#im. hoough. fuck

[wabblebees]

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#fuck. #im. hoough. fuck #i need to see the FUCKING sky but theres too many goddamn streetlamps and immmm gonna lose it #its a the main squeeze 'sun goes down' / jeff buckley 'lover you shouldve come over' / st vincent 'young lover ((piano ver))' kinda night #and i was fighting it off pretty well but. ahahahaaa #didnt last #so ! walking it is #the moon isjust a hair away from totally full so if i AM ever able to get away from all this light pollution i'll still be able to see fine #but. hoooooooooooOOOUGHFf im. not finding anywhere dark enough to make my brain shut up so im. still walking. #all of my usual spots are. im. hm. hm! yeah #feelin far too brainweird for them to do the trick rn but ! we're tryin ! #bee speaks

[goldiipond]

these two images are strong contenders for the prettiest ray demizu has ever drawn

#skye's ramblings #hes my whole fucking WORLD i adore that blue/green shading she does with his hair in some pieces. hoough colors........ . #actually getting emotional over his smiile in the second one idk theres just. something about it. i want to hold him in my hands #might make one of these my icon .. don transgenderism will always be the most realest thing ever in the world but. i am craving new image <3 #hoough im having a moment again guiys i love him soo fucking much. i am going to become a danger to myself and others

[puppyfyke]

Wanna be knotted so bad

#im listening to the playlist she and i made to fuck to and hoough #it is doing things to me

[sonicdjam]

barely anyone interacted with my tweet abot it so ill post it here.

When i someday learn game development i really want to make a magolor fangame, infact when i became a kirby fan ive always wanted to make one. (so like... almost 3 years hoough). i havent got an idea about it but recently i wanted it to play like a fusion of Pizza tower (and wario-likes in general) and CAVE shmup games. And ive also drew a concept of the games main characters v

the little shit on the right is Bullseye, whos basically the polar opposite of Magolor (in like almost everything). Their first design dates back from september 2021 and changed their design over time

(man i really like drawing this guy huh)

aAND AND im working on even more concepts and the plot/story of said fangame cuz i wanted to make it actually interesting..... so you can say im baking something because i really want this fangame to stand out of the other kirby fangames (which almost always use the ds sprites) and unique themes. (and also a fresh breather for people who think kirby games should be harder. dont know why. i just want to Lol.)

"um how would a pizza tower-like game and bullet hell shmup would work together"

imagine as if the game was a sonic fangame. theres special stages. now imagine if the special stages are shmups and even some of the bosses are also shmups sections in the game. (otherwise i don tknow how the fuck would i word this im writing this at 1 am)

anyways i think thats about it of my rambling.see you when i get my pc repaired and pirate clickteam fusion 2.5 for the Microsoft Windows.

#magolor #what else would i tag this with um. #magolor fans take a peek at rhis or Something #untitled magolor game yet to be developed #bullseye

[cringedog]

hoough maybe its my meds but im so fucking proud of myself for working on my essay. i got like two paragraphs done im fucking unstoppable

#sam speaks #logging off again now be back soon

[lifetrader]

💞 im show u my fave emojee pease respond....

HOOUGH I LOVE THAT ONE.... Tommy TOMMY!! Okay I genuinely consider you one of my really close friends on here? Like my instant reaction to seeing you posting is just ‘Oh? OH? MY FRIEND IS ON?’ and you’re genuinely really funny and fun to talk to - like i will very often actively laugh outwardly at posts you make, and OH MY GOD YOUR ART? YOUR ART? AND YOUR WRITING? SUPERB!! YOUR ‘WHAT IF GORDON DIED ALONE’ PEICE STILL HAS ME FUCKED UP !!! AND I LOVE YOUR ART SO MUCH IN GENERAL LIKE?? HELLO??? YOUR ART STYLE IS SO PRETTY??? I care you a lot.... 🥺

#clowntalk

[blookmallow]

minecraftin..... im not very good at this at all but im trying :’ ) 

I DIDNT KNOW THERE WERE BUNNIES!!!!

one of my current projects is every time i end up with way too many dirt/cobblestone blocks from digging i go up here and use them to build more stairs up on this mountain just leading up into the stratosphere. i hope to one day create a stairway to the moon (dont tell me what happens if you build up forever ill find out lmao) (i suspect ill hit an invisible ceiling one day but it hasnt happened yet) 

