#jrnl

[gastromancer]

miku binder thomas jefferson (slavetrader pirate remix)

#anti ofmd #anti our flag means death #praying it doesn’t get renewed! #the ofmd fandom is like a master class case study in liberal queer braindecay #jrnl

[kimhortons]

6th of april. nag eenjoy ako mag google sheet, kuha ko na yung pivot table, madali lang naman din kapain. yung mga formula lang talaga nagpapa kumplikado nito e, waw yabang haha. nung high school kasi di ako nakikinig sa teacher ko nung sa subject namin na computer e. haha tsaka basics lang din naman tinuro nun.

feeling ko yung iba pang kumplikado dito, madalas ituro sa mga accounting students haha. naalala ko kasi nung nasa isarog pa ako, kapag nag reremit kami at gumagawa ng report lalo na pag nasa main office ka, yung trabaho dapat ng accounting samin na binibigay haha. naalala ko yung isang chart dun, parang pivot table tsaka bawal galawin. siningit ko lang yung gsheet ko for context haha.

anyway, nagawa ko naman ang agenda for today, maliban sa pagpapa full body massage. di na kasi abot ng oras, baka mabugnot naman yung isa kapag siningit ko pa haha. nakapag pa trim ako ng buhok, medyo hindi ko lang bet masyado yung nag handle sakin, hindi niya nakuha yung gupit, sabi ko kasi bawasan lang pero halos nag pantay na yung sa harap at likod, pahaba kasi dapat yun sa harap. wala kasi yung nag gupit nito nung una e.

nagpa removal lang din ako ng gel polish, tapos pina regular ko nalang muna. balak ko talaga gel polish parin sana kaso nalimutan ko mag withdraw, e cash lang tinatanggap nila dun sa pinapagawan ko. nakakatuwa lang din kasi kilala narin nila ako, tapos yung gumawa sakin, apat na beses na balik ko na dun siya yung nasasakto lagi saken. siguro siya nalng hahanapin ko talaga tuwing pupunta ako dun. haha.

after ko magpa nails, sakto naman na dumating na si J. tapos kumain kami sa inasal, never pa kasi kami kumain dun simula ng naging kami haha. tsaka di rin kasi ako gaano mahilig sa inasal, pero parang nag crave kasi ako sa ihaw kanina kaya nag decide kami na dun nalang.

pagkatapos kumain, nag grocery na rin kami para di na kami ulit pupunta ng Legazpi bukas. kulang kulang naman kasi sa sentro, sa palengke nalang yung iba na wala. medyo lagpas sa budget ko yung pinamili namin ngayon sa grocery, di ko sure kung mas marami lang ba talaga kaming nabili ngayon kumpara sa usual na nabibili namin sa LCC, or mas mahal talaga sa SM. yung LCC kasi dito yung parang puregold e, though meron naman puregold dito, pero medyo malayo kasi kaya madalas sa Ayala - LCC lang kami or sa SM.

#jrnl

[cmacaulays]

i know it’s an irish thing but i’m absolutely obsessed with the little “c’mere to me” in anything but & first time. the intimacy of it. come here to me. come here . to me .

#hozier #unreal unearth #jrnl

[hagatek]

i dont like when grown ass women call themselves tomboys i dont know i dont like it. dont make me explain. especially if theyre aligned with "edgier" people

#jrnl #im gnc dont have a shartfest at me

[highpriestess]

I start moving into my new place tomorrow and I’m excited

#jrnl #maybe this will calm the restlessness for like half a second lol

[apricotluvr]

One of the best things I did this year was find my style of journaling. It’s a mix of junk journaling / diary / bullet journal (temporary bc I have bought an actual planner for 2024). I obv write personal things so I cant show that many pages but here are a random few. Bottom left pic is the fruit stickers collection and it’s so fun!

#jrnl

[crstnjnblr]

Finally finished The Courage To Be Disliked. I must confess there were moments of frustration and grappling with the ideas and literally tossing the book away lol. Welp, it really challenged my mind's framework but coming into the last chapters, the pieces finally fell into place.

"The life that ends at the age of twenty and the life that ends at ninety are both complete lives, and lives of happiness." This is my nth self help book since my mom died. Idk, perhaps I'm looking for an affirmation or something about her life, her death, or just human life in general. And this felt like it. Every time people talk about my mom, most of the time, it goes about how untimely it was. And even within my own family, I would constantly hear my brother say "sayang, hindi ko man lang naparamdam kay mama 'to *insert typical milestone*"... I know (and it also awfully pains me tbh) that she died without experiencing a lot of things. She didn't get to see my brother finish law school, didn't get to see me in my Sablay on a stage, didn't get to see another country, didn't get to see us married or have grandchildren, etc. I totally get the guilt and regret, but there's also a strong internal debate that it isn't right to feel that her life went about just like that because she missed some "core memories." I know deep in my heart that she lived earnestly and the people saying "sayang kasi hindi *ganito*, hindi *ganyan*" - we are all wrong. She's the kind of person who actually lived the series of moments of her life (that's why she's such a sunshine even if she's just playing candy crush or watching K-drama) and that is enough. Her life wasn't unfulfilled just because she didn't get to see these milestones set by others and arrived at their expectations.

