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oleandy · 2 years

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@4lph4kidz asked, and so i must oblige because i LOVE talking

alright, this is going into silly cringe era of andy homestuck skaiagalaxy oleandy’s life (some inside jokes with friends, my old deviantart user was skaiagalaxy hahah)

obviously, this will go under a readmore, it’s long, verbose to the point of obnoxiousness, and also somewhat personal! but nothing im not willing to discuss

stances, alright we’re ready? okay

hi, i’m andy oleandy and i shipped only rosemary and dirkjune for [checks notes] like 5-6 years.

2014 was a COMPLETELY different era from now, crackships sproinging up everywhere, and shit was a lot more free reign (more to the detriment honestly, but thats not today’s topic)

and due to a very silly, very typical of the era seven minutes in heaven rp i did with a (now ex) friend, i got into shipping it. because why not? it was different, and new and i related to june so much! rn i’m roughly 13-14, right on the peak of realizing i am not a cis woman. so i latched onto june, mega hard. she was a different protagonist! she obviously had her prickles, and she wasn’t always nice, but she still was kind- and had a good heart.

i roleplayed her for a very long time, mostly on sites like roblox.

hey! that’s me! on the now defunct EB: hey karkat! game. really good, had lots of fun there

and then i read strider home for ghostly rejects (a fic about june waking up after a possession and suddenly having the powers of a medium- with dirk being to put it simply, a ghostbuster), and that absolutely latched into a mind, same with a cup of mint tea (fantasy, centaur fic. i’m not sure if i’d recommend it now since i havent read it in a while, so i might have nostalgia lense).

here’s some dave art from the fic actually.

nice to see how much i’ve improved!

but back to the ship

i spent a LOT of time thinking about it, as homestuck goes on (i was SO excited for them to meet, and subsequently heartbroken by their single interaction. such is life lol)

and then in 2016 the credits come

and i was right, june is lost and horribly depressed (same hat. 2016 was a tumultuous year for me- and that'll be for another post). i Immediately project my feelings of being a repressed gay person (and also being a repressed trans person.)

i like to think dirk and june helped fix each other, so even now i kinda. keep some of that in my canon perception- well. they don’t “fix” each other, but friendship is friendship and sometimes i find the thought of them being exes as june realizes she’s a woman nice.

sometimes i make it dramatic, sometimes funny, and often times they simply parted ways cuz it couldn’t work anymore

(obv it still becomes somewhat dramatic on dirk’s side, because he is dirk strider)

i dont really have anything left for this post but id love to continue to talk about it! it’s fun

#ok to int #yeehaw!!!#this was fun to reflect upon #you could actually check Old oleandydraws art for the old shit #it was a fun time for me #being That guy #saying that lovingly at my younger self #chatter

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autumnblogs · 3 years

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Day 32: Through the Looking Glass

https://homestuck.com/story/4116

So right out of the gate, we learn a few things about the Scratched version of the universe, aside from the obvious fact that the new heroes are the previous guardians. Everyone is a little more mature, and identities are a little more fully-formed.

Jane’s name is already set in stone. Notably, the definition between the audience and Jane is also a little clearer here than usual - the Narration implies a distinction between us and Jane. Could be because we’re not controlling her yet - but as we get into Act 6, we will find a lot of cases where audience participation happens as part of the mechanic of narration, and this distinction will be called to a lot more.

More after the break.

https://homestuck.com/story/4117

So let’s unpack Jane’s interests and relation to pre-established parts of the Homestuck Universe, and see if we can’t start making guesses about Jane.

First thing’s first is that while we could read Jane’s affinity for these mustachio’d funnymen as being purely an attraction, she roleplays like John does - as a bit of a prankstress herself, and one who dons a fake mustache for one of her disguises, Jane roleplays as these men immediately suggesting to us that she looks up to them, and wants to be like them, rather than that she’s attracted to them.

(Though she certainly could be.)

Second thing is that Jane’s position as the Heirress parallels her not to John, but to Feferi. Like Feferi, Jane is a sweet girl who is the heir to a position of abominable power, and because she is beholden to the shape of that power, as long as she remains wedded to that shape, she will not only struggle to do anything productive with it, but in the course of the story, be subverted into a villain, at least for a little while, and it’s clear from the way that Crockertier Jane’s situation is communicated to us that she is an accomplice to her own brainwashing, and that the actions she takes in that form are meaningfully hers.

