#like i need to keep these people close to me bc they make me feel so fucking hapoy man

[hella1975]

just full force threw a shoe at my sister's face and when my mum got me alone after she was like 'you shouldn't clobber her. but i get it' 😭

#it kicked off today but in my defence she's actually proper in the wrong this time even my DAD called her a bitch and my mum is FUMING #baso my sister came into my work with her mate when i was closing the other day and all the staff GLARED at them bc of aforementioned #close so i was being v chill so everyone 1) knew it was my sister and not some customer coming in late and 2) her friend wouldnt be uncomfy #like that's the real kicker her i was being extra laid back FOR her friend so he'd feel more at ease. and one thing about me is yes ive #said countless times i have a rural accent but my mum also raised me to know when and how to speak nice if need be bc people are cunts here #so when im waitressing i speak nicely bc it's a stuck up restaurant w stuck up customers but when im with my sister? making a point of #being laid back? my normal accent came through. and her mate when i was gone said i sounded 'really [from the county we live in]' #which WOULD NOT BE A COMPLIMENT. it's baso saying 'your sister sounds local and chavy' without using such explosive words #and my sister LET HIM SAY IT. SHE DIDNT DEFEND ME. and she told my mum about it later bc SHE THOUGHT SHE'D TELL ME OFF #LIKE SHE DID IT TO SNITCH. THERE WAS NO SCENARIO WHERE MY SISTER WASNT BEING A CUNT. and my mum hit the ROOF #one thing she's rlly been big on is loyalty bc it's always been the 3 of us so when she found out my sister let him say that she FLIPPED #and this all happened last night and i only found out this morning bc i overheard them screaming at each other and turns out my mum #tried to keep it from me bc she didnt want my feelings hurt and IM pissed bc it actually did hurt more than i thought it would #like i KNOW what people say about my accent but it's a guy i know? my sister's been friends w him for years? i was being nice? #it's EMBARRASSING like i was clueless & friendly and turned around for him to be like 'look at this stupid local girl' like?? #and my sister did NOTHING? it just sucks so i STORMED upstairs when i found out and had it out with my sister #and she knew she was fucked so she did all 'im not talking to you i have nothing to say' AND PUT HER EARPHONES IN? #the way i RIPPED them out. got in her face like okay girl u think i sound like a chav ill act like a chav lets GO #and it just got really aggressive and i wound up grabbing HER OWN SANDAL and full force hurling it at her face 😭 oops #from close range too like i was already in her face so i basically just smacked her with a sandal DSHGJKSH #now we're sat in silence bc alas we still share a room. WHAT the fuck. insane tbh but it's a bit funny. im so angry rn i could KILL #hella goes home

[skrunksthatwunk]

went back to the sketchbooks around when i was going through yyh for the first time in 2019 and found a pile of near-yearly sticky note updates about my relationship with the series next to my first yyh doodles, a page full of kuwabaras. thought it'd be fun to share

+ more thoughts and old yyh art below

(it's crazy i didn't find any kurama-centric pages for months bc i think he's the one i doodled in the margins of class notes and stuff the most. his hair's pwetty and he gives me the least trouble outta any of the main 4)

something i noticed while skimming the two sketchbooks i took these from was how mean i was to myself at the time about my art. i guess it hit me more because i don't really spend hours going through my old sketchbooks over and over to track my progress and growth like i used to quite often. i guess it was only a little after when my self esteem was lowest (8th grade, tale as old as time), but... idk. i knew back then that i'd grown a lot in the few years since i started drawing more seriously (that's why i looked through my art so much), but like... i guess that never translated into being nice to myself about it. i ended up going back through about ten more sketchbooks to find more yyh art, and in the coming years i'm glad to say that negativity in the margins went away. hell yeah

