#which is quickly corrected

[apollos-boyfriend]

so my younger cousin is flying in to visit from brazil on sunday, and will be staying here for like, the entirety of july. which, don't get me wrong, is super cool! i love the kid! but it felt like a super weird move, considering his parents are the SUPER strict and borderline helicopter parents. even the smallest prank/roughousing with him/his little sister would lead to a strict talking to from his parents, he couldn't ever do anything without their clear permission, that sort of stuff. so letting him fly at alone at 16 to a whole different country and stay there for a whole month seemed WILDLY out of character. additionally, it just felt like a super last-minute trip. it's not like we have any plans to do when he gets here, and the flight itself and stuff only got booked like, midway through june.

and i was talking to my mom about it, kind of trying to nudge some answers out of her, and after a while she went, "yeah, i think they're sending him over here to get away for his boyfriend. see if the distance breaks them off." which, first of all, surprised me because last i checked, they didn't KNOW he had a boyfriend. literally everyone in the family did EXCEPT for them because while that entire side of the family being semi-conservative, his parents (mostly his dad) are EXTREMELY old-fashioned. so clearly something already went wrong. and considering the only reason the rest of the family knew is because one person found out and it spread like wildfire, i have a sneaking suspicion he wasn't the one to tell them, either.

and second of all. they're sending him HERE. to try to make him forget his homosexuality. i couldn't do anything but just wordlessly gesture to the multiple pride flags scattered around my room, then to myself, because really? he has like two other cousins in the us and they're sending him to me? honey i am about to introduce this kid to queer scenes you have never even heard of. he'll be returning home with labels only shrimp can perceive

#icarus speaks #i fully believe she's correct btw #they are. not the brightest people. and honestly probably believe this is something that could work #cause i can see the logic of get him away and hopefully he'll realize it's a phase. which is Likely what they think #but oh honey you have a big storm coming #side note this is the SECOND time someone's been outed without permission on that side of the family 😭 #bitches learned of my transgenderism SO quickly #also even if that's NOT why they sent him here. i will still be rocking his world #they have given me Infinite Power and i will use it to make this kid's life as queer as physically possible

[gayestcowboy]

i dont ever really get gender dysphoria anymore but i do wish i didn’t always feel so frustrated whenever people use they/them pronouns on me even if they’re well intentioned or forgot or don’t know. i haven’t used they/them since i was 13-14. it’s absolutely not a real issue unless someone’s purposefully misgendering me, i just wish i wasn’t so frustrated by it

#yeehaws #i don’t even get bothered when people she/her me because they usually correct themselves quickly after seeing my beard or hearing my voice #but i look queer enough that well intentioned people will they/them me and even though they’re not doing anything wrong it’s frustrating #especially because i have long hair and have a stereotypically gay tint to my voice #neither of which i will change

[midnightsun-if]

Sorry if this sounds rude, but I have some things I need to get off my chest. Frankly, the whole Scarlett situation kind of sucks, and the way you’re handling things is not exactly helping matters. I get you have a specific vision for her character, and as a fellow author I would never suggest you compromise that to appease a bunch of sexist, entitled fans, but you’ve given so much attention to her character that it honestly comes as no surprise that people wouldn’t respect her sexuality, as bad as that is to say.

I’ve personally sent numerous asks in the past, and you haven’t answered a single one, so either you’re intentionally ignoring them, or tumblr ate them. If it’s the later, then I’m sorry for accusing you. You’re obviously not under any obligation to answer asks you don’t want to, but I admit it does sting a bit to see Scarlet Ask #523759690 on my feed when I have yet to see a single one of mine. You may not think you have a favorite character, but from an outside perspective, you 100% do.

The amount of attention Scarlett receives compared to the rest of the cast (seriously, when was the last time Caden got an ask dedicated to them?) is truly astounding. Fans will naturally have their favorites, but as an author you should remain impartial… which you really haven’t. In fact, it seems like you actively encourage the Scarlett attention. It’s like you keep showing off a fancy car that only a few people can actually buy, then get upset when people complain they can’t buy the car as well.

Anyways, I’m sorry for this rant, but I’ve been thinking about this for a while now. I wish you luck on your writing journey, and hope you have a happy holiday (if you’re in a country that celebrates any upcoming holidays)!

