#ln qi sili

[wedreamedlove]

We have now collected all of the men's Dreamland houses. I'm not sure how we're supposed to interpret these other than what they subconsciously prioritize in their "home" I guess?

In order it goes:

Sariel

Osborn

Evan

Charlie

Jesse

Their actual homes were revealed in the artbook here and are now used in-game as well.

#light and night #光与夜之恋 #ln osborn #ln evan #ln charlie #ln sariel #ln jesse #ln xiao yi #ln lu chen #ln qi sili #ln xia mingxing #ln zha lisu

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Tempted Heart PV

#light and night #otome #qi sili #xia mingxing #zha li su #lu chen #xiao yi #ln #ln sariel #ln jesse #ln charlie #ln evan #ln osborn #ln gifset #my gifset

[otomeminion]

i think sariel is best admired from afar since he seems so unapproachable in the story so far

#Light and Night #Sariel #Qi Sili #光与夜之恋 #the art in LN is so damn amazing

[wedreamedlove]

Hello! what are the LN men flower motifs? how do they correspond to them?

OSBORN = IRIS (鸢尾花)

The monsoon of early summer climbs onto the window sill, and the iris prepares to bloom.

in china, irises represent messengers of love and long-lasting longing. in europe, it symbolizes light and freedom. in egypt, it symbolizes strength and eloquence. blue irises in particular represent a pure and unadorned love.

EVAN = DATURA (曼陀罗花)

Someone like him should not possess the light.

daturas, also known as devil's trumpet, are a genus of highly poisonous plants that belong to the nightshade family. red ones in particular mean a bloody love... haha. i think it's appropriate for this man's intensity.

SARIEL = EPIPHYLLUM (昙花)

At the end of life, he thought on how he never truly appreciated the course of a Queen of the Night's bloom, and suddenly he felt intensely unreconciled.

queen of the night's have always represented the fleeting moment of eternal beauty because they bloom once a year and only for one night. this one is a bit more abstract and, at the beginning of the game, it fits Sariel because of how his degeneration was going to make him die within the year. now though, i think it fits the "fleeting" moment Sariel and the heroine have together because of their different lifespan. he will outlive her.

CHARLIE = CLEMATIS (铁线莲)

Please forgive me for I have sinned because of you.

clematis represent nobility, a beautiful heart, and change. in china, they're also seen to symbolize loyalty, tenacity, and steadfastness. it fits when we think of how Charlie continues to persist in saving people and the world when it's so dark.

JESSE = PERUVIAN LILY (六出花)

To him, there's nothing happier than reuniting with her again!

it has a very obvious meaning in relation to Jesse, the joy and expectation of meeting again! orange ones in particular though can also symbolize passion, an awakening, and uplifting feelings.

#answered asks #light and night #光与夜之恋 #ln osborn #ln evan #ln charlie #ln sariel #ln jesse #ln xiao yi #ln lu chen #ln qi sili #ln zha lisu #ln xia mingxing

[wedreamedlove]

If mc had an ex who wanted to her back, how the guys deal with this ex would they straight fistfight this person or give them a warning to stay in their limit?

i grouped these two requests together since they're similar but, unfortunately, the scenarios i came up with for the men means they're already in a relationship. sorry, second anon!

You had just stepped out of a restaurant together with your boyfriend after having a dinner date when you saw the last person you would have expected—or wanted—to see here, your ex. His eyes lit up the moment he saw you and, before you could react, he rushed up to you and unleashed a torrent of apologies, begged you to forgive him, and asked you to give him a second chance. He had a look of contrition on his haggard face and it was clear that, in this period of time after you broke up, he wasn't living well. If it were anyone else, you might have felt a smidgen of sympathy for them but... You recalled how it was his cheating that made you break up with him and how long it took for that wound to heal enough for you to give another relationship a chance. You recalled those sleepless nights you spent crying and doubting your self-worth, the tossing and turning as anxiety wormed its way through you when other men showed interest in you, and the constant uncertainty of whether or not you would be betrayed again. You curled your fingers into your hand to hide their trembling as you rejected your ex and tried to leave with your boyfriend. Maybe your ex saw that he really lost his second chance and had no way of recovering things that he decided to burn all his bridges, or maybe he wanted to drag you down into the same miserable state that he was in, because as you walked away you heard him yell this out. "Only reason I slept with another girl was because you never put out. You're just a boring old hag! Don't come crawling back to me when that man next to you realizes you're nothing special and dumps you. Then you'll regret what you said today!" You felt as if all the blood drained from your face and extremities, rushing back into your heart as it clenched around a barely healed wound that began to seep again, and your fingers and feet chilled into numbness. At the same time, the man next to you stilled.

OSBORN

It was the rapid descent of air pressure around Osborn that snapped you out of your numb state and you stumbled forward to catch the edge of Osborn's sleeve when you saw him take a threatening step forward.

The second Osborn felt your tug he paused again and then pulled his sleeve out of your hand gently so that he could grip your hand. He frowned at how cold your hand was before he squeezed the tips of your fingers and then curled his palm around them, enveloping them in his warmth. Only then did he turn his head back to your ex and, although you couldn't see the look in Osborn's eyes due to being half a step behind, you had a rough idea of how vicious they were because your ex flinched back before he forcibly straightened his spine as if he just realized what he did and wanted to look tough.

"Did she ask?"

Despite his aggressive posture and expression, Osborn's voice was casual, as if he were just having an everyday conversation.