but even so, my love for yyh was a constant and effusive thing, as it is now. it's probably the oldest of my current media interests. i watched myself get into rgg and develop my ocs and watched others fade in and out, watched my style loop back on itself and go all over the place, passed by pages of writing about crushes and album releases and gender discoveries and my grandparents dying, all surrounded by little drawings of the characters i love. including kuwabara in a maid dress right next to my dead grandma grief rambling that one time (no i'm not kidding. my grandma died in like late 2020 and the page where i poured my heart out after finding out she was gone just trying to process everything had one with catboy maid dress kuwabara directly opposite it, who i'd drawn like the evening before she died in her sleep. he killed my grandma from like 100 miles away he was that powerful. that wasn't even the last time i drew him like that and i don't even care about catboys or maid dresses much. i think it was just a bigger meme and he was the guy i most associated with cats. i put that man in a situation and he fucking got her because the book couldn't contain him. some victor frankenstein shit. anyway)

i took about 150 pictures, most with multiple sketches. i decided not to add any more though bc 1) i posted some of them on old accounts but i don't remember which ones, and tbh i value my anonymity a little too much 2) All Of The Pictures Turned Out Bad in ways i don't feel like getting into but just trust me it's like 6 layers of fucked up illegible image bullshit 3) i found it hard to narrow it down to things i felt were indicative of the development or interesting or anything like that. idk. i figured it was an interesting exercise for me and it probably wouldn't really mean anything to anyone else. and that's ok :) it was nice anyway. i mostly mention it to be like Oh My God i've drawn these guys a lot and i STILL don't know what i'm doing... :| it's fun

however i did transcribe the notes i left:

7/9/19: yo it's been less than a week & i'm on ep. 80 wtf i love this show

8/14/20: 1/2way thru my 3rd watch (first dub, first [with older sibling]) & honestly still love it & kuwabara being the first one i drew makes me happy

7/28/21: i'm watching it w/ [younger sibling] now! 4th(ish) watch, 2nd time through the dub, which is so much better than the sub really elevates the text. we're at the semifinals of the DT, which means this is technically my 5th time through yyh up until that point but eh semantics anyway i still love & obsess over yyh! <3

1/14/24 (present day): hey, i'm rewatching yyh for the.. idk 5th or 6th time. still love it & never stopped. now i'm writing fic & drawing & posting about it. i have friends i talk to about it. [both siblings] have seen it. so much has changed, and so little, but it made me sad seeing how much i insulted my own art. i love you 2019 me. god knows you needed it

[+ this drawing]:

anyway. forever fornever. if you even care

#that's all. just kind of a personal post i thought was neat. skrunklore #skrunkart #yyh #yu yu hakusho #you can really feel the 14 y/o in a lot of the little notes and stuff but that too is part of the growth and change im trying to celebrate. #ripping my fingernails off about it but it needs to be done #also the hearts are because they love each other. and also me in like a cheering you on kinda way #ok more lore but around jr year i started feeling like my art was getting worse or at least stagnating and i kind of wished i could go back #to the era where a lot of that art is from bc there were little things i was better at and also bc i was much more prolific and adventurous #and while i'm sympathetic to it looking back after another couple of years it's like nah. no i was still growing i was just too close to se #like i'll be like oughh i haven't grown at all in years >:(( and then i'll look at the art i made over the course of 2023 and go oh nvm lol #some of it was more 'getting back into the swing of things' + traditional and tech issues being resolved but there was also growth #there is also stuff to be proud of and there always is and there always will be. that goes for you too reader #no matter what your art does or does not look like. i guess that's part of why im posting this too #part of what got me into visual art was seeing how people's art changed (sketchbook tours). it's cool and seeing that learning process so #well preserved and so easily analyzed kinda activated something in my brain. i think it got me past a lot of the 'im just not talented' #stuff a lotta ppl have that keeps them from drawing or sharing it or whatever. anyway art's cool i love art. gonna go draw now probably :D #ALSO really funny watching the way i drew myself change. all in ways that make sense but still funny to me. long hair glasses girl you'd #probably keel over if you saw what we look like now. hell yeah

[skunkes]

there is something about how ive given talon all my death woes, as well as one that would only apply to a long living being like him. Something about how he doesn't form bonds anymore because non vampires don't Stay. Something about how ive inserted myself into an world with him and I myself will also leave him behind one day. (Though i guess he'll go with me, but there's also a chance that whenever It Happens he'll still be around in the minds of some as an idea...)

