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vodka-redbull-daily · 4 months

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December 8th, 2023

J----- was texting me around 1:30 tonight and also sending me a bunch of Snapchat in a row, obviously very desperately trying to get my attention. He asked me what I was up and what I was doing. I asked him what he was up to, and told him that I just finished eating dinner. J----- is the one that used to text me about how badly he wanted to come to my work while I was on break about how he would come just to have a five minute blow job and pay me $200 To do that, and then I could just go straight back to work. He was texting me that he wanted to meet me tonight. sent me some videos of him stroking his dick. he's the first one that had ever done that to me. So I wasn't really that surprised when I got them. I told him I really wasn't feeling well since one of the people I've been training at work got pretty sick and I think I caught something from him. I told him I really wasn't looking to drive anywhere.

I really didn't want to go out but I pretended like the videos of him masturbating enticed me. I don't know, maybe they did a little bit. It's kind of hard to tell. Being utterly horny constantly makes it a little bit difficult. Anyway I decided I might as well go out even though I'm not feeling the best and I kind of just wanted to work on my other stuff. I haven't really gotten the chance to work on anything creative in a while because I've been out doing other stuff. I made a joke about how I really wouldn't want to go anywhere if it was just going to be a five minute blow job and he said that it was definitely going to be more than that. We agreed on the price of 350. I told him that that's generally what I get paid and then if he wanted to do something like anal or something a little bit more, it would be 400 and above.

He texted me an address and I told him it was going to be 30 minutes until I could get there because that's how it usually works. I'm about 30 minutes outside of Austin. So all these Austin boys have to be a little bit patient. And these Austin boys hate being patient. They always act personally offended when I tell them it's gonna take me half an hour or more to get to them, but they sure as hell don't want to be the ones that drive all the way out to me. He couldn't host since he has roommates and I can't either since I have roommates, so he decided that we could fuck in my car because his car was too small. You can probably tell, like I could, at this point that he's a pretty selfish guy. And I was gonna have to give up a lot of my personal stuff in order to satisfy him.

He was also one of those guys that thinks his dick is god's greatest gift and that just seeing him masturbate alone would be the only thing that I needed to be convinced to come to him. When he heard that it was going to be at least a 30 minute drive from me, he seemed a little bit annoyed. Talking about how much he couldn't wait about how he was too horny to wait that long. I asked him if he wanted to call it off because sometimes people do if they think they have to wait that long. He said no that he still wanted me to come so I set out. I brought some towels in the car with me and a condom in my wallet since J--- had given me so many extra and I didn't want to be caught up with one of those guys that's like “oh, I didn't bring a condom guess you’ll just have to deal with me cumming in you”.

so I started driving into Austin and about halfway there he sent me another text asking me if I was actually coming or not. I assured him I was and that I was only 15 minutes away. The address he gave me took me to the very back of an apartment complex. So when I got there I parked and asked him if this was the right spot. I didn't hear anything for a few minutes. So I sent him another text asking him where he wanted me to park. I didn't hear anything for another few minutes and then I started to realize that this was gonna be another one of those times where I got stood up. what's the fucking point of having me drive an hour in total just for you to chicken at the last second?

I waited about 10 minutes before I sent him a text telling him I was going home and then left. I got stuck at a train crossing for like a good 10 minutes. So I sent him one last text with my cash app telling him that he should probably repay me for the gas and utter disappointment that I had experienced but I don't think he's going to this is the second disappointment of today. Or I guess technically yesterday, I was supposed to meet up with somebody also we had planned the location and I texted him to ask him for the time that night at work. And I set my alarm for the approximate time that he said that he would be off of work in the morning. He said that his meetings ended at 11 and he'd be free after that. So I set my alarm for 10: 30 Just to see if he had texted me. He hadn't so I went ahead and went back to sleep. I'm at least getting better at judging the people who are gonna either ghost me or cancel last minute.

Later on in the day after I'd already gotten to work he sent me a text saying that something had come up and he couldn't get back to me and something about how his sleep was important. And so his sleep schedule had gotten messed up and that's why he wasn't able to meet me. He wants to reschedule for some time next week, but hasn't picked a day yet. I always try to keep Monday blocked off for A--- and Wednesday have an eye doctor's appointment. I am thinking of calling out of work today just because I'm not feeling well. But at the same time they're getting a little bit stricter about attendance at work and I kind of don't want to push it anymore. I don't necessarily have the best attendance, but my supervisor has been letting me slip by since I get sick pretty often and he knows that I've been going through a really bad breakup and it's been affecting me pretty badly mentally.

I didn't mean to tell him that he kind of warmed it out of me. He's been giving me some leeway and he also knows that I have the worst periods ever. So I usually have a pretty good excuse to be out but it is honestly out a little bit too often for both his and my liking. So even though I probably should call out tomorrow because I'm sick, I kind of don't want to because I feel like this might be the time that my attendance problems finally catch up with me.

Although if I call out tomorrow I can meet C---- I think his name is in the same parking lot that I fucked B------ in. he doesn't pay as much as this guy wanted to tonight, but that's life I guess. D---- is a possible Thursday and B------ wanted to schedule something for the week after next week. C---- from Snapchat wanted to schedule something for tomorrow or Sunday. He sent me a text saying why I never gave him the booty call when I thought he was gonna booty call me. He only wants to pay 150 but he's actually funny. So I kind of like him. He's another one where neither of us can host. We'll see where that one goes. If I call it a work, I can go see C--- at least but I kind of get in a bad mood after I have one of these cancellations. I really don't want to see anybody else for a while.

I do my best not to count my chickens before they hatch and I definitely don't put a lot of stake into the amount that they offer. But it is incredibly annoying. Annoying to have that $350 dangling in front of my face, just for them to chicken out last minute. And it’s never even my fault. It's literally themselves either falling asleep or getting in their own head or deciding that their fantasy is more important than actually getting their dick wet.

It's whatever, I guess. It was particularly annoying to do this drive because I had to pass where J---- worked. The drive was almost exactly the same drive to get to J----'s apartment. I don't know why J---- has been on my mind so much lately. You would think with all these other dicks that I would be able to forget his more easily. But maybe it's because of the person that's attached to the dick.

Well, I guess I am a romantic, afterall.

Total Earned: $5,720

Body Count: 18

Dick Pics: 22

Videos: 4

Nudes sent: 4

Head Recieved: 3

Head Given: 15

Sex Ranking:

B------

Him

T-----

W----

P-----

F----

G---

A---

G--

R--

J---

T-------

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

J----

A----

M---

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vodka-redbull-daily · 4 months

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December 5th, 2023 (Part 2)

*Graphic Sexual Content*

Today I met with J--- at the hotel that I had rented out a week or so ago. I got some breakfast after leaving W----'s because even though I left pretty early in the morning, it was still a little bit too early to actually get to the hotel. I had called ahead to ask if I could check in early since they're checking it's usually at 3pm and on the phone they told me that they could let me in at 11 like planned. Originally, I had scheduled an eye doctor's appointment but I hadn't been planning on staying over at W----'s house, and I didn't sleep too well. In between Archer making your messes everything and chewing on things and W----s incredibly loud snoring (it was so loud I originally thought he was asleep on the couch right next to the front door when I walked in), I canceled my appointment and just moved it to a different day since there was no way I was gonna get there on time. There was plenty of time to do the appointment and then get the hotel, just not enough to actually do the appointment itself. Once I got to the hotel, it was about 10 am and I went to go see if I could check in.

I got to the front desk and told them my reservation details and asked to check in. They told me that check in wasn't until three and I told them that I had gotten basically prior approval on the phone. Apparently, the room they had given to me wasn't actually clean yet, since it was so early in the morning and they just moved me to a different room. They have basically upgraded me from a queen to a king, but that means it costs more money. That's all right. Since J--- had actually paid a little bit more than I'd asked him to do in the first place.

I got to the hotel room and J--- texted me to let me know that he was gonna take a shower when he got here because the plumbing in the place he was at wasn't working correctly. He also told me he was gonna stop at a sex shop and asked if I wanted anything. I said no except for the fact that I've been trying to find some lube, but that was more for me than him, so I wasn't planning on having him get it from me. He did anyway and also he said the lady at the front counter gave him a bunch of free condoms and when he showed me the bag it definitely was a bunch. There's a lot in there like two handfuls. He also brought some red bull and vodka; however, this hotel didn’t have any cups. So we were just taking turns, taking a sip of vodka out of the bottle and chasing out with the Red Bull. Honestly not that great. Zero out of 10. Do not recommend.

He also bought himself a stimulant. I know they're called poppers, but I know that's a slang term and that's actually not the legal name and I know that it's technically illegal if you call them that. At least that's what I've heard from the online videos and articles from the BDSM community/gay community.

He kept saying how awkward it was and how weird he felt. And honestly, I didn't feel that weird. I just felt really tired and not really at all in the mood. B------ had told me to walk in the room and act like I'm six foot four to really own the space but I was just really tired and he was being really weird about it. He kept saying that he thought it was a sting operation and that the cops are going to come get him any second. A little bit dramatic if you ask me.

I tried to be all dominant, like when we were making out and stuff I tried directing him to take off his clothes, tried to be very direct and to the point without being pushy about it. It was weird, because I couldn't tell if he was enjoying it or not. He said he wanted somebody to be dominant like that. He started snorting the stuff and honestly it smelled like ass. Even after he's already left it still smells pretty bad.

After he managed to take our clothes off, I tried to be dominant and tried to direct him to eat me out. He told me that something he wanted me to do anyway. I had him kneel on the side of the bed and I scooted over to the edge where he ate me. I normally don't like to cum while somebody's eating me since it's so messy, but that seems to be a turn-on for him and also P--- So I tried to be sexy, asking him if he wanted to eat it and he said yes. So I came in his mouth.

I guess he likes it but I guess I also never know. I think we did that like two or three times before he crawled on the bed and lay next to me and started fingering me very aggressively. It felt good. Some of the best fingering I've had in a while. The problem that came so hard that I actually ended up shitting myself. That happens every now and then especially if I eat something that doesn't sit too well with my stomach. He didn't say anything about it. I asked him if he wanted to have me ride his dick and he said yes. So he laid back on the pillows and we started playing with a dick trying to get it hard.

I was kissing and biting in between his legs running my fingernails up and down his thighs squeezing and licking his balls. nothing was really working but he kept asking me to be rougher with his balls and just to straight up slap them. I guess he was in to ball torture. we did this for a little bit, I would squeeze his balls tight and then put them on my mouth and stuck on them. Even using a little bit of teeth. He really liked this like his whole body was shaking with pleasure and I really thought he was going to cum. after a little bit of running my hands up and down his thighs, it seemed like he was really interested in me touching his asshole. So I went ahead and asked him to give me the lube that he had gotten. I opened it and I lubed my fingers before sticking them in his ass. He did in fact really enjoy this and we even go all the way up to two fingers.

He didn't cum from this though and actually ended up going soft again. I cleaned up a little bit and washed my hands and he asked to just relax for a minute. So we cuddled there for a second and he kept saying how awkward it was and that's why he couldn't get hard. After a little bit of making out, he pushed my hand down to his cock. I don't know what it is about guys wanting me to basically just jerk them off, but he very quickly got hard again and then was on the edge almost cuming just from that alone. He then asked me to sit on his face. I did and held onto the headboard as he ate me.

it wasn't really that pleasurable. It's hard to get an angle that works like that, but he was the one who had asked. So while he did that, and I was gripping his hair because I had noticed that he liked that earlier. he kept making all these weird noises and I thought he might be suffocating so I tried to give him space. But I don't really know if it worked or not. After we were finished I did tell him that if we ever do it again I would like him to tap on my thigh to give me some kind of indication if I was suffocating him. He did eventually cum from aggressively masturbating as he ate me, so I got off him and we laid there and talked for a little bit. I was kind of hoping he didn't want to go for round two.

Even though we hadn't actually been here that long. I'm kind of tired and I definitely don't feel like being dominant right now. He talked for a little bit, cleaned himself up and then left. He left behind the bulk of the red bulls, the vodka, and the Condoms. I guess those are for me now. He paid forever ago since I had to get the hotel so no actual adding to the statistics today. Besides adding to my body count, that is.

