrassed when you see Yuta’s worried expression.

“I’m sorry for not saying anything sooner, honestly, I had no idea how to approach you about it and I didn’t want to make you uncomfortable with how I felt..”

You shake your head. “No, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to take my anger out on you and put you on the spot like that. Just, ignore what I said—”

“No!!”

His sudden yell startled you. Seeing the look on your face Yuta retracts his hand, you kinda wish he didn’t move his hand away. “I don’t want to ignore what you said. Um, how about after we finish practicing we.. go out to eat? Would that be okay?” He hesitantly asked.

You took a moment to respond, taking in how his eyes shifted from you to the ground, his cheeks slowly becoming more red by the minute. Struggling to hold back a smile you nod.

“Yea, I’d like that.”

thank you for reading till the end! :D

masterlist

#yuuta okkotsu #yuuta x reader #yuuta okkotsu x reader #okkotsu yuuta x reader #yuta okkotsu #yuta x reader #yuta okkotsu x reader #okkotsu yuta x reader #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #[📝 sunni writes]

[monsterrae1]

🏥🚑tease tidbit Tuesday 🚑🏥

Tagged by @bidisasterbuckdiaz @wikiangela thank you besties

Im back to doing tag games just cause I wanna tease this fic hopefully coming to an ao3 near you tomorrow 🖤

“Hey baby,” Buck said, climbing into the ambulance. Eddie turned around, his hands full of gauze, a big smile on his face, “God, you’re a sight for sore eyes.” 

“Come here,” Eddie said softly and let the boxes in his hands fall into the stretcher, his hand reaching out to grab Buck’s scrubs and pull him into him.

Their lips joined in a slow unrushed kiss, taking their time to taste each other like they hadn’t had a chance to do in two weeks. Buck sighed into the kiss, opening up his mouth so Eddie could deepen the kiss.

There wasn’t much room in the back of the ambulance for them to really go anywhere, but Eddie wrapped his arms around Buck’s waist and without breaking their kiss, he pushed Buck towards the bench and ,ade him seat down, immediately straddling his lap as he settled himself on top of Buck.

“God, I’ve missed you,” Eddie said and dived down for another kiss.

The 118 had an ongoing joke about how codependent Buck and Eddie were, how when they weren’t on shift they would do everything together - chores, shopping, - Buck and Eddie always shrugged and said they just preferred being together and there was nothing wrong with that. It wasn’t very often that they had opposite shifts for such a long time, and Buck would be the first to admit that he was starting to go into withdrawals from not seeing his husband.

“Let’s quit our jobs, I hate working opposite shifts,” Buck said as he wrapped his arms tight around Eddie’s waist, keeping him pressed to him. Eddie laughed and kissed him again.

“We have a kid, and a mortgage, you know.”

Tagging if they feel like sharing anything: @loserdiaz @hoodie-buck @bi-buckrights @tizniz @prettyboybuckley @rogerzsteven @loveyouanyway @saybiwithme @eddiebabygirldiaz @daffi-990 @giddyupbuck @weewootruck @spotsandsocks @exhuastedpigeon @elvensorceress @honestlydarkprincess @devirnis @bigfootsmom @underwater-ninja-13 @father-salmon @hippolotamus @sunshinediaz @spagheddiediaz @spaceprincessem @jesuisici33 @dangerpronebuddie @theotherbuckley @watchyourbuck @satashiiwrites @the-likesofus @shortsighted-owl @thewolvesof1998 @steadfastsaturnsrings @housewifebuck @canonbibuck @911onabc @evanbi-ckley and im sure im forgetting folks so lets just pretend I did tag you 😅

#my wips #tease tidbit tuesday #buddie #buddie wip

[hatkuu]

poly relationship with kylar and corrupt sydney. just imagine

THANK YOU FOR GRACING ME WITH THIS GORGEOUS THOUGHT!@!!!!! (m! kylar and m! sydney below!!) (gen! reader)

oh my gawsh. guys im actually really embarrassed to admit this but i've never done the christmas play event!>!?!?! (like, i still know the gist of it through screenshots and i know that they're FIGHTING constantly... and KISSING???!?!? i LOVE.)

- being smushed in the midst of a sydney-kylar sandwich is... messy. to say the least. on one slice of bread; you have a gorgeous, loving boyfriend that you've corrupted and turned into an absolute SEX FIEND - and on the other slice; you have ANOTHER gorgeous, loving boyfriend with a jealous streak who would do anything for you. including getting into a poly relationship with his ex-bestfriend...

- i think the polycule will be fairly awkward for the first few weeks... sydney will be teasing kylar and flirting with him while kylar is DISGUSTED because the only reason he did this was for you and not this whore—

- but then sydney would start being sweet to kylar like how he's sweet with you... and kylar will still be grovelling and getting all huffy... but (and he would NEVER utter this to anyone maybe you) sydney isn't that bad...

- then it slowly develops into kylar having a shared obession for the both of you and corrupt sydney downright ENCOURAGING IT (you can imagine how feral the sex is)

- being between your two boyfriends in the cafeteria is definitely chaotic. you're getting your face wiped at by sydney while kylar pets your hair - you're so overwhelmed from all the touching but it feels so good.

guys ill elaborate further on the cute stuff but. BUT IMAGINE YANDERE CORRUPT SYDNEY AND HYSTERICAL KYLAR COMING TOGETHER TO STEAL YOU AWAY???? (yandere behaviour, alluded kidnapping, gen! reader)

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It's too much - juggling two possessive boyfriends who never leave you alone - you don't have any breathing room, and not even the private sanctity of your bedroom is left untainted.

So you ran.

You don't go to school anymore.

You don't even look at Danube street because the risk factor is simply way too high.

But you knew - even if you willed it away with clasped hands crouching at the foot of your bed - that your cowardice would inevitably catch up to you.

"You've been ignoring us,"

Your bedroom door is quickly slammed behind you by a much taller, forboding figure. His closed fist rests heavy against the door frame, long dark hair spilling over his shoulders. You're tugged forward into the figure's chest, and you can feel them shakily inhale your scent - like they've been having withdrawals from your absence. Sydney.

"Why— Why are you in my room—"

Sydney laughs breathily, his hand falling from the door to cup the plush flesh of your cheek. His thumb rubs just underneath your eye, cooing as you flinch at each calculated movement.

"I got some help..."

Sydney trails off, and you gasp as another set of much smaller hands place themselves on your waist. You feel the familiar texture of scratchy, split end hairs against the crux of your neck and shoulder. The hands eagerly squeeze at your clothed flesh, unintelligible murmurings following each excited touch. You know these hands. Kylar.

Kylar whines, pressing kisses that contain more tongue than lip against the sensitive skin of your neck.

"Y-You ignored us— Left us alone for weeks!"

Their shared grasp on you tightens uncomfortably as you struggle.

"G-Get out— I— I didn't invite either of you here—"

"Oh, we weren't asking for an invitation, dearest."

Sydney smiles down at you, all malice and sadistic cruelty.

"You should know what happens to bad spouses..."

One of Kylar's hands fall from your waist, fumbling around inside of his pocket until he sighs against you.

"Y-You won't ignore either of u-us again."

The tell-tale prick of a tranquilliser dart numbs any fear that you could have felt from the hushed words that slip from Kylar's lips.

#hatkuuasks #kylar the loner #sydney the fallen #dol #i dont like the ending :( #but you guys hopefully get the idea i was going for!!! #ask me about the yandere boyfriends PLEASE!! #kuuskylarposting