"What?" Your ex said, not following.

"I said, did she ask for your reason? For that matter, don't speak for me either. I'm the lucky one to be accepted by her and have her in my life. I'm also glad she didn't give you a second chance because I don't take kindly to rivals. You can try to compete with me for her favor, but be warned that I'm neither patient nor tolerant."

You don't know how Osborn managed it, since his voice was still light, but those last words were delivered in a way which made you think that if Osborn was riding his motorcycle right now he would have ran your ex over a thousand times already.

Your ex seemed to smell the same gunpowder smoke of danger delivered in those words because he paled.

Osborn gave him a curt nod in farewell except, due to his taller stature, his lowered glance carried a disdainful look. After that, he wrapped an arm around your shoulders to turn you and propel you to walk with him in the direction of his motorcycle.

But then, as if he just remembered something, Osborn glanced over his shoulder again to your ex. "Oh, one last thing, if I ever hear you talk about her like that again then I hope you enjoy your liquid diet in the future."

EVAN

Something heavy landed on your shoulders and, immediately, you were enveloped in the lingering warmth on Evan's coat and the familiar smell of wormwood.

"That's impossible," Evan spoke slowly as he fixed his cuffs that had become disheveled when he removed his coat, making the expensive cufflinks catch the street lights and glimmer. "After all, I was the one who pursued her for a long time before she deigned to give me the honor of accepting my courtship."

It was only after he adjusted his cuffs that Evan glanced indifferently at your ex, freezing the words in the man's mouth, before he looked towards the road where Zhou Yan had already pulled up in a Bentley and came out to open the back door for the both of you.

"Now, if that's all you have to say, I'm afraid there's no need for further conversation. Shall we?" Evan directed his last words to you and offered his arm.

You quietly took it and were guided to the car where he placed his hand at the top of the door to protect your head as you got inside before he slid in as well and allowed Zhou Yan to shut the door and return to the driver's seat where he began to drive without another word.

As you reflected on the events that just happened and how smoothly everything went a thought suddenly occurred to you. "Evan, when did you have Zhou Yan start waiting on you like that?"

Before Evan could respond, you heard Zhou Yan reply from the front of the car. "I took it upon myself to elevate the Young Master's status."

It took a moment to understand his words and then you couldn't stop the laughter that escaped your lips. To think that Zhou Yan and Evan would tacitly work together to crush your ex through a silent show of force via wealth, power, and status.

"Thank you, Zhou Yan." You looked towards the driver's seat and momentarily met Zhou Yan's eyes as he glanced at you through the rearview mirror.

"It was a trivial matter, Miss."

A squeeze on your hand had you turning your attention back to Evan and while there was no emotion on his face other than gentleness and the amusement at the corner of his eyes, somehow you could still understand that he was seeking praise too and so you leaned your head on his shoulder with a smile. "And thank you too, Evan, for defending me."

SARIEL

"It appears you aren't too hopeless if your tastes can improve so much in such a short time."

Sariel's dry words pierced the numbness that settled on you and the moment his words registered in your mind you spun towards him. "Hey! We're all allowed to make mistakes in our youth."

"Mm, and luckily you're a quick learner or else I wouldn't have accepted you as my student."

Your ex watched the two of you banter in disbelief. "Hey! Are you two ignoring me?!"

Sariel's eyes cut over and their gold shine as well as the contraction of his pupils into slits in the bright lights from the front of the restaurant and street lights hinted at just enough strangeness that your ex was given pause.

"You're still around? Seeing as how your lack of sense and judgment reveals your single operating brain cell, it would be a waste of our breath to talk to you."

Sariel grabbed your hand, interlocking your fingers and his together, and then pulled you away to walk towards his parked car. Although he didn't say anything else, the grip that was tighter than usual around your hand seemed to be a silent promise that he would never let go first.

CHARLIE

Charlie's low and startled exclamation caught your and your ex's attention.

You both looked over to see Charlie staring at your ex with an abnormal intensity before he suddenly strode over. This abrupt action caused your ex to take a step back in surprise and clench his hands into fists in preparation to defend himself. For a second, you also wondered if Charlie was going to start something but instead Charlie stopped a foot away and re-examined your ex up and down.

"You're displaying symptoms of being completely blind and yet, as far as I can see, there's nothing physically wrong with your eyes. This is a medical marvel. Sir, how many fingers am I holding up?"

You watched, speechless but also on the verge of laughter, as Charlie really did lift up three fingers in front of your ex's eyes and move them from side to side. "Charlie!"

"My apologies, fiancée, I'll be right there." Charlie glanced over his shoulder at you before he turned back to your ex and took out his business card to slide into the other man's chest pocket. "I highly recommend you get yourself examined at this hospital and, in fact, I'd love to be your attending doctor. Just ask for Dr. Zha at the counter. I'll make sure you leave the hospital with clear vision."

Charlie emphasized the last three words like a threat and, with a standard and blinding smile, returned to your side to take your hand to put on the crook of his arm before he led you away, leaving a flabbergasted and somewhat frightened ex behind.

JESSE

It only seemed to take a blink before Jesse was in front of your ex and throwing a punch to his face while his other hand gripped the man's collar.

"Say that again, I dare you," Jesse snarled.

You startled. "Jesse!"

