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greydiminishing · 5 months

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After hours of "Organize your life with google calendar!" and "How to task batch" yt videos, this is the timeblock schedule i've come up with:

This is just for week 1, then i'll tweak anything thats not working and fill in week 2, and iterate that for the next 5 weeks.

I have to remember that this is a guideline, its not my day set in stone, and its not the end of the world if i go off schedule. This is for when im like "ive been scrolling tiktok for 15 minutes, what should i actually be doing rn? Oh yeah, its my study x block". This is a loose schedule and i dont want to stress myself out trying to follow it exactly, eat exactly at the set times, go to bed exactly at the set time, etc.

At the same time though, im feeling upset that I havent really gotten any "real work" done yet and its already 1:45 on tuesday. Today I've showered (*let me make it clear that I added "shower" last minute as a reminder that i really needed a shower this morning, and also to test how long it'll take me for future timeblocking needs. I don't/won't only shower if its scheduled in my calendar lmao), had breakfast, and walked the dog. I had 3 tasks i needed to get done in my task items block, and didnt do any of them. Well, 25% of one task, then got stuck on hold for 20 minutes.

I even took my adderall this morning after breakfast, hoping it would help me want to get stuff done, but it didnt. I just watched twitch vods and stressed out about the tasks i wasn't doing. I was really optimistic about today too! I thought I was gonna be SO productive. I sigh a heavy sigh, check my to do list, close my to do list, and continue watching twitch, feeling like a lazy failure that will never be hardworking and driven enough to not be a lazy failure. And kind of sleepy too, even at 11 in the morning.

Only now, after walking the dog am i starting to feel the effects of the adderall kick in. Starting to feel slightly more motivated and no longer intimidated by the tasks i need to complete. I wonder if it wouldve kicked in faster had I taken it before eating instead of after? Maybe I should take it first time after waking up.

Hopefully I'll get the tasks done, get my exam done, and i'll just have to have a bit less time for learning react tonight.

#journal

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abyssmalice · 3 years

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// genshin spoilers !!

ft. flower reminds you all why her signature has been set to THIS since day hecking 1 of me playing this godforsaken game:

(tl;dr - a messy changelog for the numerous khaenri’ah and abyss-related headcanons applied to this blog because WOW THAT NEW ARCHON QUEST SURE WAS A TIME HUH??????? my god, my god,)

so! to be to the point - the new lore from the archon quest actually does not change much of the headcanons that i have applied to Tonia.

rather, the new info either confirms or integrates into said headcanons to some extent which im super pleased about bc 1) im lazy 2) wouldve been a headache to do an overhaul of the AU premise so that it can still function according to canon worldbuilding.

anyway, here is a short (edit: im sorry this is not short at all) list of changes and expanded worldbuilding points that this blog will operate on from here on:

abyss-related hcs:

what the Order calls the ‘Abyss’ has existed for a long, long, long, long long long long long long long long long time. Tonia in this AU had to fall somewhere.

Celestia is aware of the Abyss, and has been aware for an equally long time.

prior to the current iteration of Teyvat, the Abyss was an eldritch place of unspeakable horrors and forces - but the dangers that dwelt there were too chaotic to take proper aim at Celestia or Teyvat. proper in the sense that any damage done couldn’t be resolved with minimal effort.

as such, in Tonia’s time, Celestia viewed the Abyss as a dumping ground.

problems? throw into the abyss. eyesores? throw into the abyss. trash? throw into the abyss. need to mete out eternal, insufferable punishment to someone? throw them into the fucking abyss apparently!

the day that Tonia fell into the Abyss occurred from the same modus operandi. Celestia wanted an unnecessary person gone, and set a trap for them to fall into the Abyss. Tonia just happened to be the very, very unfortunate person to accidentally step into that trap before the intended target came along.

khaenri’ah-related hcs:

i have mentioned this prior as a personal headcanon that wasn’t being applied for rp, but in light of the new archon quest, i have decided this will be a part of the blog canon now - the people of Khaenri’ah are ideologically divided in their response to Celestia.

while the Abyss Order is filled with Khaenri’ahn people, the Order is but a part of the current surviving population. the rest are scattered—a rare few in Teyvat, but otherwise in the Abyss, having either fallen there along with the remains of the capital city or having fled there some time after their nation’s destruction.

