#like their bond is deeper than the mark of cain bond he has with amara

[disabled-dean]

Controversial take but I'm gonna come out and say it- Dean knew before cas

#listen for me season 11 is the real /oh/ moment for dean #and whike i fulky believe that cas wanted him and desired him and knee that he woukd die for him and guve up everything #he hasn't boiled that down into what it really was #i think it's simply a softer moment to go from someine being your religion #and realizing that that's love #also it just compels me so extremely that cas' feelings mught be too big for him to know what they are #and that dean might have gotten to a place of emotional awareness by that point that he can slow things down #and see them fir what they are #also there's something about the amara storyline that just drives home the idea that dean is being made to feel like he's falling in love #but it isnt working because it dosen't feel the eay he does about cas #like their bond is deeper than the mark of cain bond he has with amara #anyways i think it's very likely that he represses the hell out of this following the widower arc because of how much that split him open #but their is something about jackles performance in later seasons that is just so resigned #like there's an intrinsic weight there #also cas should be allowed to be more feral more often #and wouldn't be interesting if it's his love for jack that makes him go /oh/ #because that is so much softer and more simple #like that's also what love feels like #and it kind if cuts through the chaos of these big unnamed feelings #plus. the intrigue. the heartbreak. the drama. #destiel #deancas #spn