Total Earned: $5,720

Body Count: 18

Dick Pics: 22

Videos: 2

Nudes sent: 4

Head Recieved: 3

Head Given: 15

Sex Ranking:

B-------

Him

T----

W----

P------

F----

G---

A---

G--

R--

J---

T------

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

J-----

A----

M---

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vodka-redbull-daily · 4 months

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December 5th, 2023 (Part 1)

*Graphic Sexual Content*

C---- and I started texting yesterday on SB. he was very needy and extremely aggressive over text on SB, so I was a little bit worried from the beginning. The main reason I was willing to risk it was that he wanted to see me three to four times a week and was willing to pay 600 for that. He was also willing to see me at like one or two in the morning right as I got off work, which really worked well for other things I wanted to do.

The clinginess was incredibly apparent from the beginning. I was messaging him back and forth that day and after I went to sleep, I woke up with about 15 messages from him back to back to back. And one of them was his phone number, so I decided to text him. The funny thing about him is though he seemed to be kind of younger than the general population on that site, his grammar over text was pretty terrible. There were certain sentences and even some paragraphs that were just impossible to read because of all the typos.

The more I talked to him the worse feeling I got. He was one of those people that gave off “I'm a dom and that means I get to beat you” kind of vibes. He would send a long ass paragraph all about how he wanted to cut all my clothes off me, how he wanted to slap me, how once I had his cock in my mouth, I wasn't allowed to take it out (as if that's not physically impossible), how I wasn't allowed to get up how I had to stay kneeling. How he wanted to make me cry. And this was after I'd already told him that I'm not a fan of degradation and I really don't like being hit that hard. I asked him if these things were up for discussion and he said yes, so I thought it would be okay. He was also one of those people who was like, “you can't sleep with anybody else besides me” which is the stupidest thing in the world.

he also had this big thing about making sure I was clean, not like STD wise, but saying that he wanted me to come there so that I could shower and he could wash me. He also had this thing where he wanted to pee on me and inside me and follow that up with we can take a shower afterwards as if that made that any better even. though in the yes no maybe list he even asked for I had specifically listed that as a hard No. He told me his biggest turnoff was the word no. Which made me pissed off. Guess what? My biggest turnoff is you doing things that make me want to say the word no.

After that message, I was honestly kind of not feeling it, but we had already decided to meet up that night and I had already paid for the Uber to get there since my car had been in the shop for a while. Actually, W---- had texted me that the car was actually done and then I could come pick it up from the shop right as I got off work. I had already booked Ubers there and I had already booked one back because he made it sound like he wanted to be there for a long time.

I went home and got changed really quickly. Since the Uber was there early and waiting for me, and then I hopped in and we went to his place. He had warned me that he was really into Christmas and there were a lot of Christmas decorations all over the place, but I really wasn't expecting it to be as crazy as it was. The entrance hallway was completely blocked off by Christmas trees. The entire house was pretty creepy.

I don't know if he was a painter or what but almost every single wall and even hanging from the ceilings or stuck in light fixtures awkwardly, were these huge canvases covered in some kind of weird abstract paintings. a lot of them had eye imagery, but I really couldn't tell what any of them were supposed to be. There were also just random chunks of carpet stuck all over the floor. And his bed had no sheets on it, but was clearly meant to be hanging from the ceiling since there were these pegs sticking out of each corner with metal hooks in them. The entire vibe of the place was not great right as I got there, he told me he needed to take a shower so he left me alone to take a shower.

He transformed the closet into what looked like a small office space and it was pretty clear that he was a weirdo. There was a gun replica (I'm hoping) just kind of sitting there on the shelf. The entire house was in tatters, especially the closet as if he was trying to build it up from the ground. There were sex toys laying on the table. It was definitely weird. I took a picture of the closet and sent it to D---- along with the address. Just in case. He got out of the shower and we talked for about five seconds about how he didn't like the way I looked, how it didn't look like I was kinky enough, how it was impossible for anybody to get him off, and how it took some of the most wild shit imaginable in order to actually get them hard. That's not a good thing. In fact, I found that very concerning. It kind of gave me silly serial killer vibes.

Because why on earth do you need to physically abuse somebody in order to get hard? Why do you have to see somebody in pain in order to actually enjoy yourself? Anyway, He decided that he didn't like me enough, so he told me to go ahead and get an Uber and leave, which I was honestly fine with. The thing is, he had promised that he would pay me at least 200 No matter what happened. And so as I was ordering an Uber he made a big stink about how he didn't actually want to pay that since nothing happened. And he kept asking me “Do you think that's fair? Do you really think that's fair? Come on. We didn't even do anything and you expect me to pay that” and I answered him.

I told him that since he had already offered a payment of 200, It was kind of a jerk move to then not do that. He was arguing back and forth about whether or not he should actually pay me the money. He finally said, “Well if I'm gonna pay that I might as well see you naked.” So I went ahead and stripped down in front of him. Right as my Uber got confirmed. Of course, since he's a man and can't fucking control himself or act like a normal human being, He decided that now I was suddenly sexy enough for him. He went on about my body, about how much he liked it, and then pulled out a chair and told me to sit there and touch myself.

Fine whatever.

I really was trying to leave, especially since W---- had just texted me saying that he wanted me to be in bed next to him. But it was whatever. I am kinky no matter how much he kept trying to say that I wasn't because I didn't look kinky enough to him. but as soon as I got my clothes off oh now it was suddenly his type. Now I was suddenly a good enough person to fuck.

I was in the chair messing with myself and he asked me if I wanted a vibrator. I said sure. So he ran off to the bedroom to go get one. It was a teeny, tiny little orange one that was so weak and honestly didn't do jack shit. I wouldn't be surprised if it wasn't actually a vibrator just a little thing he has that he wanted me to put on my clit so he could do something gross with it later. He asked me for strong enough and I said sure. He disappeared again and I texted W----saying that when I went to go pick up the car I might stop by his place but I wasn't sure yet. C---- came back with something that looked like one of those muscle relaxer guns. This one was way too powerful, but I put it on the lowest setting and started playing with myself anyway. He sat down in front of me with his hand on his pants, but he clearly wasn't hard and he wasn't jerking off.

I guess this wasn't extreme enough for him or whatever. All of a sudden he got up again and walked to the bedroom. He came back with the biggest dildo I've ever seen. It was very wide, I would say about eight inches diameter and over a foot and a half long. I could barely fit B------- inside me and he expected me to use this? he sat back down in his chair and pull out some lube and started lubing up his hands. He said something about how he saw that fisting was an absolute no on my yes/no/maybe list and kept asking me why. he told me that it was something we would have to work on, that that was something he wanted to do, so therefore I was going to have to be comfortable with that. I think he either doesn't know what a yes/no/maybe list is or can go suck a dick because he's just an asshole.

Anyway, he started lubing up the dildo.

“Oh, we can put this in” He had made that decision for me, I guess.

“No, you can't, that's way too big.”

“No, I bet you can take it.”

So he lubed it up and tried to stick it in and obviously it didn't work. He couldn't even get past the smallest part of the tip before I told him to stop. When he did and started talking about how creamy I was inside, saying that he thought it was somebody else's cum and kept was asking me if I had had sex that day. I told him that I hadn’t so he started asking me if I had masterbated at all. And I said no to that too. He looked really annoyed, clearly making snide comments to hint that he thought I was lying, and told me to call an Uber. The vibrator had died at that point and I was honestly very happy to call an Uber.

It was a little bit annoying because I kept having to call and cancel them because it kept changing his mind. But I was ready to be gone. I guess because I couldn't take one of the fucking biggest dildos in the entire world, I wasn't kinky enough for him. Which is honestly fine. He actually ended up sending me the 200 which is good. But it's a little bit annoying since I was really hoping for the 600 and I was incredibly pissed that he kept trying to push past my hard nos. I took an Uber to go pick up my car, then went to W----'s house to sleep.

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vodka-redbull-daily · 4 months

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December 2nd, 2023

*Graphic Sexual Content*

Last night was when I went to the party with W----. I'm not exactly sure what I expected. I knew it was going to be some kind of boring corporate bullshit, but I'm not really sure what that meant in the first place. I didn't want to stand out too much, but I really didn't want to dress up in those boring, tight, white color cocktail dresses that I was expected of me. I talked to Wayne about it and he said that I could wear whatever I wanted as long as it's comfortable. he was even okay with me wearing pants if I had wanted to. I looked around for a little bit and finally decided on an outfit that I thought was going to work for me.

I wore a black fishnet top with a purple bandeau underneath and a black blazer on top. I added some safety pins and chains the Blazer to make it look more Punk. I wore a matching skirt that had some chains and stuff on it also. it didn't have any pockets, but it did have this weird little side Satchel thing. I was planning on wearing tights that had bats on them, but they ended up getting abandoned. I also wore some fairly tall healed combat boots. it was kind of the first time in my life that I had actually felt sexy, especially since I had made an outfit that actually matched my style instead of one of those boring cocktail dresses. the showstopper though? I crotchless underwear.

now, I did pack the tights and regular underwear in my backpack just in case, but when I got to W----'s Place around 6:00 we just cuddle on the couch and watched some tv. he gave me a beer and since I hadn't eaten all day, I did in fact get a little buzz right off the bat. I was hoping you would at least attempt to fuck me while we were waiting, but the most he got was gently rubbing my ass what we sat together on the couch. by the time we got to the point where we were feeling like we would want to fuck, it was time to go.

we climbed into the Uber together and he started gently rubbing on the inside of my thigh. I spread my legs a little wider and soon his fingers wandered up towards my underwear line. he did in fact find that little surprise and the look on his face was priceless. he started to gently rub my clit and even dipped his fingers in every Now and then. he fingered me in the back of that Uber all the way to the party and it was so hard not to cum all over the place. I knew it would make a mess and I wasn't about to ruin my clothes right before we got there. I clung to his arm for dear life as he rubbed and finger fucked me. even after we got out of the car, he pushed me up against the wall to make out with a little bit before going in.

when we got there, we were handed some tickets that we could order drinks with. apparently, everyone was only allowed to order two drinks. I guess that's a good idea to keep people from becoming drunken messes and ruining the corporate party, and it probably kept me from becoming a drunken mess in all honesty. We walked around and met people and did little Chit Chat and all that boring stuff that normally happens at a party. I tried to be engaged in the conversation, but it was pretty clear even the people that I was meeting didn't really want to talk. W---- introduced me as his “friend” which was an interesting choice since he would routinely grab my ass when he thought it was looking. C'est la vie.

I did my best not to think about J---- the whole time, but it was hard. This was exactly his kind of scene. people talking about their most recent trips to France, Italy, Spain. it felt very similar to when I had gone to his birthday party. it was at a bar of all places, on the street that's famous for having drunken idiots screaming and throwing up all over the place, but having to sit there and try and make small talk with his corporate friends. it was hard not to compare the two. it was hard not to imagine that I was at a party with him instead of with W----. that would really hurt if he'd introduce me as his friend. I'd always wondered how he could have invite me out, introduce me to his friends and even his brother, then have absolutely no qualms and completely dropping me. maybe this was how. he had told me that it wasn't like that, that he had in fact thought that we were going to work out.

I wonder when that changed. the birthday party was before he had his meltdown in france. he had told me that he had talked about me at work, about how excited he was to meet me and about how much he'd enjoyed our date. when did it change? was it before France? how had he talked to me about his work friends? had he also said he met a “friend” for dinner. maybe not. that's how I could tell when he was sleeping with somebody else. it was always “ I'm out with my friends. I'm out with my brother. I'm going to a friend's house.” until it wasn't. until it was “ I'm out with someone.” Notably someone who is not quite a friend. had he talked that way about me? why can't I stop thinking about it? why can't I just move on? c'est l'amour.

I asked for vodka redbull, but of course I wouldn't have one. I guess that's a peasant drink. well, in all honestly I do kind of know it's not necessarily a fancy drink. I do know that's more of like a frat party drink. but what can I say? it's what I like. I got a vodka lemonade instead. we continue to talk, walk around, meet new people, and even grabbed some appetizers. the table that W---- had wanted to sit at originally ended up getting filled up. I guess he just wanted to sit next to the cool kids. instead, we ended up with a bunch of younger people. younger I guess meaning halfway between W----'s age and mine. there was this one guy that reminded me of J---- a lot, except a dickish asshole. the graduated from the same college, I could tell because he was wearing his graduation ring. he talked all about the places he's been, how wonderful he was and how smart he was. if J---- was an asshole, he would be this guy. his name was T-----, I think, and he came alone. I can't imagine why.

we also sat with a couple who looked to be kind of goth or emo. I was kind of excited to see the girlfriend. the boyfriend very obviously worked at the company and it is hair flat ironed to one side with the thick black rimmed glasses. he was giving very nerd, very sad about being nerd, very “I was obviously bullied as a child and now that's my whole personality”. his girlfriend was wearing a closer to traditional style cocktail dress, but it was black and green and in a very goth style. she also wore this goth sheer shawl over her shoulders and had the very black Dramatic Makeup. not very many people were actually wearing makeup. most of the women were actually kind of old, closer to W----s age. anyway, she had gotten herself a Moscow Mule but had it liked it so we ended up swapping drinks.

even after the main course came out and I had had a little bit to eat, I was getting pretty drunk. W----'s hands were wondering and we were kissing a little bit, but he said he didn't want to get in too much trouble with the PDA stuff. within the same breath though, his fingers are reaching pretty high up underneath my skirt. the minute we got a chance, we scoped out the bathrooms, but they were really close to where everyone was seated in very small. it would have been really fun to fuck in the bathroom, but it just wasn't really a possibility.

