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#tracking every calorie and being strategic about if i eat xyz at breakfast i have to do this and that for the rest of the day
slutabedvents
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#mich vents
#tw: eating disorders
#the thing that sucks is like rn i can totally focus on food and eating healthy and staying within a reasonable calorie range
#but it's bc im not working right now and i feel like it takes all my energy focused on food to get to a point that i'm losing weight
#or even just maintaining
#like rn it's not hard bc im not working so i have time for it but like
#i have to be so smart and so strategic bc of the unhealthy habits ive picked up over the years
#like. i dont know how people maintain their weight on intuitive eating
#i have to be so diligent and so intentional with my eating throughout the day
#tracking every calorie and being strategic about if i eat xyz at breakfast i have to do this and that for the rest of the day
#maybe over time i build up the habits of eating like i am rn and it just becomes second nature
#but idk i do this every time where i think im being normal about food just tracking my calories
#and suddenly im down to like. a rice cake for breakfast and cucumbers for dinner bc everything else scares me
#and then i binge and fall off the wagon and the cycle repeats itself until im [redacted] amount of pounds again
#and rn im the heaviest ive ever been so it's taking so much longer just to get to like. areasonable weight let alone any of my goal weights
#sometimes it really just drives me crazy like
#i've wanted nothing more than to be skinny my entire life since i was 11 years old
#and somehow my stupid fucking brain can't just be normal about food and make it happen
#im trying rn and it's so slow and this time it seems possible
#but that's how it seems every time until i eat one meal out with friends and gain all my weight back and lose all motivation and binge and
#etc.
#anyway uh
#sorry for like. being a fat fucking failure who can't be normal about food
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