of those in the Abyss, excluding the Order, the current population can be divided into a majority that have taken to rebuilding a safer, quieter community that simply tries its best to adjust to their new residence—this community and the small city they have built is what this blog and Tonia will refer to as “Khaenri’ah” in certain contexts, unless indicated otherwise—while a rare minority have taken to wandering the Abyss for their own reasons.

not all of the survivors of Khaenri’ah’s destruction were cursed into monstrous forms resembling the rank and file of the Abyss Order. some retained human appearances, and it is these survivors that banded together to rebuild a more peaceful Khaenri’ah in the Abyss. with time, it welcomed other survivors—refugees who similarly escaped being cursed, as well as those were indeed cursed but refused to align themselves with the Order for whatever reason. presently, the population of this small city has an even split of intermingling human and non-human residents.

at first, Tonia had assisted the early survivors with settling into the Abyss. she provided basic information about its terrain, its wilderness, its dangers, and watched over their fledgling community from a distance. (she could have done more, but she knew it would not truly help them - they had to prove themselves capable of surviving in the Abyss in much the same way that she did.)

in turn, the survivors offered her information as well—the knowledge and the sciences that caused their civilization to advance as much as it did, as well as a fairly detailed timeline of history up to Khaenri’ah’s fall.

however, as these survivors grew in number—factions began to appear among them. some calling for revenge, others desiring peace, an insane handful believing that the only thing they should pursue is the gods’ forgiveness. it was inevitable that these factions would go their own ways - creating the Abyss Order, rebuilding Khaenri’ah, or meandering through the dark with their own unique goals that aligned with none of the other factions.

it is around this time, while opinions were flaring through the newest residents of the Abyss, that Tonia began to retreat back into isolation. she wanted nothing to do with the Order, whose goals had a fair chance of destroying Teyvat along with Celestia, and those rebuilding Khaenri’ah already had the tools to do so, so she simply didn’t see a continued need for her own presence among them.

that being said, she is nonetheless remembered for her cold brand of generosity in the early days, thus sparking the various stories about her that continue to be passed down in Khaenri’ah, along with the occasional tone-deaf invitation she receives to join the Order.

misc. hcs:

as Tonia is aware of the situation around Khaenri’ah’s fall and the Abyss Order, combined with her personal experiences relating to the destruction of her own world, her viewpoint regarding the gods - is the same as Dainsleif’s, lol

Tonia detests but also fears the gods for being cruel and destructive to innocent people and the things they treasure. if she were more angry, she would be inclined to agree with the Abyss Order that their thrones ought to be toppled no matter the cost - but unfortunately, even now, she remains more in mourning over such senseless devastation.

as such, while she mistrusts the gods, she also does Not want their attention - much less their retribution for any perceivable slight - whatsoever. Enough has been lost to the gods’ whims, and she is much too aware of how powerless she is at the moment. Perhaps, then, she could obtain more power to defeat them—but what will the price be? Will it be worth it? Will she even be able to pay it in full? Such reasoning is why she has chosen not to fight them—only to wait, to watch, to perhaps save what little she can from their burning hands and their killing gaze.

#genshin spoilers #ooc | (written and loved and forgotten);#headcanons | (there is no love lost here but me);#(MAN THIS QUEST......... this quest........................)#(ANYWAY THIS POST IS FINALLY DONE i can now!!!!!!!!! sleep. lol)

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k9zuha · 3 years

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BRO I FEEL THAT SO BAD TOO 😭😭😭😭 LIKE YES I WANT THAT CHAR OR THAT WEAPON BUT. IT’S JUST A GAME MAN HOW MUCH LONGER AM I GONNA BE PLAYING IT FOR but omfg I would b so mad if I got the sword HU TAO LOOKS SO COOL W HER POLEARM

EXAAAAACTLY WTF IT RUINS THAT ELEMENT OF TESTING LIKE THE AMT OF TIMES GOING BACK TO EDIT HAS SAVED ME and HUH?1!2! I thought they had a new rule that was like . we didn’t need a device that had a camera or smth 😟😟😟

EXAAAAACTLY Like wtf for @pu$h they changed it so we literally have 3 extra saqs instead of an LEQ PLUS I LEGIT DONTTTT REMEMBER ANYTHING I wish I was taking this amt of @ps last year 😭😭 like yeah there r less points overall so it sucks more when u mess up but I think it was overall easier to get a 5 imo

LLEAJSNEJ like sure I AMMM a hater but the shit is so boring 😭😭 like tohru’s cute n all but i was Not interested

