#tltmr

[realtormj6]

at Novato, California https://www.instagram.com/p/CiiGt-TLTMR/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[dearcarnifex]

experimental comic practice with these idiots,, had a surprising amount of fun doing this

#probably because i mostly stayed within the limits of my ability shdndns #anyway out of context tltmr scene even though im supposed to be thinking about dear carnifex #i can draw a little tltmr content as a treat #its from very near the start so its ok hdnfnsfs. thats my excuse #oc: sylvester #oc: james #comic #tltmr

[dearcarnifex]

only posting this stupid little pen doodle bc of venus going owo (minus one o)

#i love venus. shes baby #has done nothing wrong ever in her little lower beast cyfox life #oc: james #tltmr

[dearcarnifex]

james eats kiwis like theyre apples

#aka the CORRECT WAY #all of you with your knives and your spoons... pathetic #just eat the skin!!! cowards #oc: james #tltmr

[dearcarnifex]

james' beloved cyfox venus uwuwuwu

he feeds her leftover meat scraps...

#his favourite animal!!! #hes had many of these over the years uwu #they are all named after gods #oc: james #tltmr

[dearcarnifex]

terrible idea: tltmr come dine with me au

#james' turn to cook #hes uh.. hes definitely not serving up a higher beast or anything.... #theres an unholy amount of aspic and everyone hates it #i mean thats essentially just the plot of tltmr but in a hilarious format #and james actually has to cook hsnfns that lazy bastard never usually does his own cooking #i mean he could do a horrible histories elagabalus and make people cook for him still #(which by the way is a hilarious sketch) #but anyway at the end of the night he probably just pays them to give him high scores #wont go into the others apart from that sylvester can actually cook and is good at it

[dearcarnifex]

little bits of a comic page i sketched for practice which i wont lie has made me way more confident about this whole comic making thing than i should be

#i dont know if ill do a nice finished version or not.. #but ive got another page to finish sketching nd then ill post them #anyway its a very minor scene from tltmr. mostly just because i wanted to draw these two lmao #ahh yknow recently ive sometimes felt like no one cares so theres no point #i assume its just igs stupid algorithm again but it makes me feel like im doing something wrong i guess #but also. despite That happening. i am much more ok with it than the last time this happened #and im proud of myself for that #ive been actively trying to unlearn all that nonsense and letting myself not care and i think its working #and thats good #im having fun and thats the only thing that matters #i just hope that over time more people join me with this fun #but in the meantime.. im ok with feeling like im on my own #wow sylvester looks THIN in the first one #ill have to thiccen that boy up tomorrow #hm. think its feral o clock over here #caused by guernica by the stone roses #its just. its. its made of stone backwards and has its own lyrics that make sense #lyrics that were then sun normally #but if you play guernica backwards it sounds like made of stone lyrics and all #im. i #im feral #sung not sun obviously #unrelated but im fucking thriving bc mr reznor gave us all those new ghosts for free #hello to anyone who ever bothers to read this nonsense #welcome to my screaming grounds #thank you and goodnight

[dearcarnifex]

nhsbfnshs finally a drawing of james i dont hate,,

drawing has since been removed because now i do hate it but i want to keep the post for the tags lol

#number 1 bastard of tltmr #thinks that because the gods are away the social elite should rise to their positions #not literally more like.. spiritually #and one way he thinks he can do that is by eating other higher beasts #he holds regular dinner parties for a society/club #of wealthy people who enjoy cannibalism and near cannibalism #(near cannibalism being the eating of other higher beasts since there are many species #but its still aaaaaaaaalmost the same as just eating your own species since theyre all citizens) #he also likes mid century design and mid century food #which is good because aspic is a great way to get rid of waste meats and bones #although its less good for people who dont like aspic which ngl is most people #ALSO i promise. i have ocs that arent characters that could be mistaken for furries lmao #im just not confident enough to post them a lot of the time #im not a furry and neither are any of my ocs... despite their appearances #oc: james

[dearcarnifex]

did i just spend a good chunk of my day writing story summaries to then use colours that are actually painful to read? yes

am i going to change them? absolutely not

anyway heres some actual solid info on the three stories ive got going on atm,, only actively writing dear carnifex but the other two are There

