#make hime into a bag guy grinds me gears sk bad

[gentil-minou]

Someone has to have written meta about how important the 1st incense burner chapter was for wangxian and how ir gave Lan wangji the catharsis he needed to stop being ashamed of his sexual desires after spending years punishing himself convinced his feelings were wrong and shameful because wy could never feel the same way about him. That the ugly feelings he had were his fault and how that made his guilt about his parents even worse

And then having Wei Ying the man he loves see them in all their raw and shameful glory, but instead of recoiling away in disgust wwx accepts them and lwj, showing him how lwj and his desires are not shameful, that wwx gets it he understands and he's into it too...and then the dream changes and becomes one of empowering lwj and giving him a chance to reclaim those teenage desires in a way that makes he feel good for once

how powerful that moment was for lwj who must have had a part of him that even in adulthood told him his teenage feelings were wrong, to finally come to the realization that he was just a kid and it's okay because those intrusive thoughts didn't make him a bad person. That even now they don't make him a bad person. That he can want and desire and be safe to explore those feelings and they aren't ugly or shameful they just exist as they are, that he can take them ans make them into something beautiful

Please tell me someone has written a better more cohesive version of this because my irl bff just finished the novel and hates lwj and I cannot handle that pleaseeeee

#SOMEONE HAS TO HAVE WRITTEN THIS PLEASE DONT TELL ME IT HAS TO BE ME IM NOT EMOTIONALLY CAPABLE OF THIS UGH... #my bff not understanding lwj's character....I have failed as a fan 😭😭😭😭😭 #mdzs #mo dao zu shi #lan wangji #god like i get that those chapters are not for everyone but ignoring the complexities of all of lwj's experience and narrowing it down to #make hime into a bag guy grinds me gears sk bad #i love lwj so much pleaseeeee not my boy #wangxian #mdzs meta #i swear to god if i get the same sort of bad faith comments and vague posting on this post as i did the last time i dared to express an #opinion im going to give up on this fandom i AM NOT IN THE HEADSPACE FOR THIS OKAY #mdzs musings