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kae-karo · 5 years

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welp seems i have been tagged by several lovelies and i love procrastinating so thanks to @misguideddgh0st and @americanphancakes and @hey-itsnxel for enabling me lmao

rules: answer 21 questions about yourself and tag 21 people whom you want to get to know better :)

nickname/pet name: i mean technically katie is a nickname but like i’ve also been called kk and kit kat like when i was smol

zodiac: gemini can u tell lmao

height: 5ft 5in

last movie: bandersnatch? i guess?

last thing googled: linguistics basics bc @uselessphillie is peer pressuring me into being a linguist (no but actually i would love to learn more abt linguistics so that’s why)

fave musician: marianas trench hands down i’m going to another state to see them bc they aren’t coming to texas (henlo @thereisnobearonthisisland @philsroots and @uselessphillie especially whomst will be letting me stay with her)

song stuck in my head: i always wanna die (sometimes) bc i’ve been listening to the 1975′s album on repeat lmao rip

other blogs: oh god. oh god do y’all even really want to know? i have a bunch of dead blogs n urls but i run @stellarlovely which i haven’t queued stuff up for in a couple weeks and also @nouvelleplanet which i sometimes rb stuff to and then a few secret blogs

do I get asks: sned hlep

following: 85

dream trip: an around-the-world trip bc i’m way too indecisive to just go one place i want to go everywhere

amount of sleep: anywhere between 8 and 10hr depending on how i’m feeling, i’ve been known to sleep for 12hr and still be tired and also sleep for 5hr and run on that + massive amounts of coffee for an entire ten day trip so

lucky number: 4 which has some weird connotations for me as well but it’s always been 4

what I’m wearing: my massively oversized eclipse sweatshirt and some old black sweatpants i’m going for ‘comfy dannie’ apparently

dream job: author ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

fave food: idk literally anything that tastes good i have a weird relationship with food

play any instruments: i dabble in piano but not like dan does like i genuinely can maybe pick out a few tunes nothing mellifluous or anything

languages: english ofc which is my main language and i have like rudimentary skills in spanish from high school and like. i could probably decipher written french enough to get the meaning. i’m also conversationally fluent in sign language

fave songs: okay 3 categories here -

general songs: warmth by bastille, kissaphobic by make out monday, have it all by jason mraz, i like me better by lauv but the spotify studio version, figure me out by the summer set, looking up by safetysuit, please don’t go by joel adams, dark purple sky by there for tomorrow, sleeping with a friend by neon trees now that i know it’s gay

songs by my fave artists:

marianas trench: i knew you when, astoria, end of an era, so it goes, good to you, fallout, lover dearest, perfect, so soon, all to myself, by now, ever after, who do you love, this means war, wildfire

the maine: (un)lost, i must be dreaming, taxi, how do you feel?, the sound of reverie, diet soda society, bad behavior (the acoustic version)

phan songs bc i’m trash: say you won’t let go by james arthur, stray italian greyhound by vienna teng, can’t sleep love by pentatonix, turn by the wombats, mine by the 1975, something i need by onerepublic, duo by ben rector, wasn’t expecting that by jamie lawson

random fact: my hair grows like really fast? idk man i don’t even know what counts as a random fact or like what y’all care about lmao. ask me anything idc

describe yourself as aesthetic things: the glint of water off the ocean, a cool breeze blowing through trees in the middle of summer, cool grass between toes, super fuzzy blankets and giant comforters, a soft oversized sweater, a wisp of steam drifting up from a warm mug, stars in the night sky over mountains, a flicker of flame from a candle, the soft sound of rain outside a window (okay basically this just turned into aesthetic things i like)

also for tagging, y’all know i don’t tag people so anyone who sees this and wants to do it, consider this me tagging you! @ mention me so i can see if y’all do it :)

#kt #about me

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soap-brain · 7 years

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oooo so i got tagged by both @elroymarvelous (something like a week ago i’m so sorry) and @greetings-from-the-suffer-puppet (yesterday :p) to do this alphabet questions thing! let’s go!!

