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klaumiel · 3 years

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You are all I’ve got,Austin// Chapter 5: First touch.

It’s been four weeks since I last heard from Austin when he was transferred to another prison. The fact that I didn’t hear from him for so long was evident to me that they found his phone, and now we had no way to communicate. I wished he left me his lawyer’s number or at least name. I didn’t even know where they transferred him. I had nothing, and the unknown was killing me.

I called few jails around the area, but they couldn’t tell me anything as I wasn’t a relative, it was so frustrating. I started to feel so hopeless.

I spent every day working from home, barely leaving my house. Shaun moved with me temporarily after selling the house he shared with Olivia. He was my company every evening, mostly playing video games or watching horror movies eating the most unhealthy food possible.

I couldn’t speak to Gemma, we didn’t talk since she walked out of my house that day, I missed her. Every day I’ve been thinking about what she said, and every day I believed more and more that she could be right.

Is it possible I am making the same mistake again? Am I ready for this? To hold his hand until he is ready? Am I strong enough to support him emotionally being so unstable and fragile myself? All those questions were flying in my head every day. I knew that there is only one person in this world who could help me understand… my father.

I was on my way to my parent's house. I decided to talk to my dad, he’s been back from his deployment for a week now, we welcomed him back as always on the day of his arrival. This time he came back with good news, he asked to be moved, and from now on, he will be working stationary, training new soldiers—no more deployments. He decided that he is not fit enough anymore o continue, and he wanted to spend more time with the family. My mum was over the moon, I didn’t see her so happy for years, she could finally have her husband every day.

I parked my car on the driveway, took out my dad’s favourites cookies I made last night, and lilies for my mum.

Before I managed to get to the door, I saw it opening.

‘ Here, she is my sweet muffin!’ My dad smiled from ear to ear, he looked so adorable—this big chunk of a man filling the whole door with his covered in tattoos muscles. Usually looking so scary and rough, but standing there with his smile like a little baby, just melted my heart.

‘ Morning, daddy! I have cookies for you. I’m sure you missed my baking’ I smiled and hugged him. His strong arm covered me entirely ‘ Gosh, you are getting bigger and bigger’ I laughed

‘ Come on, get in! Mum already made tea.’ He said, still holding me. ‘ Alicia, look what found outside the door, she has cookies, so I let her in’ He laughed pinching my cheek ‘ You look beautiful sweetheart ‘ he said quietly pulling me to another hug.

I loved my dad so much, even tho deep down I hated him for leaving us every time, not being with us every day but loved him for his golden heart, nobody could deny he loved his family and cared for us as much as he could. I was happy for having him back, for good this time I missed him.

‘Richard, you better help me with this, is too heavy’ My mum shouted from the living room, she was pushing her old piano from the middle of the room but didn’t move a millimetre.

‘ Look at you little bird, trying to play a strong woman’ My dad laughed and walked to her, he picked her up in the air and moved aside

‘Not funny Richard, not funny.’ She said with half-smile.

‘Are you moving your piano? It’s been in the living room for years’ I said surprised

‘Your dad bought me a new one, we are moving this one to the garage, is worth a lot I’m not getting rid of it ‘ She said looking at my dad pushing the piano with zero effort.

‘That’s great, you could do with the new one’ I smiled and put the bowl with the cookies on the table. I noded my mum towards the kitchen, she walked with me while my dad was in the garage.

I started to put the lilies in the water.

‘What’s wrong, sweetie?’ She whispered

‘ I need to talk to dad about Austin, I am so confused and lost in this whole situation, I need his honest advice. Everything you and Shaun told me, also Gemma… I have no idea what to do. I want to really start looking for him but what Gemma said is stopping me somehow. I need his point of view on this, he never takes anyone’s side, and that’s what I need.’

‘I understand you are confused. Nobody can tell you what to do, but he is the right person to tell what’s best for you, without sugar-coating. ‘

My dad didn’t know about Austin, I asked both my mum and Shaun to keep it a secret for now, but it was time for him to know. I needed his advice the most.

We spent a peaceful afternoon together, I helped my mum with lunch and after we sat in the garden enjoying the late spring sun.

‘ Dad… I need to talk to you about something. I need your honest advice’ I started

‘You can tell me anything sweet muffin, I will do my best to help you ‘ he smiled warmly

I told him everything, didn’t miss any details, he listened, there was no judgement in his look.