When Jesse looked back, you couldn't help but inhale sharply at the sheer rage in his emerald eyes. In your memories, while he would naturally have his own bouts of negative emotions, the majority of the time he was that ray of sunshine who always seemed to be smiling around you. It was rare to see him this angry and rarer to see him angered to the point of acting on it.

"Don't. He's not worth it." You kept your voice level in order to coax Jesse to calm down.

Jesse tightened his grip on the man's collar, making the muscles in his arm bunch up visibly even underneath his sleeve, before—after a tense breath—he released your ex with a shove. Your ex stumbled back and fell onto his bottom, coughing and swearing.

In rough, jerky movements, Jesse pulled out his wallet and took out bills to throw onto your ex. "For your medical bills. But if I ever see you near her again, I won't let you off as easily as this..."

When Jesse came back, you grabbed his hand and quickly pulled him away. It was only when you walked far enough away and you couldn't see your ex that you pulled up Jesse's hand to examine it, although it looked fine except for being a bit red. "Did you hurt yourself punching him?"

Jesse pouted, "Ow, now that you mention it, it hurts a lot and I think it needs a kiss to get better."

You laughed somewhat angrily and rapped your free hand on his forehead. "Serves you right for punching people indiscriminately."

Jesse flipped around his hand that was held to grab your hand tightly before he pulled you into his arms and lowered his head to rub it against the side of your temple. "I couldn't just let him say that about you."

"There were better ways to handle that situation. You can't just hit people. Remember, you're a public figure now!"

Jesse's words, when he spoke, seemed to come out in a sigh. "When it comes to you, I can't keep calm."

#answered asks #light and night #光与夜之恋 #ln osborn #ln charlie #ln evan #ln sariel #ln jesse #ln xiao yi #ln lu chen #ln qi sili #ln zha lisu #ln xia mingxing

[wedreamedlove]

【Light and Night: The Turmoil of Great Yao】

The heavens are unpredictable, destiny changes too easily; A subtle power grows, turbulent changes occur suddenly. Armored horses, mighty soldiers; smoke in all directions; The world enters a dream, with whom are you with? The dragon clears the way, soaring high into the sky; Supported by the common people, the world revolves around you. The imperial court weighs heavily, a palace of jade beauty; The world enters a dream, they knowingly go with you.

#light and night #光与夜之恋 #ln osborn #ln evan #ln charlie #ln sariel #ln jesse #ln xiao yi #ln lu chen #ln qi sili #ln zha lisu #ln xia mingxing #my translations

[wedreamedlove]

【Light and Night: Year-End War】

Last night, the Warson annual party grandly opened. Thirty minutes before entry, five ordinary citizens of Guang Qi City came prepared, gathered at the venue entrance, and the year-end war raised its curtain like this… Who will be the victor of this battle in the end? Please watch the live video sent back to us by an unknown employee of the Guang Qi City TV Station—

#light and night #光与夜之恋 #ln osborn #ln evan #ln charlie #ln sariel #ln jesse #ln xiao yi #ln lu chen #ln qi sili #ln zha lisu #ln xia mingxing #my translations

[wedreamedlove]

I hold your hand with the intention to let you slowly know my heart. On this day overflowing with confessions, Blue Star invites the men to “make a heart” to convey their feelings to you. Love is an utterance that never tires. After receiving these feelings, how do you wish to respond to him?

Happy 520 everyone!

When you read out the numbers 5-2-0 in Chinese, it sounds like you’re saying “I love you”, and so Chinese otome games love to celebrate May 20th.

#光与夜之恋 #light and night #LN Osborn #LN Evan #LN Charlie #LN sariel #LN Jesse #LN Xiao Yi #LN Lu Chen #ln zha lisu #LN qi sili #LN Xia Mingxing #My translations

[wedreamedlove]

These are pictures I took from the Light and Night artbook of all the men’s houses. Osborn’s actually depicts his secret base and not his apartment in the city. In order it goes:

Osborn

Evan

Sariel

Charlie

Jesse

#光与夜之恋 #light and night #LN Osborn #LN Evan #LN Charlie #LN sariel #LN Jesse #LN Xiao Yi #LN Lu Chen #ln zha lisu #LN qi sili #LN Xia Mingxing

[wedreamedlove]

To Live In A World - Light & Night Group Essay

Light and Night has an 18+ rating in China but, in my opinion, it's not for sexually suggestive scenes, it's for the topics they bring up that only individuals with solid worldviews can appreciate and discuss. One topic that comes up again and again is how an individual lives in the world: what makes someone choose to leave and what makes someone keep going?

Out of the 5 male leads in Light and Night, Sariel, Evan, and Osborn have tried to kill themselves. Charlie cannot even conceive of the idea of suicide, but he also discusses this topic and has his own coping methods to deal with suffering. Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately, Jesse has the standard response that he can't give up on everything because of his responsibilities, his attachments, and his loved ones [SSR Prairie Fire DATE].

Trigger warning for discussions about suicide. Spoilers up to Chapter 19 and Charlie's 2023 birthday.

[SSR Escaping Into Dusk DATE]

Evan: "Do you know how to meet a mermaid?" His tone sounded like he was asking someone a question, but also like he was simply telling the opening of a story. Evan: "You have to swim to the bottom of the ocean—there it will turn pitch-black and blue skies will become a memory." Evan: "When you lie down in that silence and decide to become a part of it, mermaids will appear." Evan: "If your love is sincere and pure enough, they will accept you and take you away forever."