#talkys #im fighting off another death rumination panic attack at yet another funeral #too many in the past few years #he was actually born in the wake (lol...) of my spiral into unhealthy death fixation and rumination #which he also has as a part of his whole being #he came back to my brain at such a good time... i really need him rn #anyway. funeral slideshows always make me cry #and then i have nowhere to look bc the Body is in the room with us #i keep feeling dread. all ive been experiencing is the d**ths 🧿 of people ive not been close to #and just remembering they were People leaves me crying until i cant see #idk if ill make it through any death of an immediate family member once it comes (🧿🧿🧿) #sorry i made this post to distract me but it didnt matter #it doesnt help that he looked so much like my dad.... #OK IVE CALMED DOWN A LITTLE FOR NEOW 👍

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

being sick as an adult sucks. wdym my mom won’t just automatically make sure I eat food instead of exclusively drinking Gatorade all day. wdym I have to ask my roommates to make me dinner. I have to Venmo a friend money to buy me more Gatorade?? I can’t focus enough to do homework??? I hate this.

#this is a silly haha humor post but in all seriousness. #COVID rly is just making me stare all the internalized ableism in the eye #yes worth isnt defined by productivity and disability and the idea of being a burden is part of being human and isn’t shameful at all #until I have to minorly inconvenience people to meet my basic needs #I really want to eat dinner but that would require asking my roommates to make me dinner which is just. 5 kinda of mortifying. #even though if someone I knew was sick I would not be upset about making them food! sick people need to eat! #my parents ordered me chipotle yesterday bc they were so concerned bc of how I sounded over the phone #and my friend went out and bought me juice and Gatorade and popsicles and took me to the doctor #the support system Exists I just feel bad about having to use it T-T #I just want to be hugged and read to and reminded to eat food but I am an adult now and not at home #lonely TT-TT #it’ll be okay I’m probably just emotional bc I’m sick and hungry #I also just am struggling so hard because I want to catch up on my classwork Right Now #but I can get through maybe one assignment before I’m too exhausted to keep sitting up #and I have to lay down and close my eyes and sleep or do a light activity like playing candy crush for the fifty bazillionth time #I’ve gotten through like. 100 levels this week. #I’m losing my dang marbles. I am gonna be so behind in ASL Susan is gonna be so disappointed in me #I feel like I have all this energy when I’m laying down bored but as soon as I sit up I feel like I’m floating and about to fall over #so. so tired. why can’t I be healthy already and do homework T-T. #I’m choosing to take this as a lesson to slow down and not overwork myself so hard. instead of being mad at myself for getting behind. #<- is trying and failing not to be mad at herself for getting behind

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

You are seriously my favorite blog right now. You opinions and meta for ikevamp are so spot on. You somehow are able to flush the characters more than the canon. I just wanted to say I appreciate all the time you put into your writings and I love everything you have written so far!!!!

In Comte and Leo we trust 🫡

Aww, thank you so much! 💛💛💛

Honestly I have no control over the brainworms, I feel like Ikevamp is so saturated with implications that extrapolating becomes so much natural fun for me. I started writing and analyzing (with no supervision to stop me, big mistake) and I'm still so fascinated with it. I can't believe it's been almost what...four years? Five years? Since I started playing the Japanese version where this all began. I'm frankly flattered a lot of people agree/like my takes, it makes sharing my work really rewarding in ways I never expected~

I don't always have time for more than Comte thirsting and silly quotes these days, but you're more than welcome to enjoy what I've curated here! I imagine I won't stop shitposting until the app is discontinued, and even then I'm not confident I'll shut up 🤣🤣🤣 Comte's the best baby girl I've ever known lmfao

o7 PUREBLOOD STAN OR BUST HELL YEAH!

