#my relationship with my family is ✨nonexistent✨ at this point

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Got tagged by @silenthillmutual to talk about five common things I put in my fanfics

Autism: It seems that above all else I use fanfiction as a means of delving into the autistic traits I see in the characters I enjoy! Not simply saying "Oh I think this character is autistic," but writing detailed depictions of the traits they exhibit (or ones I hc them to exhibit) and exploring how they grapple with their disorder. As an autistic person myself this has been extremely cathartic for me, particularly since I find the grand majority of media that tries to tackle autism to be misinformed at best or downright insulting at worst due to being written by allistics.

Worldbuilding: This point is largely about my hylics fanfics, but in all of the one's I've written I have a habit of trying to expand upon aspects of the characters and world in ways the text itself never does, even in the most mild of instances. One major reason why I prefer writing fics for media with very vague and/or nonexistent worldbuilding is that I can confidently utilize 100% of the canon in my stories while still writing something that basically comes across as original fiction with how much stuff I needed to add ;)

Angst: Borderline impossible for me to write any story that DOESN'T explore at least some deeply hidden dread or anxiety of the characters I write for, even if it's a more wholesome story. I was raised in the 2000's; no matter what I can't shake the edge lol

Familial Relationships: Whether it be found families or those related by blood, I've found I always enjoy exploring these kinds of relationships very often in the fics I've written, particularly when it comes between parents and their children. I find a lot of media and fanfic tend to either sugar-coat or demonize the guardian figures of characters (whether canon or made up for the fic's narrative), which is a shame because that sort of relationship can be just as interesting to expand upon as any other kind, whether the parents have a good, bad, or very complicated relationship w/ their children

Lengthy Descriptions Of A Location: I just can't help myself! I love fleshing out a setting so that the readers can get a clearer picture of the scenes I craft, usually lasting a paragraph at most. Setting is such an important aspect of any story, and I don't think fic authors should ever slack on environmental descriptions just because people already know the work they're writing for. Doing so could potentially lead to bad habits when you write original fiction, so watch out!

I don't know who to tag this time, so I suppose anyone who wants to join in can just tag me as one who suggested they do this ✨

#tag game #fanfics #my writing

[grilledcheeseandguavajelly]

2H, 7H and 11H as well pleeeeease

Hehe your wish is my command 💋🔮✨

2H ⇢ do you have any object that you like a little too much? what is it and why?

I do indeed. It's a little pillow (aptly named "little pillow") that's about the size of a postcard. I think I got it for my baptism when I was a baby, and at that point it had a little ribbon attached so that you could hang it from the post of the bed and play the music box inside to help the baby fall asleep. When I was a toddler I decided that it was so soft I wanted to use it as an actual pillow, so my mom took the music box out for me. And now I still can't sleep without it, but it's been well loved and the ribbon and embroidery are all gone. I wouldn't say it holds any real sentimental value, in that I don't remember getting it. But it's special and sentimental and a part of me in the way that a baby's first blanket gets packed in someone's college moving boxes. My little pillow is just a part of me, it always has been and I hope it always will be.

7H ⇢ what do you consider green flags in a relationship?

In any relationship: good, healthy communication. Not holding grudges. Explaining to me why they are upset, what they need, how I can help. Respecting boundaries. Effort. God, effort is so important. And not just in the "I'm paying for half the rent" way, but in the "you seemed down today so I got you flowers on my way home from work" or "I know you're not feeling well so I vacuumed and did the dishes" way. I think the biggest thing is to feel like it's a partnership, that you're both as invested in it as the other person, and that you both treat it as a conscious living thing, tending it, helping it grow and thrive, and not giving up on it when the going gets rough.

In my current relationship: she never pushes me too far too fast, she is always always always incredibly respectful of me and my beliefs and my interests. She actively asks me about things that I'm interested in and doesn't mind if I ramble for hours about it. There are a lot of finicky things that I need or can't stand because my autistic brain says so, and she is incredibly patient with each and every one of them. She supports me, listens to me -- really listens to me. She remembers little things that I've mentioned in passing once. She loves my dog like he's her own. She got my grandma a birthday present and got my mother flowers the first time she came over. She sits quietly while I pray before I eat, even though she doesn't. She let's me choose what we watch on tv. She wants to know the name of every plant I buy. And she was absolutely perfect when she met my family. That was a huge one. I felt comfortable leaving her talking to my aunt for a few minutes while I helped my mom with appetizers. And I mean, she got thrown into the deep end with my family, the poor thing. But she was perfect. And to me, that was everything.