We didn't really eat for that long of a time before we got dessert also. W---- had mentioned that he wanted to take a trip to Italy to a few people, but beyond that we were mostly just kind of sitting there doing nothing. the party was from 7:00 to 11:00, but we ended up leaving around 9:00. I guess W---- probably got a little bit more since he didn't really get to sit with his friends and I didn't really like being left alone, so we ended up calling an Uber to go back. we made out for a little bit while we were waiting before we climbed in together.

on the way back, he fingered me again. it was so amazing. one of my biggest Kinks is public sex, so it was definitely hitting a good spot for me. not to mention that W---- was holding a conversation with the Uber guy about cars the entire time, upping the hotness factor. I don't know what it is, but I love the fact that he was fingerfucked me and I was on the edge of coming while he was able to just hold a normal conversation. I wanted to come so bad, but I had the same problem that I had before. I didn't want to make a mess.

we got back home, opened a few more beers before almost immediately heading straight upstairs. I had hung my jacket on the banister and taking off my shoes, but beyond that we were still completely dressed so we got into bed. we made it out for a little bit before W---- got undressed and I climbed on top. I had only taken off my panties before so I was almost completely dressed as I began to ride him. now, I came over and over again. between getting so turned on in the uber, the alcohol, my general horniness at all times, and W----'s inability to actually finish, we ended up fucking for quite a while. we just kept going and going until W---- had to ask me to stop because he said he was overheating.

we'd like next to each other in the bed, talked about how fun the Uber ride had been, W---- even saying that he wanted to order another Uber just to do that again. I took off the last of my clothes and switched into the PJs that I had brought in my backpack. after a little while, W---- climbed on top of me and we fucked again in that position. he had bought some special blankets that are specifically meant for waking up liquids. I'm not exactly sure if they are strictly for sex or what, but he laid one down and an attempt to not get the sheets soaking wet. then, he put on a CPAP machine and almost went immediately to sleep. I will always be surprised by how fast men fall asleep.

I was also planning on going to sleep, but A----- kept getting into trouble.

the first thing he did was climb up on the bed and knock over one of the cans of beer that had been sitting on the headboard. it started spilling all over the bed, so I used the waking blanket to clean it up and tried to put the cans somewhere in a higher place that he could reach. also, I could hear him chewing on things and got up to find him already have chewed through both the stress of my backpack that I had left sitting on the floor. I quickly picked up the rest of my clothes and put them also up high to keep them out of his reach. I'm not sure why A----- was so active, but he kept jumping and running around and trying to chew through things, even drinking out of the toilet at some points. whatever the case may be, despite A----’s antics and W----'s horrific snoring, I did eventually fall asleep.

I did keep waking up at random points in the middle of the night, however. especially since it was quite cold and the blankets were not quite thick enough. W---- also woke up at one point and we fucked again, this time with me lying down on my stomach like he had done last time. he went back to sleep for a little bit, then when we woke up in the morning we fucked again, this time with both of us on our sides.

However, I was starting to feel quite queasy that morning. Probably a mix of low blood sugar for not eating properly the day before along with hungover from too much alcohol, I ended up getting pretty sick. I really wasn't even able to eat the food that W---- bought for us for breakfast ended up vomiting a lot. We also discovered that A----- had not only chewed through both straps of a backpack but had chewed completely threw my underwear so now Not only was it crotchless underwear, it was basically just a ring of elastic that would go around my waist. he also chewed up a ring that I had worn the night before and had left sitting on the side table. I think it's practically a miracle that he didn't completely chew at my glasses or anything else. W---- had given me some Amazon packaging bags to puke in and then drove me home since I was going to leave my car there for him to take to the mechanic. Once I got home, I barfed a lot more I went to sleep. not necessarily the best ending to that day, but I still had a really fun time. we were also supposed to buy tickets to Italy that morning, but me getting sick kind of put a damper on that.

Total Earned: $5,670

Body Count: 22

Dick Pics: 21

Videos: 2

Nudes sent: 2

Head Recieved: 3

Head Given: 15

Sex Ranking:

B------

Him

T----

W----

P------

F----

G---

A---

G--

R--

T------

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

J-----

A----

M---

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vodka-redbull-daily · 4 months

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December 1st, 2023

Today was the day of the party, but I had planned to meet up with J-- early on in the day. since it already plan to take the day off work, I wasn't that bothered by waking up super early. I was up at like 10:00 a.m. because we had been texting last night and he said he was going to send me an Uber to come get me at 10:30. I explained to him that I didn't have a car. We've established this all the night before, but by the time I walk to the little grocery store that I had agreed to have him send the Uber to, it seemed like he completely forgotten all about it. he sent me a text asking if I still want to hang out that day almost at the exact same time the owner of the mechanic shop called me and told me I need to come down immediately to sign some paperwork. He told me he wasn't even going to look at the car unless I came right that second and was kind of pissed that I got in the car dropped off last night. not sure what he wanted me to do with it until then, but I told J-- to wait a minute and got an Uber to the mechanic shop.

when I got there, I explained to them I was happening with the car and was quickly told that what I was talking about was impossible. I guess I'm just too stupid to know what the fuck was happening with my own car. I fucking hate mechanics. I have never had one that doesn't act like a complete dickwad. anyways, we went out to the car and of course it started acting normally. it does this word acts normally at first and then suddenly get all shaky and crazy and it won't go about 45 miles an hour. not to mention the steering issues I was having with it last night. I explained to him that it doesn't happen every single time I turn on the car but he cut me off and told me to just open the hood. I did that and him and his little buddy, I guess maybe his Apprentice I have no clue, looked under the hood for about 3 seconds. then, he came over and said that the car was too complicated for him work on. he basically said “ good luck fucker” and told me to take the car off his lot.

I told W---- about what had happened and how much of a dick that guy had been, but just drove the car back to my place. there was a really much I was like I do at that point. we agreed that I could drive the car up to his place for the party tonight and he would be able to find a mechanic that was actually for real going to work out instead of just being an asshole. better than nothing, but that means that I would be without a car for several days probably.

after I get home, I explained to J-- that I could come over now so I sent an Uber to come pick me up. it was an hour long Uber drive and I hadn't brought any headphones since I recently thrown mine in the washer accidentally. I tend to leave them in the pockets of my clothes which means that they get fucked up in the washing machine. I didn't want to waste any of my phone battery just in case, so I was just kind of staring out the window for the full hour drive. he lives really far away, really back behind some Lakes and tucked away in the corner of nothing. it looks a lot like retirement homes, which made sense cuz he was old as fuck.

when I got there, I just kind of walked up this random set of stairs I found which I guess led to the back door. there were these huge glass windows and he came up and opened the door for me. he didn't look anything like his pictures. very skinny, very ugly. I think he might have also been on drugs or something cuz he seemed incredibly Spacey and was running around and couldn't keep one thought in his head at a time. I came in and sat down on the couch and he almost immediately asked if it would be okay if he could just pay me $100 and then send me back. apparently there was something going on with his kid in the school and he said that he couldn't focus on having sex and dealing with this at the same time. honestly, not that big a deal to me. more than a waste of time than anything else.

what sucked about it though is that I had to sit with him the entire time while I was waiting for the Uber to show up. and J-- was so fucking disgusting. he had this big can of jelly beans I was just sitting on the counter and he would grab handfuls of them at a time and shove them in his mouth. that by itself wasn't that bad, But every time he chewed it sounded like somebody was slamming their fist into the counter. it was so loud and he chewed with his mouth open and it was so wet and Squishy but at the same time sounded like wooden teeth were cracking together. as far as I know he did have one teeth. it was so loud and so gross. not to mention he constantly had drool running out of the side of his mouth whether he was eating or not. I was honestly completely Disgusted and honestly so happy that I wasn't going to have to kiss him or make out with him or pretend to enjoy having sex with him.

the Uber driver finally showed up, thankfully, but it was another fucking old man who couldn't figure out how to work his gps. he kept yelling at his phone and smacking the dashboard is if that was going to help. he also kept arguing with it, kept asking me whether we were going the right direction, and kept cutting people off. I'm surprised I didn't die on the hour-long Uber that it took to come home. I blocked J-- on everything immediately after because I am not going to be spending any more time with that drooling, saggy, ugly-ass mother fucker.

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vodka-redbull-daily · 4 months

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November 30th, 2023

Yoday I met up with T-- from SB. we've been talking a little bit back and forth about maybe meeting up, but he would want me to meet up at his place and he lives all the way in L--- V----. that's like an hour from me. although, it is kind of strange that that's fairly close to where I grew up. I used to go to church in that little town and even though my childhood home was a solid 30 minutes away, everything was a solid 30 minutes away. it's country enough for my neighbor to own horses and chickens, so things being widely spaced out is pretty typical.

we met at a place called BJ's. I don't know if that counts as irony or not or maybe just a stupid double entendre that made me giggle. It had been raining a little bit that morning but I hadn't brought an umbrella or anything. mostly because I didn't own one, so I was just a little bit damp as I walked into the restaurant. he looked like his pictures, but his voice didn't seem to match. it was pretty high-pitched and a little snobbish. not nasally, but like you could tell he likes to talk down to people whenever he gets a chance. that being said, he was kind of nice to me. he would like to interrupt me anytime I talked, but I think that's just a man thing.

we talked for a little bit about what I do for work, about what he does for work, but what I do in my free time. the usual stuff before we finally got into the business side of things. he asked me about how much I expect to make and I said about 350 a week. then he went to details about how he hated it when women asked for so much money right off the bat. he didn't say that right, but he had the attitude of assuming anybody who was outside of his budget was just a gold digger. I find it so weird when men on those sites call women gold diggers. Like… what did you expect? do you not realize what site you're on?

I guess my price was good enough for him, because he kept talking to me and didn't just leave. he asked about when or if I would expect to be paid if we simply went out and did a fun little activity together rather than sleeping together. I explained that if we went out and did something small, like this little lunch meeting, then I would just expect him to cover the bill but not to actually get paid for it. if we need to actually fucking, then I would expect to get paid. he agreed with me on this, again dipping into that area of thinking that any women who expects to get paid it's just a gold digger, and then he talked about trying to invite me to a Renaissance Fair that's happening nearby. He said he could tell that I would enjoy Renaissance fair, which I feel like is a little bit of a read, but not incorrect. after that, he walked me to my car, of course commented on the stickers, and they went back in to pay the bill. we'll see if the renaissance fair thing pans out, and even though he was one of the least annoying people that I met with, Lago Vista is just really hard to drive so I don't know if we're going to be together for much longer.

later on in the day, R------- texted me and sent me $50 just get some pictures. he didn't even want nudes or anything, just some pictures of me. I sent him some of my stockpile that I have since it takes me forever to actually take a new pictures. I always feel like I look fat, or ugly, or just awkward in any pictures I take. so, I just have a bunch that I send to guys over and over again. honestly, I haven't run into a problem doing this yet. most guys ghost me before they even ask for more than the pictures I already have taken. even though he didn't specifically ask for news, he did ask for a picture of my tits later on that night and I sent them. why not? my face isn't in them.

Also, as I was pulling into my parking spot at work, my steering died. like I would turn the wheel but the tires wouldn't spin with it. I texted W---- about it and he sent me some money to get it towed. he also sent me some money for Ubers back and forth, especially since we have that party coming up on Friday. he talked about helping me change the oil and looking at the car himself since it's been acting funny for so long, but at this point with the steering acting all wonky, it needs to be like that as soon as possible. the only problem with working second shift is that all of the places were closed so I just had to drop it off at some random mechanic, call them, and leave a voicemail explaining the situation as best I could. hopefully, it'll be better in the morning.

