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catgirl hrt.. meowstrogen redux

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It may be kind of rude to feel this way, and I'm sure some ppl on here would tell me there are cons to the experience, but... sometimes I feel jealous that I don't experience phantom limbs like a lot of other therians do. It's never come naturally and I've never been able to trigger them. I'm not sure *why* I wish I had them, just that I do. I know it doesn't make me less of a therian, but maybe I think I would *feel* more Animal and affirmed in my species if I had them. It also just... seems like the feeling would be interesting? Maybe it's just FOMO.

#therian #therianthropy #otherkin #otherkind

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Those with severe size differences to humanity (think, a sperm whale or a mouse to use two Earthen animal examples), what's it like to be a truly colossal or tiny thing in a human-sized body? How does it affect your perception? Does it affect shifts or phantom sensations in any way? Do you just see yourself as a very large or very small example of the species? Does your body ever "forget" it's at a human scale at times? Do you experience a more appropriately sized phantom body? Do you do anything in this area to help yourself feel more in line with your true nature?

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Therian species dysphoria culture is knowing you never ever will be an animal in this life. No matter how much you cry, bleed, scream, rip your body parts off...You will NEVER be an animal, the chances of you being one in the next life is so slim that you can't even say for sure. And maybe the world will end by then, and you won't have the chance to live the life you wanted, the life you craved for so long. You won't really have those limbs you wanted, the freedom you wished. And you just cry...knowing it won't help at all. You stare at the stars, maybe even the sun at dawn. You look back down at your human feet, asking yourself if it's true...if it's true you're just a helpless small human. You envy your own skin, you're jealous of those animals living life so differently than you, not having to be under control of government, not having to feel such complex emotions, not having to buy stuff with money that's so difficult to earn. You cup your hands and place them on your face, crying, knowing it won't help.at all.

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Not that it has anything to do with sexuality, but I think that having the same mindset for nonhumanity and multiple identities and how it is with bisexuality is good. You can be 90% attracted to women and 10% to men, and you’re still bisexual. It can be 50/50. 30/70. Even 99/1, and you’re still bisexual. So just because I’m feeling an identity 5% of the time, doesn’t mean that it’s not an identity.

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How I Experience Being Musickin

Aside from being a dragon i also identify as musickin. that means i non-physically identify as spesific songs or genres, i feel as though i am that or an embodiment of that spesific song.

what kind of music related shifts do i experience?:

i experience some kind of aura shifts where my aura kind of becomes synced with the music that is playing of spesific genres. infact it triggers my senses and i can see colors and i'd like to imagine my aura vibrating to the sound. so i would say they are some kind of sensory shift - "a shift where one experiences heightened or altered senses that they feel resemble the senses of their kintype" but mixed with a an envisage shift

its difficult to put into exact words or even a drawing. or images. i cant? its more of a mental feeling then anything. phantom shifts? yes i experience those too. though of music related shifts rarely. when i do they are usually of music gear objects such as speakers

being a bass player & beginner music producer opend up so many doors for how i perceive music & sound. at first it was just a connection i had with it, i liked it i liked the sense of familairity but soon i discoverd it is actually a part of me instead of just something i connect with!. it took me sometime and still does to accept that im also musickin. i find it difficult to piece together how it works having mulitple kintypes. but i just cannot deny this aspect of me. it is something i find....well..rather difficult to talk about.

- 21-04-2024

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I feel like now is a good time to remind everyone that...

Nonhuman is an umbrella term, but it is also a standalone label.

You do not need to also be otherkin, otherlinker, otherhearted, therian, fictionkin, alterhuman (which itself may be 100% human and nothing else) or anything else to call yourself nonhuman. You can, if you want to, just use it by itself. No qualifiers, no further explanation required, no definition beyond 'not exclusively human in some way.'

You don't need to identify physically as not-human. Plenty of nonhumans do, and plenty more don't.

You don't need to identify entirely as not-human. There are lots of nonhumans that are also human, plus whatever else they are. There are similarly nonhumans who are in no way human. The term encompasses both without contradiction.

You do not need to specify any amount of voluntary/involuntary adoption of your identity. You can in fact choose to just be nonhuman because you want to do that, or you can come to it after a long time searching and conclude it's the only explanation, or you can fall anywhere in between.

You do not need to be any specific thing other than some degree of not-human. You can be an animal, plant, object, concept, song, creature, shapeshifter, character, device, AI, color, emotion, or anything else that exists or doesn't, or any kind of mixture of those things.