This story comes from The Big Blue and, in the context of Evan's date, refers to committing suicide. I think it's only fitting to start this essay with this haunting metaphor, and this also happens to be one of the times Evan tried to commit suicide during the period of his life when he enjoyed freediving.

TO LIVE IS TO SUFFER—

Since Evan opened this essay, we'll continue to talk about him. First, to understand what could drive someone to commit suicide, I will summarize Evan's background. He was born into a caring nuclear family that quickly disintegrated and so, at the tender age of 5, he lost the love and protection of both parents. Right after that, he was forced to go through the brutal training all Blood Clan members go through, such as survival training in the woods and the indoctrination of their superiority.

[SSR Secrets in the Shade DATE]

Evan: Yes, it was when I was a child and driven into the woods for the first time. Evan: I witnessed wild beasts hunting and escaped from the mouth of a snake. I felt that the forest was full of dangers and only wished to get out of there quickly. Evan: And, just when I was hungry and exhausted, I saw a bamboo mushroom. Evan: At the time, I didn't know what it was and whether or not it was poisonous. I looked at it and thought hopelessly that I might as well pluck it and eat it, and resign myself to my fate.

[SSR Illusionary Light - 14 Years Ago Fall TRAJECTORY]

I felt my pulse beating, ba-dump, ba-dump—and so I aimed the screwdriver at it and stabbed down hard. The second the blood spurted out I heard the sound of my soul drilling out too. It cheered and sang for the freedom and sunlight it waited for so long. I was a bit happy, because I discovered that my heavy body was gradually turning light. That feeling of being able to fly even without wings was addictive. The smell of blood was a strong fragrance and when it dripped onto the mud it even blossomed as a vivid flower. [...] This time no one would be able to stop my footsteps. When the blood ran out, I would be free.

[SSR Against One's Heart - 11 Years Ago Spring TRAJECTORY]

Whenever my body was spread open to be seasoned, I always prayed in my heart for rot to come. I think I would greet it with extraordinary calm and even a small smile. Of course, I would allow myself to retain a bit of sadness and this would be my last reverence and friendliness to life. I held this thought until the first spot of mold appeared on my body—I meant the fresh and still bleeding bowl-sized wound in my chest, large enough that my heart could almost fall out. There was no moment closer to death than now, however a long-lost fear suddenly grew crazily in my body until, in the end, I was defeated. I watched myself stuff cotton balls into my body, along with all my obsessions and wickedness, and the blood stuck them together, forming a new piece of flesh of its own. If death happened to arrive at this moment, he would surely laugh at my hypocrisy and cowardice. Fortunately, the dense night outside the window stretched in front of me like train tracks and I could even hear his departing footsteps that were too lazy to step over those tracks.

The Blood Clan ground away his individuality, his sentimentality, and his attachments. In his 1st birthday [SSR Enticing Feast DATE], Evan explains that all members of the Blood Clan are brought up to have no affections for anything but family. He couldn't be picky about his food, he could only read books that were approved, and his pet rabbit was killed. To make matters worse, Evan is also the black sheep of the Blood Clan. He cannot bring himself to be like them with their cruelty, arrogance, and depravity. He shares their instincts but he instinctively rebels against it and questions all of the Blood Clan values.

Can someone even be considered to be "living" in this existence? It's no wonder Evan doesn't think there's anything to keep him in this world, because he grew up without even knowing who "he" is as a person.

Despite all this though, Evan did manage to find a way to reconcile his self-destructive impulses. However, this answer is going to be left for the next section and, instead, we are going to move onto our next male lead who suffered, Osborn.

Much like Evan, Osborn was also born to a loving family that disintegrated, starting with his father leaving and ending with his mother's multiple attempts to abandon him before she finally succeeded. Once that happened, Osborn had no more attachments to this world and thought about how easy it would be for him to disappear without anyone noticing or caring. He grew up with this fear of being abandoned again and so was afraid to get close to anyone. This self-isolation was only exacerbated by the prejudice of people around him, who saw him as a juvenile offender, and made no attempts to understand him.

[SSR The 400 Blows TRAJECTORY - 14 Years Ago Early Spring]

I look forward, beyond anything else, to the moment I kill myself. At least this proves that, at the very end, before the world abandons me, I severed my relationship with it first.

[SSR The 400 Blows TRAJECTORY - 8 Years Ago Early Summer]

After waking up, he climbed to the edge of the rooftop and looked at the rusty red marks on the concrete floor that couldn't be washed away, like they were a silent accusation. So long as he jumped, he could escape everything. Will anyone grieve for me? Will anyone care about my death? Osborn blankly thought.

[SSR Free Fall TRAJECTORY - 6 Years Ago Early Winter]

He suddenly raised his hand and slashed at his own neck hard. However, the biting pain didn't bring a sense of relief. Instead, it hurt more.

[SSR Free Fall TRAJECTORY - 4 Years Ago Early Winter]

All my classmates had jumped and kept hurrying me. The waves grew larger and larger and I realized I really would die if I didn't jump. But there was an instant where I seriously had the idea of giving up. I thought about leaving things like this, because to me this had never been an act to survive but instead a punishment.

Freedom is a double-edged sword. In protecting himself by keeping others at a distance and not getting attached, Osborn had also walled himself off from the world. It was all too easy for him to be indifferent and flippant with his own life because he cherished nothing and believed that no one cherished him.

However, as we all know, people (and animals) did get under Osborn's defenses and became family members he took under his wing and who ended up binding him to this world. He also discovered his own way of reconciling with the world, which we will talk about in the next section.