IM COMING FOR YOU, MOON

hoough its gettin pretty high now

my first goal was to reach the clouds and ive accomplished and surpassed that now 

you cannot walk on the clouds, which is logical, but i was sorta hoping to discover a secret cloud world or something :’ ) 

well theres my house, down there somewhere, 

also you do NOT want to fall off this thing. not that i would know. i definitely have not done that like 90 times (you can survive if you manage to land in the river or something though) 

it looks super weird from the ground also, 

im trying to start spiraling it around so it stays mostly contained to. over there and doesnt end up stretching across half the map 

i got REALLY lost and found giant mushrooms the size of trees one time and have not been able to find them again since, 

i disabled the thing where you lose all your stuff if you die bc honestly with a world this big and difficult to navigate i need to be able to respawn back at my base i dont care if its cheating :’ ) 

im working on landmarks and paths but its. a process 

anyway i realized i could make paintings, but it doesnt tell you what the painting will be, and 

what the fuck is that is that a skeleton in a giant shell. i love it 

i made a glass cube and i was gonna fill it with lava but it only made a little patch of lava instead of filling the space, which i later realized was because you gotta collect enough to fill it up (which. makes sense. but. listen i dont know how much real world physics are happening here and how much video game logic is happening. my house is floating and ive been leaving a path of deboned trees everywhere i go) but anyway 

my lava cube turned into a ‘what happens if you dump water on lava’ experiment. the answer was ‘it turns into obsidian and you Cannot break it’ so i have an obsidian cube just stuck there now :’) i think you need a diamond pick or something i get rid of that

but then i figured out how liquids work and now i have a water cube 

ill probably make another lava cube sometime now that i know How 

but then the water cube became very useful bc i realized you can CATCH FISH

I CAN BUILD AN AQUARIUM!! 

it only has one fish right now and. an obsidian block lmao. theres gotta be a way to put some sea plants in there but i dont know how rn 

this turned into a lot of experimenting with buckets and water, ive been having a very difficult time with my other project to expand out the waterfall near my house to make a pond underneath the house, as i cannot figure out how the water physics work and digging it out has been a nuisance

so i thought hey!! i could just dump water into the hole i have going and speed things along considerably, right 

god what a fucking mess. how the FUCK do water currents work in this game this is a disaster :’ ) ill fix this one day

#lucy plays minecraft #dont forget to take pics off your switch for months you will end up with SO much shit to sort through #gonna be a lot of liveblog posts for a while here im trying not to do too many at once :') most of them are skyrim though #scooby dooby queue

[jhindraven]

I don't know anything about LoL, but tell me about LoL for the ask meme

HOOUGH I WAS HOPING SOMEONE WOULD ASK ME ABOUT LEAGHE THANK YOU

The first character I first fell in love with: 

Aurelion Sol -clutches chest- big space dragon!!! he was like one of the first characters i saw and went "holy fuck"

The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: 

uhhhh Draven. no doubt. i reeeally didnt like him like 4 years ago. now tho? -points at url-

The character everyone else loves that I don’t: 

Sona. but like its not her fault?? i just dont think shes written very compellingly, so idk she has miku hair so like thats cool i guess

The character I love that everyone else hates: 

ive never really seen a bunch of people entirely hate a character. not proper hate. but like... mayyyybe Sylas???

ive had a friend full on angry rant to me about a sylas he was against one time. im talkin like 10 minutes or more. so-

The character I used to love but don’t any longer:

Orianna probably. she was another character i adored like 4 years ago but now eh ive got other favourites

The character I would totally smooch: 

ive been thinking about this for too long so top 5:

Draven

Sett

Aatrox

Zed

Xin Zhao

The character I’d want to be like: 

is it illegal to say Jhin?? like morally???

if it is illegal, maybe Braum. this man.. oh my god his vibes

The character I’d slap: 

Zed.

A pairing that I love:

coughs loudly at my url.

A pairing that I despise: 

besides the obvious hate of any ship thats like... ethically wrong. Jhin/Sona.

like i get it, sure, art kids stick together or whatever but he canonically wants her dead. like real bad. i dunno i just dont vibe with that

#i want to smooch a lot of league characters i guess??? it may be bc its 3am but. smooches for all #listen ok zed is cute and all but hes a fucker i want him gone #as a jhin kinnie i dont know if its illegal to want to be like him bc hes a fuckin Bastard but also like... kin #braum is just so fucki ng sweet i have CRIED over this mans voicelines and ill do it again. thats a threat #me: oh i dont like sona really. also me: dont like jhin/sona no i dont see the reoccuring character here #answers

[wabblebees]

just finished my playthru of night in the woods... thinking abt it for ever and ever adn ever now<3<3<3<3<3

