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thunderjackphotography · 3 months

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Ah yes. This post is about my cat. Ruby.

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thunderjackphotography · 3 months

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Ah yes. This post is about my cat. Ruby.

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thunderjackphotography · 8 months

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AND NOW FOR SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT...

Sorry, this is not a Monty Python's Flying Circus-related post, much as I would like to do one.

This is actually the hardest post I've ever had to write, because I'm asking for help.

I don't want to regale you with a sob story, but I suppose some background is necessary.

I have been unemployed for the last three years, having been fired at the height of the pandemic. Not for any violence or malfeasance on my part, but still justified.

Understandably, that made my depression, PTSD, and other mental health issues (undiagnosed and untreated at the time, and the root cause for the behavior that got me fired) extremely worse. My already nonexistent self esteem plunged into the negative numbers.

(And just to be clear: I am not a danger to myself or others. It's just near impossible for me to keep my mouth shut when I get triggered. The technical term for it is Intermittent Explosive Disorder.)

I've been living off savings since then, trying to get a job and work on my mental health, with no success. But it's a vicious circle: I can't afford medical insurance because other bills have to be paid, so I can't get treatment for my mental health issues, but without getting them addressed I'm afraid if/when I get a job the same thing that got me fired will happen again.

Now the savings are gone. And I've sold off almost everything I can to try to cover bills, but that soon won't be an option for me.

So here is where the request for help comes, and I apologize for that.

I have started an Etsy shop to try to make some money to keep me afloat until I can get employment and, hopefully, medical insurance. I can't afford to pay to advertise the shop, but everyone says promote the shop on social media.

Well, Tumblr is the only social media I use, so here I am!

Below are just some samples of what I've got in my shop, NuadaSama. Please visit at https://www.etsy.com/shop/NuadaSama and look around.

I hope you might find something in my shop that interests you, or know someone who might like one of my items. Every item has free shipping, and I add new ones every day.

I apologize for interrupting your day with my sob story. Thank you for your time.

That name again is Mister Plow NuadaSama: https://www.etsy.com/shop/NuadaSama

And let me know what you think. Constructive criticism is always welcome, and I could use all the help I can get.

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thunderjackphotography · 11 months

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I miss you. I wish you were here. I miss Ma. This was the last shot that she asked me to do before she died.

She says "take a picture with dolphins in it" and I said "I don't have any dolphins"

She replies in classic fashion "Well that's your problem I want dolphins"

So I got some dolphins. I was torn between doing a version with just mothra or mothra with baby mothra. But everyone has agreed that I should do the one with both. I'm still working on the edit. This is just some behind the scenes. I wish you were here. I wish we could talk. I wish I didn't have the feel so God damned alone all the time. None of this feels real. But just like mothra every ending is just a new beginning. Home is home if you want it to be. You can always change into something new and still come back.

Anyway which version do you prefer the profile shot or the angled shot Let me know in the comments

#Mothra #Godzilla #TalesFromTheShatterhome #ToyPhotography #FigurePhotography

#tales from the shatterhome #godzilla #mothra #my photography

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thunderjackphotography · 11 months

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"At What Cost"

Tried to do an #ACBA #articulatedcomicbookart shot for the first time in a while.

Inspired by one of my favorite #mash quotes

Hawkeye : War isn't Hell. War is war, and Hell is Hell. And of the two, war is a lot worse.

Father Mulcahy : How do you figure, Hawkeye?

Hawkeye : Easy, Father. Tell me, who goes to Hell?

Father Mulcahy : Sinners, I believe.

Hawkeye : Exactly. There are no innocent bystanders in Hell. War is chock full of them - little kids, cripples, old ladies. In fact, except for some of the brass, almost everybody involved is an innocent bystander

Every time I watch a Gundam show once I'm done being enamored with giant robots doing cool shit I'm reminded that it's a strong message about war and growing up too fast. Most of the pilots end up being kids having the world thrust upon them too young. It's a lot to think about.

#MobileSuitGundam #Gundam #Bandai #TalesFromTheShatterhome #ToyPhotography #FigurePhotography #TmToypics

#tales from the shatterhome #gundam #mobile suit gundam #photography

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thunderjackphotography · 11 months

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I may want you to be here with me again and I may want you to want to do this with me but I don't need you. I didn't need you before, and I don't need you now. I want to be with you. But not as you are. Not as things are now. There's healing and apologies and work that would have to go into this. Anytime it came to working on the relationship I was the one who stepped up I was the one who put in an effort but when I asked for the same it was not returned in kind. But Tokyo gets rebuilt over and over doesn't it? Your words destroyed my planet. But I rebuild, I regrow, I heal. I improve and change. What have you changed into I wonder. My brother has reminded me that I'm a good person I can't believe I let you convince the otherwise.

One good thing that came from all of this is that Josh made the trip up. Set the basement for a bit, did some photography. It was a good reminder that while shatterhome has always been accentuated by the people I chose to share it with it has always been uniquely my thing. It's always been a labor of love. And while my biggest partner may have left I realize now that I don't need anyone else to do this. I can do this on my own. I may want to share this with people in the future and I very well may. Of course the person I always want to share this with the most I may never get to share it with them again. But that's their choice. But I will continue to do my best. I will continue to make a home out of all of this. The family is those we choose to be with. Others have made their choices. And I finally feel safe enough to make mine.

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thunderjackphotography · 11 months

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