I truly don’t know what to say other than the fact that I haven’t seen your asks and that I’m trying to avoid Scarlett asks when it specifically involves the discourse with her sexuality— which also may contribute to the possibility on why I haven’t seen them, if that’s what they involved— as I mentioned in my one-and-done post about it… I don’t want to keep this as a reoccurring theme on the blog as I know that many people will grow tired of it just like I have.

I answer Scarlett centric asks, barring when I answer scenario asks about the family and/or the ROs, mainly due to the fact that she’s the one people single out— if someone sends me an ask about C, or Blake, or anyone else, I’ll answer it… It just happens to be that Scarlett gets the most asks when it comes to that sort of thing— and those asks are typically much easier/faster to answer than the all-in-one asks— I’d be more than happy to answer singular asks about any number of my characters. And I have in the past when someone sends something in.

All I can truly say? If not being able to romance Scarlett is this big of an issue, and I truly am saying this as nicely as I can… I don’t think Midnight Sun is the right IF for you. I believe I know a couple more IFs with an Ice Queen type RO, or adjacent RO, that may suit you better if you’d like to me share them!

And, I’d just like to make this small point, I get upset, or am starting to, because it’s a point I’ve brought up over and over again— Scarlett isn’t a lesbian to create an inconvenience for the player… She’s a lesbian because it’s part of who she is. Sending me asks saying “I can change her” or “Give us Scarlett and the F!MCs Koda” (among other things) is absolutely abhorrent in the best case scenario. There are 7 other ROs for you to choose from— all of which offer their own unique routes and experiences within Midnight Sun.

Scarlett isn’t changing, I’m standing firm with this. I’m not going to ever change my mind about it— I’m sorry if that upsets anyone, but it’s not something I’m backing down on.

#midnight sun #asks #ro: scarlett voltaire #and if I haven’t answered your singular asks it’s either because I haven’t seen them #or I couldn’t figure out the correct response and decided to come back later… #and forgot 😅 #which is my bad #as I typically try to answer them whenever they first arrive due to the fact that they’re relatively simple to answer #and I can send them out quickly (depending on what it is of course) #which means this will also be the last one I’ll be responding to #barring special circumstances

[faustandfurious]

The extremely neurotypical behaviour of staying up late to memorise the exact length of the world’s shortest coastlines

#faust.doc #also funnily enough depending on how you measure norway has the second longest coastline in the world #but things get complicated really quickly because you have to decide which islands and territories count and which don’t #so there are always multiple potentially correct answers

[pacificgasandelectric]

has anybody done the meta on how the second kinslaying was probably also motivated by the knowledge that with the Girdle fallen, Morgoth’s forces WOULD make it into Menegroth sooner or later, and they’d kill everyone there and then take the Silmaril, and then the Fëanorians would be Right Back Where They Started (morgoth 3, them 0) but actually in a worse position than before on account of the Multiple Crushing Defeats the Noldor had suffered since arriving in Beleriand

#mine #silm #silmarillion #ill do the Extended version of this later but i wanna get this out here #not to Defend my favorite war criminals but i don’t think the second kinslaying was ‘ill-considered’ or even desperate #i think it was a sound tactical move based on the knowledge that the fëanorions had about the state of things in beleriand #and the respective military abilities of morgoth doriath and themselves. #the main Assumption this action hinges on is that morgoth would go after menegroth Sooner rather than Later #and that the fëanorian therefore had to act quickly (attacking menegroth) rather than taking their time (trying more diplomacy) #which yes is Technically a guess (and we’ll never know whether it was a Correct one) but it’s not a /bad/ guess to make #given the knowledge they were working with. #obviously that doesn’t mean it was the Right move but i’d argue that it was if nothing else a Rational move #because i want everyone to know that my blorbos may be Evil and Make Bad Decisions but they’re SMART about it goddammit!

[spaghett-onaplate]

mutuals send me the strength to get through tomorrow

#the situation is #i pass as a guy about 95% of the time #60% once i speak #i needa start correcting people at school before they get the idea in their heads that i'm a girl #but its FUCKING SCARY #ive genuinely never corrected anyone ever #bc before starting at this school monday i've only ever been out iwith family (too scared) #and at work with other employees or customers (too scared + one-time interaction or low stakes interaction) #whereas school. thats not 6 hours a week thats a lot mroe #fuucck #scary shit #i ahve a stomach ache just at the thought #i was meant to bring up hrt at the doctors a few months ago as a secondary thing at an appointment but i didnt #but now. for next week i have an appoinment where its the primary focus #still unlikely considering the whole process yadayada and most of all parental consent from BOTH. 😒 #and my dad is. a 'bit' of a prick #but if he hasn't made any progress by next month. well. perhaps it's time to look elsewhere #anyway fingers crossed for hrt which ive wanted for the past two and a half (three?) years 😔 but i can't rely on that #so i just need to correct peoplenow. quickly. while im still new #ueguh

[mariocki]

Vladimir: Did you ever read the Bible?