#no story summary for (unnamed) because i started writing one from cassius' pov.. #then remembered that esme is actually the proper main character and cassius' one would spoil it dhsnfs #then my brain just couldnt be bothered to think anymore #anyway! this is this nonsense but in actually good words (i hope) #tltmr is heavily redacted bc if it wasnt it would spoil both dc and (unnamed) lmao #tumblrs fine bc it doesnt butcher the quality but ill definitely have to do something about these for ig #especially the timeline #text too small will be completely unreadable

[dearcarnifex]

wip + cat

#some things still look awkward but its almost 4am so ill fix them tomorrow lmao anyway linings almost finished so thats good.. #really wish id learnt about using silhouettes sooner.. #think im finally getting used to using this thing... #slightly annoyes at myself for doing clean lineart again though #told myself i was gonna loosen it up a bit and then... didnt lmao #its ok i can try again on the next one #*annoyed #once i get properly comfortable with sketching on this thing i swear im gonna practice like crazy #i want to be able to do all the things i want to do #and then... comic time owo #(though i do still need to write it though ahah.. #id say considering i only started it a few months ago im doing pretty well #have the overall outline mapped out well now #just need to figure out that pesky 'filler' stuff... #i am really looking forward to when i can draw it tbh #doing the actual drawing will be really good practice just generally #then hopefully when i come to drawing the next stories itll seem a lot less scary.... #i should be an absolute pro by the time i reach tltmr lmao #3 whole stories before it..... a #well. two stories but dear carnifex is in two parts #and actually the other one could potentially be two parts if it has to be #anyway it is now 4am. should probably stop rambling and go to sleep

[dearcarnifex]

OwO it’s me, your favourite blog stalker. Tell me about Kosta? OwO

owo hewwo...

Now, Kosta. What can I tell you about him... He's pretty clever actually, had to be to get into the university where he met Victoria and Lucien. They all worked together to set up their business (which is still very vague atm oops)... He holds the same authority as them but doesn't mind working more in the background. He's also very useful for their more shady business... he's good at getting information out of people when necessary.

He doesn't trust people easily, there aren't many people he would consider close friends. He's also a pretty private person.. Cassius and Marcia know almost nothing about his personal life despite him being around A Lot as they grew up, tbh they try to keep out of his way as much as possible because they dont like him at all really (for good reasons) ... He doesn't like them either ndnfnsfs, he feels that they've made his life unnecessarily difficult at times, and even if it wasn't really their fault he prefers to just blame them because it's easier than taking the blame himself (or passing it on to Victoria and Lucien who are really the ones who should be blamed). He also generally doesn't like people if he thinks they don't take things seriously enough, if they're too carefree. He doesn't like Sylvester at first partially because of this (but also because of the way Victoria introduced him)

Surprisingly, he is capable of having fun ahah. He really likes playing games.. He probably gambles, more for fun than for the money. he also likes reading.

.. In conclusion, he big bastard lmao

#cannot say he is a good or nice person tbh djfnsnfns #though he was a lot worse in his original context before i developed him more for dear carnifex #i feel like hes probably a bit less serious by the time of TLTMR which will be interesting #oc: kosta #ask #i need to draw him more...

[dearcarnifex]

fun fact james was originally going to be more humanoid but at some point i just thought hndnfns. fuck it cat person

#im considering making all the tltmr superivores animalistic in some way... #perhaps #(a superivore is the name for people who eat other higher beasts uwu unless i change it #which i might idk depends on if i think of anything better) #also james' personality was originally going to be a lot different ndhfbsnfbs #he was uh. a bit boring ngl

[dearcarnifex]

a few bits of TLTMR nonsense... i still have to come up with designs for about 9 more of these pesky bastards

#surprise surprise none of them have names yet #naming characters is hard.. #the only tltmr character that has a name is james but i havent even designed him yet hsndsh

[dearcarnifex]

Hi... I've been secretly admiring your blog for a lil while now... Would u mind explaining James a bit? I think he's really cool but I dont know much about him 👉👈

eeeeeheehe i would not mind at all!! that bastard lives in my head rent free 24/7 and i am more than happy to ramble about him!!

