#the way i don't agree with a lot of the signs here 💀

[hey-kae]

oh yeah italy is really into motorsport (f1 and motogp especially) even tho football is still the most followed sport. but yeah, imagine how i'm fuming after a bad race and i'm like "okay, time to relax" and i turn on the national and regional tv news just to see the blunter repeated again 💀 deadly if you ask me.

also yeah, i don't agree with what toto did last year, i think he was trying to bring down red bull and ferrari to uplift mercedes and ended up with a reliable car but not a fast one, destroyed ferrari and red bull was left untouched. also for ferrari's reliability: i'd say that if ferrari managed to put out a rocketship like red bull, reliability wouldn't be too much of a problem, bc you might have a bad race and then 5 good ones and even if you took a grid penalty you'd know you can still end up in the podium or win it (look at max in hungary and spa last year). so, i'm no engineer or mechanic or strategist, but i'd say that i'd sacrifice something to have a powerful engine that might fail me sometimes but i'd be safe to get back for the next race, you know?

also the sponsor thing isn't anything new. i'm not trying to put my tinfoil hat here, but santander is already known for their scandal back in 2008. ferrari had kimi raikkonen and felipe massa as drivers and kimi won the championship the previous year. one would think that ferrari would keep that in mind, but apaprently money is key, bc in 2008 ferrari gave kimi absurd strategies favoring massa or he had weird techanical problems. it was later found out that santander started "meddling" with ferrari bc they wanted ferrari to have a spanish driver and to favor him, so they would be a sponsor and bring them money. fast forward to 2009: alonso gets a contract for ferrari starting in 2010 and kimi announce his (first) retirement. but honestly, looking at how things went, was it worth it? ferrari favored alonso over massa, but he still didn't win a championship (not entirely blaming it on him bc a lot of times he didn't have good cars like in 2012 if i'm not wrong and in 2014; but also his blunter at abu dhabi 2010 when he got stuck behind petrov... yeah...). and then in 2014 alonso got tired of ferrari's shit and left making a lot of noise and what did ferrari do? signed kimi back again. so pardon me for not being at least a bit suspicious with what is happening rn (and what happened last year too: the strategies in monaco, silverstone and hungary still don't make sense to me AT ALL) and thinking that santander is trying to pull something again, whatever that is. and i don't think ferrari is sabotaging charles with changing stuff on his car or whatever; but i do think that somebody in there isn't being honest and the team isn't working as a team (i could talk for hours about sainz' race engineer and his dislike for charles...) and maybe santander expected sainz as a first driver when he got signed by binotto (which is clear he liked him way more than charles, let's be honest). personally sainz isn't first driver material for a lot of reasons, nothing against him personally, it's not like we're besties and we drink out afternoon coffee together lol but it's just what i've got starting from late 2021 to early 2022.

so yeah, after this huge rant again i guess i could still talk about ferrari's shit without getting tired lol

(I swear I didn’t mean to ignore this, my finals forced me to😭😭)

Omg deadly 100%. I would end up tv-less for sureee.

As for the reliability, you totally have a point but weren’t ferrari running their engines at a lower power for a big part of the season due to it just going poof🔥 when it’s turned up enough for the car to actually challenge redbull speed-wise? I think that’s what i kept reading, but i do agree that strategy was the main issue with reliability not helping. Honestly, it was a bit of everything wasn’t it?😭

I’m kinda scared to bring up the sabotage rumors on here cause i’ve seem a lot of my mutuals say that’s delusional and things of the sort. But I cannot lie and say that there hasn’t been moments where i just thought “they can’t be incompetent, something is fishy” because i just struggle to believe they would stay hired or even get hired in the first place if they were that bad. I mean we love to joke about Ferrari but c’mon it’s FERRARI. There might be moments where they make fools out of themselves but they’re the most prestigious and successful team in f1 even if they’re struggling to keep up that title right now. I don’t believe they hire just anyone they stumble upon and i also don’t believe you’d get hired in such a high position in motorsport if you don’t have enough qualifications for it.