Estragon: The Bible... [He reflects.] I must have taken a look at it.

Vladimir: Do you remember the Gospels?

Estragon: I remember the maps of the Holy Land. Coloured they were. Very pretty. The Dead Sea was pale blue. The very look of it made me thirsty. There's where we'll go, I used to say, there's where we'll go for our honeymoon. We'll swim. We'll be happy.

Vladimir: You should have been a poet.

Estragon: I was. [Gesture towards his rags.] Isn't that obvious.

-

Samuel Beckett, Waiting for Godot (1955)

#samuel beckett #waiting for godot #modern theatre #theatre quotes #1955 #modern drama #Godot had been written in 48 and 49 in French‚ and premiered in 53 in Paris‚ where Beckett was based #an english translation didn't appear until 54‚ and Beckett took the opportunity to make small edits and some significant substitutions #there were also edits for censorship (theatrical censorship being fairly draconian in 50s Britain; even a name like Fartov was considered #too much by the Lord Chamberlain) and once Faber published their version in 56 there were yet more changes and omissions #alas I picked up a copy on my way to work (for reasons‚ my job currently entails a lot of sitting around doing not very much) and grabbed #my old Faber edition (a corrected version wouldn't be available in english until the mid 60s) so I'm working from a bastardized text #actually Beckett would continue to tinker with Godot for the rest of his life‚ so the jury's out on which if any is the 'correct' text #nevertheless I'm having a great time. it's over a decade since i read this‚ as a lowly undergrad‚ and had my socks blown asunder #Beckett's prose has lost none of its magic; a carefully choreographed dance in words between two people who can't see their own moves #it's tempting to read all manner of subtext and innuendo into Beckett's minimalist dialogue‚ but the writer himself always strongly #resisted attempts at micro analysis; in fact he bored pretty quickly of the attention this play in particular seemed to earn‚ and would #repeatedly downplay any philosophical or political interpretations of the play. that's not to say those ideas don't exist or that those #readings lack merit; a play is almost by definition a political beast‚ a play of this kind in this era in this place and time particularly #so. but if Godot is any one thing more than others‚ it's a joyous examination of the art of conversation about nothing; more than any other #playwright (excepting perhaps Pinter)‚ you get the sense that every syllable was precisely and carefully chosen by Beckett‚ every word #carefully weighed and considered before inscription. perhaps then Godot is not a play at all; perhaps it is a poem #in loose free form‚ a sprawling poem of multiple voices in discordant harmony. or maybe it isn't. what do i know #I'm just a tumblr blog

[saltytyrus]

I'm 99.9% sure that my teacher doesn't read emails before responding... I'm getting sass for shit I didn't even say or forget to do 😭

#i sent in my cpr online course completion on Friday bec she said we'd get 5 extra credit points if we did it by Monday's class #so during class she was going through and some people were confused on how to get the certificate... #which confused me bec i thought we were just to screenshot our account screen where it says completed #but apparently there was an exit survey in order to get the Official Certificate / paper document #so i quickly did that and sent a correction email under my original with the certificate attached as a pdf #then 2 hours later she emails me saying she needs the certificate & 'did u hear when the students were explaining how to get certificates?' #'you must complete the survey first' #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 bitch i literally attached it after saying I wasn't originally aware of the survey 😭 #so i had to write an email tiptoing around how i did in fact hear and complete it / literally sent it in but yeah sorry if it didn't upload #ill just reinsert a new download / pls notify me if it still doesnt open for me ill upload it to my Google drive instead 🫠🫠🫠 #im 100% sure she got it the first time #shes so quick to sound condescending or as if you're not paying attention #she doesn't listen before speaking either in person #she started to reprimand my classmate while she was trying to take my blood pressure bec i wasnt holding the little clock thing in view/ #my classmate was holding the stethoscope in a way the instructor didnt like ig so she was redirecting us before she realized #that my classmate was still stuck trying to find my pusle and not actively pumping or watching for numbers #then she apologized and walked away but?!?!