‘… and now I have no idea what to do, should I risk and try to find him or leave it because it is not worth it? I am not sure if I’m ready … Gemma could be right. Am I putting myself in danger again?’ I looked in his eyes, he stared at my mum with his warm and caring look

‘ Your mum already told me, but I wanted to hear your side … and first if all, I am so proud of you... You saved his life, risking your own… I can’t say it was a wise move, but you did the way you thought was the best. And that’s very brave… And now … I will start with my usual questioning first before I tell you what I think. First question… why did you decide to help him? ‘

I signed ‘ I saw something real in him, something pure. Everyone else before give up on him as soon as they heard he was in jail, and me being me I didn’t want to judge him only base on that. We were getting close very quickly, I felt like he deserved my help, and he couldn’t do it alone.’

‘Ok, next question … how does he make you feel? How do you feel when you talk to him?’ He really wanted me to open up, just spill my feelings. I knew he would do that, and I was ready.

‘Like nobody ever did, every day was brighter when we talked. His messages in the morning were the only thing that made me smile. He gave me the strength to get up every day. I feel like he healed me by just talking to me, about everything and nothing. Just being there on the other side. We’ve built a connection that I never thought was possible.’

‘Did you ever doubted him? Did you ever think that he isn’t telling you the full truth? … Just yes or no.’

‘No’

He looked at my mum, smiled gently

‘Do you love him?’ He looked me deep in the eyes like he wanted to read my thoughts, I could see that he already knew the answer but wanted me to say it at loud. ‘ Just yes or no.’

‘Yes‘ I said without hesitation, my heart pounded in my chest

‘Ok...last one … how do you feel now? You didn’t hear from him for a while, how do you feel?’

‘Horrible, hopeless. Like a part of me is missing, the part that he took with him that kept me sane. This little part that use to put a smile on my face every morning, that small part of my happiness… Not knowing where he is if he is OK is killing me, and I feel like I am drowning again like I am taking a step back .’My eyes were filling up with tears.

My dad was quiet, looking at the distance. I waited for his response like waiting for a sentence.

‘I will be absolutely honest with you as I always am. This isn’t easy, he means a world to you; that’s clear. Does he love you back? From what you told me, and messages you showed me … yes, he does. What I can I see is a man, lost, alone and scared. But was lucky enough to meet you, loving, caring but at the same time determined and stubborn piece of work. You found a human being needing your help, and you did what you had to without hesitation. Now when you found your feelings, you are scared you will fail, fail in supporting him. But.. you are taking a risk, what if he isn’t how you pictured him? Risk of discovering more secrets about him, about his past that you won’t like. You can take that risk and trust your heart and him, or walk away never knowing, and most likely regret it for the rest of your life… and now … let's reverse the card and put yourself in his position. He spent the last seven years in prison, most of his young life, in the place he can’t trust anyone, completely alone. Knowing that he will be dead soon, nothing to lose. He meets online a beautiful girl, who didn’t reject him like others did, who showed him, love, feeling he never knew before, he decides to open up and trust this girl. And puts his life in the hands of the stranger. He gets attached; finally, someone sees more in him than just an inmate, criminal or worse a murderer. But then this girl decides to risk her life to save his because she believes in him…Now the conclusion is, who takes a bigger risk here? You by trusting him to be who he says he is? To take him in and guide and support to stand on his feet again and possibly be happy together or take him in and find out he isn’t what you thought he was. Risk being in the same situation as before? A situation you already know how to get out from. Or him, trusting a stranger with his life. Give up an only chance he has to be free to someone who could be working for the police just to get a confession of him, or worse, one of his bothers thugs looking to mess with him. Risk letting his guard down for the girl who might not be even real? Think, who takes a bigger risk? You being free and able to live your life the way you want? Or him putting his life in your hands with no chance for a normal life if he decides to not trust you? ‘

I knew that asking him for advice will make everything a lot clearer, after hearing all this, I felt like my decision has been made, it was clear to me what I have to do.

‘Thank you dad.’ I reached for his hand, wiping my tears with the other ‘ I knew you can help me, I knew you will understand both of us.’

‘ I am always here for you to advise you, but never tell you what to do. A decision is yours’ he squeezed my hand gently ‘ And don’t worry about Gemma, she will come around. Is not the first time she does this’ he smiled

‘I hope she will, and decision? I’ve made it.. but I will need your help’ I said

‘I do what I can.’