So yeah, at some point, I think there’s more than “incompetency” going on. I must also say i’m rather new to f1, let alone its political side cause before i was just a casual fan and would tune in sometimes but after learning about Kimi and how he was treated by Ferrari literally after winning them a championship (and still is the last ferrari f1 champion), with santander also being potentially at the scene of the crime again, i was like huh🤔

There’s just too many mistakes for it to just be mistakes

Also totally no hate to carlos but horner literally said something along the lines of they didn’t hold onto him at redbull because his father wanted too big of a say in the team and that also has me thinking thoughts. Also end of last year and charles accidentally liking and unliking that tweet about carlos sainz sr. was a whole other moment

(also lowkey wanna hear about carlos’ engineer and Charles’ but I don’t wanna get attacked so idk idk😭😂)

#asks

[ad-hawkeye]

HI HELLO MY OTOME BLOG IS A SIDEBLOG SO I AM COMING IN ANON FORM ALSO I HAVEN'T REACHED OUT BEFORE HI!!! THE ARTEM IS ACE HEADCANONS ARE MY EVERYTHING. MY ASEXUAL AND ARTEM STAN ASS LOVES EVERY SECOND OF THIS.

Fr I thought I never thought too hard ab why I headcanon him as ace bc I headcanon almost every character I like as ace (bc I can) but maybe that's why I was so attracted to Artem when I started the game? Like maybe that's why I became such a hardcore stan?

Because the vibes are SO THERE. I say this as a professional ace-spec vibe reader. You also mentioned in the tags of one of the posts that you headcanon him as grey romantic AND I ABSOLUTELY AGREE THE SIGNS AND THE VIBES ARE ALL THERE I LOVE THIS HEADCANON.

I think the most endearing thing for the aces is that he's always just so respectful and sweet and awkward and not pushy at all, as previously stated by other posts. I like to read stories or play otome games and rewrite scenes in my mind to take out any pushiness or sexual implications bc it makes me uncomfy and with Artem I don't have to rewrite it in my mind because he's already ideal. Like he is absolutely the kind of guy to be the most respectful and accepting ever about his partner being ace-spec even if he isn't. And that is so refreshing compared to almost every other otome guy I've read (and I've played a GOOD amount of otome games) where if I were to make a "reasons blank wouldn't date me" thing they would all be "I'm asexual and he's horny" so maybe the reason we gravitate towards Artem is the feeling that he would truly accept us? I don't even self insert in otome games but whenever there's sexual implication there's still that like, painful moment of realizing that the world at large isn't made for a-specs I guess??? And I've never not once had that with Artem. Sorry if that got too deep💀

ALSO SORRY THIS IS SO LONG I'M A HUGE FAN OF YOUR CONTENT AS AN ARTEM STAN THANK YOU FOR ALL THAT YOU DO❤️❤️❤️

!!! HI ANON!!! 💖 oh my gosh we are kindred spirits right down to our otome blogs being our side blogs </3 which. my apologies to anyone reading this for not following back or sending asks. i promise the limitations of a side blog are my sole reason!!

but oh my god YES, i am totally the same with ace headcanons. it isn’t even intentional! it’s just the way i think. i think i was initially drawn to artem because in the first few main story chaps he doesn’t actually do much besides invite her to join nxx and then stand there looking at her awkwardly sometimes.

his personal story locked me in with the advice book and introduction to his soft side. i do have a slight bias for tot’s personal stories and cards over the main story, though, simply bc the main story (by design) can’t “pick a side”, tends to not get mentioned in other stories, and sometimes feels like it was written by a different writing team?

regardless, i’m so happy to hear you agree on the gray-romantic take!!!! i specifically picked gray-romantic over demiromantic because while this is the first time he’s been romantically attracted to someone, he fell for her before there was any notable emotional connection. mc would fit the demi label a bit better me thinks hehe.