On another note, I think it’s interesting that on this side of the scratch, the Condesce has reimagined her empire as a megacorporation.

https://homestuck.com/story/4120

What do we learn about Jake right out of the gate? He likes movies - adventure movies. Jake, like Tavros, the other page, loves to bluster about subjects that he actually has relatively little affinity for - and in both cases, their lack of affinity can largely be described as performing their culture’s ideal of public personhood - warrior virtue. While Jake has all of the outward signifiers of masculinity, and is actually a pretty brave and technically skillful fighter by the standards of the real world, up until the Hopesplosion, he is outclassed by a lot of his friends, and ultimately, the cases where he most embodies warrior-manhood, Jake is being forced into it by someone who wants to take advantage of him.

We benefit from most of this knowledge with hindsight. It’s not actually there in this opening section, but the main thrust of Jake’s interests is his love of adventure and his love of wrestling, and I’m principally interested in Jake’s physicality in addressing his interests - he’s a very physical kid.

https://homestuck.com/story/4121

We’re hot off the heels of Terezi’s fake choice, and a lot of conversation about free will and fake choices in Act 5 - and here we’re presented with one almost immediately. We can pick either option, but the outcome will be the same whatever we do.

https://homestuck.com/story/4124

I’ve always thought the Condescension’s relationship with Jane is deeply fascinating. There is something about the prospect of cultivating an heiress, someone to take over her legacy, that brings out something tender and maternal in her, I think, even if it only manifests in a twisted way. She’s a bit of an enigma to me.

https://homestuck.com/story/4126

Well, Jane is certainly interested in Foxworthy, so I rescind my earlier comment.

We’ve barely been introduced to her and she pretty much immediately starts showing off her paternalistic disdain for rural and vulgar people through the narrative’s language, and her nostalgia for Problem Sleuth characterizes her enjoyment of its sequel.

Jane has an aristocratic mentality, and conservative leanings in the media she appreciates, and the way that she appreciates it. If Andrew’s commentary that he continued to examine the themes he started with Feferi in Jane, I think what we should take away is that Feferi’s concern for the lowly comes with a heaping helping of...

Wait for it.

Wait for it...

Condescension.

https://homestuck.com/story/4127

Jane’s disdain for the vulgar - low culture, low classes - also shows itself pretty quickly. In stark contrast to the other two leaders - John and Karkat - Jane isn’t much of a movie watcher at all (Jake gets that attribute in his session) and her attitude toward’s Jake’s movies is one of snobbery. Both of the other two movie watchers have a playfully self-deprecating attitude toward their own bad tastes in movies, but they still enjoy those movies sincerely.

Her relationship of passive-aggressive one-upsmanship also distinctly recalls Rose’s relationship with her mother, suggesting that Jane shares some of the underlying pessimism and mild hostility that Rose struggles with.

Also, as a symbol Swanson is a representative of the sort of anti-government animus that characterizes the politics of Trans-Mississippi America outside of the heavily populated West Coast, where the wedding of big business and state planning have created a lot of disaffection toward the distant and disinterested corporate landlords and bureaucratic apparatuses that govern huge tracts of federal land and private property in the west. Pawnee Indiana may not actually be on the other side of the Mississippi from Washington, but having grown up in Montana for at least a part of my childhood, Swanson’s politics are immediately recognizable.

Unfortunately, this anti-state animus has manifested not in the form of a renewed commitment to emancipation, but to the uniquely American, get-off-my-lawn form of Right-Wing populism practiced by the short-lived Tea Party, and smug “It’s just basic economics” Reagan-worshipping conservatives.

What I’m trying to say is, Jane would probably be a Ben Shapiro or Steven Crowder fan in the modern day.

https://homestuck.com/story/4136

Jane’s skepticism prevents her from listening to her friends when they tell her about the extraordinary things that they do, but it’s also not exactly a kind of scientific skepticism, and more of a dogmatic realism - she has a narrow vision of what the world is like, and is dismissive of ideas that are outside of her bubble.

Quick Note that while Jake makes only an off-handed remark about it here, he is sensitive to the hostile, toxic relationship between the AR and Dirk in a way that neither of the girls really is, and while that may seem uncharacteristically emotionally intelligent of Jake, I think he’s a lot more aware of his surroundings than he lets on.

https://homestuck.com/story/4142

Now as long as we’re talking about Right Wing Populism and comparing Jane to John there is an extremely potent assertion.

The USPS, and the idea of privatizing it, is as much a symbol of the war of corporatists and authoritarians against social democracy as anything is, and because of the way John is associated with Mail in general as a Hero of Breath, Jane is almost immediately setting herself up as a foil to John.

https://homestuck.com/story/4144

Calliope is so cheery that it’s easy to take everything she says in stride, and yet, with all the horrors Sburb has to offer, in terms of the way it destroys planets, and traumatizes its players, her optimism toward the game is at least disquieting.

