#will post em tomorrow tho it's 1am

[whales-are-gay]

does anyone wanna see my mcr videos

#i only recorded the full lengths of destroya and surrender the night #bc i was self conches of my voice being picked up by the recording #that i wouldnt be able to hear cause of earbuds #so i have clips from me forcing myself to give my voice a break #mcr #personal post #will post em tomorrow tho it's 1am

[suicidalneighborhood]

random everyday rant idk

my cat got her nail quite deep into my toe before i took off my sock and somehow my mom got her off my foot but anyways i ate 1.6k cals today (dumb and unnecessary i know) and i was planning to go on a walk since most of it was carbs and they're supposed to give me energy but now my fucking toe hurts🥰 and i feel fucking shit. my legs and arms hurt for no reason (it lowkey feels like growing pains even tho i haven't grown since like 2018, it happens weirdly often).

i can't workout cos of my toe and im too tired and i would probably pass out so im just stuck here with 1600 cals in my system, my whole body hurting and feeling like fucking shit. it's weird how badly i relapsed in like 4 days lol

also i wanna try the new monster we have, it's the electric blue ultra one. maybe i'll try to get it tmr, we'll see. i also have homework i need to do today but i feel fucking shit and i already did 3 assignments today so i don't know i could wait until tomorrow because the lesson is 7th.

and i nearly forgot i have a dentist's appointment tomorrow to get 2 cavities filled🥰 lovely life isn't it?

BUT tomorrow is eurovision and a movie about the guy representing my country, so i think imma go to sleep earlier today bc i have to be up at 7.40 again and i will stay up until at least 1am tomorrow,,,

i feel like therapy would benefit me today lmao but my appointment is on thursday and i will have different thoughts by then.

last monday was so nice, i got ny fishnet top and had a walk, took pics of myself (imma put em here too cos why not) and yeah today i just watched anime, did some schoolwork and ate an unnecessary amount lmao

i once again want to dissappear

maybe i will start writing posts like these here more often, i like writing, and it's probably good for me.

and if you read this far, i love you.

#everyday problems #my day #writing #sorry for being depressing #rant post #random