as for artem and the ace crack they stashed inside of him, you make really, REALLY good points here. holy shit, actually. i think you nailed it. i never realized JUST how often other otome games made me feel uncomfortable or left feeling like i was ‘different’. same goes for real life, i suppose. hasn’t happened while reading artem’s route though. even the cards with shameless.. er, fan service. they tend to, from what i’ve seen, play artem as the “whatever you want/whatever makes you comfortable” kind of guy, so your point holds really strong.

getting fully personal here, but i think about this a lot. tot is a popular otome game and even though there would be like. rioting in the streets if one of the boys wasn’t sexually attracted to the mc (which in itself is another depressing reminder of how different i am), it doesn’t really change the already released stories that we love. and it ultimately doesn’t matter what artem winds up being - bc like you said, ace vibes aside, artem being “respectful and accepting about his partner being ace-spec even if he isn’t” is genuinely just. such an accurate take. i can’t believe i haven’t thought of it from this perspective before. you’re so right. 

even on the flip side. if he was ace i could see him communicating with a non-ace partner about that whole situation and i just. man. i’ve called artem the antithesis to your typical otome boy as a joke before, and you know. maybe i was onto something, maybe this was the true ace crack all along HAHA.

OH MY GOSH DON’T APOLOGIZE AT ALL!!!! this was such a good read and it makes me so happy to know i’m not the only one in fandom like this 😭 😭 like i know i said this before, but i never actually intended on mentioning this hc bc i was unsure of how people would respond, especially since we all like this game for different reasons and i wanted to respect that, so i’m genuinely like. really really moved and happy HAHA!! i swear i’m gonna cry or something ;; 

AND AAA now you’re gonna REALLY make me cry, thank you for the kind words!!! i’m so happy people like my silly little rambles :’’] sincerely hope you have a wonderful day, anon!!! def feel free to message me anytime !! 💖💖💖

#asks #anon #headcanon #long post #tears of themis #literally are you me!! i also don't self insert i usually play them like im a benevolent god guiding the mc to a treasure i cannot have #something something the coach doesnt play something something #sorry this isn't meta or anything it's just a deep dive delve into my aspec mind #my apologies for the long reply it just projectile vomited out of me HAHAHA

[emotionallyunavailablepiscean]

Helloooo, Love

I am here for the "what will your future wedding be like" Game!

Initials: MR

Sun sign: Cancer

Moon sign: Virgo

Rising sign: Pisces

Venus sign: Gemini

My guess for your venus is either aries/gemini/libra.

There's a way you seem to perceive love and beauty that is innocent in a romantic sense. The overall vibe is so Parisian✨. Btw your account aesthetics>>>> I wish I could maintain one this pretty🥲

Feedback(Lengthy, don't mind me💀) is assured and thank you in advance bbyy

Hello, MR (♋) 😊 My Venus is in Pisces but I agree that it's quite innocent or should I say naive the way I perceived love in the past? My views on it are actually starting to change right now (ended something recently), but you were right for how I perceived love recently! and thank you so much for the compliment 🥺

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Your future wedding will potentially be like the below description:

Knight of Swords, Queen of Pentacles in Reverse, VIII of Swords, Temperance, Four of Cups, Queen of Cups, VI of Wands

Christmas Tree Farm by Taylor played in my head. Towards the end of the reading Paper Rings also came in my mind you could listen to it maybe it could resonate? Okay I think the first one coupled with the Four of Cups imagery I think you might be getting married under a tree, or like around trees. Either that or this song could be one of the songs you'll play but there's something about the tree in the Four of Cups that's standing out to me, idk. Something about trees and nature and a bright sky.

More about the Four of Cups, I feel you could feel kind of emotionally divided on something on your wedding day, something about kinda going with the flow kind of feel, maybe there would be something that occurs that makes you go 'meh okay whatever' so maybe a ':/' phase but you'll get over it(?).

