#no side walks. like max 3 benches . excluding the SINGEL SMALL AREA . for performances

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Can I be vulnerable or will I get shot to death bullet nasty bullets

#I’m so lonely I hate the suburbs there is no gatherings for connections and I have yet to get my license #I feel like ripping my hair out #I’m so lonely. no one is ever outside #it’s just shopping .working or home #there is no gatherings besides churches #and religion is really really bad for me mentally. sorry #I can’t participate. I’m also queer #but I could hide that but I wouldn’t connect to anyone #might as well eat at a McDonald’s while watching people pass by #I didn’t stay connected to any of my friends at school cause I didn’t share intrests or humor #and I was underdeveloped . as a person #I’m so behind and I’m so lonely I want out I want out #there is no public transportation. just this stupid #bare necessities. a park. a River. and endless housing. #no side walks. like max 3 benches . excluding the SINGEL SMALL AREA . for performances #doesn’t count #been there for like centuries #I feeel like crying. or jumping offf the nearby bridge over the river #I want to be independent. #but I need my license. which requires me to have free time. and for my parents to have free time. and to find a slot in the crowded dmv #and for me to not mess up #and I need a job #I don’t want to do collage. I don’t . well I do. but I don’t know WHAT I FUCKING WANT #I HAVE NO BASE FOR WHAT ANYTHING IS #THIS JUST FEELS LIKE A SECOND HIGH SCHOOL #I DONT KNOW WHAT JOB I WANT #I WANNA WORK AT A FUCKING WALMART OR SOMETHING #PLEASE #just . let me work . somewhere #I’ll hate it I know but I feel so stagnet