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pasta-in-the-pudding · 10 months

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Hii!!! Can you do Jeff and Toby reacting to Y/N having an autistic related meltdown?

Male or gender neutral reader pls :]

I'm not autistic, nor have I ever witnessed an autistic meltdown, so I hope I did ok!

Also, apologies Jeff has more, but only because of the information about the "cool down room"

Thank you so much for requesting!!

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Jeff

There are a number of creeos in the mansion, all with different disabilities, mental illnesses/disorders, etc

That being said, there are usually plenty of fidget toys, nice things for you to touch and feel with that aren't the worst textures in the world, and I also like to think that after a while, Slender had a "cool down" room put into the mansion

Said cool down room is a dark, quiet room for anyone to go when feeling overstimulated, feeling anxious, or just needs a break

It has plenty of cozy resting spots, pillows, a huge pillar designed to look like a lava lamp and you even have the option to play soft music if you would like

There is usually only 1 or 2 people in the room, so it's never too crowded

And tonight was one of those nights where you just needed to be in a quiet space

It was one of the mansions monthly get togethers, where everyone came into the dining room and feasted upon lots of delicious food

There was something there for everyone, and at first, you were really enjoying yourself!

But after you finished your food and had talked to a few of your friends, you kind of just mingled to yourself

And as time passed, you began to get more and more overwhelmed

There were so many people, and too many noises and the amount of smells wanted to make you puke

Eventually it began to feel like your clothes were too tight and you couldn't breathe

You began to stim as discretely as you could (whether it be quietly vocally stimming, or trying to slowly physically stim is up to you!)

You were certain that if anyone talked to you, you would end up either crying or snapping at them

Jeff noticed, and pulled you aside "hey, you ok? You look a little nervous"

You shook your head and tried to stop the tears from falling

"Is it ok if I touch your hand?" He asks

You nod

He holds your hand and begins to lead you to the cool down room

Once there he sits down on a bean bag and pats the spot next to him for you to do the same

You sit and stare at the floor, trying to calm yourself down

"Do you want me to leave you alone?" Jeff says in a hushed tone

You shake your head and continue staring at the floor

He gets a blanket and wraps you in it, holding you close to him and sheilding your eyes from the outside world

His cool skin is nice on your warm eyes

Jeff is an asshole, but you were thankful he cared about you enough to do this

Toby

Like previously mentioned, there is a "cool down room" in the mansion (go read the first few bullets of Jeff's part if you would like more info)

It is one of your favorite rooms, so you find yourself in there quite often

Toby, also being on the autism spectrum, also stays in there from time to time

You've helped him through numerous meltdowns and panic attacks, and he is eternally greatful for you

So when he wondered into the room to you with a very frantic look on your face and constantly fidgeting, stimming, covering your ears, etc (up to you and your personal experiences!) he knew what was happening

Normally he doesn't like to be bothered when he's in this state, so he decides to ask you a few questions

"Are you ok?" "Do you want me to stay?" "Do you need me to do anything for you?"

After you answer all of these questions, he is either sitting next to you, trying to comfort you or he is sitting on the other end of the room comforting you from afar

If he is next to you, he is holding you in his arms, quietly rocking back and forth with you

If he is opposite to you, he is offering you water, snacks, and stim toys

Either way, you end up getting through it (as tough as it was) and thanking him for staying

He of course, is quick to tell you that you can always come hang out with him if you ever need or want to

You end up spending the rest of the day together, foraging in the woods, eating weird foods or just staying in the cool down room

You wrap up in nice blankets and falling asleep

Its just so cozy in there, you can't help it!

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eddie-hellfire-munson · 2 years

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-𝕰𝖉𝖉𝖎𝖊 𝕸𝖚𝖓𝖘𝖔𝖓 𝕳𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖈𝖆𝖓𝖔𝖓𝖘-

authors note: all of these headcanons are entirely sfw♡ I might make an nsfw one in the future but I hope you all enjoy these! Please let me know if you'd like to see more, I had to stop myself before I listed too many!!

Would absolutely let you wear any of his clothing including jewelry such as rings, necklaces, etc

Would notice you staring at the pick around his neck and immediately have a matching one for you to wear the next day.

His rings, next to his guitar, are some of his most prized possessions. Worked a part-time job at the mall to be able to afford them.

His guitar, don't even get me started on his guitar that thing is his BABY. He only let's people he trusts with his life touch it, which does include you and that's basically it. Henderson tried plucking at the strings once and you swear you've never seen the color drain from a man's face so fast in your whole life. He did go easy on the kid though, he didn't know any better after all.

Definitely worked his ass off and saved every penny for that Warlock [NJ series] and the custom paint job and electronics. That thing was not cheap.

You learned pretty quickly into your friendship and eventual relationship that if the man is in his own home he will not ever be wearing a shirt. He just doesn't like the way they constrict his torso sometimes.

Always coming up with cute little pet names. The first he ever used on you was dollface, the newest addition being sweetheart which had previously been reserved solely for his guitar as that is in fact her name. Yes.. her.

Always said she [sweetheart, the guitar] was the only thing he needed in his life until he met you.

The man is a raging pansexual. Come on, you can't tell me he's not.

Undiagnosed ADHD tm.

Will constantly stim by twirling his hair or fidgeting with the rings on his fingers because he likes the way the flat smooth metal slides against his skin. It's just satisfying.

Lots of leg bounces when he's anxious, will also sortof flail his hands and pace when he's nervous or overwhelmed.

Incredibly emotional but has a very hard time explaining said emotions.

Will sit you down with headphones over your ears and tell you to "just listen to the lyrics really closely for me sweetheart" and you better do it because this is him expressing those emotions to you in a way he better understands.

Would absolutely protect you with his life.

Man says he's not brave, that he isn't a hero but boy when it comes to you that's a whole different story.

Incredibly deep sleeper, like seriously nothing will wake this man up once he's out he's out like a fuckin light.

Very messy morning hair that he let's you brush because you're much better at getting all the knots out.

Sleepy morning voice is very deep.

Loves to fanboy over fantasy books to you, bonus points if you let him read them to you. He loves it when you want to be just as immersed in his special interests as he is.

Absolutely knows Tolkien's elvish.. actually asked you out in Quenya and when you had no idea what he said he simply repeated it and stared at you expectantly.

You had to gently explain to him that you had no idea what he was saying. It clicked after that and he asked you out in English.

You however did not escape Quenya and are almost as fluent in it as he is now.. yes you share secret conversations between eachother while around the others, not including Henderson because he is actually picking up on the language way too fast.

Remember that guitar? Well he was very surprised when you said you wanted to learn how to play and while he can't afford to buy you your own he gives you lessons in his trailer and let's you play his. Wayne always jokes about how you play better and Eddie tries not to roll his eyes every time the same joke is made.

Horror movies actually aren't his favorite genre, it's romantic comedies like sixteen candles.. though he'd never willingly admit that.

Will still sit through a horror movie but definitely expect him to jump a bit whenever anything scary happens, will pull you closer to him every time so that's at least one positive thing.

Incredibly affectionate both at home and in public, always touching you somehow whether it be holding your hand or hugging you from behind with his chin resting on your head. He's basically like a big puppy around you, big golden retriever energy.

His hair isn't exactly sacred to him but he won't let just anyone cut it. After a few mishaps with a pair of scissors [he cut his own bangs too short] he started letting you touch up his shag.

He's very into physical keepsakes, almost every date of yours has been documented with a little Polaroid picture. He keeps them hung on his wall next to his guitar.