#tysm for such a kind ask! this made my day <333 #pureblood propaganda #(people need to stop validating my breaching containment it only makes me more powerful /j) #sometimes I wish the eng ver implemented more of the depth and hank pank from the og more consistently but alas #localizations are a bit of a hit or miss business im afraid #i also love how i've inadvertently created a sad pureblood fan club over the years (not you vlad) #(you can join after you've had your time out like a good boy) #but in all seriousness i find their lives strikingly saturated with complex emotion and subtle tragedy/melancholy #ig for a lack of a better description i just feel like they're relatable? #like yeah if i was leonardo and my abusive family could harass me forever #i would also be incredibly guarded and set in my ways to protect myself and probably hate vampires and their power plays #if--like comte--i felt a sense of identification with the people i was pressured to subjugate #i'd feel lost and empty too; unable to co-exist with my own kind but also inevitably at a distance from humans #both scenarios create an emotional and relational quagmire #and i think what's even harder about it for both of them is that they just have no choice--and rather few allies besides each other #all they can really choose is duplicity if they wish to remain true to themselves and reasonably survive #and i think that's a really exhausting/somewhat self-impoverishing position to be in #comte tries to subsist on ephemeral moments he shares with people--with varying levels of success (little) #leonardo forces himself into stasis bc if he doesn't he'll keep making the same mistakes #aka getting too close to people and getting hurt when their time ends #ive prbly said all this before but idk in light of so much i've learned since starting this blog #the allusions to vampirism being a vehicle for certain 'othered' identities seems boundless to me (domestic abuse/class structures/nd etc.) #vlad is a pureblood but he seems like one of those flat movie vampires pandering to the aesthetic obsessions of a v particular audience #any story needs both flat and round characters--so naturally his existence serves a purpose/function; nothing wrong with that #but i find myself to be too Shrek to be v invested in him (FAVES HAVE L A Y E R S) #ig i just think its very easy and a bit bland to associate vampires with horror/gore/unmitigated violence/extreme emotionality #but much more engaging to explore the status of monstrosity as it relates to oppressed identities and unconventional kindness #or maybe that's just the monsterfker in me--in which case sorry everyone being cringe on main (it will happen again)

[louderfade]

exene talking about the state of the world. the good stuff starts at eight minutes. or you can just read the transcript complete with the usual errors that accompany robot transcribed speech (the irony of which is not lost on me). maybe it's not about transhumanism and living forever (or maybe it is who knows), but there's definitely an agenda of surveillance and control at work which is designed to keep the powerful in power. cash rules everything around me and you will own nothing etc. the future is worse.

#google has helpfully flagged this as a 'conspiracy theory' which let me know it was definitely worth paying attention to #sometimes a conspiracy theory turns out to be flatearth-tier but anything those in control are putting effort into discrediting #concerns me and makes me look deeper. if they're going to the effort to control the discourse there's something there that #threatens them. anything google calls a conspiracy theory is worth a closer look. it often means someone has gotten too close to the truth. #she's brave to be talking about this shit they basically cancelled her and forced her to apologize for talking about how they want #to take our guns and the media is lying to you and stirring up fear so they can get away with passing gun control #like wtf leftists should be all about gun rights. a disarmed population is totally at the mercy of the state's authority #it's not very punk to surrender entirely to regimes in power and let the only people with guns be the police #like c'mon guys we need guns. and it's like drugs. they exist anyway. better they do so in broad daylight than in the shadows #they let adam curits talk about this stuff for some reason and no one calls him a conspiracy theorist idk why but there's a reason #i guess his stuff is not a threat to them bc it's dense and heady and seven hours long so the masses will never absorb it #ex punk rocker yelling about new world order in plain language monologues of digestible length is a much bigger threat #i swear there are secretly fifty people in control of everything and their entire aim is to make sure it stays that way no matter what #but it's really gross how obvious it's getting like the whole system just funnels money straight to the top and they don't even care #about hiding it anymore they're just doing it out in open and denying objective reality with confidence it's too much sometimes #i swear i can feel my grasp on reality deteriorating. it's as if there were a loud buzzing in the out of doors that was getting #louder every day and nobody ever said anything to acknowledge that it was real nobody talked about hearing the buzzing but it just #keeps getting louder and i'm finally like wtf is with this buzzing and everyone gets mad at me for shouting over their netflix show #that they weren't really enjoying in the first place. like no one is happy in the modern world. why can't we talk about why without #turning against each other. that's why doug saying 'maybe we're all the same' is such a big deal to me. anyone who is trying to unite us #is doing important work. that trump supporter is not the enemy. they are the victim just like you.