Total Earned: $5,570

Body Count: 22

Dick Pics: 20

Videos: 2

Nudes sent: 2

Head Recieved: 3

Head Given: 15

Sex Ranking:

B------

Him

T----

W-----

P------

F----

G---

A---

G--

R--

T------

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

J------

A----

M---

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vodka-redbull-daily · 4 months

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November 29th, 2023

*Graphic Sexual Content*

I've been texting with this guy back and forth named J----- for a while. he seemed to be one of those people that was more in his head about the fantasy than anything else. I didn't realize this was really a thing until B------ pointed out that might be the reason that so many people keep canceling on me. apparently, he says that some people just like the fantasy part but don't necessarily like the meet up part. they either chicken out or never actually planning on meeting up in the first place. I feel like that's probably what happened to B-- and D---. I haven't talked to either of them in forever and they seemed to be the ones most interested in me.

so when this guy would text me about once a day, saying that we had compatible schedules and he got off work around 2:00 a.m. so we could meet up after I got off work, but then would ignore me for days, would try and set up a time, then suddenly ghost me out of nowhere, I kind of just assumed that he was going to be one of those people. he texted me around 11:00 p.m. last night and was asking if I would be available at some point that week. I told him I was available that night right as I got off work. I've been incredibly horny recently and he kept saying that he was available after I got off work anyway so why not just do it then?

he kept going back and forth about whether he wanted to do it. we had both agreed on a 350 to 400, but he said he didn't have enough for that. since he only wanted a blowjob, as we had discussed before and in fact had a little bit of a tiff about it. I remember one of the first things he asked me when we were talking for the first time was whether or not I enjoy giving blowjobs. I'm not a liar, so I said no. I don't like giving blowjobs. I explained that I understand that most men prefer that to anything else and so I don't mind doing it, but I don't like it. he seems pretty annoyed at this and went off on a little rant about how since he was paying for it I should just do whatever he wanted.

it's not like I disagreed with him there. I had even already told him that I understood that logic in my previous text, but whatever. That was several weeks ago, though, so we talked about it a little bit more and he confirmed that all he really wanted was a blowjob. I told him I would be okay with only giving a blowjob and not really getting anything myself. it's not like it would be the first time. the next problem was that he said he didn't have as much as I was asking for. he agreed that the price I said was a fair price, which was great to hear because sometimes people fight with me on that. he said that he didn't want to underpay me and he didn't think it was fair. a very sweet sentiment, if it's true. the other option is that he was just trying to say something to make me be the one to say no, to back out, to be the bad guy. I was extremely horny, not necessarily hurting for money but it's not like I would turn that down, so I offered him $200. he said that he really wanted it, it was just a mix between rent coming up soon and the fact that he had been fixing the floors in his house or something like that.

his next issue that he brought up was he thought that it was too far of a drive for Me. he sent me the address and is actually surprisingly close. it was one of the closest places I would have gone to in forever. it was only a 15 minute drive from work. I told him that it wasn't even that long of a drive and that I would have no issue coming over. it seems like he kept making up excuses and finally he led on that he was actually nervous to have somebody over. he kept saying that he didn't want me over, but he did. he said that he was too nervous at me over, but he really wanted to have me over for “stress relief”. it was a weird back and forth. I told him if he was too nervous about it, then I was in that big of a deal and I wouldn't come over. he kept saying that he just couldn't make up his mind any wanted me to make it up for him. so I told him that if he was just going to be nervous and having a borderline panic attack the whole time, it made more sense for me to not be there. this seems to upset him and he said that he Had pretty much wanted me to say that I was coming over no matter what he wanted. I don't know what the issue with him is.

all in all, after about 30 minutes of back and forth after I gotten home, we ended up deciding that I would come over after all. so I got in my car and headed over. it wasn't that far of a drive, but a lot of it was through back roads ahead zero to no lighting and I started to feel kind of freaked out so I sent D---- the address. I usually send D---- the address anyway, but this time was extra freaky so I wanted to double-check that she had seen it. it seemed like these were brand new houses I had just sprung up in the middle of an empty field, though the neighborhood itself seemed fairly jam-packed. it was a weird mix of country and suburbs. I missed the house the first time I had to turn around but I was only parked outside for a little bit before he came outside to get me. we had to go into the back door because there was something going on with his floors and I'm not really sure why but we couldn't walk on them. it looks like it was just plain concrete to me and it wasn't even wet or anything.

we went straight to his bedroom and talked for a little bit. we talked about music and shit and it kind of looks like he was falling asleep. he seemed to be incredibly nervous and I was very tired and bored. we laid there for a little bit just kind of talking with me kind of gently stroking the lower half of his stomach. this went on for a little bit and I was hoping that he would give me some kind of instruction or give some kind of hint that he wasn't going to completely freak the fuck out, but it never happened. in fact, I thought he was asleep sometimes because he was just laying there with his eyes closed. it wasn't until I started playing with the edge of his basketball shorts that I saw his dick start to move. like I could see it getting hard through his shorts which was kind of fun.

I eventually moved to stick my hand underneath his pants and slowly rub and touch and drag my fingers all across his thighs. basically just kind of playing around until I finally got to stroking his dick. pretty quickly I was just giving him a handjob under his shorts. we went on this way for a little while, me occasionally licking the palm of my hand to get it wet which he liked a lot and went grown very loudly every time I did. eventually, he did take off his shorts and boxers and I was able to Jack him off more easily. I didn't think I was particularly good at handjobs and I thought this was probably going to be even worse because I was doing it with my left hand since he was laying on my right hand. but we went on like this for a little while before I finally went down there to suck his dick for a little bit.

he wasn't the biggest I've ever had ( I don't think anybody's going to beat B------ in that regard), but my tiny little mouth was having some trouble with him and we went on like For only a few minutes with me occasionally grabbing and sucking as well as before he pulled me back up to him. I guess he preferred my handjobs to my blowjobs. fine by me. I continue to jerk him off. I was quite bored but he seemed to be having a good time. it lasted a fairly long time, probably about 15 minutes, before he did finally cum. I tried to swallow as much of it as I could despite not really getting a great warning. after that, he sent me money and I left.

later on, he sent me a message asking if it had been a good night. I don't really understand what the point of that was. I kind of gave a vague answer, indicating that I might not have had a great time, but I was really more there to satisfy him than anything else. he seemed kind of annoyed that I didn't have a good time but like what were you expecting? I don't see how anybody could have had a good time. I don't see don't see how he had a good time. I feel like he could have accomplished the exact same thing all by himself. maybe he just like the feeling of having smaller hands wrapped around his dick.

Total Earned: $5,270

Body Count: 22

Videos: 2

Dick Pics: 17

Nudes sent: 2

Head Recieved: 3

Head Given: 15

Sex Ranking:

B-----

Him

T----

W----

P-----

F----

G---

A---

G--

R--

T------

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

J------

A----

M---

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vodka-redbull-daily · 4 months

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November 28th, 2023

My car has been acting kind of funny for a while now. honestly for over a year but I haven't had the time or money to take it to a mechanic. I was telling W---- about it and he said that he could either fix it for me or find a mechanic that could. we were texting all day yesterday and honestly we text very often. he acts more like a boyfriend than a sugar daddy, or I guess more like a sugar daddy than these random hook-up encounters that I get money for. But we've been texting a lot and it honestly reminds me a lot of J----. it's been making me pretty sad but at the same time I enjoy spending time with W----.

he asked me to come over to his place last night after I got off work and of course I said yes. I warned him that it would be late because I tell everybody that. I'm not going to make somebody wait up for me that doesn't want to. he promised me he would be awake so right as I got off work, I headed out in that direction. it's kind of a Far drive, Over 30 minutes. although I don't know that even is considered a far drive anymore since most of the time I have to drive over 30 minutes to get anywhere. anyway, I pulled up in front of his house in the same place I parked the last time. I guess it's pretty lucky that the weird kind of duplex things he lives in I'll have garages in the back so most people don't do street parking and there's plenty of room for me to fake parallel park.

I walked into the door and rang the doorbell. I could hear A-----barking inside and thought I heard movement. but after a few minutes, there was no answer. I waited for a little bit, thinking that maybe he was getting dressed or something. I didn't know if he slept naked or not. it was kind of creepy being all outside in the dark and I was getting cold. I decided to try knocking instead. I know that sometimes the doorbells are broken and that's why people don't hear it, but it seems pretty unlikely since this was a nice place and I actually heard the sound of the doorbell through the door. A----- was barking again, but nobody came. I sent him a text about waiting outside and, at D----'s suggestion because I fucking hate calling, I called him. no answer to either. I waited a little longer and I kept thinking I was hearing footsteps. maybe he was coming around from the back? I peeked around the corners of the entryway, but there was nobody. I rang the doorbell one last time and even though A---- was barking again, he never showed.

I won't lie. I did cry. it was incredibly annoying that I was brought to tears over the fact that one of my sugar daddies wasn't answering the door. he had obviously just fallen asleep because it was too late at night. but it's stung. it brought back the memories of the caring, loving, completely attentive J---- suddenly flipping into somebody who couldn't give less of a shit about where I was and what I was doing, never wanted to answer texts, and would routinely give me stupid excuses about why we couldn't hang out in favor of hanging out with other girls that he met off tinder.

It hurt a lot.

it still hurts.

and I guess that's why I cried over W---- not answering the door, but I wish I hadn't. I wish I was more in control of my emotions. I wish that I was able to regulate whether or not something was distressing enough to truly have tears. I wish that I can make my mom Proud by just sucking up all those emotions and keeping them stored forever away from the public eye. I wish I could forget about J----.

I was able to get my shit together by the time I got home and D---- and I commiserated about how stupid it was to invite me over then to not answer the door. I was in a pretty bad mood at this point and even though I tried not to be, I kind of just went to my room. I hate the fact that this kind of stuff could affect me this much, but it does. it's incredibly fucking annoying. this morning when I woke up, he sent a text that said:

“Oh no! I fell asleep!” with the little surprise cat emoji.

we texted a little bit more back and forth about how I should have rang the doorbell and I said that I did ring the doorbell… twice. he mentioned that the door was actually probably unlocked in that next time I come over, I should just walk straight in. I made a joke about not wanting to get arrested for breaking and entering. then he said he would make it up to me. I don't know what he really means by that, but he probably means sex.

I started talking to you a few more guys off secret benefit. there's this guy named J---. he's married, but he says his wife is too vanilla for him and he wants to expand his horizons. he says he wants to test out his submissive side, to truly get dommed by someone. he said his wife knew exactly what was going on, but didn't want to hear anything about it. I guess she's a little shy. since I have switch in my profile, I get a lot of people like this and even though I haven't truly ever dommed before, I think that I could do it. I even asked B------- for some advice about how to be a good dom. J--- and I discussed how and when we would meet since neither of us could host and we decided on a hotel. he wanted me to make the arrangements wish I was a little bit surprised about, but I guess that's what doms do.

the thing is, I'm chronically broke and I would hate to pay for a hotel just to have him not actually show and chicken out. he said that if I pay for the hotel, he would pay in advance. we agreed on 300 and I told him that if you wanted to pay for half the hotel, he can pay 30. in my initial research, it looks like most places would be from 50 to 70 so I figured that would be a fair enough price. he sent me $360 so I went ahead and booked the hotel and sent him the reservation information. I got a little nervous about checking, since most places have it around 3:00 and we were planning on meeting 11:00, so I called them and asked him if I could check in early and they said that was fine.

besides that, I met another guy off secret benefit that supposedly is a sub. while J--- is in his late 30s, this guy is in his late 50s. not going to lie though, he doesn't actually look that bad in the pictures he sent me. he's at least got some kind of muscle mass and isn't just loose skin. he talks a lot like those submissives that you see in the media; a lot of begging for attention, a lot of saying yes ‘ma'am’, A lot of begging me to sit on his face. not my favorite thing in the world to do because I am actually terrified of accidentally killing somebody, but pretty standard for guys who claim to be submissive.

in exchange for pictures of his dick, he asked for some pictures of me masturbating. and I sent them. I broke my rule of never sending nudes. my face wasn't in them, my tattoos weren't in them, but I honestly don't even know why I did it. maybe I'm getting desensitized by seeing so many dicks. maybe it was because feeling like I was the one in charge the situation gave me the confidence, or the stupidity, to actually go through with it. I'm not sure. I guess I'll keep a counter for my own pics since people, too.

the other thing about P--- is he keeps asking to be cucked. he has this whole fantasy about being forced to watch somebody else fuck me before he “ gets his turn”. he always describes a man with a giant cock, a “bull”. somebody who stretches me out why so that when he puts his dick in it feels like there's infinite space. my mind immediately jumped to B-------. the thought turned me on so much. I've been wanting a three-way for so long, two guys and me or me and a guy and a girl. I don't care honestly. and the idea of B------- domming me, then me domming somebody else… I've definitely masturbated to that idea before P--- even brought it up. In between my conversations with B------- about how to be a good dom, I asked if you would ever be interested in that kind of thing. He said he was, in fact he had done something similar before. his only thing was that he didn't want to be involved in any guy-on-guy stuff. Beyond that, he seemed really intrigued.

also of secret benefit, I started talking to J------. J------ and his early 30s, very demanding, and very much an attention whore. he sent me a few videos and pictures of him masturbating which was an interesting thing to open up in the middle of work. it's the first time I'd ever gotten a video Even though I had heard plenty of horror stories about them on the Internet before. I guess I'll start a counter for those, too. I feel like P--- is also going to be sending me some. The thing about it is that he sent me them over Snapchat, so they were cut up into a bunch of tiny little segments. I don't know whether I should count it as two separate videos, since it seems like he recorded two separate times, or if I should count each little snippet as its own separate video. I don't want to artificially inflate my numbers, so if it looks like he stopped recording and then started up again I'll count that as a separate video.