His eyes are always on you whenever you're around, just admiring you as much as he possibly can because how did he get so lucky?

Not good at dancing but will absolutely grab you by the waist and start to whenever ABBA or Duran Duran comes on.

The man might be a metalhead but trust me when I say metal isn't the only sort of music he listens to.

Tight hugs, literally every single time. Those warm comfy ones where he wraps his arms around you and nuzzles his face into the crook of your neck. You could stay like that for hours.. and you have many times.

Again the man might be a metalhead but hygiene is incredibly important to him despite what some may say. Always smells like clean linen and the mahogany & vetiver scented body wash/shampoo he uses.

Will occasionally smell like weed or cigarette smoke because let's be honest here he smokes pot on the daily.

He only smokes cigarettes when under extreme amounts of stress, which is a fair amount less now that you've come into his life.

Smoking with Eddie [if you partake] or just being around him while he's high is always an experience. If you thought the man couldn't be any more clingy and affectionate boy were you wrong.

High story times are always fun as well.

Will blurt out the most random things like "did you know that Gremlins could totally exist in this world and nobody would fuckin know about it?" and then proceed to tell you the completely legitimate reasons for this theory.

Actually loves it when you play with his hair and put it into different styles. You put it into two high pigtails once and you swore he laughed harder than he ever has before.

As much as he would love to buy you gifts the man does not have a lot of money to spare so instead he does things like picking you wildflowers or crafting mixtapes for you.

The songs on those mixtapes are definitely in a very specific order so you better not skip over any.

You went to one of his shows once and you swore the man smiled from ear to ear, so you've been showing up to them ever since.

Would dedicate songs to you- "this one goes out to my lovely partner y/n" before doing a cover of 'I was made for lovin' you' by Kiss.

Has definitely written songs about you, and he's absolutely sang them to you in the confines of his own room. It's not that he's embarrassed to sing them live, it's just the other members of Corroded Coffin got tired of preforming a new song about you every other week.

#eddie munson #joseph quinn #stranger things #eddie munson stranger things #stranger things eddie munson #stranger things eddie #eddie stranger things #eddie munson headcanons #stranger things 4 #eddie munson fluff #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x y/n #eddie munson x !reader #eddie munson x gender neutral reader #eddie munson x gn!reader

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slafkovskys · 9 months

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i watched the empty netters inty and cutter is a fidgety boy (affectionate) and i love the idea of him just constantly having a hand on you or fiddling with bracelets and rings you have on, playing with your hair, having to put your hand on his knee to remind him he doesn't need to bounce it absolutely constantly etc

it was a gift for your one-year anniversary. a dainty, golden chain with an oval plate in the middle stamped with his initials on the front and the date that you finally admitted you could no longer be just friends on the back. he had something similar, one that would sometimes be hidden in the stacks of rubber bracelets from charities he supported or bands from festivals he would attend. the only difference was that as those bracelets faded and the bands broke off after weeks of wear, the golden band that had your initials proudly stamped in the middle always adorned his wrist.

you both had found comfort in a booth in the back of the bar while they finished setting up (“she just has to be everywhere an hour early,” cutter explained with a roll of his eyes when you strolled in way before he was supposed to be there.)

you had been nursing a glass of water, watching while they tested everything all the while cutter quietly scrolls through instagram on his phone. you do notice, however, when his fingers dance over the golden plate in the center of your wrist before starting to move it around. your eyes glance over to your boyfriend – who hasn’t even looked up from his phone – and you notice his bottom lip captured between his teeth.

“teeth,” you mumbled, gently taking the hand that wasn’t the object of his unconscious fiddling and pulling his lip free, “debrief?”

“nothing to debrief,” he mumbles as he clicks his phone off and sets it on the table, “why do you- oh.”

his eyes followed yours to where they were lingering on your wrist, where his fingers had made it go around more than a few times at this point. there was a reason that you wore it looser than normal and this was it, when cutter needed something to fidget with and you were within arm's length it usually was you or your bracelet.

“just nervous about talking, i guess,” he shrugs, “‘not really that interesting and now i’ve got to pretend like i am for an hour-”

“cutter gauthier, you are very interesting,” you huff and he sends you a shy grin, “are any of the topics that they sent over making you uncomfortable? i can tell them and they’ll take it off-”

“okay miss public relations. you sound like me when they get your food wrong at a restaurant,” you both chuckle at that. he removes his fingers from your wrist and instead uses them to bring your hand to his mouth, “i’ll be good. just standard nerves. i’ll use my little bit of media training and sell it. do you think they would let you sit beside me though? if i said it would make it better.”

“okay, mr.codependent,” you mock his earlier tone, “nobody wants to hear what i have to say about hockey or stare at me on youtube.”

“i mean, i could stare at you all day.”

“i know you could, now let me fix your hair,” he rolls his eyes, but lets you fix him up, letting his fingers tap on your knee to pass the time since your wrist was too far away. you grin, “better.”

“what’s that supposed to-”

“gauthier!” someone says, calling both of your attention towards the stage, “ready whenever you are.”

#cutter gauthier #combo weekend

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songbyrd-writes · 1 year

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Soap with a partner who has AUDHD (autism and ADHD)

A/N: I don't have ADHD but I am autistic and I have a lot of friends who have one or both so this is written based on how I've noticed we get along/bond. (and don't worry if you'd like any of these changed/rewritten bcos I'm very willing to!)

- Soap cares about his partner so of course when he learns you have autism and ADHD he asks a *lot* of questions about how to help you when you're over/under stimulated.

- He tries his best not to mirror you intentionally (I think he gets embarrassed by it), if he noticed you mirroring him I don't think he'd say anything or if he did it'd mostly be jokes (especially if you're like me and accidentally pick up people's accents.)

- He encourages you to take up habits that can help with handling stress (meditation, colouring, etc.) because Soap gets stressed a lot and he knows that stress is not very helpful and can lead to you (or him) getting too overwhelmed.

- To expand on his encouragement I also think he might take up more responsibilities around the house if you struggle with executive dysfunction or he'd help you with tasks/chores that are harder for you to focus on (cleaning has always been the worst for me and I feel like Soap probably keeps his space clean most of the time cause he's used to having to share a space with someone else.)

- Soap seems like the kind of guy to constantly carry around a bag so he tends to keep fidget toys and earbuds/headphones in it at all times just in case one of you needs them.

- If you're getting overstimulated his first decision is always to get you away from stimulation and once that's done he'll try and help you calm down. Once you're calm enough to be able to focus on him he'll try and see if you're feeling okay enough to continue doing what you were before or if you'd wanna do something else.

- Constant reassurance and communication, obviously I don't mean him talking all of the time but that he recognizes that the two of you might have different communication needs and so he tries to make things as easy to understand as possible (using more upfront language), I could also see him using tone indicators if shown a list of them or him learning ways to communicate with a partner who has selective mutism along with autism/ADHD.

- He's aware he talks a lot and needs a lot of physical affection which might not always be best for someone with sensory issues so he's totally down for finding way that you two can bond together that don't involve one, the other, or both! This usually means he'll be somewhere in the room doing his own thing while you do your own thing (there's a term for this and I know it but I don't remember it 😭)

- Soap has the vibe that he'd be pretty prepared for when he's hyperfocusing on stuff so he probably has snacks and drinks in the bedroom in case either of you need them but y'know don't want to/can't turn away from what you're doing (Soap's the worst about this, he can sit down for a couple minutes of gaming and then be in the same chair for 4+ hours without realizing it.)