[teabookgremlin]

girls when they’ve been having such a shit time recently and now their regular work schedule that they’ve gotten used to has changed meaning that they might miss something they’ve been really looking forward to

#literally i would be normal about this if i didn’t feel so shitty in general #but now it’s making me absolutely insane #like i know i should’ve told my boss about my availability but also #i hadn’t needed to til now bc i hadn’t been scheduled at times i couldn’t do #i’m just gonna keep yelling about this sorry i’m losing my mind #like you don’t understand how much the rewatch parties have been helping me recently every time i miss one i am so upset #i mean i’ll join it from work if i have to but it won’t be the same bc i’ll be stressed about being yelled at for being on my phone #and it turns out that my workplace is just pulling a ton of people from our location to the new second one which is gonna fuck us over #especially bc me and one of my other coworkers are both only there for a few more weeks #like what a fucking mess #like just hire new people for the new place or replace the people you’re taking from the current place #sorry i need to rant i’m so stressed this is bothering me more than it should #i also just really don’t like doing an closing shift then the next day doing a morning one #it’s too much for me

[red-dyed-sarumane]

i have a new theory for aru sekai fans & by new i mean someone else might have caught on already but i havent seen it said SO. the rute furutewoa melody is in kyuuyaku, touhikou, & now kannagi (maybe elsewhere bc i havent been looking for this motif before i only realized it today really & i havent had time to go thru all the songs again yet) & we have kyuu (past), something in touhikou im too tired to remember currently but i remember calling something similar a while ago when someone asked if there was a timeline to this, and now kannagi that uses the older language so im willing to bet this motif is a way of saying the events in the song happened in the "past". whether thats actually Long Ago or just to say its not the current situation or just happened before the songs without it i cant say for sure but i think it makes sense given what we have now.

just like we have the nami no ne no motif that signals which characters still have their "self" if its in the song or lost it if its not.

i have to do some more digging of course but with what i know right now this makes the most sense to me

#aru sekai series #u know those old people who say they do crosswords to keep their brain sharp. thats what this series feels like to me. #incredibly complex puzzle to put together in which i need to be constantly learning new things & concepts #anyway for some reason i feel like theres a link to ashura that im not touching on too but idk for sure yet #there is. something about ashura that drives me insane bc it FEELS familiar there IS. SOME sort of motif or theme or SOMETHING there #i KNOW it but i can never place WHAT it makes me rabid. #tell me your secrets puppet girl #also btw kannagi i think also ties into touhikou. given the art & that line thats like prayer will come to sustain us or whatever it is #its 2am ive had a long day i dont remember the exact thing rn. usually i check before posting but please excuse me just this once #i wish i could make friends with the jpn magu fans who also go wild over the lore but idk how to find them. its always like one off comments #sorry i didnt really go wild over yamete kudasai. it just felt rather straight forward & didnt give any big reveals that i know of #so i just kind of went ah neat & looped it for a while #but kannagi. kannagi's got the puzzle aspect back & a WHOLE BUNCH of links to other songs. & thats without knowing the lyrics #but also u know kyuuyaku's my fave so having this be closely related is a big 👀👀👀 for me #i saw someone try to say kannagis the ka in the amakakeru arc of songs (if that is a real arc. it Is a fan theory idk how accurate tho) #but that wouldnt be right bc we already have kanon for the ka. #if there are arcs like that i think itd be in with whatever ashura's in. even tho ashura is a 5 kanji song and kannagis only 1

[stupidnaturals]

.