Total Earned: $5,070

Body Count: 16

Dick Pics: 22

Videos: 2

Nudes sent: 2

Head Recieved: 3

Head Given: 14

Sex Ranking:

B-------

Him

T----

W----

P------

F----

G---

A---

G--

R--

T------

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

A----

M---

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vodka-redbull-daily · 4 months

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November 27th, 2023

*Graphic Sexual Content*

A--- texted me completely out of the blue this morning pretty much right as I woke up. he asked me if I was working today. I feel like he should know my schedule at this point. But I texted him that yes, I was working today and that I had to go in at 3:30 like I do every single time. He asked me if I wanted to meet up with him at a little motel. And I said yes. why not? so it was probably a good thing that I woke up kind of early. He wanted to meet around 1, so I had to scramble to get ready to go. He texted me the address and I told him it was gonna take me about 30 minutes to get there because it always takes me about 30 minutes to get anywhere. Apparently, he picked a place that's like five minutes from where he works because he said that He had gotten the hotel and had gone back to work.

He's a very busy guy, I guess. I drove over there and he told me to just text him when I got there. The door would be propped open a little bit so I could just get into the room. I got there and it was this really dingy gross looking motel. Kind of perfect for this kind of a meeting I guess. I opened the door because it was still open a little bit and walked into the tiny room and it was pretty cold. I was just wearing a hoodie and some sweatpants and I at least took off my sweat pants and bra and folded them and put them on a little table. I tried to prop the door open the way he had but it kept trying to swing open. So just put a chair in front of it for now. He said he would be there in about five minutes. I tried to look sexy on the bed but it's kind of a weird thing to do and being sexy has never really been in my nature.

eventually he came. I had moved the door out of I moved the chair out of the way of the door when I felt like he was getting close he came in and he also got naked pretty quickly and of course he had Had me suck his dick to start. because that's all that ever happens. I sucked his dick for a little bit before he had me climb on top and ride him. He played with my tits a little bit. Though not that much and it has been a while since somebody has left bruises there. We fucked like that for a little bit before he put me on my back and fucked me in that way.

We kind of rolled back and forth like this for a little bit before he eventually pulled me on my hands and knees. Every time I have sex with A---, it's like a blur of a bunch of motion all at once. It's almost as though he has to get it done as quickly as possible. Like he's on a time crunch and he's always busy. I'm honestly kind of surprised he wasn't checking all of his notifications in the middle of us fucking. I kinda like it though. It's like we both know that this is only a business interaction and not really much more so it's not that big a deal. We don't have to worry about all this foreplay stuff. Just take your clothes off. Fuck for a little bit. Pay me. and then we'll go.

on my hands and knees, he fucked me for a little Bit like that before he ended up sticking his dick in my asshole. it was a little bit unexpected and it did hurt a little bit at first but after a while it felt pretty good. I actually really enjoy anal a lot. So it wasn't that upset about it. just a little bit surprised and it took me a minute to get used to it. he fucked me like that for a little bit. And honestly, it was kind of great. I liked it. A lot how rough he was being with me. Basically just picking me up and throwing me around and taking me in whichever position he wanted was little to no words about it. Occasionally he'll just give a whispered instruction, not in the same way B------ whispers. B------- whispers in in like a husky sexy kind of dominant voice that's like very clearly meant to turn you on. A--- whispers in a breathless, “I'm overweight but having a good time” kind of way. He gives direction because that's what he wants at that exact moment and he whispers it because he's out of breath from fucking. after he fucked me my ass for a little bit, he got up and washed his dick off before he came back onto the bed and had me suck it again.

it didn't smell the cleanest but I haven't died of Sepsis yet, so I guess it was okay. Eventually he had me stop sucking his dick and wanted me to lick and bite and kiss him around his thighs and balls. I started doing that with his hand and my hair as he helped direct me while he jacked off kind of violently. It was kind of weird cuz it was almost like he was lightly punching me in the face because he was jacking off so violently and I was trying to suck his balls. He wanted me to pay a lot of attention to his balls and kept pushing my head lower and lower and lifting his and arching his back higher and higher before he finally told me to start licking his asshole.

It was definitely something I had never done before and something I've never wanted to do before. I find it kind of disgusting. I feel bad for making guys do it. But honestly, I only have a guy do it if he's either begging for it or does have his own freewill. I hate eating ass so much because all I can think of is how much poop is getting in my mouth. Even though I know that the people who want me to do that probably do their best to keep it clean. Like Brandon really likes having his as eaten, but I told him I didn't like it. So he's never asked me to do it. But he tells me all about his regimen to keep it clean for those who will eat his ass. But now I was suddenly eating A---'s asshole. Well, not really eating it. More just kind of like awkwardly licking around it.

I told myself to just pretend that it was a girl in front of me that I was licking somebody's pussy and clit. I tried to imagine that the little weird flaps of skin or a girl's lips and that it wasn't actually somebody's asshole that my tongue was exploring. it didn't really help because he kept moaning and stuff. But that's pretty much how we ended it. I was licking his asshole and then when he was really close to coming, he had me suck his dick again and he came in my mouth.

I sucked him dry, swallowing every little bit I was given. Afterwards, he cleaned up in the sink while I cleaned up in the bathroom. We collected all our shit, got dressed and he handed me $600, telling me how he did such a good job and basically going on and on about how great it was. he asked me if my ass was okay since he had kind of surprised me with anal and I told him that it was okay even though it had hurt a little bit at first. We said goodbye and went our separate ways. As we were leaving, he handed a wad of cash to a homeless couple that was sitting outside.

Alex is kind of a mystery to me. The way he handles me during sex is kind of violent and selfish. But his whole demeanor and attitude in the way he tipped the waitress, the way he paid those homeless people, and even how he asked me if he had been hurting me afterwards shows that he's kind of compassionate. It's a little bit confusing. On the drive home, he texted me and asked me if everything that we had done was okay and I did tell him that I had never done any ass eating before and I really wasn't expecting it. He apologized for springing it on me in the middle of nowhere and told me that I could always feel safe asking him to stop or telling him that I felt uncomfortable. But honestly for $600… That's not the worst that could have happened.

Total Earned: $4,710

Body Count: 16

Dick Pics: 13

Head Recieved: 3

Head Given: 14

Sex Ranking:

B-------

Him

T------

W----

P------

F----

G---

A---

G--

R--

T------

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

A-----

M---

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November 26th, 2023

*Graphic Sexual Content*

I've been trying out a few new sites here and there. In all honesty, most of them are ass. seeking has a million and a half scammers, but at least people actually reply to you and I should try to set things up. so many of these other places requires so much money even to function on that site. you have to pay $3 to read a message on some of these sites. just to read it. not even to reply. I wouldn't be surprised if it also charged you to make a reply, but I haven't done that yet cuz I'm not paying $3 to read a stupid “hey how are you”. the only one that seems to have any promise is Secret benefit. I've been able to talk to a few guys on there already. I'm hoping it's not just good luck.

one of the guys off the new site is named G---. I met him today. we went out for a barbecue at a place I'd never heard of. he's originally from California, but his parents are Greek I think? he's got a little bit of an accent, but I really can't tell where it's from. he told me about his last sugar relationship. oh yeah. that's the thing about Secret benefit. it is definitely advertised as a sugar site versus a vague “arrangement” site. I like that because a lot of the profiles that these guys have are way more direct and to the point. I've been looking for something consistent for so long, this might be the exact thing I need. I honestly think that's more of what W---- is at this point than anything else. he doesn't give me money every time I sleep with him, but he does always pay for all the food, anything we go do, all the drinks. and tonight, as I was driving to go meet G---, he sent me $350 to get an outfit for the party on Friday. that is true sugar daddy Behavior

G--- and his last sugar baby actually met on a flight. the girl was from some European country, I actually kind of forgot and I feel a little bad about it. they met on the flight going to Los angeles, G--- was coming back from vacation and the girl was moving to the US, if I remember right. I had a little bit to drink, so it is a little bit fuzzy even though I didn't drink that much. vodka with ginger beer, since it was a barbecue and they didn't have red bull. he talked about how he was with her for 6 years and he had an amazing time. he talked about all the travels they went on and about all the marvelous places he seen before, how much he likes camping and hiking. We had a really good conversation and it honestly seemed like he really liked my company. on my side, he was okay. he's definitely not somebody I would choose to spend my time with on my own, but given the lineup of everyone else I've talked to, he would definitely be pretty high up on my list of people that I would want a second date with. the barbecue was also really good.

when we are about winding down from the meal, he talked about how He was happy that we had met, he was looking to get back into the life so after a year-long break, and that he was glad that I looked like my pictures. not the first guy to say that, I do find it a little bit weird even though I understand that people catfish a lot. he said he was having a great time and that he had rented out a hotel room earlier just in case. he asked if I wanted to go back there was him to talk some more, especially about the sugar stuff since we were in public. of course, I said yes. we hadn't talked about price or anything like that and I was again making that rookie mistake. in the end, it turned out fine, but I guess I should really start paying more attention and that kind of stuff.

we drove over to where his hotel was and he took me up to the room. for some reason, I really did think that we were actually going to talk for a little bit before jumping into the sex, but no. almost as soon as we were in the room he pulled me over to a little couch, pulled me into his lap, and started making out with me. I guess I was really good at that conversation after all. pretty amazing that I would manage to seduce him with my social charm, since that's normally what I'm the worst at. we made out for a little bit, slowly removing each other's clothes, before he finally moved me over to the bed. we got through the mandatory dick-sucking before he asked me what I liked. I kind of hate it when men ask me this question. don't get me wrong, I love the sentiment behind it, but they're always so vague. I really need them to be more specific. what do you mean by that? I like a lot of things. I like cheese. I like embroidery work. I like anal. what do you mean? do you want to hear about my kinks? do you want to hear about what I've tried? Do you want to hear about what I might like? I just answered with doggy style, because it's true and I'm not really sure what else he meant.

he had me ride him for a little bit And then we didn't end up actually getting doggy style. it must be an older man thing, because he was also leaning really heavily on my shoulders like P----- and D-- had done. luckily, he didn't put nearly as much pressure as those two had so it wasn't in pain. he didn't last too long, but it wasn't the worst I've had. afterwards, he went to the bathroom to clean himself up. he came back, we laid in bed and talked for a while. we talked about the places I've traveled to, which weren't that many. I talked to him about places I'd like to travel to and about how he's already been to them. he didn't say it in like a bragging way, just sharing his experiences and talking about how much fun it would be for me to go. we talked about how I've never been on a cruise before and how he likes to do it. he talked about how it's pretty easy to get a three-way on a cruise. we joked about how the ocean makes people crazy like that. we talked a little bit about my Kinks, but again everyone's so vague that I don't really know what they're asking me. I would honestly just prefer the Yes No Maybe list.

we ended up fucking again. I think it was a mix between the fact that he probably hasn't had sex in about a year, the fact that I'm eternally horny, and the fact that when I'm laying with somebody, I tend to draw lazy circles along with my fingers. it's not necessarily A seduction tactic, it's just what happens. my hands just kind of naturally do that. even when we were just cuddling in bed, he kept saying I was acting incredibly affectionately. W---- said something similar. I don't understand what they mean by that. do other girls just immediately get up, put their clothes on, I won't touch them again after they cum? I'm not sure why they keep acting like it's so surprising that I cuddle with them after sex. in fact, I remember the first time I slept with T----- how hurt I was that he didn't want to cuddle. well, maybe hurt isn't the right word.

or maybe it is, but just not in that way.