The last suicidal man was Sariel. Unlike the others (except for Jesse), Sariel was born to a loving family and there were no tragedies in his childhood. Instead, it was the trauma of war in his early adulthood that brought him to despair. On the battlefield, he saw the cycle of hatred and revenge, what humans do at the extremes of desperation (cannibalism), massacred a village, and ultimately ended the life of someone he loved with his own hands. Everyone he knew and loved passed away, either due to circumstances or the long passage of time, and after fulfilling all of their leftover wishes he himself was left with nothing of his own but crushing survivor's guilt.

[SSR Meeting Spring FILM REEL - Undead Nightmare]

Sariel lay on the shore of the lake and it was unclear whether it was lake water or tears on his face. Sariel: Yet another failure. After that, Sariel tried countless times more. Since his talent would save him, then he would try even more drastic methods. However, his talent followed him relentlessly like a curse. Cut veins would heal, torn off limbs would be restored, and even his heart could recover its function after being pierced by a long blade.

Not mentioned above is how, for his first attempt, Sariel jumped off a cliff and his body was practically pulverized or how, in the scene prior to the translation, he tied himself to a rock and sank into the bottom of a lake to drown. Unlike the other men, Sariel would have truly ended his life on multiple occasions if it weren't for his talent, but since he couldn't die he became an empty husk that wandered the world instead, attempting to drown out his pain in vices like gambling and wine.

So now, after seeing how some of the men in Light and Night hit absolute rock bottom in their lives, how did they pick themselves up and walk all the way to the present to stand before us?

—TO SURVIVE IS TO FIND MEANING IN THE SUFFERING (GORDON W. ALLPORT)

As I have been mentioning, all the men in Light and Night were able to come to terms with living in this world, although it's arguable how "healthy" their coping methods are. In this section, I will not be listing the men in the order I introduced them, but rather by my opinion on the worst-to-best coping methods the men demonstrate. Naturally, this is an incredibly personal opinion and you do not have to agree with me at all. In fact, discussion would be happily welcomed!

First, we have Evan.

[SSR Escaping Into Dusk DATE]

Evan: Actually, it can't be called liking it. It's just that I was once a little addicted to the feeling of freediving. Evan: In a turbid world without sound, color, or light. Evan: You toss aside every tool and means and rely only on the limits of what the human body can do... Evan: It's true the pain brought on by this method is inevitable, but the freedom of the soul gained from this is very captivating. Evan: You will genuinely experience and truly reach your inherent limitations as a human being. Evan: And, in this process, you can also expand the limit of your boundaries bit by bit as much as possible. MC: It sounds like it's nearly walking on the edge of death. Evan: More or less. But it's certainly attractive, isn't it?

[SSR Secrets in the Shade DATE]

MC: When you're feeling down or that things are difficult, just fantasize about the wonderful life you'll have after achieving your goals. [...] Evan: After I achieve my goals? Evan: At that time, perhaps nothing will be important anymore.

There are two parts to Evan's reconciliation with the world. First, as I brought up in my essay "The Depth of his Feelings", I believe the way Evan flirts with death is a homage to traditional vampire literature and their attraction to their own death, but I also think this is a natural act of those who are suicidal and lost as a person. Owing to the Blood Clan, Evan questioned himself and his perception of the world, but nothing is quicker at grounding someone to this world than the undeniable physical sensation of their body's primal instinct to survive.

Second, Evan ended up becoming indifferent to death. Even though I'm mentioning Evan first for "unhealthy" coping methods, it's mostly directed at his near-death outlets, and I actually appreciate his acceptance of death. On that note, there isn't a contradiction here because, even if his body emotionally wants to survive, he has intellectually made peace with death.

Evan's view on death reminds me a lot of the Stoic ideal of the good death. The Stoics do not believe that death is anything to fear because everything comes to an end and, in fact, they believe that suicide is a choice and amoral. The door is always open to you if you choose to leave; the only caveat is that you must consider your circumstances seriously and make your decision logically and not on a rash and impulsive decision. For Evan, he calmly accepts death after he achieves his goal (of wiping out the Blood Clan) because, to him, his life would be complete and there would be nothing more for him in this world. It would be a good death. Evan's acceptance of his own death can also be seen in his 2nd anniversary card [SSR Yesterday's Elegy TRAJECTORY].

Alright, we've seen how Evan reconciled with the world, so now we're going to move onto Charlie.

[SSR To the Oracle DATE]

Charlie: Fiancée, freedom exists. Charlie: It's pain and sacrifice that let him feel the value of existence. [...] Because that person who treats pain as feeling the world and touches the weight of freedom is Charlie too. [...] Charlie: But they can't stop themselves from interacting with others. MC: Why do they have to be so persistent... Charlie: Because they still have hope for this world.

[SSR Solar Flare DATE]

Charlie: I cried terribly when I learned that he would never come back. Charlie: But when I grew up I gradually understood that maybe he had already decided to say goodbye to this world. Charlie: So long as people live they will get hurt. No one knows how much pain the seemingly optimistic and cheery people around them have endured alone. Charlie: Time couldn't heal his wounds and so he gave up on saving himself. I could hear the conflict in his heart. He was someone who clearly valued life a lot and always spared no effort in saving every single person. How many similar things had he gone through, how many helpless moments had he experienced, and how had he carried all of this to this day to stand in front of me... I had no way of imagining it. I could only hold his hand tightly to let him know that I was trying to understand how he felt. Charlie: The look in Myron's eyes before he was lifted into the ambulance made me feel that everything I had done just now might have been meaningless. Charlie: But I will still choose to save them. I can't explain why, maybe it's an instinct.

