#not holding my breath bc thats asking for chaos. i think this week ive done a good job of not pushing it

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#woof. if all goes to plan Tomorrow is the last day i have to take measurements forever. if all goes to plan. if all goes to plan. but im #not holding my breath bc thats asking for chaos. i think this week ive done a good job of not pushing it #in terms of not torturing myself and making myself insane. which is good bc its exhausting taking measurements with the ambient stress of #apartment hunting from across the country. ive toured 2 places from afar and applied to them. and im meeting with someone to talk abt #potentially being roommates tomorrow. which is terrifying bc i really just wanna beg them like pls pls like me so i can stop looking pls #like i have to rely on my charisma i guess when im a bit asocial and odd. not unlikable but idk maybe they want someone more normie idk #its exhausting. ive sent so many emails and so many places r like no u gotta physically visit. ugh #and i have to clean my whole apartment by Tuesday for my landlord to inspect bc i had to give them a 30 day notice or else they wouldn't #release my info for like referal on background checks. there should b flexibility in when i can leave tho. its just stressful #at least im doing this when im pretty stable and i stop taking measurements tomorrow but i haven't taken a break since last Saturday #and haven't really had time to properly draw which annoys me and apparently i wont get a break this weekend with all the cleaning i gotta do #but oh well. at least im better off than the other person i kno who is moving Tuesday across the country and currently doesnt have a place #to stay. so i guess theyre gonna b living out of their car for a while. im stressed enough a month out from leaving #sigh. im just v tired and my heart is beating too fast and i wanna start cleaning now but im sleepy #whenever we go sampling we joke that we have to make sacrifices to the weather gods for good conditions. i guess i gotta make sacrifices #to the housing gods 🙏 ugh. pls. i dont wanna still b doing this for another week when i wont have time bc ill actually have to focus on #things. ugh. cant wait to b in the future where i dont have to deal with this #unrelated

[katiemonz]

Heya! I saw a think legit months ago about Scourge bein real touch starved & people falling asleep on his shoulder n such!? Could you talk more about that bc that's adorable as heck man! Like, someone just grabbing his hand in excitement or hugging him from the side?! :0 Thank!

Scourge was never one for hugs. It makes sense, he figures, since he never had any friends or loved ones until recently. But still, it bears repeating: he probably hasn’t been hugged since he was a child. No pats on the back, no side hugs or half hugs or anything of the sort. Well, there was that one big group hug after they defeated the Time Eater and sent the kids home, the one where he bawled like a baby, but that was a highly emotional time. He figures it’s just a fluke.

But nope. No, he’s playing video games with Amy at her place, some co-op thing, and they beat a level they’ve been stuck on for 45 minutes. Amy freaks out, screams a little, wraps her arms around his chest, and he can feel the shivers run up his spine like a cold front. He has a brief moment of panic–she’s hugging me, what is with the butterflies in my stomach, I’m not into her so why does this feel so good–and then it’s over, Amy’s hands are back on her controller and she’s picking the next level.

He lets out a breath that he didn’t even realize he was holding and tries to focus back on the game, but he can still feel a tremor in his ribs. It’s a while before it passes. He’s almost sad that they don’t get stuck on a level like that again.

Scourge doesn’t know what to think of that hug. Chalks it up to excitement and relief at finally beating that damn game. He manages to forget about it, at least until Sonic pesters him into going to the workshop for a movie night a week later. Tails is curled up in an armchair, Sonic is sitting on the arm of the couch like a weirdo, and Zonic and Scourge are sitting on the couch itself, close to one another so they can easily bring up memes on their phones to silently share.

While Scourge is ignoring the movie (something about dinosaurs) and scrolling through his phone, Zonic leans into him to show him a short video. And it happens again. The world slows down, he feels that contact, and he just. Melts. He doesn’t mean to, but he sinks in his seat, leans right back into Zonic, and wonders once again what the fuck is wrong with him. Is he going nuts? He never used to want people to get all touchy-feely with him. First Amy, and now Z? The hell?

“You good?” Zonic asks when Scourge slumps in his seat, completely oblivious to the electricity engulfing Scourge’s whole side. The green hedgehog nods.

“Yeah, just–” Scourge starts, and then he clears his throat because dear Chaos that was a hell of a voice crack– “Just gettin’ comfy.” Ugh, this is embarrassing. He hates when people touch him! Why’s he getting all melty?

He sends Zonic a text once they both go back to watching the movie, because he’ll be damned if he mentions this out loud. But Chaos, he needs answers.

Scourge: hey dont freak out but like

Scourge: when u started leanin on me just now?? it felt… good? and i thought i didnt like people touchin me but

Scourge: idk same thing happened with ames last week, she hugged me and it felt like my body did a loop de loop

Zonic: ?? Maybe youre changing your mind abt that stuff

Scourge: maybe??? idfk all i know is that i got the shivers. like the good kind. sorry this is probably weird as FUUUUUCK

Zonic: Nah man u just sound touch starved to me

Scourge: ??? explain

Zonic: Your body isnt getting enough friendly touch. U know, hugs and stuff

Scourge: thats a thing that can happen?? ?

Zonic: Yea

Scourge: no wonder it feels so fuckin nice, ive been goin thru a hug drought

Scourge: cept for u nerds and fiona? i think the last hug i got was from my mom before she croaked

Scourge: like, when i was 7

Zonic: Oh yikes

Zonic: Dont worry man Im on the case. Its leaning time

Just then Zonic leans all the way into Scourge’s side, head on shoulder and arm on arm. The weight leaves a warm feeling in Scourge’s chest, and he thinks that maybe Zonic has a point. What else would that feeling be, the warmth of friendship?? No, that sounds dumb. Way dumber than “touch starved.” At least he has something to look up when he goes home later.

Scourge: ty

Scourge: for this. and also for tellin me that this is kinda normal

Zonic: Np, happens to all of us. Chaos knows its happened to me

Zonic: Now shut up, some of us actually care what happens in this movie

Scourge: the dinosaur dies at the end, ive already seen it :P

Zonic gasps. “Asshole!” he cries out, giving Scourge a harsh shove with his elbow. Sonic and Tails look at them, see them both smiling, and don’t ask. Once he’s done, Zonic leans back into Scourge’s side, and Scourge proceeds to melt into a puddle in the corner of the couch.

The movie ends and the dinosaur doesn’t even die. Zonic swears vengeance for the cruelty he’s been put through at the hands of these lies. Scourge is too busy smiling to care.

#scourge the hedgehog #redeemed scourge #zonic the zone cop #amy rose #time warp #cosmic tech #WHOOPS I WROTE A THING #AND ITS WAY LONGER THAN I THOUGHT ITD BE #its also 4:11 in the morning christ #well #here's this #ask #anon #katiemonzwriting #Anonymous