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#its like im embezzling romantic joy from a purely non romantic intimate friendship if that makes ANY sense
mkscatgirl
ยท
1 year
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*DEEP SIGH* man...............................................
#i ummmmmmmm ummmmmmmm uuuhhhhhh mmmmmmm uhhhh yeah :)
#i really like this guy but ummmm hmmmm
#i feel really guilty about it because well okay so we have a really comfortable and close relationship
#which is like normal and good right? yeah right. BUT for him its just a close friendship with someone you get along with really well
#which is all fine and dandy and good
#but for me its like. the same. but also. teehee. ๐๐. i want him. yknow?
#so i feel like my actions and joy from the friendship are tainted by my further desires even if like my actions are 100% reciprocated in
#in kind**
#like everything i do he does too so like. its not like im doing anything bad. but it feels like it should be bad.
#also he was in a relationship until 3 days ago
#so like. i dont want to be too much. i wouldnt want to regardless of the relationship actually but i digress
#i think actually whats going in is we have a level of intimacy which is completely normal for good friends who see each other all day every
#everyday but im not used to that anymore because its been god like 5 years since highschool and thus wouldve seen my bestie that much and
#had that level of intimacy
#but also like that doesnt change the fact that i DO want him like that much remains true and outside of our relationship
#but i feel guilty being afforded this level of intimacy when *I* am gaining a tainted version of the joy
#and i say tainted not in a ewwwww relationships are evil kind of way but in a not quite ulterior motive kind of way because i do NOT have
#further goals with my actions i act to maintain the status quo of our relationship but i DO get more than what is seen on the surface i
#suppose?????
#its like im embezzling romantic joy from a purely non romantic intimate friendship if that makes ANY sense
#and thats were my guilt comes from because im like TEEHEE what if this but more
#but like
#its NOT bad and i SHOULDNT be guilty and i KNOW this
#in fact i think i actually act LESS than what is expected of me from him because im afraid of overstepping my bounds
#but WHATEVER none of this matters because he doesnt want me anyways lol
#but im so incredibly happy with the way our relationship is he is SUCH a good friend its crazy
#but also i want to [redacted]
#ive said enough i dont need to be cringe on top of showing my soul
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