Maybe it's linked to the Knight of Swords and the reversed Queen of Pentacles, I heard something about it having fast movements it could be things could not go the way they were planned and it could do with material things like decorations?

Anyway Temperance makes me think things will cool down and the wedding seems really cheery, happy and cosy. I can see it'll still overall be a success with the VI of Wands and Queen of Cups. I think you'll be having a good time, and your mood could improve during the day.

I think you'll also be having drinks on the day and I heard the word 'cellar'. It could be there's a nice cellar you guys will hang out at after the day around evening time celebrating the day. I can see a man with dark hair saying 'congrats'.

I got that you'll have a lot of fun on your wedding day and there will be a lot of positive vibes so don't worry too much about the first part of the reading. Your wedding sort of feels like a cup of soy milk, comforting and nice. I hope you'll enjoy your time.

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Thank you for participating! Have a nice day, and please leave feedback.

#celestecity4 #wtrclr answers #game i

[princess-pill-enjoyer]

Would I seem like less of a liar if I deleted the previous post? 💀💀💀

I'm doing a whooole lot better so ima explain myself

Notice in advance though it's not very related to my pills. It's just been a whole lot.. and seeing how I talk about all my personal shit here already it didn't feel too out of place. I've actually been relatively pill free for the last like month or so. Anyway I'll stop this intro here lol. Shits long enough as is

Well what pissed me off to make me want to go ghost was a combo of getting scammed plus R being on some bullshit..

The first bit I kinda walked into. That was that whole situation where I slowly gave out like $50 to this trans woman. I didn't even notice until a few days later but she blocked me soon after I said I couldn't help for a while. I don't know what brain cells evaporated from my brain but if I had noticed the signs earlier maybe I would be $50 richer rn..

The second bit uh. Let's just cut a long story short atp. R has been being a dick to me for a while now so I finally wasn't able to repress my annoyance and I said something slightly snippy. She got sad annd I got mad. Time skip, ghosted her and pretty much everyone else, fully expecting to never speak to her again. Nother time skip, we're back talking.

If I seem kinda over it, it's cause I am lmfao

I think seeing how she changed and reacted during that period where she was upset really changed things for me. Not to sound like that, but I have a lot of.. for lack of better wording "issues" around people switching up. And it's really important to me! Ive been weary of that shit since i was in elementary school. I used to get bullied and ostracized a lot as a kid. And after a combo of parential/friendship drama, I decided I never wanted to feel like I'm ever in a situation where I have to be useful to be loved. I don't want to be in position where anyone can dangle their affection over my head at a whim. Which is all I've felt towards everything since. Even when I was really there begging her to work things out, I did it anyway because I felt like I knew she'd do the same if it ever came down to it. But seeing just how much I've been trying to juggle in silence.. how much I've asked of her over and over again with little change.. it just didn't feel mutual anymore.

Well.. wrong wording. That's something I've had to accept for a while now. I meant our friendship in general atp. I've been the odd man out for so long now. I guess it's our history that does it tbh. You know how with newer friends you'll do a lot more with em? But with older friends youre much more comfortable saying no cause you know they arent going anywhere? It really shouldn't be this extreme tbh but like it ISS. Like I've asked to play 100x different things now, I've tried to watch series together, alllll types of shit. And she never agrees. We never talk or hangout for the fun of it anymore. Actually, I don't think we've actually any real hanging out doing something together purely because we wanted to hang in over 7 months. Everything else has just been us talking about one thing or another or something happening and it just being the after part. Don't get me wrong, I love being able to have an actual conversation way more than being able to play games with her. Though, when hanging out is something you plain out won't go out your way at all to do but you can hurriedly go back to do allll the time with your casual friends and acquaintances? Changed my mind so quick once i realized. I'm just holding onto memories now. Just like my ex and just like my ex best friend. The whole situation reminding me of those two made my emotions towards the thing feel a lot more cut and dry tbh

