#um. not sending the link. cuz im scareds

[potatobugz]

biggest problem with writing is that I have all the ideas and themes I want to express in my head, but when I try to write it down the words come out. wrong

#rambles #.......yes this js about the pip and damien friendship thing #and like. everything kn general #guys u dont understand i have so many ideas for things but i cant write them or draw them or animate them and it is kiiling meee #btw i posted like. two chaoters of thay fic. to ao3 #(first time using that site to post things actually) #um. not sending the link. cuz im scareds #but i wont actively try to hide jt at least if u find it and read it then thats pretty cool #i havent wrote them meeting yet so its me trying to characterize damien and pip respectively and struggling. at thay #be patient with me ;_; #THIS POST ALSO GOES FOR REAL LIFE TOO. WORDS IN MY HEAD DONT COME OUT RIGHT EVER JTS SO FRUSTRATING!!! #BWAAAA #yet we stay optimistic #i will try 2 write more today :) #maybe somefay when writing comes easier to me and im satusfied with my works i will. rewrite this #but im learning im trying #writing is the hardest thing ever forever #ive also learned that i should Probably Stop Using Commas So Much

[marshmallowprotection]

um so... im fifteen, and my parents are... well they fight everyday.... i mean like it’s calming down a bit nowadays.... and my grades are falling 😓 my mom screams at me daily... about almost everything... um.. whenever i tell my friends they say its abuse and i guess it is... um so... i was wondering if you had any advice or something... cuz i want out of this house, but i dont have anywhere to go....

TW: Abuse

My best piece of advice to you is to take a deep breath and take a few moments to clear your mind. It’s hard to talk about this stuff so I’m glad you’ve been trying to reach out to other people. This pandemic has made it much harder for teens at risk to get help to get out of dangerous environments, detrimental to not only their physical health but their mental health as well. Emotional abuse is just as harmful and unjust as physical abuse. 

What I need you to know is that you’re cared about and that whatever your parents have told you about yourself in any negative fashion is not true. It may take you some time to learn that, it took me a long time to learn that what my Dad said wasn’t true about me, either. I know where you’re coming from and I want you to know that you’re not alone, even though it may feel like you are. 

It took me a long time to realize that my own situation was not okay, so here’s a checklist to help validate what you’re feeling may be abuse. If they belittle you or do anything of the things mentioned here, then yes, it is classified as abuse. I don’t have all the details but here’s the thing, when you start to question and feel unsure of something like this, it tends to be true. Don’t feel ashamed or like this is your fault, because it is not. 

You are not to blame. You’re a child and your parents should love, appreciate, and treat you with respect. They should not berate you or make you feel like you are in physical danger, or like you are worthless. That is not okay. and it will be okay That is not your fault, so, I don’t want you to think that it is. But it is not, and you do not deserve to be treated like that. 

I’m going to give you some tips here, and I want you to be careful in case your history is being monitored. 

Delete everything that looks “bad” as soon as possible if you are fearful of your privacy.  The history, any downloads, whatever you think isn’t “okay”. You need to be safe, that is your number one priority in this situation. You’re a teenager, so there are resources that you can use. 

If you feel that you are in immediate danger, don’t hesitate to contact authorities or someone you trust. If you have family that you can move in with or stay with, that’s always ideal. If you have friends that you can stay with, that is also good to see through. What adults are supposed to tell you when you tell this to them, is they contact the Department of Children and Families.

They should have a website for your state. They have hotlines and other information about abuse and how they handle it. They tend to send investigators out to the home to speak with you and the parents or people in question of the abuse. If they have grounds that you are not safe, they will help you and remove you from the household. 

I realize that that sounds scary, but getting out of that home if you are scared is the best thing that you can do. You can talk to adults you trust, like a counselor or a teacher, etc. If you could ideally get to a friend’s house, you could get help from there as well. 

If you are not able to leave your house at the moment, and you feel like you won’t be able to get out of that place or that people won’t take you seriously, then I have advice for that too. 

First things first, check to see your state laws on recording people, or the laws of your country. I’m in America, so my advice here is for the states. I can help you secure other means if you live someplace else. If you live in a state where you cannot record a conversation without informing the other party, then in the case of you being harmed verbally, you call can 9-1-1, or whatever the local number is for you. Those calls are recorded and monitored. It can be the thing that saves you in case your parents try to discredit or slander you. 

Document what abuse that you can. If that means photographs, screenshots of messages, or recorded evidence, so be it. Sometimes, children and teenagers aren’t taken seriously unless they’ve got concrete proof. If you have family or people that will corroborate your history, that will ultimately help you as well, darling. 

So, when you do find the strength to get some help, you have things to back yourself up in case you’re scared of going in without anything and just asking an adult to help you. I can’t tell you to run away from home if you do not have a safe place to go because I’ve been homeless before, and it is hard, but I can give you links that can help you much better than I can give advice on it. 

Link 1, Link 2.

You do not deserve to be treated horribly, and I am upset to hear that you’ve been going through this. But, you are not alone. I’m here, and there are people that care about your well being. Stay strong. I’m here if you need to talk, any time. 

#tw abuse #anon #ask #mod kait