She danced and her dance ended at fifty-eight. It is a complete, fulfilled life, a life of happiness.

#jrnl #dear paeng #the courage to be disliked #adlerian psychology

[melonch4m]

Blog #3

Having an ED is stupid. This blog is stupid.

I'm 90% sure I'm going to delete this thing. I keep seeing all these posts about how wonderful it will be to be skinny from people who aren't in the danger zone yet. Or people who are young and haven't ruined their lives with their EDs. It makes me so mad.

It makes me madder to think I'm relapsing back into it too! As if being #Skinni was ever worth the look on my mother's face as she saw me dying before her eyes. This is so dumb! The tumblr culture is so dumb! Everyone saying they're "pro-recovery" is just dropping lip-service. You're all mean people.

Ugh. I'll see what I'm gonna do here.

#jrnl #eed tw

[rainbowcadillac]

can ppl stop reblogging my corny psa posts i made when i was 14 😭 this shit is so embarrassing

#jrnl

[yourenext]

man i feel plagued with sadness. i probably should be happy

#jrnl

[heavy-nfld]

#JRNL #Demo 3 #garage punk #punk rock #punk #emo #St. John’s #Newfoundland and Labrador #Newfoundland #NFLD #NL #Heavy NFLD #YYT #709 #Canada #Canadian punk #Newfoundland punk

[gastromancer]

found this old tweet that i screenshotted back in sept last year lol

#fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf movie #josh hutcherson #cleaning out junk photos and found this. ha. #jrnl

[kimhortons]

apr. twenty-one

nakapag file na ko ng leave for the 26th, since holiday ng AU sa 25, thursday yun, naisip ko medj nakakatamad na pumasok ng friday, like may isang araw ka pang pasok in between ng dalawang araw na walang pasok, kaya naisipan ko mag file nalang ng leave.

and since naka plan sana ako umuwi ng Manila supposedly sa may, kasi birthday ni papa, plan ko sana kumain kami sa labas. kaso team building daw namin sa mismong araw ng birthday ni papa, may parequired required pa sumama. kaya balak ko sana i-advance nalang yung pag uwi ko.

then ayun na nga, approved na yung leave ko ng 26th, long weekend ko na sana. kaso nag aalangan naman ako sa budget, pamasahe ko palang tatlong libo na. e may babayaran pa kong bills. nagkataon kasi yung atake ng hika ko na may kasama ng ubo, halos 1 month na. kaya nagpareseta na ko ng mga gamot at antibiotics. kaya feeling ko kukulangin na ko pag balik ko.

so i decided na wag nalang tumuloy, sabi nga ni J yung ipapamasahe ko, ipadala ko nalang kila papa at nag gagamot din kasi yun. tinawagan ko rin sila kanina dahil nung isang araw nagkasunog daw sa lugar namin, but thankfully hindi naman inabot yung bahay namin dun at safe naman daw sila. sinabi din ni papa na ipadala ko nalang daw imbes ipamasahe.

pero eto, medyo nalulungkot na naman ako, di ko alam kung miss na miss ko na ba yung manila, or nalulungkot ako dahil di rin buo talaga yung loob ko na umuwi dahil di narin ako masyadong comfortable mag stay sa bahay, puro busy din yung mga kaibigan ko, so parang wala namang ibang reason para pumunta ako dun—bukod sa plano ko sana mag early celebration ng birthday ni papa, kahit di naman talaga kami close. wala lang, sobrang eager ko lang siguro maging maayos yung relationship naming mag ama. or kahit man lang maisip niya na may care parin naman ako kahit papaano.

gusto ko lang din sana mafeel na miss nila ako, gusto nila ko makasama ulit kahit saglit at wag pigilan umuwi. ewan, homesick lang talaga siguro ako, medyo nadedrain kasi ako ngayon sa environment ko sa work. sobrang wala ng social life, ni hindi na nga rin kami nakaka gala after work nila zha, simula nung naging TL siya kasi drained din siya sa trabaho. may mga issues pa na di matapos tapos kaya dagdag stress din.

pero thankful parin ako dahil nanjan si J, handa sakyan lahat ng trip ko. since hindi nga ko matutuloy next weekend nag plan nalang kami na mag swimming kahit kaming dalawa lang. hehe. gusto ko din kasi matry yung isang resort dito malapit sakanila.

naluluha ako habang nag tatype kaloka haha. narealize ko kasi, halos siya nalang talaga pala yung kasama ko sa lahat, ang hirap na malayo sa pamilya na di mo pa close, hirap din malayo sa mga kaibigan lalo kung wala kang kaibigan sa malapit hehe. di ko alam bat ako nalulungkot. parang ayaw ko pa pumasok bukas huehue. hays.

sobrang miss ko na sa manila. 😔

#jrnl

[cmacaulays]

tamino, new york city

#tamino #going through my concert videos & photos again #bc i miss it and am going insane without them #jrnl

[hagatek]

dont mean this is an anachan coquette whisper why but why tf is vodka so many calories

#jrnl

[highpriestess]

i decided that i wont be sad on my birthday anymore and it's working

#i let go of the ego idea of birthday and now it's just a nice day for me to do nice things and not pressure myself about anything else #jrnl