I started feeling this way when she played me at a moment that honestly.. was the most vulnerable I've ever been. It's a rule I've had since I was a child and have never broken before. Yet here I am, breaking it for no real reason. If anything, me doing that made her be even worse to me

I've been on and off talking with her now. She refriended me on one of our main platforms a little while back. I've only recently took her off mute. I think a day ago now. We talked talked today and it felt exactly like it did way back then. It was almost comical. She said so many cruel things to me and made me feel like an idiot for.. well shoot for nothing atp. Did all that to not even a full 3 months later move onto the next best thing. The complete 360 is what finally sealed it for me. I've been thinking on what my begging meant for days and weeks now slowly edging to this conclusion

Im done.

I got so much anger and nastiness spewed at me time and time again with not even an acknowledgement that it happened

Im just supposed to magically know this perfect fucking timing of how long i need to stay away without staying away for tooooo long to not scare you. And when I get it wrong? Oh don't worry! She'll make sure I know it :))

Its really my fault for letting it get this bad.. I knew it wasnt right for her to be a dick to everyone off of a breakup but i mean.. if the ex was that important to you, it makes sense. If it were still like that, I'd still be taking it now tbh. Why stress her out when she clearly has 1000 other things on her mind? But the cycle repeated right before my eyes it brings up so many questions..

Why cant i get the same courtesy you show to anyone else?

Where was that healing when just a month ago i was a pest for checking in?

God. It's not even like I'm asking for much! I continued doing what I do even when i wasn't getting that same care back. Ive gotten so messed up i can barely comprehend wth is going around me. Ive been on and off sleep for days at a time. I've watched my whole future crumble before my eyes. Ive wven thought about and attempted to kill myself. Alllll that.. yet ive never once used it as an excuse to treat you poorly. I have the common fucking courtesy to own up to ts and not act like any of that makes it okay to disrespect you

It honestly doesn't matter either way. All I know is I'm so tired of getting treated worse than any of her friends and I'm tired of all the fucking gymnastics that she still expects me to do with no complaint. That shits over. I'm not letting yet another person drop off and pick up wherever they feel like with not even a thought about how I'll feel

I feel really numb towards her now. I still have some of it leftover tbh so I wont say I'm OVER her. I still got hype talking to her again and it being not complicated for once. And i do still check her socials a lot. But I will say, I think I've fallen out of love at the very least

I still don't want her to suffer or anything because she is one of the kindest and most charming people you'll ever meet when she wants to be. She would bend over backwards to help out or make someone feel good. She just has to be in the right mood for it. I've seen her give shit away on this game she loves just to help a new player out. I've listened to her check on everyone in her house even when she felt like straight garbage purely cause she knew they all were expecting her to. Just incase one of em was waiting on that to vent or something. She really does have a good heart

Buuut when she doesn't want to/doesn't have to do all that? She's still cordial most of the time. Don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to paint her out to be some nasty person behind closed doors. She really isn't. Even when she's upset, she mostly is still kind, just a little short. But every once in a while, it'll be a big enough issue where she doesn't even feel like pretending to be in a good mood.. and that's her problem. She's so damn cruel once she's that upset. I get it ofc. Which is why I just put up with it for so long

When I was going through the slow realization that my days at my uni were numbered, I was a hugely bitter person. Huuuugely. But even with the mere joy of the other freshman was pissing me off, I never took that out on anyone but me. I was never rude or snarky to anyone there. Even when they were to me lmfao. It just made no sense to take it out on them

R doesn't consider that enough. She goes off tbe handle as soon as it's inconvenient for her not to. Though she's all smiles for people anyone that doesn't know her fr, she'll come back to all the people that love her and put then through the ringer

I cant take that shit anymore.

So now a little over a year after I started feeling something towards her in the first place and coming on a year after I realized what exactly I felt for her, I think I'm now throwing in the towel on all that. Just can't do it. I won't turn my life upside down for someone that can't even bother to keep my feelings in mind some days.

