#real talk I'm absolutely heartbroken. devastated. i can't even find the words to describe how viscerally destroyed i am.

[maraeffect]

absolutely going the fuck through it rn (:

#haha I'm going to be cheated out of the only future i ever gave enough of a shit about to want!!!! haha 😃 #so fucking funny of the world to make me want to die for the first 18 years of my life #and then give me a TASTE of what it feels like to live in color. with my fiancee #give me a preview of what I'd have missed out on if i killed myself #and then after 4 years give me cancer and take it all away (: haha I'm laughing!! #can't miss what you never had you know!! very funny way of mocking me here (: #“man this kid actually wants a future!! he's planning it for the very first time!! make him stop.'' #real talk I'm absolutely heartbroken. devastated. i can't even find the words to describe how viscerally destroyed i am. #there's no language that captures it. i just want to wail and scream at curse at god. #if a god exists it fucking sucks and i hope it dies. #IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR MAN. NONE OF IT IS FAIR. #i don't even know what else to say. #negative #death #audio #Spotify #round 2