#whoever has the infaethable url pls consider giving it to me

[mazeyphaedra]

processing ep 11 one day at a time and idk i was just really reminded of how fig’s an only child too

and this isn’t really all that significant considering the party (given that adaine and kristen are the only ones with siblings); fabian’s been talking to podcasts alone in the manor and riz has been locking in on extracurriculars and cases but like fig had her self-concept twisted in on itself right on the cusp of a new chapter in life. and i think it’s great that the doubt she felt when her horns came in, she thinks it’s sacred. a tool for rebirth. but does she have any reason to believe looking inward is productive? as someone who can literally change her reflection? she’s a wonderful and compelling person in her own right now but where are her friends from when she was a preppy preteen, who invited her to every party until she wasn’t a bubbly wood elf anymore? what did she carry over from that life? was she more introspective then? maybe she attached that to who she was. maybe she’s barred herself from it because she’s not that person anymore. maybe she can’t sit with all the selves she’s had inside her because the magnitude of all the personas she’s invented and reinvented have muddled her identity into this convoluted curdled thing. and it is by far the easiest thing to direct all the fiendish energy and power and personality outward, to her friends, to school, to solving the mystery. and so she disappears.

ANYWAY avoiding max falling damage into your bedroom thanks to the gift you gave your president is as good a start to self-reflection as any right????

#please i know this is all over the place ​im simply an only child that has gone too far in the opposite direction #i love fig i love her i do #and GOD I LOVE how emily plays her #figueroth faeth #fig faeth #the bad kids #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fantasy high junior year spoilers #fhjy spoilers #uh oh! #<-talking tag from my terpsy days #it fits the vibe so im keeping it lol #whoever has the infaethable url pls consider giving it to me