[clownboy-yeehonk]

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#last night at work i had a really sick baby intubated with 2 chest tubes #and he started decompensating bad so i had to trouble shoot all sorts of equipment and the baby himself #and i figured out that one of his chest tubes was obstructed #based on the vent readings and the the chest tube drainage system #and got the np to fix it and he immediately improved #and it was one of those great shifts where you get to leave a baby doing objectively so much better than you found them #and i felt so goddamn smart! #like i was right! #my assessment was correct and allowed us to fix things quickly! #i have awful imposter syndrome but i really walked out feeling smart and good at my job and full of critical thinking skills! #which is great bc theyre giving me an orientee soon which is just buckwild to me #but yeah i think i did a really good job last night #just bc the dickhead asshole douchbag resident talks to me like i got my degree in a cracker jack box doesnt mean i dont know things #i know some stuff

[ranvwoop]

i am deeply enjoying the app Polygloss to facilitate Languaging however the one thing I am NOT enjoying is that you have to mark every correction as helpful. I don't think that was helpful. I duly accept your feedback and am not choosing to apply it going forward

#vwoop.noises #So the thing is . Traditionally Sure Ok #But I am using this app to commune in tki pna In which case. Things are sort of. Vague #If word means X / Y but you have a cooler way to say Y that does not make X wrong . And I don't think correcting people is helpful generall #This is one of the reasons I cannot talk to other people because I do not caaaare the way you express yrself and if you get - #Like on someone's case about the way they stack words I start to get very annoyed very quickly #Thog Don't Care /Combative #Genuinely making clarifications and grammar and etc. To actually facilitate understanding is one thing but. Ehhh Idc who's the most right #We communed did we not.

[moe-broey]

Thank you transwomen (in general but also) for the term "boymode" bc using that terminology for myself as a transguy (so, "girlmode") has been the only way I've been able to aptly and succinctly describe whatever the hell was going on *vaguely gestering to my adolescence from ages 15 to 19* there.

#hope i'm not overstepping or saying some dumb shit LMFAO #but like. speaking v generally. esp in the beginning of unpacking 'oh fuck i. i don't think i'm a girl.' #i found i related a lot more to transfemme experiences of living one way for so long all your life playing A Role #and in some cases leaning heavily into masculinity to 'prove' you couldn't possibly be a woman #than like. so many transmasc experiences i'd see online of like 'oh i always knew.' #and the staples of the experience being like. tomboyish. baggy hoodies. ect. #and like i'm not saying any of that in a derogatory or dismissive way. it's just so much of what i saw as a teen #'researching' being trans so i can be a better 'ally' to my friends and classmates LMFAOO #also this is why the narrative of transmen being 'lost girls' and 'just tomboys' is SOOOO stupid it's funny to me like. #there was a very short stint in middle school where i was more 'tomboyish' in appearance #very quickly it was corrected out of me by the influence of loved ones and myself. that wasn't Really Me #let me tell you. the combination of people pleaser/autistic masking is INSANE esppp when you're in an Evil Setting for it LMFAO #<- evil setting being my specific brand of christianity i was brought up w #but case and point i don't think i was ever actually a tomboy. i was HIGHLY feminine actually. #and i found a lot of delights in feminity too! esppp a love of fashion and cute aesthetics #so like. describing my experience w gender/presentation has always been really difficult language-wise #saying 'when i was a girl' doesn't feel right cause i never was one. just played A Role. i didn't always know though. #i didn't even realize i WAS playing a role. also there were things i genuinely loved and enjoyed associated w feminity. #and saying 'post transition' is weird to me too bc. i'm not? there yet? i'm not done yet. #and any which way of trying to describe 'when i came out' is clunky bc i was always outed/forced out #like. multiple times. even before i had the time to explore it/make sense of it myself. #def rambling but. girlmode and autistic masking are synonyms to me now. it captures everything. #i swear to god the parallels between autism/being trans drive me INSANE to me they are always informing one another. #like i feel like i could write an entire fucking essay about it. if i was an academic i would fucking KILL it

[mctreeleth]

I have a lot of other things that I need to spend money on first but the more I think about it the more I want to get an actual setup for digitising sewing patterns. My current setup is fine for doing it occasionally but a couple of hundred dollars of laser-engraved acrylic and a decent camera would really speed up the process, and my friends who actually did fashion design at uni have pointed out that there are drafting papers available with 1 inch grids already on them that would make it easy enough to copy off a pattern using the grid without anyone ever needing to print them out.