Like I mentioned, Charlie cannot even conceive of the idea of committing suicide but, ironically, he experiences the world through suffering. As a phoenix, he innately loves the world and its people, and that's why the injustices and despair in the world hurt him so much. So, how does he find an outlet for this pain?

[SSR Perpetual Journey Home TRAJECTORY - New Era 44 Late Autumn]

Charlie clenched his fist, making the tense veins in his arms and wrists bulge out before they submerged into his palm. His flat nails nearly dug hard enough into his skin to bleed. Only then did I suddenly notice that his broad palm was covered with crescent-shaped scars that curved in the same direction. The protruding white marks were old, but it was obvious they were quickly covered with new purple marks before they faded. MC: ... Don't hurt yourself. I placed my fingers on the tips of his fingers and tried to pry them away. But Charlie didn't loosen his hand. He bent his knuckles so hard that it seemed as if he was biting the skin of his palm painfully. And that pain actually entered my body through this touch. MC: Charlie, let go! I heard my own urgent voice, as well as the imaginary quiet sound of flesh being separated. His fingernails dug into his palm, which slowly began to turn red. MC: Charlie, I don't understand... I shook my head, tears staining my cheeks. I didn't understand why he had to torture himself like this. Or— I did understand, but I could only use this common logic to persuade him to stop harming himself. The glaring redness of his palm filled my mind like the shallows of a sea. I smiled bitterly. Wasn't pain just another way of breathing?

[SSR Under the Stigmata DATE]

He walked to my side and sat down, watching quietly as the boy turned back to plucking his black feathers, as if he had seen this done countless times. In a daze, I saw Charlie sitting there in a firefighter's uniform, his face covered with smoke and dust. And every time the boy plucked a feather, his expression that was on the verge of a breakdown softened a little, as if that action could relieve his pain. I also saw Charlie, wearing a white coat and looking exhausted. He sat there blankly, his hands still shaking slightly. I recognized this action, it meant that he had just completed a long operation. They all had the same contentment of pain on their faces. It dawned on me that this place, this house, might have been built by his father originally, and Charlie had also once destroyed it. But in the present, Charlie had built all of this by himself, brick by brick. Here, he overlooked the pain of his past, again and again, gaining the power to rebuild himself from it. I thought about how he found a way to use this pain, but this didn't mean that this pain no longer existed and I didn't want to see any Charlie trapped in it.

This is how Charlie reconciles with the world and his powerlessness. It reminds me of these tweets about trashed bathrooms and how, when people have no control over their life or environment, they will want to assert control over the small part of their environment that they still have the power to affect. In this case, what can you always affect? Yourself. In a way, this is somewhat similar to how Evan paces on the border of life and death, because not only does it make him feel alive but it also gives him control.

For Charlie, there are so many things that he cannot control in the world, especially other people's decision to take their own lives. He also lives under the extraordinary pressure and control of his father, who has been trying to mould Charlie into his perfect heir (and a god to rule this world?). By hurting himself, Charlie can be assured that he is still in control of his own life and his own decisions and this gives him the strength to pick himself up again and again, among all this suffering, to try and help more people.

You can probably see why I don't rate Charlie's method that highly either, because I don't advocate self-harm, haha. Next, after having seen Charlie's method, we move onto Sariel.

[SSR Seeing the Spring FILM REEL - The Mayfly]

Sariel (Phantom): Everything has a conclusion that you have no choice but to accept, regardless of whether it goes against your heart or not, or whether it hurts you or not. Sariel (Phantom): When this pain is too heavy, it's better to forget it than to confront it bruised and bloody. Sariel (Phantom): Living on relies not on redemption or reconciliation, but on forgetting. Sariel: Did you survive to that time just by forgetting? Sariel (Phantom): Yes. Sariel (Phantom): Rather than letting regret and pain erode your heart into an empty husk, it's better to forget everything. Sariel (Phantom): Live on, Sariel. Someone is waiting for you in the future.

As we saw earlier, Sariel would have succeeded in committing suicide if it weren't for his talent. This is why his coping method is to forget the weight of his pain before it drives him mad and turns him into something else. In this dialogue between himself, Sariel does question whether forgetting is just another way of escaping his pain, much like drinking; but, in my opinion, it's a valid choice to set aside the pain when you cannot handle it in the moment. Sariel sealed his power and memories away but, now that he has you to support him, he's unsealed his power and memories and has the strength to look back on his past and come to terms with everything with a less despairing outlook.

Lastly, we come to Osborn who, in my personal opinion, has the healthiest mindset.

[SSR Free Fall TRAJECTORY - 1 Year Ago Midsummer]

To be honest, I was disappointed in that moment. It was no different from any other rainbow that appeared somewhere after the rain. It was very beautiful, and very ordinary. The end of the rainbow was in fact just the end of the rainbow, and it was only my imagination of it that idealized it. But I still stared at it for a long time, until I found that the disappointment wasn't that terrible either. Because the world didn't care at all whether or not I was disappointed. Even if I never set foot on the road again because of this, the world wouldn't use anything I longed for to urge me to stay. After understanding this, I suddenly no longer gritted my teeth and fumed about disappointment. Because I discovered I had other things that could transcend disappointment: people who were willing to take risks with me when I took risks, and people who could understand my emotions that weren't understood.

