#like. hopefully if i go through said depression I can outlet properly or at least stay offline.

[fairymint]

alright, I met the boobie doctor™️;

exact date's to be scheduled, but we're looking at sometime around Feb-March ish for the next semi-hiatus. I'm probably gonna spend my month off catching up on shows tbh!

beforehand, I'll probably focus on video games and bigger plots in RP; though will still be focusing on mutuals for the sake of my mental health, rather than 'events'. I'll ease back into RP post-op at my own discretion; between being conked out early on and a chance of temporary hormonal depression, I'm gonna have to ease up until reality sinks in then just to be on the safe side, before or parallel to any retcons I decide to make for Felix. We're also easing back into the multifandom shit with the animal crossing/etc. muses, just because it's time, my hyperfixations are back to jumping around ADHD style, totally unrelated. I'm shooting for more 'balance' this time around instead of pokemon or nopokemon, lmfao-

I'm about to crash and take a nap, after all that, so I'll be on once I'm refreshed, got plenty of time off until Friday~

#ooc. #surgery mention #trans talk. #long post #this year's been a rough one mentally in short bursts so. yeah i am at that point of enforcing rule 1 aka Be Nice and blocking as needed. #like. hopefully if i go through said depression I can outlet properly or at least stay offline. #regardless though due to my npd/low empathy like. when i actually get mad i get insanely livid. #but we are managing 💅🏼 and I am bigger than that so nipping shit in the bud and picking my battles. #not making myself smaller for others' sake anymore. shit ain't needed and my priority rn is being a source of comfort to my peers. #that said i. feel preemptive relief now. Got a basic plan and my transition's almost 'over'. in the sense of big steps. #i can breathe some fuckin relief and freedom #....after my ass sleeps fft. gnight. naptime #ask to tag

[theicyfresh]

You give off vibes of being really shallo tbh because u only seem to care about sex and how mentally screwed you are, but you're not getting help. Ur blog seems to be centered around edgyness and immaturity. But U also seem like u're trying to be a good guy, just only in bed

I’m sorry that’s the vibe you’ve gotten from me, I can see how aspects of my blog would describe me being into sex or about how i’m screwed up. But I think it’s a far far shot to say those are the only things I care about. Perhaps it’s just what i’m focusing on recently as i’ve been stressed as fuck by moving/finals/breakup and I have an unhealthy default to sex/flirting that I’m working on. I don’t see edgy anywhere on my blog lol. Was it the light blue background? Color festival profile picture? RvB Fandom header? I’m scrolling through my own posts and like, everything’s jokes. Everything is things that make me smile or have a connection to my life or made me feel some sort of interesting emotion or reminded me of my friends. I’m still scrolling and the closest I’ve found to ‘edgy’ is a Deadpool post about not caring about politically correct, but I’d hope that’s not what you’re referring to because the actual contents of the responses described how that’s not how Deadpool is at all and how there are fanboys that have completely fucked perceptions. Immature? Hell yeah I am, I’m surprisingly immature and lucky as hell the world hasn’t beaten that out of me. Too many of my friends grew up too goddamn quickly and it makes me sad when I see people forced to be more mature than they’re expected. Plus this is goddamn tumblr, the medium is different here than Facebook or LinkedIn or Snapchat it’s kinda an immature outlet. The difference is in my actual life or in interactions with me I’ll really kinda mirror you in maturity levels in order to ease interactions or be as mature as I need to be in most situations.I seem like i’m trying to be a good guy, just only in bed. Well to support that it is a goal of mine to be the best I can be in bed and continually improve (Very mixed results). To quash that have you actually like.. seen my blog? There are quite a few posts just apologizing or in general caring about the larger impact interactions with people can have on their emotions and psychology. There are a lot of posts just encouraging mental/emotional healing. About helping others feel good in ways that have nothing to do with physical. Complementing people, reading people, reasons to stay alive, “it’s going to get better” sort of messages. Oh hey I found a literal edgelord post which is like, when depressive thoughts get bitchslapped down, hopefully that’s not what you’re talking about cause the post is acknowledging those thoughts happen (And they do happen with me, they’re intrusive thoughts) but also that you can shove them away or get so numb you don’t react properly anymore. I’m also very concerned about your writing level, that and your rudimentary skewed reading of my blog kinda leads me to believe you’re not great at getting vibes and once they’re perceived you don’t really change them much but rather use them as a colored lens to view things in the future. I mean that or you’re a troll, since a majority of what you’ve said is incomplete at best and I know at least one person is following me who personally derives joy from needling me in certain ways. Oh yeah also you’ve got no idea if i’m gettin help man? Like zero clue