‘I need to find out where he is, I called every prison in the area, but they won’t tell me anything. You know people. Is there anyone who could help us find him? ‘

My mum smiled and kissed the top of my head ‘ I’m so proud of you sweetie, sometimes we need to take the risk to be happy. And dad is right, Gemma is a troubled girl, she just needs space. I’m sure she misses you the same as you miss her. This friendship is forever, she just needs to understand.’

‘I won’t be able to live with myself if I just walk away from him… I have to try, Gemma has to understand this.’

My dad checked his phone, got up and walked to the house. He spoke with someone on the phone. He came back a few minutes later, sat back in his chair and looked me in the eyes.

‘We will find him, it might take a few days, weeks but we will find him… he was transferred from Perch County jail right? ‘

‘Yes’ Looks like mum didn’t spare any details.

‘ There are only a few places that he could’ve been transferred too, from there. I will make a few phone calls and see what I can do.’

I knew I can count on him.

A couple of days later Shaun and I were relaxing on the sofa after a busy day. I have no idea how we got into watching The Shawshank Redemption, but we both loved this movie.

‘ I swear we should get a subscription for this chipper place’ Shaun laughed licking his fingers and putting the empty box on the table.

‘Maybe you, I only get the fish and salad from there. You are the one stuffing your face with a double portion of chips ‘ I pointed at the box ‘No judgement brother’ I laughed patting his stomach

‘ And you think getting a salad will justify this pack off Oreos that you just finished… chips are made from potatoes and potatoes are vegetables, that’s how I see it.’ He said, looking in the bag for more.

‘ And Oreos are made in heaven, so there are harmless. That’s how I see it ‘ I laughed munching my last Oreo.

We finished the movie, both tearing as usual.

‘ I meant to ask you... how was your date with Angel? You seem to be very invested in her shelter problems. Will they still go ahead with closing it?’

‘Looks like yes, I’m trying to help her as much as I can but is not easy to find a home for so many animals, I was considering adopting Teddy but not when I am here in your house. I don’t want him to chew on your shoes … ‘ he laughed ’date was excellent, we got closer, but we are taking it slow. Small steps, she is lovely and definitely worth an effort, so I don’t want to screw it.’

‘ You should adopt him, I don’t mind. Plus is for a good cause. ‘

‘Really? Thanks, I might do that. Angel will be happy, he is a great dog, you will love him.’

Suddenly I heard my phone ringing from the kitchen. I got up quickly and run to answer.

I’ve been waiting for my dad’s call about Austin, but I saw a strange unknown number.

I answered a bit unsure. I definitely wasn’t expecting what came next.

‘Hello, this is as a collect call from Shelton County jail from inmate Austin Russo. To accept charges, please press one.’ Oh my god! My breath stopped, my legs suddenly felt weak, my heart was pounding in my chest. I quickly pressed number one on my phone, a long waiting tune started to play, for seemed like an eternity.

‘Maya? Baby, are you there?’ I heard men’s voice answering the phone. The empty glass I’ve been holding landed on the floor, smashing into pieces.

‘Austin?... Is that you?’ I sat on the chair, trying to calm my breath, completely ignoring the broken glass all over my kitchen floor

‘Of course, I promised I will be in touch, remember?’ I felt the familiar butterflies, this time a lot stronger. I can’t believe it’s really him. His voice was deep, smoky and husky but warm and kind. Exactly like I imagined him to sound. I smiled and breathed.

‘I am so happy to hear you… I missed you. Are you ok?

‘I missed you too, I was so pissed when they found my phone, I tried to get it back but only made it worse. I’ve been thinking about you every day… I was terrified; I will never hear from you again, that you will forget me.’

‘Austin, I told you that won’t happen …I’ve been trying to find you, I called so many prisons asking for you. I felt so hopeless… You have no idea how glad I am, you are alive.’

‘You thought I’m dead?’ he laughed and I felt like I can finally hear that sexy cockiness from our conversations‘ I am tougher than you think baby… by the way … you have a beautiful voice.’

‘Cheesy!’ I laughed ‘ You better tell me if you are OK? What the judge is saying? Will they release you soon?’

‘ I am OK now that I am talking to you… I am waiting for the court, I didn’t hear anything since they moved me here. My lawyer says everything looks promising, but he doesn’t know anything yet. I hope to hear from him soon.’

‘Austin they have no rights to keep you in prison any longer than necessary. What they are waiting for? You are innocent …what other proof they need?! This is nonsense!... was seven years not enough?! Is your lawyer even doing what he supposed to? From what I can see is not!’