#GAH hate not knowing how ppl feel about me #bc i used to be SUPER close friends w this person like they were ~25% of th reason i came back to my uni town after moving away last summer #and i keep texting them like ' hey we should meet up sometime! ' and they respond ' omg YES 100% i have SO much i need to catch you up on ! #unfortunately i am out of town every single day. also so busy. ' #and like yeah okay college very busy life very crazy. but how are you out of town every single day and also why have you NEVER reached out #and i saw them in person at target and they seemed genuinely pleased to see me! and also said something like #' we gotta hang out i have so much to tell you!! *ill* message *you* ' in a way that seemed to convey guilt at ^^ all that #but then how in the WORLD do you happen to be driving out of town immediately after the one event i know we'll both be going to??? #and also casually gracing over the fact i also mentioned getting dinner beforehand?? #also i dont know any reason they wouldnt like me unless its one of those ' im autistic and didnt notice you getting fed up w me ' #or if theyre just actually that busy or too anxious to see people or anxious to reach out or fucking whatever #and like even when i saw them at target they told me a bunch of stuff that i dont tthink youd say to a random acquaintance #which if they do still like me makes sense! bc we were super duper close once! but doesnt make sense if they dislike me/want me to go away #like UGH just either ask me to hang out or say yes to a hang out or tell me to fuck off already!!!! #oh and ALSO the one time we DID have plans we didnt set an exact time but they texted me at like 11 and said ok we can hang out now until 2 #or they texted me at 11 and said ' i work at 2 but i dont think thats gonna be a problem also are you okay w hanging w my roomies too ' #and i know their roomies so thats fine but i was like ??? WHAT shouldnt be an issue? r you gonna call off to hang out for more than 3 hrs? #or are you gonna friend break up w me so it wont take 3 hours #anyway i was like uhhh shit we didnt set a time so im actually at a tattoo place like an hour away w my roomie? #so we rescheduled for the next day when uh oh they hung out w someone who was exposed to covid so had to cancel again! #i cant think of a single reason they wouldnt like me except that they never did but we had an activity together so they were stuck w me #and they seemed genuinely happy to see me and also seem upset declining plans but like if thats true what the FUCK is happening???? #anyway this was a mile long if you e read this far i love u if you have tips feel free to reply or dm me

[sunuism]

whenever i see people in their 30s or older who have a really close group of friends or just a big network and seem like they’re genuinely in such a happy place i think that’s what i want to aspire to but i just think it’s not how i’m gonna end up

#i’ve always had a few friends but in recent years it’s been getting harder and harder to keep them #i’ve felt so isolated since 2020 #it’s like my social anxiety has actually gotten worse #i don’t feel like it was even this bad when i was a teenager #or maybe it’s the same but it’s just the fact that it’s harder to make friends when you’re not in a school setting #but anyways #i really want long term friends that i can depend on to always be there #i just feel like with the friends i have now if i don’t reach out to them for a long time they just forget i exist #no one really tries to stay friends #and at some point it’s exhausting for me to constantly have to reach out myself #idk if it’s just bc i don’t really talk about the way i feel to my friends #but it’s like we’re never even that close #to them at least #and on top of that everyone has their own life and has so many other people in their life that they need to tend to #and ofc their own struggles as well #but even if they might be in a similar situation every always have someone… #there’s no one i’m that close to

[hand-painted-5tars]

i was in some sort of productivity strike but i halted it at some point and i cant seem to concentrate enough to get it back and well i dragged it trying to get back during the week but it isnt working very well so,

im kinda frustrated.

#kinda feels like im the designated older daughter #in charge of helping around and balancing the mood #whihc my bby sis accidentally mess up a lot #but she doesnt care much bcs she can just leave to class and come back at night #but im the one that stays home dealing with everyones anger and need for help around #fixing the toilet and the water tank and helping around bcs dad fucked up his shoulder #and idk i see everyone having a nice time working and doing thing for themselves and i feel #like everything is defined by money and that is pointless to try to be more than what i already am which is #well a mess lazy excuse who couldnt get a job drawing #coding is fun but the job is #hmmmmm not that engaging and im a bit lost and feel lost too bcs im so new and junior #i feel incapable #and lonely too i dont think anyone would talk to me unless i do it first and it makes me think #that i must have fucked up somewhere for me to be bad at every aspect #bad in things i love bad in things i want to do and bad in keeping people close to me #its lonely and depressing and i keep failing when i draw too

