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[moregraceful]

shak nikita PLEASE

dug into my inbox because i was CONTEMPLATING THEM...

shak/nikita is like...shakir and nikita discover the secrets of the universe, like discovering selfhood and independence and confidence and first loves and sexuality with men but. in san jose. a city of sunshine and income inequality and people who DON'T CARE about the sharks, but do care what language you speak at the grocery store... also nikita has gynecomastia. how do you navigate literally any of that as a 22yo (horny) russian (english language learner) hockey (no one cares about the sharks) player (if no one is watching, what do you have to lose???) and shakir is very much experiencing the secrets of the universe (falling in love with nikita)

rest under a cut cont bc i CANNOT shut up--

but i always worry about writing russian players bc i'm always like what fucked cold war neo-con nonsense am i accidentally projecting onto these players (<- op is a 90s kid) as well as what fucked up neo evangelical bullshit i am accidentally projecting onto these eastern orthodox players (<- op is a protestant 90s kid)...like i worry about writing non-american players pretty much constantly bc i'm like WHAT LENS AM I WRITING THIS THRU THAT I DON'T REALIZE I HAVE!!! but that's always especially panic-inducing when i think about writing russian players, because one half of my family is career military and the other half were nuclear physicists who worked at lockheed martin and while i do my best to like....make the opposite choices of literally all those people, it's very much, growing up in The Culture (american imperialism). so i'm always like i need to NOT woobify the russian players but i also also need to NOT pinkwash the entire country of russia but i also also need to NOT pretend that the culture queer sexuality in russia doesn't have complexities i will never be able to fully understand BUT I ALSO ALSO ALSO need to NOT accidentally start a second cold war on ao3 dot org

in conclusion, if my research holds up (lol), nikita's pet name would be nikusha which i think is nice. also i think a lot about how a lot of the russian guys have to translate for shakir to the media and to fans, but on ice he'll talk a lot to his teammates. and there is the you know allure of a locker room that has uhhh i think 8 languages of both the spoken and signed variety, in a city where all the government signage is in english, spanish, and vietnamese, and how you can play a lot with the slipperiness of identity in that kind of situation. i mean shakir got scared in a grocery store parking lot in utica and he's like 6'6 and looks like a supermodel so i'm desperate to know how he handles all the gay jocks in san jose.

tl;dr i want to write a lush coming of age story in san jose but have anxiety

that was more information than you cared to have so here is a line:

Guys make fun of Shakir at home, how he always strikes out with women. He’s not good at picking up women. He’s too awkward, doesn’t know what to do with his hands. The few occasions he’s kissed a girl, they’ve laughed as they walk away.

#this is an insane response i am so sorry 😭😭😭 #laughingthelaughiest #cage replies #as a monolingual american who grew up in california there is just shit i will NEVER fully comprehend and it's always like #well do u write with kindness and anxious self-awareness or do u write it with unapologetic confidence bc at the end of the day it's fanfic #like i'm not going for a pulitzer i'm going for shakir su--[caltrain horn blast drowns me out for the next thirty minutes]

[lareinadelplata]

rochu what do u want to tell us about your life today

great question ko my random tidbit of rochu information for today is that yesterday a stranger complimented my shirt and i cried like a baby because my brother gifted it to me and im an idiot

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[pacific-coast-hockey]

kasper can we get a report on whether robbie looks like he's alive? the stream makes him look like he's on Haunted Doll Watch

omg lil man looked HAUNTED, i was like are you sleeping alright? are your roommates keeping you up? are you tired of carrying this team on your back. toward the end of the game he stopped by the bench for a timeout and he looked so weary. i was like someone get this kid a hot chocolate and a meditation app

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[beaniegender]

happy birthday ray!!!! 🎉🎉

Thank you ko!! Love you!

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[sommbodyoncetoldme]

Hey Kate! I've followed you since you had Annie, way back in the day. I think I quit the WS life & went back to school right as you were starting at the jumper barn, if I remember right? Just wanted to say that I was so excited to see you pop up again, and what you said in your latest post definitely hit close to home. Hope your holidays went well & that you find a way to ride again soon!

Hey there! I remember you from before! Thanks so much for checking in! Popping back onto Tumblr was a totally spur of the moment thing so it’s nice to see some familiar faces still around! 

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[the-barn-rat]

laughingthelaughiest replied to your link: 5 YEAR OLD PINTO GELDING HORSE (5183)

blm.gov is the most dangerous website on earth

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[bluegrasshole]

karo i can't put a numerical value to this but i am exactly as scared of you as i was of my elementary school's secretary

why were you scared please i need to know 

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[joethornton]

laughingthelaughiest replied to your post “do you think cavemen had fetishes”

tbh I think if they could fixate on their meme rocks then we can extrapolate and say they had fursonas also

thanks i hate it

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[messiology]

i'm on mobile and by the time I got to your ask box i'd already forgotten what numbers I was gonna ask for your ask meme so this is like a bingo free space where you can just answer whatever questions you want???