‘Look at you, so feisty’ I could literally see that smirk on his face that I saw so many times on the photos.‘ My lawyer is doing what he can, but this takes time is, not just this one case they taking into consideration. They are looking at my past as well. But the good news is … execution is out of the picture which means you saved my life …I don’t know how I will ever repay you for this…’ He’s voice got softer and warmer

‘ You can repay me by bringing your sexy ass to me, and give me that kiss that you promised. ‘

’As far as I remember I promised more than a kiss… And I keep my promises’ Damn! that cockiness again!

‘Well, now I have to hold you for it … point is I need you here ASAP! ‘

‘That might be a bit tricky at this moment…Now that I can finally hear your voice I am dying to see you.’

‘Trust me, I am already googling where Shelton County Jail is.’ I laughed

‘ Why am I not surprised ?’ He laughed

‘Because we both know how much we want to see each other?’

‘You have no idea … now that I don’t have my phone here I only have your pictures in my head, I can’t look at them every day like I did before. ‘

‘I could do something about that’ I smiled

‘Oh, really? What’s that ?’

‘You will see.’

‘Here we go, teasing …Not fair!…I really don’t want this to finish, I could talk to you all day … but I have only one minute left.’

‘That’s shit, but I understand, will we be able to speak again soon?’

‘Yes, I will call you as soon as I can… I am so happy I could hear your voice … I couldn’t wait any longer…I fucking missed you, baby.’

‘ I missed you too… but now it can only be better’ I heard beeping on the other side, we were running out of time

‘Maya’

‘Yes?’

‘I love you.’

‘I love you too, Austin

‘ Speak to you soon, I will be dreaming of you ‘ The call got disconnected before I even opened my mouth to answer

I sat in my chair, staring into my laptop. I looked at the floor, the smashed glass was gone, and Shaun was sitting next to me with a massive grin on his face.

‘I guess I don’t have to ask who that was? He passed me a glass of wine.

‘I still can’t believe it, he called… I heard his voice … I keep pinching myself.’

‘I’m glad he did. I texted Dad, and told him he is in Shelton … he was surprised that they transferred him there is a particular place for inmates who are waiting to be released or with short sentences… I checked online, and there is a significant turnaround there, apparently a very chaotic place. For someone like him who spent many years in one place must be difficult there.’

‘ He didn’t sound like he was alright, I could hear a lot of noise in the background. They are keeping him waiting, Shaun… he said they are looking at his past, what if they put him for longer because of something he did years ago?’

‘ There is no point in speculating, what if … If you call Shelton tomorrow morning you can sign for a visit on Saturday and I will suggest you do it’ He said sipping his wine

Shortly after, we went to bed. I couldn’t focus on any movie I had only one thing on my mind, his voice so deep and smoky … it suite him so well.

That night I slept peacefully knowing that he is fine, dreaming about him, this time, my dream was a lot more real.

Finally was Saturday, I managed to book a surprise visit. I got up with a smile on my face. I was excited and nervous at the same time. The feeling of being able to see him, touch him… only for a short moment give me a massive boost of energy. This wasn't the ideal first meeting, but it didn’t matter at the time.

I wore skinny blue jeans with a black bodysuit, didn’t want to go to over the top. It wasn’t a date after all but felt like the most special day in my life.

‘ You are not leaving much to the imagination, sis !’ Shaun laughed sanding in my bedroom door

‘Is not like I am naked… I’m fully covered’ I frowned turning off my hair straightener

‘ You don’t have to’ He laughed

I rolled my eyes and looked one last time in the mirror ‘Perfection.’ I smiled and winked at Shaun

‘Ugh… please’ He rolled his eyes and laughed. ‘I can see those Oreo’s smiling at me.’ He pointed at my stomach

‘Excuse me! Who is talking? Someone who is slowly turning into a big chip’ I frowned and pointed my finger at his yellow t-shirt

‘But for now, I’m still a skinny and sexy, French fry.’

‘Ok, ok my double-chinned skinny French fry. I have to go ‘ I smiled, give him a kiss on the cheek and walked off… I turned around and saw him investigating his chin in the mirror, Adorable!

After an hour drive, I sat in my car taking a few deep breaths Ok, Maya you can do it!