#cod x reader #cod x gn reader #cod mwii #john soap mactavish x reader #john soap mactavish #john mactavish x reader #john mactavish #soap x reader #soap mactavish #soap mw2 #(how i feel writing Soaps name over an over: 🫣)

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steph-is-asleep · 1 year

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Everyone shut up this is trolls with autism part 2: fav stims/textures

These were getting really long so I may make a part 3 about comfort foods in a separate post

Aradia: obviously, her hair, she loves playing with it, braiding it adding things to it etc, but I bet when she was younger she was a Hair/shirt chewer and idk why but I feel like she'd also just like breaking things. Not smashing, but snapping pasta noodles, brittle bones, or sticks, that sort of thing. She has a chewy necklace, but it's not a tough grade one like Terezi needs. If she doesn't have something MEANT to be chewed, her shirts get holes in them. Also toe walker. Least favorite texture: when your hands have been wet for a really long time and your nails are all dried out

Tavros: he has jewelry that's for stimming, like bracelets with little spinny parts or that you take off and play with, but before that, it was rubber bracelets or hair ties that he'd never even use as intended. He has a fidget spinner and a pop socket too and you could pry them from his cold dead hands. Tavros is also very very good at shuffling cards because he just really likes the noise it makes when they all flutter together. Least favorite texture: course grade sandpaper

Sollux: pen clicking, leg bouncing, he fucks with his piercings even though he knows he's not supposed to. Often he doesn't even realize he's doing it until someone loses their mind at him for it and tells him to stop. Sometimes, if he can, he'll pull up a whole new word document/notepad and just start typing nonsense bc the act of typing on a keyboard or tapping on a screen just feels good. If anyone opened up one of these notepads, they'd just be random descriptions of what's around him or complete gibberish. Also see the link for other Sollux stim headcanons. Least favorite texture: every and all slimes

Karkat: Skin picking, absolutely, especially around his fingers. He copes by painting his nails and picking that off and it's saved his skin forever. But he also loves silicon toys, the little brush ones I mean, and anything meant to be taken apart and put back together, bonus points if it's those ones that make the little pop and click noises when you do so. Karkat also likes pop-its, yeah I said it, someone has to like them. Another link for more karkat (and more Sollux) headcanons Least favorite texture: metal + teeth

Nepeta: she's also a chewer, but she likes very hard things, nothing squishy. It's all bones, wood, plastic that kinda thing, her favorite is straws. She's also a big fan of messy crafts, like finger painting, getting her hands in the mud/shaving cream that kind of thing, she just likes being messy, making a mess but doesn't like cleaning it. Yeah and toe walking. Least favorite texture: tin foil

Kanaya: she doesn't sew AS a stim, but she does sew a really long running stitch, intentionally neglect to tie it off just so she can pull the thread out, insanely soothing to her. Also anything that's meant to be gently tapped against her face, like a makeup sponge or very soft rag is A++ Anything that jingles when she walks (jewelery but also heavily beaded fabrics) are perfect. She also loves running her nails over things, specifically tapping with them. Least favorite texture: burlap

Terezi: we've got another intense chewer. She sits right between aradia and Nepeta. They like hard things, but obviously hard as in crunchy. We knew they eat chalk but also ice, stale bread, that kind of thing, things meant to be eaten and crunchy. She's also the type to just draw all over herself with markers, the wet + cool sensation of markers going over skin is everything. least favorite texture: braille

Vriska: Hair, like moving it around/out of her hair constantly and dice. She plays with them, rolls them when theres no reason to, sometimes chews them but it's pretty rare and the oral fixation is only with dice. Idk what they're called, but the little game with the dice under the plastic dome and you push it and it pops the dice everywhere? Yeah. She also likes ripping/cutting paper a lot and will steal magazines to rip/cut them up. Least favorite texture: cotton balls

Equius: Equius is also a hair stimmer, softly brushing it. I think he *used* to hit himself in stressful situation but because he's so strong, that's obvi not an option anymore (that's why he has the battle bots) but he also just likes breaking things as in destroying them. In humanstuck, I think he regularly visits those places where you're put in a room with a bat just to smash old TV's and shit. Least favorite texture: rusty metal

Gamzee: definitely noise based stimming, his horns, little bells and squeaky toys, but also he loves just...watching wheels spin. Will sit for hours with his unicycle upside down watching the wheel go. Also beaded curtains. I think growing up on the beach, he'd also really like the texture of wet sand, touching it, walking barefoot on it, making imprints of it, that sort of thing. Least favorite texture: bugs with legs

Eridan: Spiny rings spiny rings spiny rings. At least half of his rings spin/click/or make some kind of noise, also just the sound of rings clinking on things is itself a stim. I think he likes those silicon brushes too, but he likes plucking them. Some of his books in his library aren't even meant to be read, he just will sit and turn the pages until he feels better. Idk if this counts a stim but I also think he copes by swimming to the deepest water he can stand and just laying there like a massive weighted blanket. Least favorite texture: wet paper

Feferi: hair, but also she has so many different fabrics in her outfit, they probably all have different textures that she likes touching. Feferi's a fan of squishy stuff, she likes slime, wet foods like puddings and jello. I'm sure they'd have slime that can be submerged in salt water, but above water she loves the very transparent jiggly slime. She also loves fucking with jelly fish and I bet she smacks the bulb on beluga whales for fun. Also assigned toe walker. Least favorite texture: concrete + bare feet

#homestuck #sollux captor #karkat vantas #eridan ampora #headcanons #nepeta leijon #aradia megido #tavros nitram #kanaya maryam #terezi pyrope #vriska serket #equius zahhak #gamzee makara #feferi piexes

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magicallymalted · 4 months

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stillness + roots for Gemma. change for Gwen, informal for Marco 💌

Gemma

stillness: How does your OC act while still? Are they fidgety? Do they have any common gestures or tics? Does their clothing affect how they hold themselves while at rest?

When Gemma is still, she is deadly still. To her, fidgeting appears as a sign of awkwardness and a point of exploitation. Whether sitting or standing, that is the last thing that she wants and thus tries to be consciously aware of holding herself in a strong and unwavering manner.

roots: Is your OC’s look inspired by any specific style of clothing or fashion trend? What are the roots and/or inspiration for their look?

Gemma likes to elevate the sporty/preppy looks of the late 90s. Pleated minis and slip dresses, but of course with leather, cashmere, or silk accents. One might also say the cropped jacket trend of the 50s, though with adjustments to fit more with her style.

Gwen

change: Has your OC ever drastically changed their appearance? Significant haircuts, big tattoos, complete wardrobe swap, etc? Why? How do they feel about the change?

Gwen has always been very consistent in what she likes. Growing up, she was constantly told by her mother to embrace her hair and as such she's come to be very happy with her long curls. She was actually quite lucky to get a sense for her style very early on. The biggest change in her wardrobe over the years may have been an incorporation of more complex patterns, but a lot has remained the same. No tattoos here, either!

Marco

informal: What’s your OC’s lazy-day look? How do they like to dress when they’re winding down?

Sweaters, crisp white t-shirts, and wool hoodies all the way. Mostly black, white, and grey, though he'll opt for a midnight blue every now and then. Being informal doesn't have to mean looking sloppy in his eyes. His "informal" look is not all too different from how he normally dresses, quite frankly, just with fewer layers and often untucked. When lounging around, he does have a pair of charcoal grey slippers he likes to wear.