a - age: 19

b - birthplace: düsseldorf, nrw (it’s in germany) (it’s the best city in germany) (95 olé)

c - current time: 11:38 am

d - drink you had last: some neat sparkling water, also i pretended to drink chips rings but they’re solid so idk whether that counts

e - easiest person to talk to: @greetings-from-the-suffer-puppet , cause we have somehow absolutely /no/ need for filters and we’ve talked about some things we would never, ever talk about with other people :D (hey ryn, remember the scintillating convo we had recently involving chrispy? good times) and also @loststarlight bc she’s a very bad person who got me into a ship and enables me to write fic for it and sends me unacceptable photo posts and totally made me watch doom!! which i didn’t want to do.. at.. all *sweats nervously and holds hand over pocket that’s def not bulging with karl pics... and bruce... and chrispy...*

f - favorite song: atm it’s a tie between sabotage by the beastie boys and ..... every time we touch by cascada (look, i’m technically a rock person, but sometimes it’s midnight, you’ve had about 5hrs of sleep every night, you know you have at least one more hour of super complicated chemistry to do, you’ve had a long ass day, you’re really hungry, just had a bowl of cereal and are fast approaching an ultra sugar high. what better to party with than that song??)

g - grossest memory: story time! during grades 9-12, i sometimes liked walking home instead of doing the hour long tram and bus ride. idk, it was a self reflection / relaxing thing, which i still kinda do. there was a short tunnel i had to go through. nothing scary, it was literally just the street and a pavement on each side, it was short, well lit, in an okay neighborhood, there were frequently people around etc. so really, really, not scary / gross. one day i’m walking and i see a guy of maybe my age coming towards me ahead of me, so i go to one side of the pavement, while he goes to the other, i’m doing the staring ahead thing which will morph into a lightning quick checking the other person over thing once we pass each other. it’s a thing i do. so we’re just about to pass each other, and he pushes up his tee shirt (it was summer/spring) and ... there’s just... his erection. which he consciously shows to me. and he says something which i didn’t hear cause i’m listening to music, but i do physically recoil a little, my shoulder brushes the tunnel wall but i keep walking, pretending nothing happened, and i remember thinking to myself “the fact that you know now that you won’t believe yourself later that you didn’t make this up is the only thing that’ll make you believe it really happened.”, and just because i know i thought that then already, i believe myself that i didn’t make it up cause man, i kinda wanted to pretend it didn’t happen. and that’s the story of the first ever real life erection i saw! yay! now you know things about me you didn’t want to know!

h - horror yes or no: noooooo pls i get scared easily. even bad horror movies (ie doom) can scare me a bit. esp jumpscares??? the worst imo

i - in love?: nah. never been, either *shrug emoji*

j - jealous of people?: klasjdlfjasdlf i get really jealous of how people manage to socially interact with such ease?? and just... talk to other people and aren’t awkward and make friends?? a wild concept

k - killed someone?: ok so i know we should all either answer something cool and quirky or no!! of course not!! but i have a story. (fuck ok now y’all think i actually killed a person. disclaimer: i didn’t. but i was close) ok so i was doing my three months mandatory nurse work for studying medicine, and around the second month there was this old lady (93yo i think), who’d just gotten i think a new hip? and before her op she was surprisingly mobile with her walking frame and just really cute and chipper and also scared of her op. afterwards, she went to the icu, as was scheduled bc she was so old, and and then she got back to her regular station, and she was slowly but surely learning how to sit up and stand up again and then also walk. she had major pain problems and her leg had gotten stiff, but she really was a champ, and i really liked her. also, to make some infusions (ie pain meds) easier, she’d gotten a central venous catheter, ie a catheter into the vein right at the bottom of her neck. and then it was time to take it out bc she’d gotten so much better, and there was a doctor there and i was just doing some work or something in the same room (i think we just got done helping the patient dress), and the doctor knew i wanted to study medicine, so she asked me whether i wanted to take it out with her help. i said yes, and then the doctor got a call and took it and told me to go ahead and detach the iv drip line from the catheter. which i did. then i waited for the doctor to finish her call to tell me the next step. she was done just as the patient started feeling faint and started to lose feeling in the arm on the side the central venous catheter was in. long story short, she was rushed to the icu again, because what i didn’t know was that you had to close the catheter, and i’d essentially pulled off the stopper as well, and she ended up having no blood in certain parts of her brain, which i think ended up as a terminal condition for her. she lived, but she had a very, very hard time getting better again and i think she never fully recovered. so. yeah. that’s my story on how i almost killed a person.