11H ⇢ describe your friends in 3 words

What friends? Nonexistent. 😂👏🏼🙈 (Alternately: lovely, loyal, lesbians)

#coincidentally almost all of my friends are lesbians hehe #or IS IT A COINCIDENCE *dun dun* #and to all of my bi and pan friends #*mwah* I love you so much #ask me anything #asks #astrology ask game #welshdragonrawr #thank you for the lovely asks!! 💋

[ki-limepie]

tagged by @jiminsproof​ to show my whole ass and talk about my favorite 10 blorbos<3 i live my life through fictional characters from games an anime so i will try to whittle my list down to 10 hahah

the top two are in order because i’m completely normal about them but the rest are just scattered without an order in mind ahah

Yatora Yaguchi (Blue Period)

oikawa may be my og blorbo but yatora is my Forever blorbo. have i talked about blue period enough? the answer is no, never. aside from blue period just being the most real and personal manga i have ever read in my life, yatora just GETS me on a personal level that i cannot describe . the way he’s confident to the point of cocky, but crashes and burns twice as hard; the way he’s so so flawed and he has doubts and struggles but still, at his core, just loves art and wants to connect? oooouuugh [”: anyway blue period chapter 47 broke me, made me have a full on breakdown but yatora is forever my special favorite blorbo

Oikawa Tooru (Haikyuu!!)

oh my original blorbo... i have so many thoughts and emotions and feelings about oikawa that i cannot possibly put into words but he is my og blorbo that i adore and cherish so much while also punting him to the moon [”: his constant push to work harder, better, and his immense pride is extremely personal to me; he’s the reason i wrote 20 haikyuu fics over the course of the pandemic and for that i love him

Mono (Little Nightmares II)

ogs remember my intense little nightmares brainrot early last year<3 i don’t have many thoughts about mono other than “that is my little guy”, i spent a long time studying his (essentially nonexistent) character personality and maybe i’m projecting my nonbinary agenda on him but he’s a very special little guy to me

Rachel Gardner (Angels of Death)

so here’s the thing about aod. it is not a well written story nor is it one i would recommend to anyone because of how grisly and edgy it is. and yet, have i consumed Every Kind of media that i possibly can of this story? yes absolutely i even bought two copies of the final volume of the manga by complete accident. something about the early 2000s rpgmaker edginess is special to me and i found the game at a very... turbulent time in my life, let’s say haha none of the characters are good characters but ray has just that touch of “fucked up traumatized child” that i connect with somehow

Maka Albarn (Soul Eater)

yknow i think maka was one of my og awakenings KJGDSKA soul eater is just one of those anime/manga that i fondly think about from time to time and i’ll never forgive what they did to it in the spinoff. maka is just that kind of girl who would kick my ass to the moon and when i was a teen, i definitely had a huge crush on her (not to mention she’s voiced by laura bailey in the dub; a win all around for me)

Theobald Leonhart (LiEat)

looks like i’m pulling out my  ✨obscure rpgmaker games ✨ card on this one. lieat is one of those games that really spoke to me and i don’t know why! theo is such an important character to me and that “stuck with you until we’re eventually family” relationship he has with efi melts my heart [”: also miwashiba popped off with their character designs

Mob/Shigeo Kageyama (Mob Psycho 100)

mob is actually my little guy ever sorry mono, this kid is so important to me. mp100 in general is just extremely important to me (how are we feeling about mp100 III in october? insane.) i don’t have any big deep reason why i enjoy him so much, he’s just very easy to love

Shion (No. 6)

sometimes i think about no. 6 and the pain it brought me and i think that was truly my villain origin story; in my heart, they get a happy ending and are gay and in love forever [:

Kris Dreemur (Deltarune)

so deltarune.... i feel like every fellow nonbinary that i know loves kris. solidarity 🤝 i don’t have complex feelings or emotions about kris yet, they’re just so... the character ever yknow? little gremlin enby

Gear (Servamp)

i miss servamp, i need to catch up again sometime... this guy is just so Me, that’s all i’ve got to say about him; he feels like he was written and designed for me [: i’m forever salty that we will never get animated wolfboy gear but he is in my heart

thank you once again natalia for allowing me to be unhinged about my guys 💕

#i want it to be known that when i woke up today and saw you tagged me i said to myself out loud 'I GET TO TALK ABOUT MY BLORBOS TODAY? :DD' #and then immediately told my friends who congratulated me #most of my thoughts on these characters are incoherent and u would think as a writer i would have more eloquent words for them #actually i think my thoughts just became more incoherent as i got down the list #my thoughts: wow i adore this character so much and can relate and entirely understand their struggles and personality #my mouth: hehehe the guy ever #honestly i also could have just written down like 5 blue period characters . yotasuke i'm so sorry i excluded you... #keywrite #natalia 🌙