#thanks for the ask! <3 #ask game: character design #oc: gemma han #oc: marco han #oc: gwendolyn montague

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once-was-muses · 1 year

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Below the cut is a list of symptoms Jon experiences from his mental conditions- keep in mind not all of these are intended to be negative and differ from day to day/person to person, mind the tws in the tags before reading

Paranoid Personality Disorder (PPD)

An aversion to people removing his glasses and (comorbid with ASD) touching his hair, the action making him feel vulnerable

Unreasonable suspicions that someone(s)- even loved ones- is/are hiding things from him and/or conspiring against him

Adds to his cynicism, misanthropy, misandry, grudge holding, spitefullness, aloofness, etc.

Leads him to overanalyze words and behavior or read hidden/nonexistent meanings

Recurrent suspicions that either his romantic partner is cheating on him or someone is trying to steal them away

(Comorbid with ADHD/anxiety) Extreme difficulty with relaxing

A recurrent delusion that someone (usually but not exclusively a stranger) is following him with the intent to abduct him, drug him, torture him, and/or rape him

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

An unusually strong disgust with and aversion- ranging from notable to severe, almost phobic- to bodily waste and fluids (specifically feces, urine, vomit, saliva, and semen- albeit the latter two are not a constant)

A need to make his bed and/or organize his sleeping area when waking up and getting ready for sleep

(Comorbid with anxiety/PPD) Checking every new environment and object for any irregularities or suspicious features

Intrusive thoughts, most commonly; being nonconsensually observed and/or photographed/recorded, his hands/face/entire body being covered in invisible filth that he has to scrub away (even if that means using harsh chemicals and/or scrubbing his skin raw), something inexplicably being missing or moved, a need to tear off his fingernails/scars/tear out his hair, he ate/drank or is eating/drinking something somehow tainted, some unidentified person or entity is currently judging his actions, someone or something is planning to take or remove his glasses

Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

A strong fascination with/“special interest” in gothic literature, chemistry, and fear based psychology

Difficulty processing and recognizing his own emotions

(Comorbid with ADHD) fidgeting and stimming, which he’s repressed and toned down over the years of ridicule and reprimands

Tactile hypersensitivity; not being able to stand the touch of others or specific materials/textures (i.e. sand, faux silk, plastic combs), or on the flipside being extra touchyfeely or petting/stroking/rubbing certain objects/materials (i.e. favored flannel shirts, his corvids, velcro)

Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)

Mild to notable difficulty remembering names, sequences of events, and specific times

Racing thoughts

A need to be constantly working/doing something, trouble sitting still

(Comorbid with depression/inferiority complex) self destructive, impulsive actions

Sleep Paralysis (SP)

Being touched, grabbed, and squeezed

Eyes- either just one pair or an innumerable amount- staring down at him

The sensation of being sexually assaulted/raped; anything from his genitals being mutilated, to incessant teasing, to being penetrated, to full on re experiencing the repeat abuse of an Arkham doctor (sometimes being back in that point in time, sometimes the doctor having broken into his residence)

A large, unidentified bird torturing him, slowly picking his flesh from his bone- sometimes it has the voice of his great grandmother, sometimes his father, sometimes what he can only assume to be the devil or some such punishing entity

#Offered Insight : headcanons #Miasma of Fear : Scarecrow #paranoia tw #unreality tw #kidnapping tw #drugging tw #torture tw #rape tw #sleep paralysis tw #Such is Predestined : queue tag

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miasma-of-fear · 2 years

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Paranoid Personality Disorder (PPD)

An aversion to people removing his glasses and (comorbid with ASD) touching his hair, the action making him feel vulnerable

Unreasonable suspicions that someone(s)- even loved ones- is/are hiding things from him and/or conspiring against him

Adds to his cynicism, misanthropy, misandry, grudge holding, spitefullness, aloofness, etc.

Leads him to overanalyze words and behavior or read hidden/nonexistent meanings

Recurrent suspicions that either his romantic partner is cheating on him or someone is trying to steal them away

(Comorbid with ADHD/anxiety) Extreme difficulty with relaxing

A recurrent delusion that someone (usually but not exclusively strangers) is following him with the intent to abduct him, drug him, torture him, and/or rape him

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

An unusually strong disgust with and aversion- ranging from notable to severe- to bodily waste and fluids (specifically feces, urine, vomit, saliva, and semen- albeit the latter two are not a constant)

A need to make his bed and/or organize his sleeping area when waking up and getting ready for sleep

(Comorbid with anxiety/PPD) Checking every new environment and object for any irregularities or suspicious features

Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

A strong fascination with/"special interest" in gothic literature, chemistry, and fear based psychology

Difficulty processing and recognizing his own emotions

(Comorbid with ADHD) fidgeting and stimming, which he's repressed and toned down over the years of ridicule and reprimands

Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)

Mild to notable difficulty remembering names, sequences of events, and specific times

Racing thoughts

A need to be constantly working/doing something, sitting still

(Comorbid with depression/inferiority complex) self destructive, impulsive actions

Sleep Paralysis (SP)

Being touched, grabbed, and squeezed

Eyes- either just one pair or an innumerable amount- staring down at him

#The Maze of the Mind : headcanons #[ been thinkin about this a lot recently and finally got around to writing it down lmao ]#[ may or may not update this list periodically as I think of/recall more ]#paranoia tw #unreality tw #kidnapping tw #drugging tw #torture tw #rape tw #self harm tw #sleep paralysis tw

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1. What does your muse smell like?

Horrible. But not in the “oh he never bathes” sense - Eddie bathes regularly - but because of all the scents he’s around, or douses himself in, just creates something unbearable. Because he constantly smokes (a terrible chainsmoker when it comes to cigarettes, and then he also smokes other, harder drugs) therefore - he always smells of nicotine among other smoke. Then there’s also a hint of gas due to all the mechanics he’s around. And he actually wears very expensive perfume - thinking it helps mask all these smells. But really, it just makes it all nauseating. It’s even worse if he’s drunk - but he doesn’t drink as much as he does do other drugs. So tha’ts less common.

2. What do your muse’s hands feel like?

Thin, shaky, frail. Shaky due to his constant never sleeping, extreme caffeine intake, as well as the other drugs he does, and never eating properly. And then frail because he’s... quite physically weak at times due to all his horrible, bad habits. They can also be quite coarse - namely his fingertips, as he usually wears gloves, but fingerless ones. So his fingers often get a lot of action with his mechanical work and inventions. So, they easily become calloused.

3. What does your muse usually eat in a day?

Sweets. But like - not all the time either. Due to his hard drug intake, Eddie’s appetite is near nonexistent. It’s also why he’s underweight. Eddie doesn’t feel the need to eat, so he doesn’t notice he’s hungry. Therefore, he never eats any actual food or meals. Sweets such as candy or desserts are just his way of treating himself. And because of his lack of appetite, and now very small stomach, he only eats a few candies (or a slice of cake) a day.

4. Does your muse have a good singing voice?

It’s a nice singing voice, and he can certainly entertain people with it. But it’s also nothing too amazing either. He’s a good singer, but not a great singer I suppose I can say!

5. Does your muse have any bad habits or nervous ticks?

Well, he has TOO MANY bad habits. Which is his drug use, not eating, not sleeping, etc. etc. But for ticks - I wouldn’t say the nervous ones are much different from his regular ones. Because of his drug use, Eddie can’t stay still for long at all. Therefore, he’ll often fidget with anything that’s nearby. He’ll pat his leg, as well as bounce it. And oftentimes, he’ll even get up from where he’s sitting just to pace around. But he does have one nervous tick / stim - one he does when he gets upset, or overwhelmed with emotion. And that’s scratching at his hair.