I walked inside. A woman behind the desk looked at me with a big grin like expecting me to say something

‘Hi, I came to visit …’ I smiled, but she cut me off

‘Name’

‘Maya Clark’ She turned to the big monitor without a word

‘ID?’

‘Oh yes, here it is ‘ I smiled passing her my ID, she checked my details and turned back to me giving me my ID back

‘Take a seat there, someone will come for you’ She pointed at a few chairs by the main door.

I smiled and walked towards the chairs—such a lovely lady.

While waiting, I looked around What an awful place. The corridor was busy, police were bringing new prisoners every few minutes, mostly young people, mostly scared. I looked at a young man, clearly high. He reminded me of Luke, how many times I picked him up from the streets in the same state, believing that one day he would stop. Blindly hoping there is a chance for him, but now I knew that there was no chance he could ever stop using. Suddenly I heard my name.

‘Clark!?’ I looked up, mid-aged man, clearly a warden, stood next to me with a small smile

‘Yes, that's me ‘ I jumped from my seat

‘Anette, I will take this one’ He shouted to the woman behind the desk, she nodded with the same angry grin as before.’ Follow me’ He said warmly

I followed him through a big door that led to a long corridor.

‘Russo, huh?’ He smiled

‘Aha’ I nodded returning a smile

‘I am going to cut to the point… my name is Kevin. Your dad called me a few days ago, gave me a few details and as I am a man of my word I promised I will help. I owe your father a big favour.’

‘He didn’t tell me …’ I said, surprised Richard Clark, I hate you! He could’ve warned me!

‘That’s fine’ He smiled.

We stopped by one of the doors. Kevin pulled a bunch of keys and unlocked it. Inside was a small room with only one table and two chairs opposite each other next to the small window.

’ This is a room where inmates usually talk to their lawyers, regular visits are only permitted in the visiting room, but as I said before I owe your father a big favour.’ He smiled ‘ You will be alone, but this room is monitored ‘He pointed at the camera in the corner.’ I booked one hour for you.’

‘Thank you’ I smiled

‘There is a small shop, just around this corner if you want to get something. I will leave you here and go and get him. I will be back in a few minutes’

‘Kevin…does he know I’m here ?’

‘No’ He said warmly and walked off

I bought two coffees and went back to the room, closed the door and walked to the window. I should’ve guessed my dad would do something like this.

Ten minutes later, I heard footsteps, and I heard Kevin talking.

‘I am taking them off but don’t brag about it around. I don’t want the others to know there are special treatments here.’

I stood by the window, with my heart beating faster, I was nervous but in a good way. I’ve been waiting for this moment for months, ever since we started talking the need of seeing him was growing every day more.

Suddenly the door opened, and he walked in.

“Maya?!’ He stopped, shocked, god, he was gorgeous, not just handsome but beautiful. Standing there in his grey tank top and orange trousers, all his muscles exposed. He is hotter than imagined. My stomach twisted in knots, my heart pounded in my chest.

‘Last time I checked’ I smiled wildly. I couldn’t wait any longer, as soon as the door closed I ran to him and wrapped my arms around him. He buried his face in my neck, his strong arms embraced me. I could feel our hearts beating like they wanted to jump out of our chests and become one. My eyes started to fill with tears, but I didn’t let them fall, this wasn’t a time for tears.

‘I fucking missed you, baby.’ He said I could feel his warm breath on my neck sending shivers down my spine. We pulled away for our eyes to meet for the first time. He cupped my face with one hand, the other one still resting on my back. I traced the back of his neck with my fingers down to his muscular chest, still looking in his eyes. He smiled, there were so much warmth and love in his deep blue eyes, I could get lost in this gaze. He rubbed my cheek with his thumb, and before I knew his lips met mine, warmth spread throughout my entire body. I felt like I am exactly where I suppose to be. In seconds I understood that everything that happened in the last few months all those feelings, tears and laughs led to this moment. The kiss was slow at first, he brushed his lips gently against mine; his hand rested below my ear as our breaths mingled. I ran my fingers down his neck, he pulled me closer until there was no space between us. His tongue slipped inside my mouth, gentle but demanding, We’ve been waiting for this moment for so long, the urgency started to take the lead we knew we don’t have much time, but we didn’t want this end.

Time stopped, nothing mattered at this moment only us, we didn’t care where we are and who will see us. We waited for this moment far too long. The kiss became more urgent, faster and stronger he let half growl, half moan from the back of his throat, were both so hungry for one another. I wished so badly we weren’t here, but we knew we can’t go any further. Not here.