OOOOH FAIR I don’t like 2 read the manga for animes that r currently airing (like black clover n jjk) because I don’t get as hyped for the new ep but I’m lazy ab reading manga in general cuz I have to scrollllll 😭😭😭

DUDEYEAH I’ve been planning 2 read ons since . October because they ended the nagoya arc with such a cliffhanger?????? and they probs aren’t gonna animate it any time soon because s2 flopped so bad but I get bored easily 😭😭

BUTLIKEYEAH max i would spend on genshin is probs gnostic chorus or smth I’m still f2p 😭😭 wouldve totally bought a welkin or smth for zhongli or hu tao

YES i’ve only spent like $20 on this game BUT I ALWAYS GET BUYERS REMORSE 😭😭😭 well like i spent $ for xiao and was totally geeking when i got him and i still love him but then i think that i could’ve gotten 4 boba drinks with that $20 🥲

AND OMGG I PLAYED HER QUEST AND IT WAS SOO CUTE hu tao is so adorbs but i have 6 pulls 😕 i’m not crazy about getting her but it would be nice I LOVE THE BUTTERFLY TRAIL IT IS SOOO CUTE LIKE SUCH A MINOR DETAIL BUT IT DOES SO MUCH FOR HER DESIGN

oh maybe i’m wrong 😅 idk my apes teacher said we needed cameras but tbh he is not on top of things so don’t take my words to heart :P AND RIGHTTT last year during exams i remember i was like god dang i should’ve taken more if the test was going to be like this 🤬🤬🤬 and it was def easier to get a 5 i think they were lax on the grading 😭

the entire year i didn’t write a single rhetorical analysis for l@ng but that was the only essay on the test 😭 so my friend and i wrote an essay every day for the week before the test and we both got 5’s so it was def graded easier

PLEASE I HATE SAYING I DONT LIKE THINGS BC I DONT WANNA BE A HATER YKNOW BUT SOMETIMES THINGS ARE JUST NOT THAT GREAT 😭

and for sure i know exactly what u mean like i read the hq manga before s4 came out so when it was airing i didn’t even watch it except for the episodes kita and suna had big parts in 😭 reading the manga def makes u lazy to watch the show

omg when i read manga i do single page zoomed out and then i can read the entire page by looking at it and then i keep one finger on the arrow key to click to the next page i have the technique down 😎 (PLSASE THAT SOUNDED SO LAME FLSKFM)

the ons manga is like on a whole different page than the anime 😭 i’m not too caught up but everything is so complicated now there’s like a bunch of new ppl and new demons and techniques and a bunch of like biblical allusions (that i do not understand bc ive never read the bible) i rewatched it and was like wow the good old days when this show was simple 🙂 but i wish they would animate s3 i want mika in color again 😩🤞🏼

#OMG THESE ARE GETTING SO LONG IM SORRY #i wasn’t that mad getting the sword bc i have diluc but he’s level 1 😭 but i think he’s handsome so he deserves his signature weapon #i remember boarding all my primos for zhongli bc i was still f2p and almost cried when i got him 😭#it sounds like i’m flexing i’m sorry i truly am not 🙏🏼#i think i just get lucky like i’ve never gotten an off banner 5 star for my pity 😎#MAYBE ONS REVIVAL 🤞🏼🤞🏼 i remember it blowing up on tiktok for g-🤢🤢gur-🤢guren #I FEEL LIKE IM SO NEGATIVE HERE 😭 i just finished calling tsukki ugly 😭😭 but i really am a hater #a #lia 🌱

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solienna · 7 years

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//BARGES INTO YOUR ROOM, THE VIDEO GAME ASK!!!! I name, Mass Effect (any of them), Dragon Age (any of them), Fallout 4, Portal, Legend of Zelda Wind Waker, Paper Mario The Thousand Year Door, Assassin's Creed 2, Phoenix Wright Ace Attorney, and Harvest Moon DS!!! (and yes, i did just hit you with all of my fave games why do you ask) (okay not all of them, i didnt mention folklore but it's obscure so i doubt you've even heard of it) also, also bc you make jokes about it all the time, Skyrim

thank u meander im crying very much ur the best, under a read more bc video games are my lifeblood

ok so as u know i beat mass effect 1 like. three days ago and all i have to say is AJDHGASDG!! DEFINITELY A FAVORITE!! WHERE HAS THIS GAME BEEN ALL MY LIFE!!! WHY DID I HESITATE FOR SO LONG BEFORE PLAYING IT!!! I WAS MISSING OUT ON SO MUCH I LOVE IT!! ALL THIS LORE AND THESE STRONG DIVERSE CHARACTERS!!! WTF THE FUCK!!!