Sure, the Null Session isn’t going to destroy the kids’ session, but her language is contrasted against both Kanaya’s and Karkat’s when they berated Aradia and Jade respectively. Both Karkat and Kanaya rue the effects of the narrative on their lives, but Calliope is a superfan.

https://homestuck.com/story/4156

I know I’m spending a lot of time ragging on her here, but like, as long as I am; Jane is sure openly hostile to her best friend, in a way that comes as kind of surprising even given the precedent that we have to work with.

https://homestuck.com/story/4160

Poirot is from Belgium.

I wonder if Andrew or Jane is the one committing that error?

https://homestuck.com/story/4168

Jake is full of little contradictions like this. Likes Adventure, terrified of monsters. Not even ambivalent about them, certainly not excited by them. It’s like the opposite of how little kids are usually super into Dinosaurs.

https://homestuck.com/story/4171

So what is the deal with Jake and his fascination with Blue Women? Aside from the metaphysical connection with Vriska and Aranea (and to a lesser extent, Jake), like... what’s the meaning of it?

I think a possible answer to the question lies in the process of the initial portraits becoming blue - leaving them out in the sun to fade - and the relationship between that, and the way in which he likes mummies and suits of armor, and so on and so forth - and even his stuffed trophies.

Maybe this suggests that Jake is, on principle, far more comfortable with the idea of a thing, than with the thing itself. Jake’s Blue Women are comfortably static. They have ceased to change a long time ago, and now exist, preserved in perpetuity, without the need to worry about adapting to suit them.

https://homestuck.com/story/4175

While a lot of Jake’s guesses are incorrect, he’s still clearly spending a lot of time pondering over the mysterious time shenanigans - he just hasn’t quite put it all together.

https://homestuck.com/story/4177

The same way that Dirk’s fastidious organization is equated to his complicated and demanding modus, and the way that John being a big impulsive himbo is equated with his inability to manage his fetch modus, constantly getting distracted from his goal by the card on the surface, Jake’s Modus has an enormous capacity, but most of it is preoccupied inefficiently.

https://homestuck.com/story/4184

The Autoresponder continues the conversation that Andrew has with the audience about the distribution of the self - Dirk does this more generally, but the particular thread the AR tugs on is the question of where a person’s self really stops - just as the question lingers in the air because of John’s disposition toward Davesprite, the question of whether the AR is really a separate person from Dirk, or a part of him, is posed continuously just by the fact that it exists.

https://homestuck.com/story/4192

To be fair to Dirk, who I will have a lot of kind-of-sympathetic-antipathy for, I had forgotten that it is, in fact, the Autoresponder who sets up this particular challenge for Dirk.

The parallels between Dirk and English are nevertheless being set up through this conversation nevertheless - by sending him the parts and getting him to assemble the robot, Dirk makes Jake complicit in his own humiliation, even as he attempts to build Jake up into an ideal partner.

https://homestuck.com/story/4196

Already we’re seeing indications that this segment of Homestuck will deal with different themes of growing up than the first half. Which is already kind of obvious, but we’ve moved decisively out of Part 1: Problems, and into Part 2: Feelings. The second half has moved out of the territory of other humans and their emotional situations as somewhat idealized problems (somewhat) and into this situation where everyone is a moving body, complicated and the characters are each others’ biggest obstacles, and their own biggest obstacles. That’s a bit of a reductive way of describing it, but I think it rings true.

https://homestuck.com/story/4256

While I am willing to concede that Dirk is not literally responsible for siccing the Brobot on Jake today, he more or less assents to AR’s sexual harassment and physical abuse of Jake.

In addition to his vicarious physical abuse, Dirk’s persona as the Prince of Heart calls him to suppress the uniqueness of the people who are around him, moulding them like clay into shapes that better resemble him. Jake and Jane need to be more like each other in his eyes - which is to say, they both need to be more like Dirk.

We also get some insight into Dirk’s sense of humor here - it’s not just about the irony. I think there is an extent to which at the base of the thing, Dirk’s sense of humor is about simultaneously denying and affirming a thing’s meaning - making fun of it while cherishing it. Having a thing be incredibly silly - while also being incredibly serious business. He cherishes the absurd.