The world being indifferent is supposed to be comforting, because it means that setbacks and disappointments aren't targeting you in particular. Successes are because of your own efforts and failures are because there were more uncontrollable elements than there were things you could affect.

Osborn internalizes this message and I believe it explains why he's such an active person. He has no expectations for the world and thus cannot be harmed by it any longer. He no longer needs to feel like he did in his childhood, about abandoning the world before it abandons him first. He managed to turn his independence from the world, which used to make him feel isolated, into one of his greatest strengths and it's also because he now has personal connections that bind him to the world by choice.

For my headings, I used a quote by Gordon Allport but, to be honest, I prefer the old Buddhist saying that "pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional" and, in my opinion, it reflects Osborn's perspective and why I, personally, think he has the healthiest relationship with the world. It's inevitable that there will be times when things don't go smoothly in your life and that you'll experience (physical, mental, emotional, or spiritual) pain, but it's your choice on whether to suffer during this period or not. Suffering is optional means you should realize the impermanence of this pain and if you can accept when things are out of your control, manage your expectations, and understand that whatever the world does externally to you does not affect your core as a person, then you will realize there are actually a lot of things you can overcome and that you need not dwell on them.

In the end, Light and Night is a game about hope and all the characters are growing, hopefully including the players who are following all of these characters in their journey. I also really like how the game doesn't affix one theme to one character, but instead approaches a theme from multiple angles through all the characters because, in this case, there is no right or wrong answer on how to live a life in this world. But, hopefully, seeing how hard these characters struggle to keep living can also provide some courage to those who are struggling and searching for their own path.

#light and night #光与夜之恋 #ln osborn #ln evan #ln charlie #ln sariel #ln xiao yi #ln lu chen #ln qi sili #ln zha lisu #meta of light and night

[wedreamedlove]

Happy Valentine’s Day! Light and Night released 5 love songs sang by each man.

Lyrics for Sariel's song below.

Hear an epiphyllum bloom Wait for it to wake in front of your window If this flowering season exceeds the changes of the world Who can keep behind that bloom of pure white? I deliberately say the opposite of my heart But you understand my softness This is a bond that crosses time The night has been so, so long As I glance back, old dreams come to an end We have tea around the stove, never running out of things to say How lucky I am, having this warmth that resonates with you Dawn, dusk, three meals with you In the afternoon, we wake in each other’s eyes Time conceals silence and engraves whispers I wait for the future with you, watching time sail past Vicissitudes traverse time This mortal world sympathizes and finally we meet This is a bond that crosses time The night has been so, so long As I glance back, old dreams come to an end We have tea around the stove, never running out of things to say How lucky I am, having this warmth that resonates with you Let the years and destiny circulate It’s a common occurrence In this mortal world, what fear have I of violent waves? The rest of my life elapses quickly To have spent a share together is perfect Both the sun and moon can testify This is the most certain answer

#light and night #光与夜之恋 #ln qi sili #ln sariel #my translations

[wedreamedlove]

This is spicy question 😅 but how many rounds can the guys go?

we should also consider how quality may be more important than quantity here—hahaha. canonically, these things have happened:

Evan tore up the heroine's pyjamas so she can't wear them the next day, she can't stand on her own, and she has marks on her wrists from being tied up.

Jesse had a quickie in a walk-in closet and implied that he can do another round in the shower following that. there are also bruises on the heroine's elbows from all this.

Osborn has his "door, couch, veranda" and then bed. the heroine's shirt has also gone missing after all this.

Sariel made the heroine sore the next morning, although she can still run around.

Charlie and the heroine stayed in a hotel room for two days... as in they never left that room for the span of 2 days...

i leave making a list of the men's technique and/or stamina to everyone's discretion.

#answered asks #光与夜之恋 #light and night #ln osborn #ln evan #ln charlie #ln sariel #ln jesse #ln xiao yi #ln lu chen #ln zha lisu #ln qi sili #ln xia mingxing

[wedreamedlove]

How does all 5 of them love the Mc differently?

Osborn loves with extreme partiality. you can do no wrong in his eyes (as long as you don't cross his bottom principles like harming innocents or lying). he lets you do whatever you want at your own pace and he'll be standing right behind you, glaring at anyone who even looks at you wrongly. two of my favorite examples of this extreme partiality is during his 2022 birthday event where he says (paraphrased) that even if you cause such a ruckus that the bar roof falls down, he'll be there to hold it up; the other one is in his personal route after the talk with Merodach and Osborn thinks you have an "oh and one more thing" and offers to phone Merodach so you can continue cussing him out LOL.

Jesse loves like a companion and accomplice. you're both still on the road of growing and so there's a constant swap of the person who leads the way for the other person. neither of you know what you're doing and so you're stumbling through the relationship together, but that makes it so you're equals.

Charlie loves with a freedom of innocence. you will either get in touch of your inner child or be able to give it free reign regardless of where you are. he teaches you to have no shame in being exactly who you are and to see the beauty and romance in this world, no matter how cheesy it is. you will learn to love everything bright and loud when you're with him.