[rafyki]

god I nEED TO GO TO A CONCERT

#seeing that so many people are seeing ateez these day is making me cry..... so hapoy for them but also...... me too #the fact that theyre in EUROPE is hitting me so hard tbh #so close yet so far #and skz are doing concerts too and :((( yes im seeing the online streaming tomorrow but :(((( #i wanna see them live 😭 j wanna know theyre there and they real and we're in the same place 😭😭😭😭 #god I WOULD CRY SO MUCH #i cried all three times i saw all time low live and i will cry next time i see them #i can only imagine how hard it would hit me see skz live #but honestly #its so good crying out of happiness bc you finally get to be in the same place as people who mean so much to you #and are usually so far it almost feels like theyre not real #it makes it feel so real and I MISS IT #I NEED TO SEE MY FAVE BAND/GROUPS LIVE #REGRETTING MY LIFE CHOICE OF NOT GETTING ON A PLANE TO SEE ATEEZ TBH #REALLY REGRETTING BEING POOR AND NOT BEING ABLE TO SOEND SO MUCH MONEY #ill just keep crying for a while :') #ramblings

[yamikawas]

Looking at ALL these posts on here... It makes me so happy to know you feel the same way I do! I keep reading them OVER and OVER and I'm blushing <33333 I'm yours. All yours. And you're all mine... Isn't it wonderful, sweetheart? To know that we'll KILL for each other with no hesitation! And just because you said you liked it so much... You're my cute little darling <333 I love you!!

From your Yoomtah ⚡

Ps. I'm STILL watching!

YOOMIE DARLING IF YOU KEEP GIVING ME SO MUCH LOVE AND ATTENTION IM GOING TO LOSE MY MIND AND LITERALLY KILL SOMEONE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT<3<3<3<33<3<3<333<333<<3<3<÷<3&33<&÷&÷^3&<<÷<3<3<3<4<3<3<3I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