I wasn't hurt that T----- I don't want to cuddle with me, it was more like I was hurting because I wanted him to cuddle with me. because I wanted to be having sex with him, but I was having sex with T------ instead. because T------ wasn't him. because T------ couldn't go round after round after round like he could. because T------ just kind of laid back and immediately went to sleep afterward instead of holding me close, kissing my neck, Whispering about how much he liked me Like he had. remember the first time it was with T------ and I just laid there and started up the ceiling, grinding my teeth and clenching my fist to keep myself from bursting into tears. T------ was asleep, snoring next to me, while I sat there and thought about how much I fucking hated being in his bed and wanted so bad to be in J----'s.

of course, I had to suck G---’s dick before we were able to actually have sex. like I said, it's basically mandatory. After a few minutes of that, he put another condom, had me ride him for a little bit, Then Fucked me missionary style. again, it didn't last very long but I've had worse. he went to the bathroom again to clean himself up and I ended up starting to get dressed. at this point, it was already pretty late at night. he also got ready to go with me and slip some money into my pocket as we were heading out the door. I had honestly fully expected him to not give me any money and just completely stop talking to me. I'm glad he didn't and I didn't count how much it was in front of him because that seems a little rude. he walked around to my car, laughed at all my stickers, and waved me off as I started home.

Turns out it was $400.

And he said he wants to meet again soon. It’s going to be hard with my schedule, though. I love second shift, but it sure makes sugaring hard.

Total Earned: $4,210

Body Count: 16

Dick Pics: 13

Head Recieved: 3

Head Given: 14

Sex Ranking:

B------

Him

T----

W----

P-----

F----

G---

A---

G--

R--

T------

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

A----

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vodka-redbull-daily · 5 months

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November 25th, 2023

*Graphic Sexual Content*

Yesterday, M--- had texted me saying that he wanted me to come over again. a lot of these guys are very last minute, and I guess he's one of them. I was already up, had just showered, so I figured why not? an extra $400 just like that? perfect. we texted back and forth for a little bit and he said he had to wait for his cleaning lady to come. I guess he had thrown a wild Thanksgiving party. we talked for a little bit back and forth, and complaining about how miserable he wasn't he wasn't getting his dick sucked right that second. I made a little joke about how it was all right and I would be there soon and then I didn't hear from him at all since then. I don't know if he didn't like my joke, if the cleaning lady never came, if he just fucked his cleaning lady or what happened. there's a guy I've been talking to over snap that I might see and he thought that maybe he died of an overdose. who knows.

I also had one of the weirdest experiences I've had in a while. I was talking to somebody online, doing that dirty, sexting thing that men like to do. he was talking about me sucking a stick, because that's all guys ever want, and he asked if I swallow. I'm not a liar, so I said that I do and that I actually don't mind the taste. of course, he fucking loved that. that's when the conversation got kind of weird. he started talking about how he was going to jerk off into a jar and leave it for me so that I could taste it. I kind of liked the idea because of how ridiculous it was. it's almost like the more ridiculous one of these guys gets, the more I kind of want to do it just to see what it's like and have that experience. the problem was, he kept asking me where I live so he could leave the jar near there. I was already planning on going out with either D---- or W----, and he was all the way in Austin when I'm all the way in G---------. I told him these issues and then it might be a little bit difficult for him to leave me a jar of jizz just in the middle of nowhere, and he responded “k” and never talked to me again.

the more and more I write these notes, listen to these men talk, and sit with my feelings, the more I think I might have been built to have sex. Well, except for the fact that I kind of hate giving blowjobs. Beyond that, all these men seem to have their minds blown any time they fuck me. and I feel like I'm not even doing that much. I like anal and that drives men wild. I like the taste of cum. well I don't like it, but I don't hate it. it's whatever. it's like swallowing snot. and that's something else men go wild for. apparently, even after all this time and all this sex, I'm still tight. I think that might just be because of small though. again, men fucking lose their shit. I like to experiment, I like to try new things, I'm pretty open to anything. I have practically no refractory period, which I thought was pretty common for females but apparently, it's not. I squirt, I come repeatedly, I'm loud enough to be sexy but not too loud to be annoying. I don't know if somebody can be born for sex, but that's what it's starting to feel like.

W---- came back into town today, so I went to go see him. we ordered Chinese food, talked about the holidays, and he showed me a bunch of his Tools in his Workshop. I love tools, I love it when people show me their neat little toys that make their lives just a little bit easier. I love looking at things people have built or rigged together. I love it. it did hurt a little bit though. it reminded me a lot of him. reminded me a lot of the soldering iron he showed me because he knew I would like it. the most dangerous looking taser I have ever seen in my life that he made with just some loose wires, a battery, and tape. it reminded me of him asking me for advice about some electrical things. it hurt. I thought it wouldn't be hurting at this point. it's been kind of a long time. I've been with so many other guys. and I really like W----. genuinely. maybe not the same level and maybe not romantically, but I actually enjoy his company.

After food, we went upstairs to bang again. because of course we did. when it comes down to it, that's kind of why I'm there. he pulled out the vibrator again today, absolutely destroying my clit with the power. he laid down three towels and we managed to keep from soaking the sheets, which is honestly a miracle. after about 10 to 15 minutes of me just cuming repeatedly, he put on a condom and fucked me. good old missionary style. after he came, we took a few minutes to relax in bed before getting dressed and heading back downstairs. he had taken his dog to the sitter while he was on vacation and we had about an hour and a half before he had to go pick him up. he put on some old Christmas movie, ordered some groceries for delivery, and we curled up on the couch to watch it. he gave me a blanket since he's from up North and keeps his house at 68 degrees like a psychopath. we cuddled on the couch, held hands under the blanket, and just generally hung out.

after the movie was finished, he was talking about how he wanted to go do something fun for the Christmas holiday. he was already traveling to Arizona the weeks before, but he was saying how he wanted to try and get out of the country before the end of the year. we talked about possible places to go; greece, france, and italy. Italy seem to really spark interest, since he had seen a YouTube video about a restaurant that supposedly makes the best pizza in the world. he showed me the YouTube video, we chatted about it, then he asked if I would like to go with them. I of course said yes. why not? isn't the whole goal to have new experiences? he began to talk about Naples in France and the Alps and all the other places we could visit and it reminded me of him again.

I wish things would stop reminding me of him. it reminded me of our first date when we met and talked about his trip to France and how he Had asked me to come with him. how I had to say no since I didn't have a passport yet. I wonder what it would have changed if I had gone with him. maybe it would have been worse. maybe he would have had his mental breakdown just like he did while I wasn't there and having to witness it firsthand would have been terrible. maybe that cold, distant person he turned into would have still happened halfway into his trip, but now I would have been there to see that switch flip, experience it in person. I don't know. maybe, with me there, he wouldn't be constantly thinking about his ex. maybe, he wouldn't have turned his Tinder back on and started sleeping around. I don't know. I don't think it would have changed the fact that he doesn't love me, maybe it would have just drawn out the inevitable, maybe I would be even sadder than I am now because we would have made such great memories.

Total Earned: $3,460

Body Count: 15

Dick Pics: 13

Head Recieved: 3

Head Given: 13

Sex Ranking:

B-------

Him

T----

W----

P-----

F----

A---

G--

R--

T-----

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

A----

M---

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vodka-redbull-daily · 5 months

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November 22nd, 2023 (Part 2)

S-- was a pretty nervous and quiet guy, but he still seemed like he wanted to meet up. He sent me to this little bar in Austin and honestly, I might stop going to bars in Austin altogether. It was a tiny little place right off the side of the road, so I pulled into what looked like the parking lot. Once I was out of the street, I realized how bad of a situation I had just put myself in.

It was less of a parking lot and more of a dirt patch where cars were lined up in front of a few run down stores. I thought I saw a spot open, but of course it was one of those tiny cars with massive trucks parked on either side of it completely blocking it from view. I pulled all the way to the end of the rows to try and get out, but they were lined all the way up to the front of the stores. There was legitimately no where I could go.

So, I tried to pull in as close to one of the lines of cars and back up, attempting a 3 point turn to get the fuck out of there. I am actually pretty good at 3 point turns, but I guess it just wasn’t my night since there were so many big ass trucks parked cattywampus to each other. I ended up backing into an SUV.

It wasn’t very bad because I was going slow as fuck because I was in such a terrible position, but as soon as the sound happened, people came out of the store I was directly in front of. Then, people also started getting out of the car. I was unequivocally fucked. I am not a person do a hit-and-run, but even if I was, it was fucking impossible. They all stood there just looking at the cars for a little bit before the guy who got out of the car I hit got back in and backed it up so it wasn’t sticking out in the middle of the fucking lane anymore and I could actually back up enough to turn the car around. Some white lady passed by and made some comment about how hard 3 point turns are.

When I finally turned around, I did my best to get out of the way, even though cars were still trying to get through since there was nothing indicating how terrible of a place it was to be. I put on my hazard lights and went over to where now 10 people were staring at the car I had hit. It seemed like they were all family; the family that owned the store all the cars were parked shittily in front of. It was weirdly quiet. No one really said anything, just kept staring. I was incredibly pissed that I hadn’t just tried to back out and had instead made it so much worse on myself by trying to turn around. On the other hand, why were they all parked like morons, blocking off all the exits and none of them in a proper line.

The car also had brand new paper plates even though it was covered in mud.

The guy who had backed it up was just staring at the tiniest scratch on the bumper. Like I said, I really wasn’t going that fast. Maybe 5 MPH, but there was still a scratch nonetheless. And I didn’t have any insurance. Honestly, I wanted to tell the guy to deal, it was a barely visible scratch on the bumper that would probably get scratched anyway. It was nothing. But, instead, I pulled the 100$ B------ gave me out of my wallet.

“Do you think this will cover it?”

I have hit a car before when I was living at my last apartment complex. I come home at like 1 or 2 in the morning so no one would have known it was me. There was no one there to see me do it, the scratch was small enough they probably wouldn’t have noticed for a while, D---- even told me not to say anything. But I left them a note with my number and told them to text me how much it would be to fix it. It was only 30$ and this new accident left even less damage. But he had seen me do it and I wasn’t in the mood to try and fight with him or have him bring up insurance.

He mumbled something about “well, since it’s new” before he took the money and went back into his store with the rest of the family. I drove around until I found a place I actually could park. In the back of a tattoo shop that clearly said “for customers only”. The shop was long closed, tho and I was already on the verge of losing my shit.

When S-- texted me that he was there, I walked up to the front door and we went in together. He was pretty ugly and seemed just as shy and nervous. He ordered his drink and I asked for a vodka redbull, but the bartender said they didn’t have any redbull. So, I asked if he could just make me a lemon drop as a cocktail. I guess he was pretty new because this short-circuited his brain a little bit and the other bartender had to come over and tell me that she could do that for me.

S-- got his drink immediately, but we had to wait for mine since the more experienced tender was making it and it seemed like she went to get some special vodka for it. It came in a fancy glass and everything and it was okay. I definitely would have preferred the redbull.

S-- and I talked a little bit here and there, but it was honestly mostly him being silent or on his phone while I looked around the tiny bar. It was cowboy-themed and had some fake candles on every table and not much else light. There were a lot of people coming in and out since there was an outside area, but it was honestly really boring. S-- was really boring. After about an hour of mostly looking at his phone, he said he just wasn’t feeling it and that he was sorry for making me drive half an hour out there.

I just went home after that.

I guess I broke even today, but fuck.

My good luck charm that I keep in my shoe broke right before I left to meet Sam.

I wonder if that had anything to do with it. Better find a replacement soon.