You do not need any specific reason to call yourself nonhuman. It can be a psychological thing, a spiritual thing, a physical thing, a coping thing, a reclamation thing, even just a 'because it's fun and makes you happy' thing.

You do not need anybody's permission or approval to be nonhuman. There are no gatekeepers who have any say over what a nonhuman is or is not, aside from the definition of the word itself, which is incredibly broad and open to interpretation. This is by design. Anybody who tries to stop you has no right to do so.

Please don't forget that when defining 'nonhuman.' It is not just a big tarp to be thrown over other labels. It is also its own full identity with its own merits and concepts, even if it is a very broad and inclusive identity.

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Why the fuck are we creating subtypes of 'therian'? tiktok therian? Tumblr therian? lets just vibe together and not form fucking cliques this isnt a high school musical.

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just had a very profound moment of being nonhuman

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#wolf #art

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* Hate will be removed. This is for all plurals 👥

#plurality #thank you we especially needed that first one #if “system doubt OCD” is a thing then we've definitely got it

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you ever have mutuals who are way cooler than you so you perpetually feel like a little kid who’s somehow gotten in the good graces of a really cool teenager and you want to talk to them whenever you can but youre still kind of terrified of them

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Recently I've been talking a bit about how my last psychotic episode had a massive effect on my identity and self image.

I often use Picrew to show how I see myself moreso than how I really look - they're essentially self portaits. I noticed a pattern today when looking through old ones, and decided to compile some for this post. The first image is a compilation I made a couple years ago; the second I made today using pics from a few months ago (during psychosis); the third shows a Picrew maker that I coincidentally used two separate times, once before the episode and once during.

My self image now looks very much like the "before" pics. Now that I'm both out of the episode and medicated I have essentially reverted to who I was before (with slight differences, plus some trauma from the episode itself). This is not meant to represent what psychosis "is" - psychotic people aren't dark or evil, but I thought I was and everything felt so frightening in the moment.

#I'm tagging minimally in the hopes that it will be seen by my followers and not be taken out of context by random people #that said you can reblog if you want #if it breaches containment I'll live with that but it probably wont #for alterhumans who didnt see my prev post about this: #I developed vampire and monster 'types during this episode #endelity or something like that #those identities faded away when the episode did #semi-intrusive thoughts about graphic violence haunted me during this episode #and it made me believe I was evil and corrupted #anyway I'm okay now #i mean okay is relative but #I'm not in active psychosis at least :) #tags for organizational purposes: #blue speaks #blue's psychotic episodeTM

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A bat.

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I'm definitely human and not a dog in disguise

#me

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Musings on Psychosis

I realize now that my vampire 'type was a product of a psychotic episode that lasted throughout 2023. That episode has ended and it's been strange having certain perspectives of myself wrenched away from me. For around a year I was, perhaps, an endel in the immediate sense, but I wouldn't venture to call myself that now. It's hard for me to define now what vampires are to me. My general fascination with them is still there, and I remember the identity, shifts, and species dysphoria I experienced acutely, but that sense of self is distant now. I'm torn on whether I consider "vampire" to be a part of myself now - I know I certainly don't with the same intensity that I felt in psychosis. For a year I identified myself with monsters, werewolves, villains, and various morbid topics, and coming out of that was a harsh experience. In some ways I am no longer the person I was prior to the episode, or the person (monster/beast) I was during. All the changes psychosis has put me through have been unsettling - having it warp and change my identity on a confusingly temporary basis has been chaotic and deeply overwhelming.

I see a lot of endels and other psychotic folk on here with presumably permanent identities and sometimes I wonder whether anyone else has had experiences like mine. Especially those with episodic conditions like my schizophrenia/schizoaffective, where severity of psychosis changes over time and there may be periods of remission. I'm medicated, now, but I don't know for sure that this will never happen again. That I will never "become" a vampire again, or become some other species my psychotic brain decides to latch on to. My identity is fluid, and only after years of confusion have I realized that this fluidity is the product of a schizo-spectrum disorder. Maybe next time my identity has a total overhaul I'll recognize it as a psychotic episode - or maybe I'll be in too deep to realize, again.

#endelity #endel #i dont know why im posting this #it feels scattered at best #guess i figured it would be nice to update about like...the biggest thing to happen in my life in the past year #this is SUPPOSED to be my designated alterhuman blog but i so rarely post content on here these days #too little spoons... #using the endel tag in hopes of finding community i guess #i do feel very alone in this #blue speaks #blue's psychotic episodeTM