l - love at first sight or should I walk past again?: definitely walk past again :D looks and mannerism can be very deceiving

m - middle name: inge brigitte

n - number of siblings: 2

o - one wish: to get my shit together lmao

p - person i called last: i think my dad?? about photoshop?

q - question you’re always asked: probably about my one weird tooth maybe? or what i did between school and uni

r - reason to smile: getting messages / people willingly interacting with me, horses, when life is going good, when i can be proud of myself for a reason, when there’s music making me feel good things, star trek

s - song you last sang: i don’t sing. i’d sometimes like to, but i feel too awkward cause i’ve been told that i can’t sing at all, so like...

t - time you woke up: 6:47 am the first time, then sometime around 8

u - underwear color: white

v - vacation: this probably ties in with all the “places you wanna visit” ask games, so the answer has to be most of europe, northern america, iceland, australia, parts of asia, parts of africa, space, berlin

w - worst habit: picking at my skin.... and procrastinating!

y - your favorite food: well my fave meal would be garlic bread, a medium steak with fries and beans and either lava cake or crème brûlée for dessert, along with an apple martini; but my fav normal food would be spaghetti bolognese and ... chocolate-y sweets (and truffles. oh boy i want some truffles now)

z - zodiac: libra

i’m tagging @loststarlight, @chameleon-kirk, @bottomkirk, @mccoysbi, @lieutenant-sapphic, @trappist-1p and everyone else who wants to do this!! esp all my new followers - if you wanna do this, tag me so i can get to know y’all!!

#captains log #tag games

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iivlvii · 5 years

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Day 43 - 09:15

Weight: 192.4

It's only been 7 hours, so I don't expect much weight loss.

I'm still incredibly surprised I maintained where I am! I've eaten two entire large pizzas in the last two days, that's not counting the 8 packs of buffalo chik patties I've eaten all week, the three pints of non-dairy ice cream and all the not-so-healthy food like chips and cookies. I figured I would be 198 or something, thank god.

Thoughts:

Kind of wanted cereal, but going to try and stick to my plan today:

After I drink senna tea, get in my vitamins, sip electrolytes throughout the afternoon, eat a small salad, and end the evening with MCT oil, I'll be clean for the 11th. I'm going to try and push my fast longer than 6 days to make up for the days I've made mistakes, 1 extra day for every two I waited, so a total of 8.5 days minimum for each dry fast, or 204 hours. I'm also going to have to remember to work out once I'm on day 3-6 to make sure I lose weight faster. I've had issues even reaching day 7 because of candida die off, but I believe I can push myself this time (hoping I got enough out of my system in the last fast). I'll only give myself a single day of refeeding since I wasted so much time. If I'm 167lbs before the end of January, I'll go back to my initial plan of 5 days dry, 3 days water/refeed until the 14th of February.

Bam.

Should I start with senna tea, or should I take an adderall? I actually kind of want to eat some cereal, if only a little, but it probably won't be as satisfying as I feel like it will... Nah, it won't. And it'll be much more satisfying eating cereal at 167 than at 192. I should probably take my vitamins this morning, instead. I'll take an adderall in a bit (hopefully I fall asleep soon, but if I'm not out by twelve, I'm taking it) and then sip senna tea and my electrolyte mix until around 6. Then I'll allow myself a popsicle, the remains of my salad, and drink my MCT oil a few hours after I've digested my food (9? 10?) After that, it's sleepy time and the timer for my fast starts. Tomorrow I'll hopefully wake up to clear the waste from my body, then be ready to dry fast for at least 7 days.