I dont hate her or anything at all. I'm still her friend. But until she learns how to better express herself, I don't want her any closer than a friend. Being close to her is painful dude. I'll never treat her any worse for that. I just have to keep my guard up now. I can't let her get that close to me again. Not with how she is now

I wrote that weeks ago if im being honest

And alots happened since then..

I feel like a hypocrite now. I blocked her without a peep. Even continued playing and talking with other friends and posted not thinking nothing of it. It's been a nice what.. I think coming up on 2 weeks now. I've missed her a lot. I still think of her everyday but at the same point it turned into a matter of principle. I won't even lie, if things went my way, she would either be coming to me through alllll the other methods she used to use when she actually cared to have my attention or she would be getting left in the past. But through my scattered thinking and talk with another good friend made me realize how selfish it was. Complained about her treating me worse than she would a complete random, and yet here I am damn near rubbing it in her face that I'm specifically not talking to her and her only. I feel awful for it now.

I tried to reach back out but she understandably is ignoring me too now. I think she blocked me on a few diff platforms, including my phone number.. I feel awful for doing that to her now. She's an ass at times but she's still been a really good friend to me and I hate that I lashed out without thinking of her feelings, even if it was justified ig. I'm just gonna give her space for now. Shit it took me damn near two weeks of radio silence and thinking for me to stop being angry with her

A few days later lol

We are.. in the clear? Not really honestly. We're still very distant feeling and I genuinely can't imagine ever trusting her the way I have in the past.. but it went over smoother than I thought. I know she's still upset with me, whether she wants to admit it or not. All those months of us spilling each and every thought to each other made it very easy to read her. I can't tell what exactly she's feeling, but she's hiding something.

It really kills me. I can see it plain and clear and I'd love to talk it over, but it's not really my place anymore is it? That's been the most difficult part of all this. I don't really understand how to keep a distance without coming off cold. I care about her and all but at the same point, it'd be extremely stupid to try to get her to open up while also tryna stay closed off myself. Recipe for disaster. Maybe someday she'll bring it up, but for now, I just have to pretend I don't see it

I'm very grateful to her still. She taught me a lot and she is a really good friend. I know if I ever seriously needed her she wouldn't flake on me and she's helped me so many times throughout our friendship. It's really the only reason I went back to us. It felt like a dick move to just ghost and act like her being mean sometimes completely overshadows all the good she brings. Plus I did promise I wouldn't. My feelings being hurt isn't a reason to break that promise imo. I'll stay in her life for as long as she allows it

Though that being said, she's not my best friend anymore. I don't even consider her a close friend atp. I aint gon play her or anything. Im still willing to talk about why I left and what I've been hiding for now. But once the dust settles.. she'll be treated like allllll my other friends. They don't get dogged out or anything but ya know ofc it's very different. I just don't trust her anymore

The thought of us talking through everything and finally hanging out just to hang out makes me paranoid. Will she drop me like she did when she got serious about her ex? Is she gonna be that mean everytime she has a breakup? Is she gone take my happiness the wrong way atp? Should I already preemptively be limiting my talking time with her?

Too many damn questions..

Which is why i think that's that saga done for now. I doubt she'll want to talk about it so I'm just gonna let it simmer out itself ig. I love her sm. I hate that I can't just slap the rose tinted glasses back on. She deserves someone like that. She's truly a gem once you get past all her walls. If I were stronger, I would still be chasing after her now. But after months of unsatisfying resolutions and unspoken tension, ive finally reach a point where I just can't take the hurt from it all 🤷‍♀️

Ah damn it's been tearing me up though. I've never experienced any of this bs before. I hope someday we can both get back to a place where I can consider letting her back in. I miss that time a lot. Dang ik I aint crying rn 🗿

#excessively long #vent #sorry again for flying off the handle again