What’s more, original copies of a couple of patterns that are seemingly pretty big sellers as reproductions are currently on auction on ebay, and I would very much like to upload my own reproductions for free. I know that it is immensely petty, but I am dying to see what the reproduction seller’s response is.

#we devoted some time on Sunday to doing disparaging dramatic readings of their copyright notices #which they 100% cannot enforce and 200% cannot enforce if I start from an original anyway #a 1.2m sheet of clear acrylic with one inch lines and a matching white sheet for the back and some screws to hold the two together #with the pattern pieces sandwiched between #will mean I can photograph vertically which will make it much easier to reduce distortion #which is currently my big struggle #I take a photo and then need to spend 2 hours correcting the wonkyness and cleaning up the image to be printable #but if I can just get a good non-distorted image with nice clear lines #then I can just upload the image and people can copy it off by hand #if I can get it down to under half an hour per pattern I could get a decent chunk of my cooler vintage patterns online pretty quickly #theoretically people could lend me their patterns to digitise on the condition that we share them #maybe we could make that stupid post that claimed that the vintage pattern wiki had all the patterns a reality

[magnoliaalchemist]

my party trick is drinking one cider too fast and then getting sick from it

#i say stuff sometimes #alcohol mention #i feel so bad my bartender friend was so excited to pick me out something and i liked it but alas it did not like me #this is the second time i’ve gotten sick from cider and its pissing me off #my lexapro might also have to do with it which is a bummer #also uhhh said friend is the one i have a crush on #and after i told him i liked his shirt he said ‘i like you’ and very quickly corrected himself and said as a friend #so i need anyone who read this far to tell me that he meant it in that way #bc a part of me is hoping that he slipped up and meant it in the other way #but i cannot allow myself to hope bc I Will Die #unfortunately my lexapro is working too well and the hopeful part of me is getting a bit too cocky #and i need her to stop before she gets us into heartbreak #sorry to get deep in the tags i dont have my long form journal where i’m petsitting so yall are stuck with my thoughts

[fefairys]

"Also she's straight up killed and eaten some people which. Again, is not a psychic power, but. holy shit. Gotta do what you gotta do ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #girl" is the most iconic line I've ever heard in a YouTube video it took me tf out thank you for your saiki k video essay (and double thank you for captioning it how tf are big YouTubers out here not even captioning their shit and relying on the trash auto captions 🙄🙄)

HEHEHEHE thank you!!!! :D and yeah ugh i hate when videos don’t have captions -_-

#TO BE PERFECTLY FAIR…. #youtube had made their little in-site caption creator AWFUL to use #it used to be super user-friendly and made sense and u could easily and quickly put some captions together from scratch #but it’s WAY harder now and it’s AWFUL #i honestly just edited the auto captions it generated #which also to be fair were 90% accurate #i pretty much only had to correct name spelling and of course added dialogue tags and such #i think i’ll look into like captioning in adobe or another program good for that #because i genuinely used to love captioning my videos like it wasn’t even a chore it was something i enjoyed doing #but youtube fucked it all up because of course they did #asks #megid0nt

[twopercentboy]

Good God i really said "hand once hand over" holy fuk

Thank you for not sayin anyrhing but wow idk how you read any of my stuff

PoetAnon

my partner + some of my friends have either dyslexia or ADHD that affects their spelling (I think it's just undiagnosed dyslexia on top of the ADHD but i digress) so I've just gotten used to reading over typos and/or quickly figuring out what was meant to be written ^^ plus pointing out spelling mistakes unsolicited is unnecessary and kinda mean imo, like if it's readable who cares?

#poet anon #and my best friend makes typos bc fae types fast and hates being corrected on spelling when the word is still readable #which is understandable bc i also make typos from typing too quickly #woes of touchscreens i suppose #also just realized theres a chance youd be unaware of my partner's existence and the fact im poly #i really hope that isnt an issue 😭 #i forget sometimes that its not just universally applicable and that tumblr ppl dont immediately know big things about me like that 😬

[lesbianasukalangleysoryu]

the (recent?) t/error fandom is so funny because you get a post about the dress scene that’s like “you are reinforcing gender roles if you interpret this as evidence that jfj is a trans woman” and then there’s also a post that’s like “the reason there aren’t more interpretations of jfj as transgender is because f/ujoshi only fetishize men”

#which is the most morally correct ahistorical take on a split second of screentime? quickly