SNDKJFNS relatable. k im gonna answer 3:

4. favourite dish specific for your country?: i got an urgent need of locro, and i have to wait until may for it smh.

15. a saying, joke, or hermetic meme that only people from your country will get?: CORTASTE. TODA. LA LOZ.

16. which stereotype about your country you hate the most and which one you somewhat agree with?:  the one i hate > we’re drama queens. the one i agree with > we’re drama queens

#thanks!! ♥ #laughingthelaughiest

[crawsley]

laughingthelaughiest replied to your post “hi ko thanks for the tag!!!!!! i’m eating dinner so lets do it #...”

MARSHMALLOW PUFF CRESCENT ROLLS ?

lollllllllll i think it’s a midwestern thing maybe? a texas thing? anyway it’s good as hell everyone should try it out extra bonus points if u use these which u can’t find in montreal APPARENTLY

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[jakobchychrun]

@laughingthelaughiest replied to your post “obviously a lot of men are pretty goddamn awful like a Lot of the time...”

i don't know how to put thoughts abt this into words but like, 100%

idk if it helps to hear it, but I think there are a lot of genuinely great dudes out there and i think you'll find the right one out of the bunch

ko you’re wonderful and i appreciate you

#laughingthelaughiest #tofumilanesa #im assuming this is ur main blog

[moregraceful]

7, 8, 13, 20?

thank youuuuu

7. How many ideas for fics do you have right now?

I feel like I always ideas bouncing around, due to the agonies and an attention disorder. While walking the dog tonight, I was thinking about how it would go with Thomas Bordeleau in a winner's room, like that little freak would love it and Logan Couture would have a psychological breakdown and retire from hockey forever after one season of dealing with it... also thinking abt what if the Philadelphia Phillies experienced pronouns. You can't tell me Brandon Marsh and Garrett Stubbs wouldn't get silly w it. You can't tell me they wouldn't be havin' a blasty-blast. I won't write either of these, but they're bubbling around up there, like a little witch's brew.

8. What project(s) are you currently working on?

Well right now I am currently devoting my life to the joys of Roope Hintz giving Jason Robertson his hot boy make over and by joy I mean I'm in hell bc like. Something is TERRIBLY wrong with it and I CANNOT figure out what and it is due in 13 days lmao. I'm determined to finish by the deadline bc I CANNOT fail at pod-together again but I also. Hoooo something's gone terribly terribly wrong and I lack imagination to figure out how to fix it.

13. How much planning do you do before writing?

Really good question. if it's less than 10k, usually zero planning, if it's over 10k, I usually have an outline that varies between very detailed to just vague sketches of how I want each act of the fic to go...actually this is maybe the answer to problem I just presented to myself in the last question lol. If I'm really committed, I handwrite the whole outline and my research to-do list first and then put in a google doc. Also for some fics, especially fics I do not have a good grasps on the characters for, I will do a fair bit of amount of research on players to get their voices right. But not always which is. why my writing is so deeply deeply inconsistent lmao.

20. What’s a favorite title for a fic you’ve written?

This is so hard bc most of my titles are garbage song lyrics and all my good creative ones are by Beryl in collaboration with them for pod-together. "I know a (Scotia)bank where a wild thyme blows" for the Midsummer Night's Dream AU has gotta be the best one we've ever come up with tho. Pretty fond of "Fragments" and "How To Have A Good Time While Growing Old On The Front Range Urban Corridor" too, just because they both get at the heart of the fics and also bc I just really like the imagery that Front Range Urban Corridor evokes lol.

Thank you for asking I appreciate it!!!!

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[lareinadelplata]

69

hehehe nice. thanks ko!!

anyways FUCK yes this song also incidentally has the sexiest sound trope right at the beginning

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[beaniegender]

shana tova ray!!

Thank you so much ko!! Much love and sweetness!

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[spanishskulduggery]

laughingthelaughiest

the good news is that you'll find yourself eating cake in the middle of a dance floor at 3am

That’s probably true although I personally prefer eating cake in the middle of my kitchen at 3AM instead because I don’t have to wear fancy clothes. 

Or any clothes really. I have options.

[the-barn-rat]

laughingthelaughiest replied to your post: primemeredian replied to your post : ...

have you looked into selling prints and stuff? it’s hard to really make a living off of, but there’s a bunch of sites that’ll handle printing and everything & just send you a royalty

Yes, and I’m going to try some of that, and I’m also trying to take some commissions etc. I’m going through a phase of really really wanting to make some money off of doing things I genuinely love??? So I’m in training with an academic editing firm and trying to market my art and like. god i just really want to make money without sacrificing my mental health lmao

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