We pulled away, Austin brushed my hair gently from my face, looking at me like he wanted to memorize every part of me just in case if he would never see me again.

‘I love you Maya’ He whispered resting his forehead on mine.

‘I love you too’ I smiled. I really did like I never loved anyone before.

I ran my hand on his muscular arm when my hand met his, he pulled it up and kissed my fingers, with his eyes not leaving mine even for a second.

‘You are so beautiful, I can’t believe you are here…This must be a dream.’

I smiled and pinched him gently below the ribs, he jumped laughing

‘Oho.. someone is ticklish‘ I laughed. ‘ Did that felt real?’

‘Yes it fucking did.. ouch’ he smiled rubbing the place

‘So it is not a dream.’ I smiled

He wrapped his arm around my back and pulled me for another short but sweet kiss. I cupped his face he smiled when we finally pulled away. I took a few seconds to look at his beautiful face. He had a dimple on the right side. How come I didn’t see it before? This is so fucking sexy and cute. He got closer and kissed my forehead.

‘Let’s sit down’ he said, taking my hand in his and leading me to the table.

We sat opposite each other. I pushed the cup with coffee towards him.

‘Still warm’ I smiled taking a sip of my one

‘ I was freaking out, I thought that my lawyer came. They usually tell me a day before when he comes, so I thought that something happened. How come we were able to meet here?’

‘I was surprised as well, I came prepared for a room full of people. But then Kevin took me here and told me that my dad called him and that he owes him a favour. I didn’t object, I guess he knows what he is doing .’

‘Hang on… your dad?’ Shit, of course, I didn’t tell him that my whole family knows about him.

‘Well, yeah…let’s say my dad being a first rank Capitan knows a lot of people. He has a tendency of taking risks for others, so I’m not surprised few people owe him some favours.’ I smiled

‘Are you telling me that your father knows about us?!’ His expression hardened

‘Aha…in fact my mum and my brother as well’ I reached to grab his hand and give it a gentle squeeze ‘ Relax, they are very much with me here. They are ok with us, they supported me all the way. Shaun was the one driving me to Bennie’s that night. If not him, I don’t think I would make it, he kept me focused and calm.’ I said, still holding his hand, his expression softened like he accepted it.

‘You have no idea how grateful I am for everything you’ve done for me. You didn’t have to, you could’ve just unmatched me and go back to your life, but you believed me …’

‘I didn’t have to, but I wanted to. We will talk about being grateful when you are free.’ I smiled

He looked at me with his signature cocky smirk on his lips ‘ Oh yeah? I can’t wait to have that conversation.’

‘Who said anything about conversation’ I smiled and lifted my brow

‘Baby, don’t do that here … I won’t be able to stop myself. Just looking at you gives me so many thoughts.I am having a hard time controlling myself, you are so beautiful. ’ He said looking at me hungrily

‘Right back at you’ I smiled ‘ But yes you are right, I’m sorry, this is not the place… tell me, how are you? I read a bit about this place, it seems very chaotic.’

‘Yeah, it wasn’t easy to adapt to this place. I have to keep my eyes open all the time. People coming and going every day. I am not used to this. Before I had a cell for myself, now I have to share, every week or two I have a new cellmate. So I can’t let my guard down at any point.’

‘I really don’t understand why they are still keeping you here. You should be free already.’

‘Is not that easy baby, but I spoke to my lawyer a few days ago, and there is progress. Court date should be scheduled soon.’

‘They better hurry the fuck up. What if any of Bennie’s thugs get here?’

‘It would have to be at least five of them to get me, and that not gonna happen. Took him years to get few fuckers into Perch’

‘If you say so’ I smiled, he smiled back

‘This wasn’t the first meeting I planned for us, but I am so happy that you are here.’

‘We will have plenty of time once you are free. When you called me I couldn’t wait any longer, I had to see you.’ He brushed his fingers on mine, our fingers interlocked

Time went flying, but we enjoyed every moment of it. Our conversations were different than the chats, a lot more real and profound. We could finally see each other's expressions, hear each other's laugh; it was like we clicked on an entirely new level. The next level.

I told him to give his lawyer my details just in case, I didn’t want to lose track of

him again.

We heard the door unlocking, and Kevin’s head popped in.

‘I am taking you back in five.’