Total Earned: $3,460

Body Count: 15

Dick Pics: 13

Head Recieved: 3

Head Given: 13

Sex Ranking:

B------

Him

T----

W----

P-------

F----

A---

G--

R--

T-----

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

A----

M---

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November 22nd, 2023 (Part 1)

*Graphic Sexual Content*

It's been quite a while since I've received a dick pic. It feels kind of weird complaining about that. I don't think I'm even complaining, but most people would be so happy to stop Having to look at random people's dicks. It was kind of fun collecting them if I'm honest. it was fun showing them to D---- and laughing at them together. I'm not sure why that is. maybe I just finally got into the group of people that don't send dick pics very often and have weeded through all the ones that like to do that. although, I've also found so many people who like to flake. I'll make plans with a guy, then he either goes to me completely or keeps canceling over and over again. B--- has seemed like the best prospect, after F----. when F---- turned out to be kind of an asshole, B--- seems like he would be a good alternative. sure, he was incredibly boring and I had a sneaking suspicion sex would be ass, but he was so far most likely to be the most consistent person. but he ended up flaking on me two separate times before he finally just said that he wasn't going to try anymore. to be fair, those were his exact words, but I did try and make it work and he just straight up stopped answering my texts. oh well.

after having so many flakes, it's incredibly annoying and making it to where I kind of want to start looking at other sites. I've been getting semi good luck from this one site, but I'm running out of men in general, much less men that are actually going to meet me and pay me. W--- was an anomaly. I normally would not continuously go out with a person who's not paying me, but I really enjoyed him that first day and I even plan on seeing him later in the week. I know I'm going to have a good time and we'll probably end up having sex with him and I don't mind that. I obviously want to do that otherwise I wouldn't want to go. but it's incredibly annoying that I haven't gotten paid in quite a while. I really hope this isn't the death knell of my time as a sugar baby. I'll probably start signing up for some other sites soon enough. I found a Reddit thread about the sugar baby lifestyle, although it seems like I already have an account on the most popular site and everyone on there is kind of saying that it's shit. they're honestly isn't that much helpful information on there.

Today, I have plans to meet two different guys. I'm going to meet up with B------ around noon. I'm so excited to be able to meet up with him again. it's been quite a while since we fucked in the car and he keeps promising me that it'll be so much more enjoyable since he's going to actually get a hotel room. since it's so close to Thanksgiving, though, I told him that I'd be okay with only taking 100 this time instead of the usual 200 since most hotel rooms are extra expensive right now. yeah, this is a bad business move, especially since I keep complaining about how I haven't made that much money recently. but I'm also incredibly horny. and I enjoy B------ a lot. sue me. sometimes I just want to get dicked down by someone who actually knows what they're doing and isn't 103 years old.

We planed to meet at 12:30. he sent me the address to the hotel room and then also sent me some instructions to follow. apparently this is part of being a submissive. or it can be. I guess it's kind of like a role-playing thing, where the dominant will give you a set of instructions and you're supposed to do them. he had a special name for it but I forgot what it was. I'm sure I'll hear it again before too long. his instructions were to come to the room, take off all my clothes, and wait. pretty simple instructions. I also decided to go without any underwear or bra. F---- had asked me to do that and honestly I enjoy that more anyway. I fucking hate wearing underwear and a bra. sexy for the guy, comfy for me. win win. one last rule he had was that every time I came, I would have to lick it off of him. again, this is actually something I like so it wasn't that big a deal for me.

I got to the hotel, but he forgot to send me the room number so I waited for a while outside before he finally did. once he did that, I went over to the room and he opened the door for me, since hotel rooms lock automatically. I walked in, took off all my clothes and everything like he said, and waited. again, this wasn't a very difficult set of instructions. he had some music playing through a little speaker and was very quick to start touching me all over. his skin was just as soft as I remembered. his fingers were just as good as I remembered. it seemed that no matter how he touched me, I would get chills and goosebumps. it's so strange. two different people can touch me in the exact same way and my body will have such an immensely different reaction. I remembered when I was having sex with him, how he would Trace his fingers down my stomach, thigh, and underwear line. my entire body would shake with pleasure even though he wasn't actually even doing anything that sexual. it feels almost the same with B------. he could touch me on my back, on my arms, run his fingers through my hair I would already be on the edge of an orgasm. meanwhile, somebody else could do something similar and I would lay there like a dead fish. I want to get turned on, I'm probably already wet, but it's just not the same.

he also had me put on a blindfold which is very excited for. he had been telling me a little bit about sensory play, about putting on things like a blindfold and headphones so that your sense of touch was heightened. I was really looking forward to that. after I had the blindfold on, he led me to a little couch looking thing and had me kneel there while leaning against the arm. I wasn't uncomfortable, I could have stayed there for as long as he wanted me to. he continued to touch me, occasionally dipping his fingers up inside me. He commented on how wet I was. then he explained to me the game we were going to play.

This was going to be my first Step into getting into more BDSM things. it seems pretty much everybody is into impact play and that's honestly the first thing most people think of when I think of BDSM shit. he told me he had brought a bunch of different items, he was going to use them on me, and I was supposed to remember which one was which. he told me about this game before, how he had used it on other people. every time he would use one on me, he would ask me then to rate the Pain on a scale from 1 to 10 and then immediately after that asked me to write it on how much I enjoyed it from 1 to 10. there are quite a bit of them. I knew there were a bunch of different things they're used for this kind of stuff, I just didn't realize he had brought so many and then he was going to use so many of them on me. it was quite a bit of time that we spent actually doing this. he would tell me the name of it, then let me feel it with my hands, then you sit on me. he had me repeat what it was afterwards, then I would give him my numbers. I think I can remember them all off the top of my head:

Flogger: A leather flogger. pretty simple, if you know what a flogger is you know what this is. I can't remember exactly what I judged each of these on each scale, but I do remember that this is one of my favorites. not that painful and I actually quite enjoyable.

long flogger: very similar to the first, but longer. obviously. this one hurt a little bit more but still definitely one of my favorites. again, I actually enjoyed it and was it in terrible pain.

stinging fogger: this one had little thin strands and was much more painful than the other two floggers. I didn't like it that much, but they're definitely worse things on this list.

thuddy flogger: heavy and thick leather straps on this one. surprisingly, it actually didn't hurt very bad at all. it was definitely one of my favorites since the Pain Scale is very low and with all the floggers he was able to run them across my skin at a certain way that was very pleasurable.

dragon's tongue: this one was the first one he used. I was basically thick sheet of plastic that was cut down the middle. very much like a tongue of a serpent like it was named after. it reminded me a lot of those plastic clapping hands that you get from a shitty arcade. it definitely wasn't the worst, but it was not my favorite. low to mid-range on the pay scale and made to high range on the pleasure scale.

hemp cane: this was what seemed to be hemp just tied in a fancy way to make it kind of like a stick or rod. it was stiff enough to be painful, but because it was made out of a kind of rope, it wasn't as painful as I was expecting. I actually enjoyed the soft scratchy feeling of it. Another mid-range one on the Pain Scale and the pleasure scale.

short paddle: a pretty thick wooden paddle with holes drilled into it. once I felt the holes with my hand, I was nervous. I knew that that would help with the speed and pain. although, it did finally enough remind me of Swiss cheese. it was pretty painful and I didn't enjoy it very much at all. although, still not the worst.

long paddle: as the name suggests, it's exactly the same as the prior one just longer. this one was more painful and I disliked it even more because of that.

Tiny: B------ told me this was the first BDSM Type Toy he had ever gotten. and it wasn't even actually a toy. it was a wood especially he bought from Target and had filed down to make it a toy. I have heard about trying to make your own toys being pretty unsafe and this was actually very painful. I really didn't like it that much at all. still not the worst, but very near the bottom.

the rod: this one was the worst. he did warn me that it was going to be incredibly painful and didn't use it very hard or very much. in fact, he relegated only three strikes with both of these last two ones because he knew that they were more painful than the other ones. he also said that he actually didn't use these during play, more for a “punishment” type situation. it was just a long, metal rod. I obviously hated it.

the stick: surprisingly, this one wasn't that bad. this was another one that was supposed to be used in a “punishment” type situation, but since it was pretty much just a yardstick that was a little bit thicker, it wasn't that bad. me and my siblings just a whack each other with yardsticks fairly often, so maybe I'm just used to the feeling already. but honestly, I would prefer that over some of the paddles that he had used earlier.

after we had gone through each one individually, he went back and picked five at random. he said that if I got all five right, I would get reward. if I got less than three right, I would get a punishment. little did he know, that I am way too competitive for my own good. whenever there's a game involved, whether it be the religious crap that I had to do when I was younger or the BDSM shit, I tend to take any challenge probably way too seriously. there's a reason they stopped letting me play games with the other kids who didn't go to church as often as I did in religious education. he also gave me three chances to guess each toy, which led to me getting every single one correct. a few of them I even got right on the first try.

my reward? he ate me out. I was pretty surprised by this, though I shouldn't have been since he did say that giving pleasure to his Partners is actually one of his favorite things. he and I are very similar in that way. this makes B------ the third person I've ever slept with that actually gave me head. maybe I should add that to my statistics. unfortunately for B------, I've actually received much better head.

it wasn't bad. it was actually very good and I might have cum in his mouth if he had gone a little bit longer. he definitely was more into licking my ass, which he had told me he was in the ass eating before, than he really was focused on my pussy and clit. T----- was also in eating ass, but he usually did the two separately. He was definitely the best person I've ever had. I don't know how he knew, but he would always put his tounge exactly where I wanted. the perfect mix of speeding, up slowing down, more direct focus on the clit, using his fingers inside me to make me absolutely scream with pleasure. B------ was good, but I don't know if he'll ever stand a chance against him. not to mention he did it every time we had sex. it seemed like it was one of his favorite things to do. I remember once when I was on my period and we were just getting to the point where he would fuck me and he leaned down and whispered in my ear about how badly he wanted to eat me out. how sad he was that I was on my period. I'm hot just now thinking about it.

I miss him so badly.

it wasn't a bad reward. it wasn't exactly what I was expecting, but pretty soon after that, he was actually putting his dick inside me. There was a little bit of pain as he stretched me out. I guess I still wasn't used to him. he's definitely the biggest I've ever been with. he will probably always be the biggest I will have ever been with. it took me a little bit, but eventually he was able to fuck me without any pain. I'm pretty sure he went all the way inside me this time. it only took us three times before he was able to actually bury that big ass cock deep inside me. he felt so good inside me, but he wouldn't let me cum. I would wine and beg and plead and squirm and moan so loud with pleasure, but the Orgasm denial that he showed me that first day was back. I loved it. when he finally let me cum, it was such a wave of relief. after that, he took me off the bed and had me lick up my cum off his dick. I guess that checks off the mandatory dick sucking that's required and every single sexual encounter I have, but it wasn't bothered by it because I actually like the taste of my own cum. it was the only time we ended up doing that even though it was one of his rules. I asked him about it afterward, why he had stopped enforcing that role, and he said that I just came so much all the time and he really didn't want to have to stop and start over and over again.

pretty soon, he had me on all fours. again, his dick was shoved inside me and this angle is one of my favorites. doggy style seems to always just hit that right spot for me, and B-------'s dick always pushes me to my limit. I had to beg for my orgasm again. the way his hands would grab my waist and he would use my whole body as a fleshlight, just pounding himself inside me. it's like heaven. he did eventually let me have another orgasm. then, he told me to stay exactly in place and I felt him get off the bed. I heard him moving things around. more toys.

when he came back, he squirted Lube all over my ass, even getting some of it dripping to my legs. not that big deal as my own cum was already dripping down my legs. his finger gently dipped inside my asshole. we had talked about how I wasn't ready to do anal with his actual cock yet. he was just way too big and even though I had done anal with F----, F---- had not been that big. plus, we had talked about how much I enjoyed the double penetration T---- had done to me so long ago. sure enough, after he had sufficiently lubedme up, I felt a vibrating toy being pushed inside. it felt kind of like anal beads. I definitely was enjoying myself. soon, he also pushed dick back into my pussy. such a strange sensation, getting so much pleasure from the two different places at the same time. it was hard to focus on one, hard to feel exactly where all my pleasure was coming from. I had to beg for my orgasm a few more times.

After a little bit, he took the toy out of my ass and began lubing it up again. in between each time he did this, He would instruct me to stay exactly where I was. I would be there on the bed, ass open in the air, just waiting for him to stick something else in. and he always did. a new toy soon entered me, this time pretty clearly a butt plug. we went back to him fucking me with that inside me. we went round and round with me begging to cum, him denying me until it was almost too much, then letting me go. he also kept changing out the plug, getting bigger and bigger each time. he ended up using four different ones, and on the last one I was definitely beginning to feel stretched. it was almost painful, almost to the point where I asked him to stop. I stretched and stretched and gripped the sheets. right at the last second, right before I called it off, my ass took the whole thing. I was definitely stretched, and there was a twinge of pain, but it definitely was not unbearable and I got enough pleasure from it that I was able to ignore the pain. from here, he fucked me until he came inside me also allowing me another orgasm of my own. I came seven times. he usually makes me count, so I kept counting just in case.