6. What does your muse usually look like / wear?

Must I go in depth about this? Y’all know what Eddie wears LOL! But other than his regular Riddle Attire. He wears formal button shirts, sweater vests, suspenders - just very “sophisticated” and “dress” outfits. He rarely wears T-Shirts or jeans. He does however, wear old, worn combat boots and fingerless gloves. When not wearing his hat, his hair is dark brown and very messy due to his constant stimming (as said above) and he has sideburns. Usually he shaves the rest of his facial hair, though. And he wears glasses - sometimes they’re a purple tint, sometimes they’re not. But they’re in the shape of those old 70s aviator glasses. Despite only being 30, he looks a little older than his age due to his unhealthy habits.

7. Is your muse affectionate? How much? How so?

VERY SO. Like to the point where he’s clingy. If Eddie really likes someone, he’ll always want to hug and kiss them - practically be on their laps at all times. Eddie has, uh... severe attachment issues where his love and affection practically turns into obsession. Therefore, if he’s with someone - he WILL shower them with hugs, kisses, cuddles, hair ruffling - just so many forms of physical affection.

8. What position does your muse sleep in?

Sitting on the chair, fast asleep. Eddie hardly sleeps. This is because he feels he’s always busy, and doesn’t have the time to sleep. And again, drug use also takes away his desire to sleep. He can be up for DAYS before he goes to sleep. And usually when he does sleep, it’s because he finally passed out. So, someone can find him asleep in random places.

9. Could you hear your muse in the hallway from another room?

DEPENDS. If he’s not totally messed up, then no - Eddie can be quite sneaky when he wants to be. That’s from both being a criminal, and having horrible parents he didn’t want to talk to. However, if he’s drunk - or sometimes peaking on drugs - then it’s a bit harder for him to be quiet. Therefore, easier to hear him.

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Paranoid Personality Disorder (PPD)

An aversion to people removing his glasses and (comorbid with ASD) touching his hair, the action making him feel vulnerable

Unreasonable suspicions that someone(s)- even loved ones- is/are hiding things from him and/or conspiring against him

Adds to his cynicism, misanthropy, misandry, grudge holding, spitefullness, aloofness, etc.

Leads him to overanalyze words and behavior or read hidden/nonexistent meanings

Recurrent suspicions that either his romantic partner is cheating on him or someone is trying to steal them away

(Comorbid with ADHD/anxiety) Extreme difficulty with relaxing

A recurrent delusion that someone (usually but not exclusively a stranger) is following him with the intent to abduct him, drug him, torture him, and/or rape him

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

A need to make his bed and/or organize his sleeping area when waking up and getting ready for sleep

(Comorbid with anxiety/PPD) Checking every new environment and object for any irregularities or suspicious features

Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

A strong fascination with/“special interest” in gothic literature, chemistry, and fear based psychology

Difficulty processing and recognizing his own emotions

(Comorbid with ADHD) fidgeting and stimming, which he’s repressed and toned down over the years of ridicule and reprimands

Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)

Mild to notable difficulty remembering names, sequences of events, and specific times

Racing thoughts

A need to be constantly working/doing something, trouble sitting still

(Comorbid with depression/inferiority complex) self destructive, impulsive actions

Sleep Paralysis (SP)

Being touched, grabbed, and squeezed

Eyes- either just one pair or an innumerable amount- staring down at him

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blobbyclouds · 3 years

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Hawks, Shinso, and Mirio affection headcanons <3

Basically, me rambling about how these three lovelies show affection

Warnings: sliiight angst/conflict type stuff for Hawks

-Hawks-

Under different circumstances, Hawks would express affection mainly by spending time with you. He’d plan so many cute dates with you! And he’d also do chill things you’re interested in, like watching your favorite shows with you, playing videogames with you, and doing silly projects with cooking or make-up

But given his job… spending a bunch of time with you isn’t exactly going to work, no matter how much time he’d like to spend with you. He still does his best — setting up dates when a random opening comes, fighting tooth and nail to wiggle open an hour or two for you, or FaceTiming you during his patrols when nothing much is going on

Sometimes he’ll pop by your work building when he catches a few spare minutes, just to check in on you

I suppose that makes the time he spends with you mean more in a way, since he can’t just throw his time around but…Hawk’s time commitment is a matter of contention in your relationship, so let’s move on, shall we?

Hawks spoils you with so many gifts. He really does not care at all about the price tag, and would low-key just hand you a credit card and tell you to go wild because if he can’t give most of his time, he can at least give you most his money

He likes to surprise you with gifts :) it could be anything from an outfit you pointed out when he took you flying, a video game you stare at with every advertisement, or a food you off handedly mentioned craving

He does other surprises that aren’t necessarily gifts too, like leaving you notes around the house when he goes out for an early patrol. Sometimes there are bad amazing puns, compliments, or just a simple “good morning, angel, have a good day!” With a little smiley face :)

Sometimes this accompanies breakfast neatly arranged with a gift. It’s sweet, but you don’t want to know how much of his already limited sleep he gave up to arrange it

I think the fandom has accepted the fact that Hawks gives you one of his feathers as a necklace. He did this so, no matter what, there’s at least some part of him with you

Kisses on the top of your head, then pulling you into a hug with his wings wrapped around you and his head resting on yours

Pet names like cutie, gorgeous/handsome, dove, trouble, and angel

Letting you borrow anything and everything from his wardrobe

Letting you fidget with his wings, or sending his feathers to tease you and play with your hair

Pda isn’t a big thing for him because it draws waaaay too much attention, but he’s very affectionate in private, giving you plenty of kisses and nuzzles on the head

-Shinso Hitoshi-

One of his main ways of showing affection is constantly offering to help you or just… be there for you, you know? Chilling with you so that you know you aren’t alone. Shinso has had to do a lot of things alone/isolated in his life, and he never, ever wants you to feel like that. So even if he’s not actively talking, helping you, or being affectionate, he just wants you to know he’s there

In general, he shows affection by doing things for you. Making you meals, helping with chores, reviewing notes with you, etc. He doesn’t over-do it, of course. He lets you do things alone if he thinks you’d prefer it or if you directly ask. His goal in helping is as simple as that — to help. And if his assistance is more frustrating than helpful, he’ll understand and back off

Also, I feel like respecting the hell out of you is one of his big ways of showing affection? He doesn’t ever baby you, underestimate you, etc. He never even jokingly talks about pushing past your boundaries, because once you set them, he views them as law

A lot of his affection is low-key things like that. Sweet and not super obvious until you take a closer look

Cuddling. Most of his physical affection is kept in private, and cuddling happens to be one of his favorite ways of showing how much he loves you

Helping you achieve your goals, because he wants the two of you to succeed together

Taking your mind off things that you don’t like. For example, if you’re going for a morning run that you absolutely despise, he’ll strike up a conversation about a movie you really like. Or if there’s a test you can’t stop freaking out over, he’ll start playing one of your favorite songs to make you chill

If you ever have a problem, he thinks really hard on it because he wants to give you 100% honest and helpful advice

… he’d make a playlist for you. Or something super personalized like that for you, where he’d keep it secret for ages and pay attention to every little detail

-Mirio Togata-

Compliments are a big thing for him :) there are just so many great things about you, and he can’t resist pointing them out! He doesn’t want you to ever be insecure or doubt his love! Plus, he’s very observant, so he can notice things like hair cuts, new clothes, a good grade, etc quite quickly

And they’re not just quick “cute outfit!” compliments, they’re more like “wow, that looks amazing on you! It was such a good idea to pair that together, and the new necklace brings out your eyes so well!”