The door closed again. We really didn’t want this to end. I got up from my chair and approached him. I stood between his legs cupped his face, he wrapped his arms around my waist with one hand tracing lower to my hips. I lowered my heard ready to kiss him, but I stopped, he pushed for a kiss, but I pulled away gently ‘ Promise me, you will give my details to your lawyer’ I said looking in his eyes. He face trapped in my hands, I could hear his pounding heart.’

‘Maya … I..’

‘Promise’ I whispered

‘I promise’ he said. I pulled his face to mine and kissed his lips. We drowned in a deep and passionate kiss. ‘Fuck Maya … I want you so bad’ He breathed in my mouth letting a quiet moan.

‘Well…You will have to swallow your pride and do everything possible to get out of here’ I pulled away.

The door suddenly opened, and Kevin entered the room.

‘It’s time lovebirds’

Austin stood up, grabbed my chin gently and lifted my face, and kissed.

‘ I love you, baby. You are my everything, everything I’ve got… remember that’ He pulled me closer and wrapped his arms around me just for a second. He walked towards Kevin, who closed handcuffs on his wrists. I stood there watching him walk away, our eyes met for a part of a second one last time before he was gone.

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klaumiel · 3 years

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You are all I’ve got, Damien// Chapter 5: First touch

It’s been four weeks since I last heard from Damien when he was transferred to another prison. The fact that I didn’t hear from him for so long was evident to me that they found his phone, and now we had no way to communicate. I wished he left me his lawyer’s number or at least name. I didn’t even know where they transferred him. I had nothing, and the unknown was killing me.

I called few jails around the area, but they couldn’t tell me anything as I wasn’t a relative, it was so frustrating. I started to feel so hopeless.

I parked my car on the driveway, took out my dad’s favourites cookies I made last night, and lilies for my mum.

Before I managed to get to the door, I saw it opening.

‘ Morning, daddy! I have cookies for you. I’m sure you missed my baking’ I smiled and hugged him. His strong arm covered me entirely ‘ Gosh, you are getting bigger and bigger’ I laughed

‘Richard, you better help me with this, is too heavy’ My mum shouted from the living room, she was pushing her old piano from the middle of the room but didn’t move a millimetre.

‘ Look at you little bird, trying to play a strong woman’ My dad laughed and walked to her, he picked her up in the air and moved aside

‘Not funny Richard, not funny.’ She said with half-smile.

‘Are you moving your piano? It’s been in the living room for years’ I said surprised

‘Your dad bought me a new one, we are moving this one to the garage, is worth a lot I’m not getting rid of it ‘ She said looking at my dad pushing the piano with zero effort.

‘That’s great, you could do with the new one’ I smiled and put the bowl with the cookies on the table. I noded my mum towards the kitchen, she walked with me while my dad was in the garage.

I started to put the lilies in the water.

‘What’s wrong, sweetie?’ She whispered

‘ I need to talk to dad about Damien, I am so confused and lost in this whole situation, I need his honest advice. Everything you and Shaun told me, also Gemma… I have no idea what to do. I want to really start looking for him but what Gemma said is stopping me somehow. I need his point of view on this, he never takes anyone’s side, and that’s what I need.’

‘I understand you are confused. Nobody can tell you what to do, but he is the right person to tell what’s best for you, without sugar-coating. ‘

My dad didn’t know about Damien, I asked both my mum and Shaun to keep it a secret for now, but it was time for him to know. I needed his advice the most.

We spent a peaceful afternoon together, I helped my mum with lunch and after we sat in the garden enjoying the late spring sun.

‘ Dad… I need to talk to you about something. I need your honest advice’ I started

‘You can tell me anything sweet muffin, I will do my best to help you ‘ he smiled warmly

I told him everything, didn’t miss any details, he listened, there was no judgement in his look.

‘Ok, next question … how does he make you feel? How do you feel when you talk to him?’ He really wanted me to open up, just spill my feelings. I knew he would do that, and I was ready.

‘Did you ever doubted him? Did you ever think that he isn’t telling you the full truth? … Just yes or no.’

‘No’

He looked at my mum, smiled gently

‘Do you love him?’ He looked me deep in the eyes like he wanted to read my thoughts, I could see that he already knew the answer but wanted me to say it at loud. ‘ Just yes or no.’

‘Yes‘ I said without hesitation, my heart pounded in my chest

‘Ok...last one … how do you feel now? You didn’t hear from him for a while, how do you feel?’

My dad was quiet, looking at the distance. I waited for his response like waiting for a sentence.