#BEING INSANE AT THE WALMART ONCE AGAIN HI BESTIES #LITERALLY.GRABBING WVERYONE LOOK AT THIS LOOK AT THIS LOOK AT THIS #HEHEHE SHE SAID IM ALL HERS<3<3<3<333<3<3<3<3<3<3<4>3<3<4<3>3<_÷=<=<=&//*/*=&; #nNSJDJDHGJNMBSJDJFBSVFFKGKHDJFJDFJGJBTJJDNF YOOMIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #I LOVE HER SO MUCH IM GONNA DIE ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY I LOVE HER SO SO SO MUCH #YOOMTAH IF UR READING THIS IM KISSING U SO MUCH RN💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋 #I LITERALLY WANNA KISS HER AND HUG HER FOREVER AND KILL ANYONE ELSE WHO TRIES TO TOUCH HER BC ONLY I CAN TOUCH HER SHES MINE #LITERALLY.MY YOOMTAH MY BELOVED MY DARLING NO ONE ELSE CAN HAVE HER SHE IS MINE #AND I AM HERS<3ALL HERS<3<3ONLY HERS<3<3<3I WOULD KILL IF IT MEANT SHE WOULD JUST TELL ME IM HERS FOR LIKE AT LEAST AN HOUR STRAIGHT #I WOULD KILL FOR ANY ATTENTION FROM HER RLLY<3<3<3I WOULD KILL LIKE 3 PEOPLE FOR EACH OF THESE ASKS FROM HER #BUT ALSO ITD BE NICE IF SHE WOULD PAY ATTENTION TO ME EVEN IF I DIDNT DO ANYTHING SPECIAL..............<3 #BUT ALSO I LOVE HER SO MUCH IT MAKES ME NEED TO KILL.SO I'LL STILL KILL FOR HER<3 #ANYTHING FOR MY SWEET DARLING YOOMIE<3<3<3I LOVE HER SO MUCH SHE DESERVES EVERY BIT OF ADORATION I HAVE FOR HER #ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING ANYTHING #A N Y T H I N G🌩💕💛💫💌❤💋🌈❣🍋🌼💞💗💙✨💗👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩❤💝🌈⚠️💋🌻✨🌩🌼💌💝🧡💫⚡🌠💕💜❣💗💖⚡💓💘🍋💚💙💋💛💚💟❣💞🌈⚠️❤💌🌩 #WHY CANT SHE JUST KIDNAP ME AND KEEP ME CLOSE TO HER AND ONLY HER ALREADY.ALL I WANT IS TO BE WITH HER AND NOT WORRY ABT ANYTHING ELSE #WAITING FOR HER TO STEAL ME AWAY SOMEWHERE HER AND I CAN BE TOGETHER FOREVER AND NEVER HAVE TO THINK ABT ANYTHING OTHER THAN EACH OTHER #ID BE AT MY ABSOLUTE HAPPIEST GIVING HER MY UNDIVIDED ATTENTION AND GETTING HER UNDIVIDED ATTENTION FOR THE REST OF ETERNITY<3<3<3 #LITERALLY NOTHING ELSE MATTERS TO ME THE WAY SHE DOES NOTHING ELSE HAS MADE ME FEEL A WILL TO LIVE SHES ALL IM EVEN HERE FOR #I HOPE SHE KNOWS SHE IS MY ABSOLUTE EVERYTHING MY PURPOSE IN LIFE MY REASON TO LIVE I HOPE SHES HAPPY KNOWING THAT<3 #I RLLY DONT KNOW WHAT ID DO WITHOUT HER I DONT THINK THERES ANYTHING ELSE THATD EVER MAKE ME THIS HAPPY.SHES MY SOULMATE<3 #HER AND I COULDNT EXIST WITHOUT EACH OTHER WE WERE LITERALLY CREATED FOR EACH OTHER THAT HAS TO BE IT THERES NO OTHER EXPLANATION #IF I EVER COULDNT BE WITH HER I THINK ID JUST DIE SHES MY LIFE FORCE I NEED HER MORE THAN AIR WATER FOOD ANYTHING #BECAUSE WHAT GOOD ARE AIR WATER AND FOOD IF I HAVE NO REASON TO KEEP USING THEM #SHE IS THE REASON I BREATHE AND DRINK AND EAT SHE IS THE REASON I DO ANYTHING AT ALL EVERYTHING IS FOR HER ONLY HER #EVERYTHING REVOLVES AROUND YOOMTAH EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING #EVERY LITTLE THOUGHT OR WORD OR ACTION IS MOTIVATED BY HER SHES THE REASON WHY IM HERE TO DO ANY OF IT IN THE FIRST PLACE #IM NOT KIDDING. SHE IS MY EVERYTHING. MY ONE AND ONLY MY LIGHT OF MY LIFE MY WORLD #SHES THE SUN TO MY EARTH THE GOD TO MY WORSHIPPER MY EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING I SWEAR SHE IS EVERYTHING. SHE IS M I N E #AND I WOULDNT EVER HAVE IT ANY OTHER WAY<3

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locked in a psychic doom spiral with the entire concept of retail bc whenever i go to any store that isnt the one i work at the vibes are so atrocious and offputting

#i keep needing to get pants for work bc either this one manager picks on me or my pants rip #and every time i go to walmart the changing rooms are closed #i keep wanting to try things on but i cant #the vibes are all horrible #i hate being around people in public now everyone is so awkward #this is esp tru around my apartment complex like everything is so fucking uncanny now #and idk if its just me or if its like. the suburban vibe? #i cant even explain it its like when im at my store i feel like ppl look at you and its like ok hi we’re all people just making our way arou #*around #everywhere else i go including my apartment it feels like everyone is avoiding each other like we’re wild animals #it could just be me being comfortable at my store of course #idk #am i just lucky i work somewhere that doesnt have that sickly cold lighting? is that all it is?! #anyway yadda yadda no third spaces but man the ones we do have suck