Sariel loves selflessly and sacrificially. honestly, i just need to point at his Cinnamoroll collab date. i cried really hard reading that date because he just loves you so, so, so much. he doubts himself and hates himself for not being able to give you "better" things whenever you're happy at anything he does. he wants you to live the best life you can live, even if that means being without him. in fact, he believes that he's a calamity in your life and brings a heavy burden to you and so, even while he paves a road for you, he will also back off and leave immediately if you ever say the word.

Evan loves in an unconditional and challenging way. he wants you to be as independent as you can be, and so this involves challenging your ideas and getting you to debate him. he will always go at your pace though and never rejects any of your ideas. he wants you to be able to live without him if need be, so you need to be strong enough to stop him or push him away whenever you want. he knows just how cruel this world can be, and so he'll only be content when you're able to protect yourself, either from the world or him.

#answered asks #光与夜之恋 #light and night #LN Osborn #LN Charlie #LN Evan #LN sariel #LN Jesse #LN Xiao Yi #ln zha lisu #LN Lu Chen #LN qi sili #LN Xia Mingxing

[wedreamedlove]

【Tempted Heart PV】

Shining red lips and countless lust. From the moment feelings arose, it goes deeper and deeper. When your tender and delicate kiss lingers on my heart, I've capsized in the spring tides of love and am at my last gasp.

#光与夜之恋 #light and night #LN Osborn #LN Evan #LN Charlie #LN sariel #LN Jesse #LN Xiao Yi #LN Lu Chen #ln zha lisu #LN qi sili #My translations #incredible... are they allowed to go this far??

[wedreamedlove]

Good morning! If you had to rank the most jealous LN boys who would be on top?

oh!! thank you for this ask because i wrote about this in february 2022 but now, after another year of relationship development, i'm going to change my answers.

first, i think at this point they all feel the same degree of jealousy, but the way they express their jealousy is different and that's mainly what i'm going to rank them on.

SARIEL

he's still at the top because he shows his jealousy immediately and it happens over so many things. he cannot hide his jealousy for the life of him and it's really funny to tease him about this.

JESSE

he openly shows his jealousy now and acts on it, like getting between you and others, or pouting directly at you and pointing out that he's jealous.

EVAN

uh, this man tried to kill charlie? hahaha. now that he has committed to fighting for his relationship with you, he can be pretty high-handed. he won't even let you turn away from him in your sleep and will pull you back into his arms.

OSBORN

he easily admits he's jealous of a bunch of things, but he actually never acts on these and it comes off more like teasing than demanding you to do something. the gap moe of this cool guy pouting because he's jealous is enough to redirect your attention back to him.

CHARLIE

his 2023 valentine's date has shown that he can also get possessive of you (i think he inherited his dad's yandere genes, oof) but because freedom of personal choice is so important to him, he will never do anything to restrain you.

a lot of fans agree that it is because he finally feels secure in the relationship that he can allow himself to show his possessiveness and jealousy (generally negative emotions that would turn off your partner).

#answered asks #light and night #光与夜之恋 #ln osborn #ln evan #ln charlie #ln sariel #ln jesse #ln xiao yi #ln lu chen #ln qi sili #ln zha lisu #ln xia mingxing

[wedreamedlove]

If you mind me asking but when the writers describe Jesse as obsessive ,does it reach like yandere level?

And also how would you rank from least obsessive to most in LN male leads ?

nah, at its core, light and night is still a mainstream chinese otome game, meaning the men have to be good role models. but why i keep praising their writers is that they have a very good grasp on human nature and so all of the men display the same human traits in their own ways, leading them to overcome traumas, negative thinking, and destructive thoughts. this makes them really relatable for us players.

honestly, i'd like to stress this about otome games, which are visual novels at their core, that the goal isn't just to self-insert into the heroine, it's also to see yourself reflected in the men.

going back to your particular question though, would it surprise you if i said that all of the men have shown yandere-esque thoughts? heehee, the ranking would go:

Sariel

Osborn

Evan

Charlie

Jesse

Sariel's the least obsessive since his philosophy is all about letting things take their natural course. that being said though, this immortal fox does reveal that, at one point in time, he considered building a cabin in the woods and just rotting there with the jade pendant you gave him in the past. like, that's some obsessive thinking there. (he lost the pendant at one point and went on this crazy journey to get it back, pretty sure he got scammed by like 90% of the people that he asked.)

Osborn is a complicated case because, technically, he's less obsessive than Sariel. but i'm counting the other half of his soul, even if their experiencese sort of made them two different people. his other half locked up the heroine, was willing to replace Osborn as his shadow, and also offered to let himself get hurt if it will keep the heroine tied to him through guilt and heartache.

Evan showed how monstrously possessive he can be after he's determined to fight for something now. he would rather the heroine hate him and have them be entangled in a web of love-hate until the end than be strangers.

Charlie is another complicated case because, technically, he understands the longing for freedom more than anyone else and so he and the heroine get along well because of this (two sides of the same coin). however, he's got his dad's blood in him, that's for sure. he has an entire collection room of things related to the heroine and preserves like everything. he's also talked about letting himself get consumed by the heroine so he can be with her even through death. what can i say, vore is love because love is a consumption—

Jesse is still the most "yandere" out of all the men, in my opinion, because he stalked the heroine and everyone calls him out on his "obsession" towards her and how half the time his world is so small it only contains the heroine.

#answered asks #light and night #光与夜之恋 #ln osborn #ln evan #ln charlie #ln sariel #ln jesse #ln xiao yi #ln lu chen #ln zha lisu #ln qi sili #ln xia mingxing