#i am feeling EVERY emotion. aaaugh #holy fUCC i was not expecting this game to push those buttons. goddamn #it was. very very good #but. also. fucken hell thats. wow #what a game. what a beautiful funny horrifying heartwrenching wonderful game #im. hoough. fuck #a lot of my playthru was ofc me taking forever to explore + click EVERYTHING + buttonmash + learn game mechanics + etc #but alsoooo. a LOT of my fucken gametime can be attributed to me just. staring off into space after getting absolutely fucking gutpunched #into next tuesday. just. WOW. #VERY good fucking game. laughed out loud + bawled a LOT + got jumpscared more than once + more. holy fuck #vvv excited to start another playthru bc ik for SURE there was shit i missed and i want it All #.............its 7 fucken 42?? a m??? #jesus h christ yall. idk how long i was playing but uhhh #i did originally iNtEnD to go to bed🤦 lmfao #listen. i was tRYING to escape my fuck-ass stupid brain for a little while so. ig that?? mostly worked?? #anyway. game fuckin GOOD i am 💕😭😳😖💖😵‍💫😅🥺💕 #bee speaks

[wabblebees]

theres nothing restful about this bitch face. im tired leave me alone

#this post brought to you by the convo i had this morning with a classmate who. meant well. but. #they were like ''u used to seem so like bubbly whenever i saw you around but. every time ive seen u recently u look tired+sad+kinda mad'' #and i didnt rly know how to respond?? i was like hmm. idk but maybe its the whole being tired and sad and kinda mad all the time #maybe its the fact ive had to conciously relax my face 4 times in the last hour bc i hurt. Everywhere today. and now im in a constant wince #which ! coincidentally ! actually ADDS to the whole tense bc in pain + in pain bc tension thing. so. fuck me ig lmao #but also. damn. like ik its happening and i was already self-conscious abt it but. i didnt want it CONFIRMED that other people could tell #hoough. #anyway #we out here #bee speaks

[wabblebees]

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#cw parent rant incoming #tell me why im having to out of the blue ease my mom's cis guilt over text rn #im. hoough. im tired. #shes apparently been worrying abt having ''messed you up from day one'' bc they assigned me the wrong gender at fuckin birth & now hearing #the words ''assigned [x] at birth'' makes her feel ''on edge and accused''.................. #bc it ''puts a responsibility for trauma and unkindness on parents that simply isn't there'' #how tf do i say ''yeah i mean you fucked me up real good but also thats not the reason why.'' tf #the reason im traumatized isnt bc im trans. its bc im trans and was raised in a transphobic society that didnt want me to be trans. #why not start with the fact you raised me in a fucking cult??? hm????? THAT was traumatizing. but shed NEVER get that bc shes messed up in #a ton of the same ways -- but bc shes still In It she cant fucking see it #if it were fucking easy to just *play* with gender outside of your agab then it wouldnt be fucking traumatizing to grow up trans!! #thered be nothing to feel guilty for!! if gender roles werent so deeply fucking entrenched in the church and the way i was raised then #it wouldnt have fucking HURT so much not to fit in them!!!! but i cant SAY that it hurt bc then she'd Feel Accused and Wounded and To Blame #FOR THE WRONG DAMN THING. FUCK. #im not accusing you for being a bad parent or some shit just by existing as a trans person?? take responsibility for the shit that YOU DID. #when you did NOTHING *before* i came out to make me feel like i could Exist As A Trans Person? or As A Person that didnt Meet Expectations? #THATS on you. the fact i didnt know For Certain if id be *okay* if i came out?? THATS ON YOU. #theres TONS of shit i can think of that are my parents fault and directly tied to how fucked up i am. BUT ALSO. *THOSE* are never going to #be the things they feel sorry for. bc they think they werent in the wrong. so theyll just feel 'on edge' & 'accused' bc theyre sO justified #hhhhHHH. FUCK. #just out of the fucking blue. immediately after asking what cake i wanted tmrw for my birthday. so. happy early birthday i fucken guess!! #i hate it here. #every time i start to get comfortable and feel lighter and freer to express myself again... theres always fucking something. #theres always fucking something and *IM* the sorry fuck who has to keep the damn peace and smooth everyone elses ruffled fucking feathers #i hate to complain bc i really was afraid itd be so much worse but. but also this still fucking sucks ass? ig i wasnt really expecting that #idk man. maybe its the fact ive been extra fucking dysphoric and been dealing with one helluva rsd spiral the last week or so but. FUCK me #lemme out lemme out lemme out #just have to get thru the end of august and then im. back in school again. not exactly looking forward to thAt part either but at least ill #be AWAY. and with my partner and with my friends and OUT of HERE. #bee speaks