rn i am in the process of playing me2 (im like 20 hrs in but i’ve done like nothing bc i am a completionist gamer and spend all my times stripping planets bare of their resources before leaving forever, and also just walking around everywhere looking at shit and messing around with my crew and avoiding the main questline) and oh my gosh!!!! also definitely a favorite im so in love with this game!!! its heartbreaking and genuinely funny and ridiculous and DID I MENTION THE COMBAT SYSTEM I LOVE IT. also any games that give u the option to dance are 10/10 in my book. also when garrus laughed once i died.

in summary mass effect is a great found family simulator. however there’s this really persistent bug where ppl keep talking to me about these reapers and their followers the goths geths, its kinda distracting me from the main purpose of the game, which is to gather up as many ragtag sad friends as u can. hopefully theyll remove all that other stuff in the next patch

dragon age origins is definitely one of my favorite games ever of all time, i BELIEVE it was my first bioware game and oh my GOD it was so good. the lore. the LORE. the CHARACTERS. the DRAMA the SCANDAL. it was so good i wanna cry. i was taken aback by how real all the companions were and how u could actually talk to them…. wild

dragon age 2 is no match for origins in my book but i still enjoyed it a lot, gotta give that one a good, the combat was definitely a lot simpler and a lot more fun and look. im a typical gamer i love a good fight, i love spamming buttons and having shit work out somehow. also a good cast!

i played like 150 hours of da:i with just one inquisitor and yet i have no memories of this game. i remember nothing, i know cole was there and i was real shook bc i read the dragon age books (i was super into dragon age like?? two years ago i think) and then varric was there and also i fought a lot of dragons. dorian carried us. my dream team was me, blackwall, varric, and dorian we had a lot of fun. alistair died. ummm i spent a lot of time standing in the tavern listen to the lady with the nice voice sing. gotta give this game a solid good, i don’t remember anything abt this game but i sure had a lot of fun playing it, whatever it was

fallout 4

ok so i have like 300+ hrs into this game bc i keep starting over with new sole survivors and all of them are named washington. i still havent beaten this game. if u had asked me what my opinion of this game was like six months ago i wouldve been like this is a favorite for sure but now its like…. eh…. i play it for an hour every once in a while but it’s honestly started to bore me a little… like don’t get me wrong i very much enjoyed this game!!! (i wouldnt have 300+ hrs invested into it if i didn’t like it) but the game doesnt really have much replayability to me… sorry todd. thanks for preston and deacon and nick i love them a lot but other than that this game doesn’t really pull me in like it used to

OK LOOK. i do own this game and also portal 2. and i do want to play them. im just lazy. EVENTUALLY ONE DAY i will get around to playing this game, it looks like a ton of fun, even tho im not too big into puzzle solving. fair warning my list of games i want to play is like a mile long bc i just keep replaying the games i have LMAO

legend of zelda wind waker/paper mario the thousand year door/phoenix wright ace attorney/harvest moon DS

ok i am lumping all of these together bc 1) i’ve never played them and 2) i don’t have much of an interest in playing them unfortunately, unless someone persuaded me to try them out i wouldnt really spend time on them, im too busy replaying games ive already played 1000 times

assassins’ creed 2

OK I WILL ADMIT IT. i am a liar and a fraud. the only AC games i’ve ever played are black flag, rogue, and syndicate. no i don’t have a clue what’s going on in the real world with the animus or w/e and yes i had lot of fun with the parkour mechanics and killing ppl in impossible ways. AC1 and 2 and whatever games come after it are other games that are on my ever-growing list of games i want to play, i started AC1 like two years ago but then totally forgot about it BUT YES. I DO WANT TO PLAY THIS GAME. EVENTUALLY

skyrim

i have never heard of this game in my life i’m not really sure what you’re talking about- *trips* *thousands of hours spent playing this game spill from pockets* fuck those aren’t mine i swear i’m just holding them for a friend i- *slips on a pile of my skyrim OCs* fu ck no they’re not mine i’ve never heard of this game i just- *216387213 unfinished skyrim fanfics fall out as i fall to my knees, desperately trying to pick them up* hang on a sec jUst LISTEN

#ask #meander #about

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