Insecurities have been punted out of the chat

Pda. LOTS of pda. It is literally impossible to not know you two are dating smh

Hand holding, random hugs, scooping you up whenever, finding random excuses to have you sit on his lap, cuddling with you, fiddling with your hair and clothes, etc.

Paying really close attention to things you like/things about you and being 100% prepared for them. Birthday? He’s memorized it since before you two were even dating. Holidays? Already has plans. Release date of a movie you’re looking forward to? Calendar cleared, popcorn bought

Throws “love you!” into every good-bye, just to make sure you know and maybe embaress you too

Making you laugh

Pet names, some sweet ones like honey and dear, and more goofy ones based on inside jokes between the two of you

He randomly pops in on you to see what’s up :) like you’re studying, minding your own business, and then Mirio’s popping in through the floor and asking if you want some help with laundry. You woke up literally two seconds ago, and there’s Mirio’s head poking out of the bed and asking if you want coffee. This one could get a bit annoying, and if it is, he’ll try to chill out and at least knock before barging in

He just loves spending time with you so, so much. Most things you do are pretty casual, but they never fail to make his day

Mirio also shows affection through photos. He has,,, SO many photos of you (not in a weird way, as most were taken with you well aware of them). And then he’ll do cute stuff like hang them up in his room and make them his phone background

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hazelhearts · 3 years

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spencer reid

note: i want to make it very clear that we all see characters in very different ways. if you don't agree with my headcanons then its okay! all characters, but especially spencer, have many different ways that you can view their character and psychology. my view is one of hundreds, thousands, even millions!

summary: general headcanons about spencer reid & his and emily's friendship

warnings: focusing issues, anxiety

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he has a horrible time focusing when pen is presenting cases so hotch regularly buys him little fidget toys to help him. he never wrote a note or told him but spencer just knew it was him

spencer is a terrible cook. like terrible. he doesn't even know how to make ramen. after rossi figured it out, he started making spencer dinner each and every night not only because he couldn't make it but also to make sure he ate at all

spencer, jj, and pen have a standing movie night every saturday night. even if they are on a case, they will go to each other's hotel room and call penelope just to watch the weekly movie

he gets cold really easily but constantly forgets to bring anything to cover up with so derek always brings a spare hoodie or jacket or something to cover him up with

every year on maeves birthday he rereads the narrative of john smith and writes letters to her with direct quotes from the book and keeps them in a box to read over whenever he misses her a lot

after rough cases, he goes over to dereks house and they get takeout from their favorite chinese restaurant and sit there together enjoying each other's company. no words required

whenever any member of the team talks about something they like, he does as much research as possible and reads/watches as many things as he can about it so that he can talk to them about their interests and understand

whenever spencer is stressed/upset, jj lets him play with a strand of her hair and when he braids it, she walks around the whole day with it in her hair proudly

he paints his nails and gets mani pedis with the girls

he can't watch horror movies alone because he gets too scared, but if he's with his friends, he's fine

he loves thunderstorms and could sit outside and watch the rain for hours

he used to go birdwatching with gideon and he would spew random facts about every bird they saw

he randomly climbs trees. like when he needs time to himself, he will randomly climb a tree and then sit in it for hours reading as many books as he can

he spends hours learning how to do the best and cutest hairstyles so that he can do his girlfriends hair in the future along with the hair of the female team members to entertain himself (french braids, dutch braids, space buns, etc.)

spencer names inanimate objects. for example, the random little fidget toys hotch buys for them are always named after famous renaissance artists

spencer always makes a big deal about birthdays since he never really had a real one growing up so he goes all out to make his friends feel valued

#spencer reid #spencer reid headcanon #headcanons

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writella · 4 years

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Dating Luke Patterson

Luke Patterson x reader

World count: 3.8k (yes, for a headcanon, let’s not talk about it. Or is this normal? Idk.)

A/N: I made this WAY too long but hopefully you can think of this as your ultimate guide because of it, enjoy!

• Luke is a VERY affectionate and loving boyfriend, both physically and emotionally.

• Physically:

- This boy would want to touch you anywhere and everywhere and be around you all the time.

- He’d caress your face, stand behind you and rub your shoulders and arms, hug your waist or shoulders from behind, play with your hair, fidget with your bracelets or whatever accessories you’d have on, play with your hands, have his hand on the center of your back...

- Even if he saw an eyelash on your face he wouldn’t hesitate to get it for you instead of telling you about it.

- Anyway to touch you, he’d go for it.

- He’d like to kiss your nose or your forehead when he says goodbye to you.

- When you’re alone he’d like Eskimo kisses.

- He just basks in being in your presence.

- Whether you liked to receive / give physical affection or not, you always have to remember to be a little extra affectionate with him because he really enjoys it.

- He likes knowing you’re there and that you care. He does that for everyone else, so if you do it, he’d really appreciate it.

- He likes the lingering touches the best, like intertwining your fingers together, or when you play with his hair (even though sometimes he doesn’t want it to get messed up), or you rubbing his shoulders like he does to you.

• Emotionally:

- He would be your number one supporter.

- He’d push to try new things or to speak your mind even if you’re afraid.

- He’d compliment you all the time. Saying that the band would be hopeless without you, or by telling you how beautiful he thinks you are, or how talented you are, or by marveling at your artistic or scholastic accomplishments.

- Tell you uplifting stories or give you words of encouragement when you’re feeling down.

• You love that he’s always so smiley and how his nose crinkles and eyes get all squinty when he’s cheesin’ hard.

• You think he’s sunshine personified by the way he is able to brighten up not only your day, but everyone’s day.

• He thinks you’re an angel because of the way you lighten up everyone’s life. Not to mention how you are the first to help, listen, or give advice to anyone in the band.

• Before you start dating, his heart would beat frantically when he saw you.

• After you’re together though, that would fade, but not because the excitement he feels when you’re around would go away, but because you’d become his safe place. Knowing that the person he could confide to always was around would bring a warm and content feeling all around him.

• Luke would be a romantic. We see this because of the way he always sees the bigger picture by constantly looking on the brighter side of things and by the way he writes poetry within his song lyrics, so he would treat your relationship the same way. He’d write you notes or make the band throw you a private concert or play an acoustic cover or original song just for you.

• He’d let you wear his chains or bracelets from time to time or you’d steal them.

• You’d like to play with the rings on his hand.

• You would probably get him some rings or chains to add to his collection.

• Getting a reaction out of you is his favorite thing.

• No matter how far into your relationship you are he’d still like to flirt in order to make your blush.

• If you were a writer / singer / musician he would ask you what you think of some lyrics he’s written or is thinking about writing down, but even if you weren’t, he would ask you anyways because he values your opinions and ideas.

• He either let you take or you’d steal some of his band tees. He’d get major heart eyes seeing you in them. Thinking you looked gorgeous in. his. clothes.

• He’d always give you a wink when he was on stage and saw you in the crowd or backstage.

• If you didn’t know how to play an instrument, he would want to teach you to play guitar. He just wants to share his passion.

• He’d introduce you to music you’d never listened to and you’d introduce him to 2000s + recent stuff that you think he’d like.

• When he’s in your room he’s be so nosy and look through all your stuff, but honestly, when you were in his room (if this was 90s) you’d do the same (he’d have so many CDs and other weird interesting stuff.)