I knew that asking him for advice will make everything a lot clearer, after hearing all this, I felt like my decision has been made, it was clear to me what I have to do.

‘Thank you dad.’ I reached for his hand, wiping my tears with the other ‘ I knew you can help me, I knew you will understand both of us.’

‘I hope she will, and decision? I’ve made it.. but I will need your help’ I said

‘I do what I can.’

‘I need to find out where he is, I called every prison in the area, but they won’t tell me anything. You know people. Is there anyone who could help us find him? ‘

‘I won’t be able to live with myself if I just walk away from him… I have to try, Gemma has to understand this.’

My dad checked his phone, got up and walked to the house. He spoke with someone on the phone. He came back a few minutes later, sat back in his chair and looked me in the eyes.

‘We will find him, it might take a few days, weeks but we will find him… he was transferred from Perch County jail right? ‘

‘Yes’ Looks like mum didn’t spare any details.

‘ There are only a few places that he could’ve been transferred too, from there. I will make a few phone calls and see what I can do.’

I knew I can count on him.

A couple of days later Shaun and I were relaxing on the sofa after a busy day. I have no idea how we got into watching The Shawshank Redemption, but we both loved this movie.

‘ I swear we should get a subscription for this chipper place’ Shaun laughed licking his fingers and putting the empty box on the table.

‘ And Oreos are made in heaven, so there are harmless. That’s how I see it ‘ I laughed munching my last Oreo.

We finished the movie, both tearing as usual.

‘ I meant to ask you... how was your date with Angel? You seem to be very invested in her shelter problems. Will they still go ahead with closing it?’

‘ You should adopt him, I don’t mind. Plus is for a good cause. ‘

‘Really? Thanks, I might do that. Angel will be happy, he is a great dog, you will love him.’

Suddenly I heard my phone ringing from the kitchen. I got up quickly and run to answer.

I’ve been waiting for my dad’s call about Damien, but I saw a strange unknown number.

I answered a bit unsure. I definitely wasn’t expecting what came next.

‘Hello, this is as a collect call from Shelton County jail from inmate Damien Jones. To accept charges, please press one.’ Oh my god! My breath stopped, my legs suddenly felt weak, my heart was pounding in my chest. I quickly pressed number one on my phone, a long waiting tune started to play, for seemed like an eternity.

‘Maya? Baby, are you there?’ I heard men’s voice answering the phone. The empty glass I’ve been holding landed on the floor, smashing into pieces.

‘Damien?... Is that you?’ I sat on the chair, trying to calm my breath, completely ignoring the broken glass all over my kitchen floor

‘I am so happy to hear you… I missed you. Are you ok?

‘Damien, I told you that won’t happen …I’ve been trying to find you, I called so many prisons asking for you. I felt so hopeless… You have no idea how glad I am, you are alive.’

‘Cheesy!’ I laughed ‘ You better tell me if you are OK? What the judge is saying? Will they release you soon?’

‘Damien, they have no rights to keep you in prison any longer than necessary. What they are waiting for? You are innocent …what other proof they need?! This is nonsense!... was seven years not enough?! Is your lawyer even doing what he supposed to? From what I can see is not!’

‘ You can repay me by bringing your sexy ass to me, and give me that kiss that you promised. ‘

’As far as I remember I promised more than a kiss… And I keep my promises’ Damn! that cockiness again!

‘Well, now I have to hold you for it … point is I need you here ASAP! ‘

‘That might be a bit tricky at this moment…Now that I can finally hear your voice I am dying to see you.’

‘Trust me, I am already googling where Shelton County Jail is.’ I laughed

‘ Why am I not surprised ?’ He laughed

‘Because we both know how much we want to see each other?’

‘You have no idea … now that I don’t have my phone here I only have your pictures in my head, I can’t look at them every day like I did before. ‘

‘I could do something about that’ I smiled

‘Oh, really? What’s that ?’

‘You will see.’

‘Here we go, teasing …Not fair!…I really don’t want this to finish, I could talk to you all day … but I have only one minute left.’

‘That’s shit, but I understand, will we be able to speak again soon?’

‘Yes, I will call you as soon as I can… I am so happy I could hear your voice … I couldn’t wait any longer…I fucking missed you, baby.’

‘ I missed you too… but now it can only be better’ I heard beeping on the other side, we were running out of time

‘Maya’

‘Yes?’

‘I love you.’

‘I love you too, Damien’