#with a motorbike and a specific type of clothes and rowdy behaviour

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one day i might actually write an essay on russells relationship with masculinity and (over-)performing masculinity in his search for his own identity during the 90s till about the mid zeroes

#text #i am not actually too serious about this but at the same time a happy student when it comes to russell #as a kid he self-describes himself as shy and there are some people from that era who agree with that #but at the same time he had a bit of a troublemaker image #which he hated because nobody took him serious when it came to things he cared about (english and history) #then i think he found comfort in performing somehow #i believe that there is a branch of actors who might not even be too confident #but who excel in controlled environments #because ESPECIALLY 90s russell was just... a bit of a bundle or nerves #just watch any interview with him and his body language #he is constantly fidgeting and sitting different etc #and he played so many roles that he put himself into to the max #and where he would visit gay clubs for or would walk around like a skinhead to understand peoples reaction #that i think it is easy to also start to live from performance to performance rather than to really figure out yourself #and that is the recipe that in 99/00/01 etc blossomed into Very Masculine russell in what looks at an attempt at figuring out himself #and also creating a very non hollywood image by wearing things either from south sydney or the toronto maple leafs etc #it is as if he created an over the top parody of all the elements of his life #especially after gladiator #with a motorbike and a specific type of clothes and rowdy behaviour #and then that kind of continued to be unstable until the late 00s where he seems to have figured it out for himself #and now he just seems. fine. #he doesnt see himself as hyper masculine but more the opposite (the whole i wear make up for a living and poetry thing) #which is a very.... Morrissey way of seeing yourself as not typically masculine but i take it from him lol #and he has reconnected with his kiwi roots #he takes pride of his hobbies and happily tweets about it #he is still prickly about hollywood but that is just his authentic self #anyway consider these notes in the margins etc etc