Dating Ghost!Luke:

• So you can see him!

• Maybe you’re Julie’s close friend or sibling.

• You’d really enjoy that you and Julie get to have such special friendships with all three of the guys.

• Perhaps you’d never had a sense of belonging like that, and now you had a group of people you could always rely on to be there for you and understand you.

• I think it would make you and Julie closer.

• Luke would obviously be a goner for you right when he saw your face, but since he just loves to be close to everyone you couldn’t tell.

• You’d probably think if he had a crush on anyone it was Julie because of how great they look when they sing together despite how sweetly or flirtatiously he would talk to you.

• You’d just assume he was like that with everyone.

• Julie, Alex, and Reggie would see how much he liked you though.

• You and Julie would teach the guys about the internet, different innovations, etc.

• Luke’s way of getting to talk to you more, other than pestering you with questions about yourself, would definitely be asking you about how to do this and that online, or just to talk to you about how things have changed so you can put it into perspective for him.

• He’d really like listening to your voice. He would hang onto every word.

• And you really liked his voice too, both singing and speaking, so whatever questions he asked you, you would always forward them back to him. You liked how passionately he spoke about everything. You also, hung onto every word.

• If you couldn’t touch, despite knowing that there was obviously more than friendship going on between the two of you, you’d be reluctant to tell each other of your feelings.

• When the truth comes out however you decide to make it work.

• But if you could touch, Luke would of course be the happiest guy on Earth and never let go of you.

• The band remembers to give you guys alone time in the garage or in Julie’s / your room sometimes, so you can just speak freely with him.

• But you guys also take walks on the beach or the park while you pretend you're on the phone or have your headphones in so you can have a change of scenery.

• You would be the glue of the group / band.

• If you weren’t a part of the band (like singing / playing an instrument specifically) it would probably be easiest for you to see their band spats in an unbiased and reasonable manner.

• You’d make sure to ask Alex how he’s doing because you know he’s always got something on his mind, but doesn’t always share unless asked.

• You’d make sure to always find something fun to do with Reggie from time to time, or just start up a conversation with him about mundane things.

• You see how he likes to watch Ray and Carlos all the time, so you wonder if maybe he just wants some kind of familial connection, and you decide that it’ll be you.

• I think he’d appreciate how you take the time to ask him questions and listen to his answers seriously, despite how he says things in such a humorous tone, and you’d appreciate how surprisingly observant he is (e.g. he noticed Ray was worried about Julie by how he had been stress eating all week. Reggie is a sweet boy who cares, guys.)

• You realize you both have hidden traits that no one gives you credit for except each other.

• Luke would like how you had a unique relationship with everyone and truly put in the effort to make sure each one is personalized between you and that person. It reminded him of himself— Always trying to give a little love to everyone — It would make him that much more fond of you.

• You’d settle arguments between the guys.

• Or maybe even little arguments between Julie and Luke. Although neither could stay mad at each other for long (honestly being “mad” at each other wouldn’t even be the word), but sometimes they took opposing sides to different situations like where to add a certain verse or about a poor decision Julie felt the guys made (like haunting Bobby or going to Caleb’s), so you’d be there to give an outside opinion or to calm the heated moments.

• He’d like to stare at you whenever he could. When you were in the garage talking to Julie or Flynn or if it’s 90s!Luke he’d do it in class or in the hallways.

• Either Julie or Alex would say he’s a creep for staring but Luke would say he’s just admiring.

• Little did he know you did the same.

• And now, speaking of 90s Luke...

Dating Alive!Luke:

• Okay, so we’re in the 90s and he’s in high school.

• He either met you because you share a class together and he thought you were pretty (and you thought he was beautiful, of course) or you and Alex shared a class together and he befriended you.

• Let’s say it’s Alex: you guys would bond over the fact that presentations are stupid and only done to make people feel uncomfortable and ultimately humiliate themselves.

• When Alex didn’t have a class with Reggie and or Luke he’d feel lonely but if you were there, you could now be a person he could go to, so you two could be lonely together.

• Even if you guys didn’t have much in common the fact that you were easy to talk to, always decided to be partners with him, or help each other out in class gave him comfort, so maybe one day he’d ask you to sit with him at lunch or see a gig his band managed to get.

• You go (You can choose which, I’m making it a choose your own adventure for about a whole second. Enjoy.) and boom enter Luke and his sunshine eyes, pretty hair, GORGEOUS arms, a muscle tee, along with his classic vans and you’re like , WHOA, but you try to hide it.

• And Luke is like, WHOA, but he tries to hide it.

• And Alex is like, “Of course.”

• And Reggie is like, “Hi I’m Reggie. We’re Sunset Curve, tell you friends.”

• And you’re like, “But I don’t have (m)any friends.”

• And Alex is like, “That’s okay I only have three (3) friends and before that I had none!”

• And Luke is like, “I’ll be your friend 👀”

• And Reggie is like, “By the way he’s looking at you, I think he wants to be more than just ‘friends’ 😏😉”

• And Luke is like, “🤡”

• And Alex is like, “🤡”

• And Reggie is like, “🤠?”

• And you’re like, *internally SCREAMING*

• Here comes that mutual pining.

• Alex starts to bring you around more often which helps you to get closer to all three of them, but especially Luke, who will ask you a series of never ending questions about yourself.

• You think Luke is just really nice and that's why he's so friendly when you’re around, but in actuality he just wants to know all about you.

• Alex and Reggie would bother him about it when you’re not around.

• One day, after he just couldn’t take it anymore he’d finally ask you out, or just kisses you unexpectedly because Luke acts before he thinks sometimes.

• The rest is history.

• Anyway...

• He’s a sweetie and probably wouldn’t really talk crap about teachers, but I know he’s not into school either.

• That being said: he’d totally get you to skip one day or quite a few days if he gets you to agree saying “please, please, please,” or telling you that you can afford to miss because you’re so much smarter than him, or just giving you so many kisses you can’t think straight.

• Skipping activities would include:

- Finding some random coffeehouse for him and the band to play impromptu while you watch.

- Adventures in the park or woods: he’s find a grassy place and sing songs to you on his guitar or you’d do something silly like play tag because Luke is a child.

- Sit on the trunk of Alex or Reggie’s car (let's say one of them has one) and have a quick make out session or just talks out life (probably his parental issues) it depends on how he’s feeling that day.

- Or finally, you guys would explore around the school and find rooms you’d never been in or see what the back of the auditorium looked like for the first time. If you guys ever get caught he’d either tell you to hide or run or find some way to get you out of it. He would take full blame, never wanting to get you in trouble.

• Once again, being the romantic he is, he’d probably take you to your first concert, write you cards, come by your locker after every period, take you out on weekends or weekdays whenever he could.

• He’d try to be a gentleman in front of your parents, really wanting them to like him, and he’d try to respect your curfew if you had one, but sometimes he would like to be rebellious (e.g. when he tells Julie to sneak out the window for their first gig) and try to get you to sneak out, especially if it was for something really special he planned. Ex. a moonlight serenade. But again, sometimes this boy doesn’t think, so he’d probably just get you to come out so you could kiss, or talk, or talk and kiss.

• All around, you guys would just have a blast together because Luke’s mission is to bring joy to your life.

• He genuinely loves seeing people happy and if you two were in a relationship, your happiness would definitely be a top top top priority.

• He would burn you CDs.

• He’d love to listen to them with you because he just loves sharing music with you and he just wants to see your reactions right then and there.