I wonder if he’d like Kojima’s stuff.

https://homestuck.com/story/4257

The way that Dirk identifies with logic and reason recalls the sort of “enlightened by my own intelligence” New Atheist jerks who were known to prowl the internet in the early half of the decade, and to some extent, still do. Like Libertarians, these folks have often in the present day gotten caught up in Right Wing Populism. Maybe it’s something about the way that Right Wing movements increasingly identify as a part of counter-culture even though they advocate reactionary policies.

https://homestuck.com/story/4273

This is extremely silly, but Jake is in mortal peril all the time, and I expect even at the best of times he might be uncomfortable being touched.

https://homestuck.com/story/4284

Here we shall pause.

Sorry for the late post. Early work was quite busy, and once the rush was over, it was already quite late.

So the first Act of Act 6 has been very informative! Compared to the first Act of Homestuck, we’ve been introduced already to all our Dramatis Personae!

Tune back in tomorrow to here Cam Say,

Some variation on Alive and Not Alone.

#commentary #liveblogging

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jewin-your-mom · 4 years

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Tagged by: @autisdoc

Rules: Answer 20 questions +5, then tag other bloggers you want to know better.

Name: Jackson

Nickname: People can call me Jack if they want to! I’m also called ‘Clown’ by a lot of online friends. It’s better not to ask. (*´꒳`*)

Zodiac: Sagittarius!

Height: 5’0”

Languages: English only. I tried learning Spanish multiple times, but I am terrible at absorbing language information long-term, sadly.

Nationality: American

Favorite Season: Summer, especially when it’s ~90 degrees outside! I run very cold, so warm weather is the only time I can really function well.

Favorite Flower: Romneya flowers! They look like white daises, but BETTER!

Favorite Scent: Rose oil/rosewater!! I have sensory processing issues, and I am understimulated in the ‘smell’ area, so I’m constantly dunking myself in rosewater/rose perfume.

Favorite Color: A nice pastel pink! Cotton candy pink is a nice way to put it!

Favorite Animal: Has to be a tie between the Lord Howe Island stick insect and Burmese python! I love all animals, but bugs/reptiles hold a very special place in my heart 💕

Favorite Fictional Character: Nepeta Leijon from Homestuck! She’s literally just me! Those weird stimmy habits, sharp nails, constantly teetering on the edge between ‘cute’ and ‘terrible bastard’, violently attacking people who touch me...the list goes on!

Coffee, Tea or Hot Chocolate?: Coffee! I really like it, but only if it’s really sweet/iced! I could live off of Starbucks ( ˊ̱˂˃ˋ̱ )

Average Sleep: Between 4-14 hours!! I vary a lot, and I have a very inconsistent schedule, so sometimes sleep just...doesn’t happen.

Dog or Cat Person?: I’m honestly more of a dog person! I love both, but I can pick up the body language/attitudes of dogs easier, so I tend to get along with them better!

Number of Blankets: I sleep with 4 currently, but one HAS to be heated to the max level. If one isn’t heated, 6-7 works!

Dream Trip: Hmm...probably a road trip with 3-4 good friends across the country! I want to see the world of course, but nothing beats being around the people I love.

Blog Established: I think 2017? Idk.

Followers: 206!

Random Fact About Me: I’m a huge fan of everything horror, and I fall in love with every scary buff man I see (unfortunately)! I am also Jewish!

My own 5 questions:

Favorite Horror Movie: A tie between the OG Scream and the 2003 remake of Texas Chainsaw Massacre!! A Nightmare On Elm Street is a close 2nd though...

Favorite Music Artist: I love Jack Stauber so, SO much. Both his old stuff and his new stuff are GOLD! I also really like a lot of Vocaloid producers, PinocchioP, GHOST and CircusP being some of my favorites! My favorite Vocaloid itself has to be Fukase, though I absolutely adore Meiko!

Favorite Show/YouTube series: I don’t watch a lot of mainstream TV, but I find The Good Place really funny! I also love, LOVE Naruto, and Interface is an amazing YouTube show that I ADORE.

Favorite Food: CHEESECAKE ICE CREAM! Anything that’s sugary and cold, I’ll shove in my gullet. ( ´ ▽ ` )

Favorite Fandom(s): As problematic as it can be, I adore Homestuck for the way it kind of encapsulated the ‘Hanging Out With Your Teenager Friends And Being Stupid’ vibe so well. I can’t imagine my life without the fandom and the friends I met through it. I also love the Slasher, Dead By Daylight, OFF, Creepypasta, Marble Hornets and Smile For Me fandoms too! All of them just have a really accepting vibe, and the source materials all give me Big Nostalgia Vibes. （＾∇＾)

Tagging: @neathbowz , @angeltheproxy , @abbeygator-xo , @gay-defying-gravity and anyone else who wants to do this! If I tagged you and you want nothing to do with it, feel free to skip out on it. 💕💕

#ask game #long post

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