I'm feeling good about today. Any other day, I wouldn't be able to fight against the urge to eat cereal, but it was effortless this morning, so I think I really was nutrient deficient. Even though I'm starting 5 days later than intended, adding 60hrs to my initial fast will hopefully balance it out. Especially if I rush my electrolyte days.

Next time, I'm going to take my refeeding very, very slowly. Three days on liquids, electrolytes, coconut water, only a small salad for dinner on day four. No more than 200 calories the first three days, 500 the next four days, and stick to fruits, vegetables, and staple proteins for seven days after that, not exceeding 800 calories. That should give me metabolism plenty of time to recover. I'll also try to get in 10-15k steps a day starting alongside my 500 cal days after the fast ends.

If I do finish my fast on the 12th, I'll still be on liquid/500 cals max by the 14th and the 15th. I might give myself a "cheat" day for Rob's alcohol, but I'll let Alex know to get me things that don't perish quickly or to simply put a raincheck on our Valentine's Day festivities. I'm sure he'll understand. I can still look adorable with lemon slices in a clear water bottle at the park with him ❤ and I might even be able to fit into my old clothes!

34 days until Valentine's Day, so 32 days until I plan on ending my fast. I don't start until tomorrow, technically, but let's get that counter going officially.

If I go 8 days each with a 1 day electrolyte day, that puts me at... 11 start, 19 refeed|evening, 20 start, 28 refeed, 29 start, 5 refeed (7 days), 6 start, 11 refeed (5 days). A total of 30 days. I want to slowly wind down my fasting days before the festivities.

That's so much fasting, but I need to remind myself of my goals: Rob's party. Forcing his regret. A fainter existence. Bri to notice. A nice presence for Alex. Celebrating my favorite holiday. My health. I want to talk to Митя, and I won't allow myself of I'm not under 150lbs. Mattie's teasing. My rewards. My binge days. Brother's Cali invitation. Summer family reunions (and Mattie seeing me in my bikini!) My birthday. University. Feeling good about myself.

Let's hope I can stick with this plan. I should be able to lose quite a bit this month despite my fuck up as long as I maintain ketosis and remember to walk as much as I can with Alex on days 3-6.

17:36:

I didn't wake up till 2ish lmao and I still only slept 5hrs. I just drank a cup of senna tea and I'm on my second cup. My mom bought me a sandwich and fries, but I told her to put them in the fridge. I'm probably going to eat the sandwich if only for the sweet, sweet protein.

I haven't taken my adderall today. I didn't feel like I needed it, and I still don't. That's when I know I'm safe on nutrients, because a fast should be easy when I put my mind to it. I wish I had realized this earlier instead of torturing myself over understandable hunger. But it's okay, these are learning experiences.

Took my vitamins this morning. Drank my tea. Probably going to have a popsicle in a few minutes. Then I'll go with my salad/sandwich, and around 10 I'll down the mct oil and turn in for the night.

23:25:

So I had (in reverse order): a spicy chicken sandwich, 1/2 a small fry, a granola bar, three small sugar cookies, a fruit popsicle, and a salad to eat today. I ended up purging at least most of that because I got stressed about weighing more tomorrow and I think I only really digested the fruit popsicle and part of the salad (because a lot still came up). I took a teaspoon of salt substitute and washed it down with 15 calorie lemonade afterwards. I might take a bit more just in case, because I've been purging so much I'm afraid I'm deficient in potassium. I have enough salt in my system and I can get my magnesium in from an epsom salt bath. I still have 30 minutes to get more in if I want, but I think I took enough for the next 7-8ish days at least.

Actually, might go ahead and drink the mct oil to wash down the potassium salt (blergh) out of convenience. I'm so ready to start this fast now lmao

Thursday, January 10, 2019

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