• He’s introduce you to new things and you would talk for hours about music you both liked or movies you loved.

• He’d like to hold your hand in the halls.

• Send you notes in class or even throw them at you or if you were sitting too far apart.

• He’d even tell someone to tell you he had something to say. Down the chain his call would go till the last person closest to you tells you that Luke is asking for you. You’d look and all he’d say is “hi” with the goofiest smile.

• You’d either have no choice but to smile back because of how infectious he is, or if you had enough willpower, you’d roll your eyes and look away. If the latter, he would try again and again till he got you to give in.

• He’d mimic or make faces when the teacher or a classmate said something stupid.

• He’s a little needy that way. He just wants your attention and affection.

• Again, he’d do anything to see you smile and equally as important, bothering you is the only joy he gets out of class whenever he’s not in a class with the guys.

• You’d proofread his essays or any writing that was for any type of English class because when he’s really feeling up to it, he actually puts in effort in his writing assignments.

• You tell him that he’s a good writer and that if the band thing doesn’t work out he could always become a music / poetry teacher.

• “Too bad the band thing is going to work out,” he’d assure you.

• You believed him, but you always just want to let him know he has far more talents than what he, or his teachers, for that matter give him credit for.

• Despite his major confidence in his musical abilities he feels like he falls short in other aspects, something you were surprised to learn about him, so you do your best to compliment him and encourage him.

• But especially in school since he already thinks of it in such low standards.

• When his parents fight with him about the band, you're his safe space. Sometimes he doesn’t like to tell Alex and Reggie about all the gritty details because they have family issues too, but he can always vent to you.

• You like hanging out in his room. His personality is written all over it. Band posters, movie posters, ideas for songs as well as song lyrics he loves taped up to the wall on scrap pieces of paper and sticky notes, it’s a little messy but it’s mostly just clothes and crumpled paper on the floor.

• Unfortunately, you don’t hang there too much because Luke doesn’t always like being around his parents.

• His parents like you though and enjoy when you’re around the house because it means Luke is actually around too.

• They know you encourage him at school and his mother specifically knows he needs that extra support and appreciates you for it.

• She’s told you that she wishes she could show Luke that she wants to give him that, but sometimes Luke gets too preoccupied with his music and has the notion that just because she is concerned about his career choice that she is totally against him.

• Speaking of that, despite how much Luke loves being your boyfriend and tries his best to show you how much he loves you, he’s not always perfect.

• Sometimes music and the band comes between you two as well.

• When he’s really driven on a song idea, whether it be working on the lyrics to a song, composing the music to it , rehearsing it with the band, etc., it will take all his attention.

• When he gets a fixation on something, he can be very single minded.

• All he’ll want to do is be with his thoughts and guitar or with the band that he forgets to check in with you.

• Once you tell him though, he will feel terrible about it. Not seeing how his passion can make him so blind at times.

• “I just get really into it, you know? I’m sorry! I can make it up to you.” His bottom lip would jut out and his eyes would drop dopily. He always looked like such a puppy, you could stay mad for long.

• “How are you going to prove you’re really sorry?” you’d ask knowing this wasn’t the first nor will it be the last time he gets “really into” his music.

• “I’m dropping everything today. It’s just you and me. Promise.” And he’d mean it.

• When Luke knows he’s at fault he will always try 110% to make it right. He doesn’t like it when he hurts people, especially you. He feels like he’s failed in a way.

• He’d show you new snippets of new songs he’s working on.

• You guys would talk endlessly about favorite bands and he would introduce you to ones you’d never heard before.

• You liked when he talked about his favorite musicians. Seeing someone talk passionately about something they loved was always beautiful to witness, but when Luke did it, it was next level.

• He’d literally buzz everywhere, talk super fast, and bounce around. He vibrates happiness and those are the moments where you knew for sure why he was so determined on his goals to make the band work. The love he has is so intense, so undeniable, so unbreakable. You hoped you could find something you loved like that one day. Other than him, of course.

• Oh, wait? Is that how you figure out you love him? For his passionate and brave spirit that did nothing but put a smile on your face all day, everyday? You couldn’t even compute the thought. It felt right, of course, but it was scary.

• You didn’t tell him. I think he’d say I love you first anyway and you’d happily say it back, finally releasing the beautiful realization you held inside for so long.

• He’d want you to go to every gig they got.

• “I can’t do it without you,” he’d say.

• Sometimes he knew you couldn’t though, because he and the band would only get slots in the middle of the night sometimes, or they’d do all-nighters around the city playing on the outsides of clubs just to get noticed.

• Sometimes they would get in trouble, or even ban from some places and he didn’t want you to be a part of that. He’d tell you that he wants you to get your sleep.

• But if it was the weekend, or the summer, or just a day you decided you have the time to be rebellious, you’d love to cheer them on, or maybe you would even be the getaway driver when workers would try to kick them out.

• You’d help Luke and the boys with their homework or school work a lot.

• Whether you were smart or an average student they’d think you were a genius and appreciate how you remind them of assignment deadlines from the classes you’d share. They only went to school to spend time together and outside of school was for music, so they’d probably fail without you.

• Luke would be the first to thank you every time.

• You would be there for him when he ran away. You’d tell him that maybe he should go back and talk to his parents or that maybe it would be best to at least finish high school, but he dismisses both as options immediately, saying that he knows what he wants. That school nor his parents are going to give it to him, so why bother.

• You support him and believe in his dream, but you still worry from time to time. You decide that it's his choice and that you love him, so you just make sure that he is eating, sleeping, and that you’re there for him if he needs someone to talk to or just someone to hug.

Now back to the general stuff:

• He’d give you a nickname. Personally, I think he’d try to shorten your name in some way that hopefully no one else calls you yet so he can feel special.

• Alex and Reggie would probably start calling you by that nickname sometimes too soon after that.

• As for usual nicknames, I think sometimes when he greets you he’d call you “beautiful”

• “Hey beautiful, how you doin’?” Lets pretend that he watched the first season of Friends in ‘94 and then watched the rest on your laptop after he comes back and be obsessed like Charlie.

• He’d make your laugh a lot. Sometimes because he’s flirty or silly but other times it was because he could just be really dumb (in a sweet way, of course.)

• You would wonder why everyone would call Reggie the clueless one. It seemed like all the guys shared one braincell and Alex just hogged it most of the time.

• He’d love kissing. I don’t think he’d do full on make outs in the halls or in front of the band (not because he's shy though), but when you two were alone, in the garage or in each other's rooms he would be so down, there is no stopping him, and he’d try to make them last as long as he could.

• He would ask for good luck kisses before a show just to get you to touch him, as always.

• When you saw him shirtless for the first time your breath would be taken away. You knew he was probably toned because those sleeveless tees but you still couldn’t predict just how GORGEOUS and HOT he would look, whew.

• He’s probably get cocky for a second because of your speechless reaction.

• But that confidence would go right out the door whenever he saw you without a shirt, his eyes would be blown, totally star struck.

• He’d like to cuddle or rest his head on your lap, especially when he needs to relax from the stress he’s feeling due to his home life or from writing. You’d gently stroke his hair. It would soothe him.

• He’d also like it when you rest your head on his lap too. In those moments, he would take it as full permission to touch you and kiss you up, no complaints.

• Overall, Luke would just love you up and write you pretty songs forever and ever. Best boyfriend.

Thank you for reading! Who else wants to have this boy as their handsome and adorable ghost boyfriend? I love him.

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