should probably first say that james is one of the main characters in one of my stories, currently called they like their meat rare, along with sylvester and kosta. it takes place roughly... 20-30 years after dear carnifex, the story im currently writing (no one ages between that time because of World Lore though but i wont go into that now) but aaaanyway thats where he actually fits in with everything.

james has.. quite a few layers to him but on the surface hes veeeryy charismatic and charming and a complete extrovert. he lives his life as hedonistically as he possibly can, as long as hes having fun, thats all that matters! he acts more like a 19 year old most of the time haha. his actual profession (which i dont mention anywhere near as much as i should haha) is an actor and model.. hes pretty successful so hes got plenty of.. well, anything he wants i suppose. and if james wants something, hes going to get it.

hes an only child from a well off family and was given everything he asked for, but i think a lot of the time he was just filling the loneliness he felt from not having any siblings with material wealth, a habit that never ended and arguably only got worse since he started filling that emptiness with people as well. hes very... promiscuous ahah. but none of his relationships ever end well. its entirety his fault, underneath his charming exterior hes selfish, manipulative and definitely not as stupid as he acts. i think if people didnt forget hes literally an actor maybe fewer people wouldve been hurt..... but he knows how to lure people in in a way where he is only ever kind, so he never has to take any of the blame.... in short, hes a complete bastard whos incapable of loving anyone as much as he loves himself. i wouldnt say he doesnt care about others at all, he does still care in his own way but never enough to make him loyal to any one person. the closest hes ever come to having a healthy, mutual relationship was with susie when they were at an arts college together, but that was sort of only because she could see through his lies but didnt care and stuck with him anyway.

hes also a superivore (essentially a cannibal) and he regularly hosts dinner parties. how fun! he enjoys all parties but theres something special about eating other higher beasts. i think he likes the dominance and power of it. (& this is sort of the basis of the plot for tltmr.. he hires sylvester as his carnifex to hunt for him basically.)

other random stuff.... his favourite animals are cyfoxes (cyclops foxes) and hes had many as pets over the years. venus is the one he has at the time of tltmr...... hes a Big fan of mid century design (purely so ill get to very self indulgently draw mid century Stuff haha)....... hes a catperson which means hes instinctively got quite a few catlike behaviours which i have a lot of fun with (eg loooves the sun, somewhat easily distracted, can purr, loves physical affection, catnip does affect him..).... hes got a conversation pit in his house fhshfs if he invites you in it means he Likes you (advice: dont go in, its not worth it)... he Does Not like feeling unpopular at all and will cry if you insult him (but only when no ones around).. he drives a high-finned prestige 59 cadillac series 62 convertible, his favourite song is european son by the velvet underground and i hate how much i love him. ... and thats james!

#aa i hope this all makes sense fhshfs #eee thank you for asking about him!!!! #ask #oc: james

[dearcarnifex]

had completely forgotten that the basic idea for tltmr came to me before i made james? mostly. why did i ever come up with the story then..

#actually cannot remember at all #i just know it was that way because james was made to fill a role in the story #which he is quite different from now but anyway #why did i even start thinking about it as a story idea???? wh #i have absolutely no idea but here we are #maybe my sketchbook stuff from that time can help but?? idk lmao #i remember trying to come up with a design for him.. the first design is wayyyyyy different #i have no idea where the james we know and hate (/love but you shouldnt) today came from #also fun fact the first name i had in mind was jacob but then i was listening to james by camera obscura #and i thought oh. fits #and changed it #also for another reason

[dearcarnifex]

actually a crime that i dont have an actual autistic character. what am i even doing

#but also idk where one would go #bc uh.. i would not put one in dear carnifex or tltmr. at least not as a main character/important side character #bc theyre all bad people and im not doing That #cassius/esme/marcias story is the only place one could go really #but there arent really any places i can see for one? #it would be easy to go oh what if esme has an autistic friend #but ive already given one of her friends tourettes... #so then its just like.. oh look disabled characters can only be token side characters #but somewhere. SOMEWHERE. in some story of mine i need to have one #because i have no other way of telling these experiences ive had #they arent important in the grand scheme of things. but my voice as an autistic person still deserves to be heard #the world can always benefit from autism representation by actual autistic people #and i will absolutely definitely include meltdowns in that. if i didnt then what would be the point #genuinely awful painful experiences and i dont want them to be for nothing. i want to use them