After that, I took the blindfold off and he gave me a towel to clean myself up with. not very many men do that. I kind of forgot he did that. it's such a weird mix being with all these guys and even the ones that you feel like do kind of care about your experience don't do that kind of stuff. after we cleaned ourselves up, he had me go ahead and look at all the toys he had used. we started with the anal stuff, because he wanted to show off how good I had done. I was incredibly surprised to see the toys I had you just had inside me laying out there on the towel. the biggest one, the one that I had a little bit of trouble with, was so much bigger than I had imagined. in thickness, it was pretty comparable to B------. all of them are also much longer than I expected. he also showed me what I thought to be anal beads, but it was pretty much just a vibrator with a bunch of little orbs on it. the thing was close to 7 in long, and he told me I took all of it. he was really excited, since this meant that I could probably eventually take him. it really wouldn't take that much longer or that much more stretching before I Would be able to fit his entire dick in my ass.

he also had me look at all the toys he had me rank. most of them, looked exactly how I imagined them based on how they felt in my hands. he had me sort them from the one I like the most so the one I like the least out on the bed. we talked about them a little bit, he explained to me the story of tiny, he told me about other toys he wanted to use, toys he wanted to buy, all kinds of stuff. he washed off all the anal toys for me, gave me instructions on how to take care of them, and told me that I could take them home. his only rule was anytime I use them I had to talk to him about it. and I want to use them, but that means I have to go out and buy Lube at some point. he also told me he had gotten me more but they just had to come in on time. he said there's suction cup on the bottom. very intriguing.

after talking about the toys and him showing me some of the girls he had been with before and talking about that plus some of the gangbang groups he was in, he asked me when I had to leave and how many times I had cum. I told him 7 and I really didn't have a time I need to leave, since the only plans I had for the day was going to my meet and greet with S-- but that wasn't until 7:00 and it was only two at that point. he thought about it for a second, and said he thought he could squeeze in at least four more orgasms.

I laid back down on the bed, he finished cleaning the last of the toys and got them all packaged up, then we were at it again. this time, every time I asked he let me cum. I was mostly on my back, but he also turned me on my side, twisting my torso my legs separately I'm pushing himself deep inside me that way. I never been in that position before and I enjoyed it very much. since he wasn't denying me any orgasm this time, I came over and over and over again. like I usually do with others. in all honesty, this time was even better than when I was blindfolded. I think since he was actually less focused on the performance side of it and more on just a good plain old fucking, he was a little bit more rough, more straight to the point then the fancy start And stop and specialize movement to try and get somebody on the edge without pushing them over. instead, we just had a good old fashioned fuck. I ended up cuming 12 times in the span of about 10 to 15 minutes. and he also came again, saying that was the quickest he's ever cum twice in a row. I've heard that a few times. even W---- said something about how he had a hard time actually cuming due to the mix of medication he was on and was very pleased when he was able to cum inside me.

we talked for a little bit longer, he gave me the money, gave me the anal toys, then I left. he stayed behind a little bit longer to clean up a little bit and who knows, maybe he invited another girl over. I have no clue. we talked a little bit about his past conquests and he said he's been with at least 120 people off this one site alone. for all I know, he invited a girl immediately after me. I wouldn't be bothered by it. it's not like I'm not doing the exact same thing later on tonight.

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vodka-redbull-daily · 5 months

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November 19th, 2023

*Graphic Sexual Content*

I finally said A---- today. he has been making a big deal about how he says he's different than everyone else, how he's going to be such a good teacher, how he's so much better than all these other guys. I was talking about how he would help me get over J----. he had me call him for a whole hour the other night. he was one of the guys that was saying that he really didn't want me sleeping around with everyone else, as if that's not what the whole point of that site is. yesterday, he had gotten pretty annoyed cuz I didn't text him all day even though I told him I was going to be out with somebody else. I did actually have a plan to see M-- this morning, but he ended up canceling on me last minute. so, I went out with A---- instead.

he was kind of demanding and rude. kept saying I was too shy and that I needed to not be shy. I think maybe he was trying to neg me? it was weird and it kept telling me how I needed to dye my hair black cuz it looks good with my skin tone, how I needed to not get any more tattoos because guys didn't like that, basically everything he thought I should change about myself. I was already pretty annoyed with him I figured I wasn't going to see him after that. don't fucking tell me what to do.

we went to go to The Cheesecake Factory and he was pretty rude to the waiters. super bossy, super demanding. he also made me do this weird thing where I sucked on his fingers in the parking lot. anyway, we ate some food and he forced me to eat some of his salmon. I mean it was good, but it was kind of weird cuz he kept just piling it on my plate even though I knew I wasn't going to be able to finish my own pasta. I'm never really able to finish food in front of other people. we also got some cheesecake afterwards, but didn't get to finish. so come I got to take home leftover pasta and leftover cheesecake.

after that, we went back to his place even though I kind of just wanted to go home. at this point, I could already tell that he wasn't going to pay me. he seemed to be one of those “ I'm going to pay you in experience” kind of people. sure enough, he just ended up demanding and bossing me around for a little bit before I took off my clothes and we went to the bedroom. there, we proceeded to have some of the worst sex I've ever had. M--- Was pretty bad, but that was excusable seemings as he's barely had any sex. A---- put on this whole Persona of how amazing he was and how much he knew. maybe he was just blowing smoke. I mean, he had to be, right?

I was actually wet when he took off my pants. to be fair, I'm usually wet. but then he went and got paper towels and started wiping me off. it was so weird. that's the point of sex. he literally wiped away all the natural lube. then, he started rubbing my clit, was so extremely rough with it. since I just had kind of a wild night with W---- the night before, he was going at it so aggressively that I was painful. anytime I would try and close my legs or push him off, he would super aggressively tear my legs open again. he kept pulling my lips so wide apart, way past where they were supposed to go. it was almost like he was trying to get inside of my clit. it was so weird and so painful and I kept pushing him off because it was so uncomfortable. he only ever put a finger in me once and I tried to make it very clear how much I like that and he almost immediately stopped.

the entire time, he was sweating profusely. it wasn't even that warm in the apartment and we were both completely naked. he wasn't even moving that much or doing that much work. I was doing 90% of the work with all that sucking and shit that men always have me too. he kept grabbing my Fistful of my hair and yanking it so hard, being so painful for no reason. he was sweating so much that when he was leaning over me to finger my clit terribly, it was dripping down on to me and made a little puddle in my stomach. it smelled so bad. it was so gross. with how rough he was, how gross it was, how uncomfortable the whole thing was, I was honestly on the verge of telling him to stop or starting to throw fists. I wasn't going to get paid for this terrible experience, he was going to get his own satisfaction and I was just going to be left there annoyed and covered in his nastiness.

after way too long, and of course too much dick sucking, he finally put on a condom and tried to actually fuck me. but it didn't work of course because he had wiped away all the natural lube. I was incredibly dry now cuz he kept wiping me off with paper towels and those latex condoms just wouldn't go in. plus I think he got soft almost as soon as he saw me. maybe he's closeted gay. it was really weird. it obviously wasn't working so he had me suck him again. After a minute, he just decided that we were done. he said something about wanting to shower and we went over to the bathroom.

we got in, I rinsed off, then he just started pouring soap on me I started rubbing me up and down. he was still incredibly rough, but at least I was getting all this fucking nasty sweat off me. he kept saying random shit like “ oh I bet you've never had anybody wash you off before”. first of all, it's kind of weird, so no people don't normally do that. second one I actually have had somebody do that for me. T---- did that a few times when we were dating. but that was more like reaching my back or for places that I couldn't. of course, A---- demanded that I wash him as well which obviously turned into more dick sucking because what else do guys want. this time, he actually came and I swallowed it. which was good, because hopefully that meant that he was fucking done finally.

He kept asking me if I wanted a towel, but I just got dressed trying to signal that I was ready to go. he spent like a good 10 to 15 minutes in the bathroom doing God knows what. after he came out, he tried to ask me to stay there and watch TV with him, but I was pretty strict about saying I wanted to go home. on the drive home, he asked me if I had a good time and I told him flat out no. maybe a little bit ironically, but that was the loudest I had said anything to him and it kept telling me to be loud. he seemed a little bit annoyed, but it was whatever. it was one of the most horrible experiences of my life. he dropped me off, told me to text in the next day, then blocked me on everything.

fucking men. I hate them.

Total Earned: $3,360

Body Count: 15

Dick Pics: 13

Sex Ranking:

B-------

Him

T-----

W----

P-----

F----

A---

G--

R--

T------

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

A----

M---

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vodka-redbull-daily · 5 months

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November 18th, 2023 (Part 2)

*Graphic Sexual Content*

I like W---- a lot. I made the rookie mistake of sleeping with him without getting paid for it, and I can't tell if that was a good idea or not. he messaged me a few days ago, his header on the site saying “looking for arm candy for a fancy corporate party”. we got along really well over text, but obviously he wanted to meet in person to make sure that we were going to be a good match. he seemed pretty chill and I've honestly been hurting for some good sex. we agreed to meet up at a little bar on the outskirts of Austin and then he said he had a surprise that he was going to take me to afterwards.

at the bar, of course I got a vodka Redbull and he had brought his dog. very sweet little guy that was constantly asking me for pets. his name was A-----. we talked for a long time. we talked about a lot of stuff. it was a bittersweet mix. I knew we hadn't discussed terms before, so most likely I wasn't going to get paid for tonight. we honestly hadn't discussed sex, but I know guys well enough to know that they'll jump at the chance. if I offered, he was going to take it. what made it worse though, was how much it reminded me of my first date with J----,

HIM.

that amazing first date. how we sat and talked for hours. how we went from place to place ordering more drinks because we didn't want to leave each other. I thought I was getting over him, but I guess not.

after the sun went down, we went back to W----'s Place for a little bit while we waited for 7:30. that's when the surprise was at and we were going to take an Uber there since we had both been drinking. we listened to some music, talked a lot more, pet A----- a lot. I wore my fancy pants and a button-down shirt because I wasn't exactly sure what the surprise was going to be and it very quickly got covered in dog hair. At 7:15, he ordered an Uber and we made our way back into downtown Austin.

when we got there, there was a little bit of a line at the front door. he told me that I need to have my ID and that they were going to end up taking my cell phone. very mysterious, but I was pretty intrigued about what was going to be happening in there. seems pretty serious if they were going to be taking your cell phones and they were also taking people's smartwatches. when we walked in, they put all our Electronics in these little bags and sealed them and then handed them back to us. there was a live band playing and it was incredibly loud and there were a bunch of spotlights and stuff going crazy plus a fog machine. we got seated at our specific table and I think there was another couple that was supposed to sit with us, since there were four chairs and W---- said we had the two in the back. nobody else showed up, though.

I had mostly gotten sobered up at this point, but I ordered another vodka Red Bull and he ordered more whiskey. turns out, it was a mix between live music and a comedy show. I had never been to a comedy show before, but had always kind of wanted to go. the problem with comedy shows is that sometimes people think of it as a way to be able to say as much offensive shit as they want to get away with it under the disguise of “Comedy”. I was especially worried that was going to happen here since they had taken away our cell phones.

Sure enough, they had like an opening guy that kind of announced everybody as they came on and that guy was an ass. he was really rude to the crowd and said a lot of weird jokes about how homeless people shouldn't exist. I didn't like him very much at all. there were a few good comedians. there was a woman who I think was the best and the second to last Act was also very good. although, at that point it was pretty drunk. however, a lot of the Acts were just kind of boring and weird. and then there was one act where all he did was start saying offensive shit over and over and over again literally reading off his phone terrible jokes. W---- seemed to like it a lot. he was laughing a lot. there was one joke that I forgot who made about how people with Messy cars are often really good at sex. he asked me how messy my car was. I told him that if that joke was true, I was going to blow his mind. he laughed at that, too.

he had had his hand on my thigh throughout the whole thing but by the time the show was over, we were making out. and mix between me being horny as fuck, drunk as fuck, and it being late as fuck. he did this thing where he kept biting my lip really hard and it's pretty swollen now. I guess it was supposed to be sexy or something. he called us an Uber to go back to his place. it wasn't too terribly long of a drive and soon enough we were back at his house. we went upstairs and I laid down on the bed.

he took everything nice and slow and I knew I made the correct judgment that he was actually going to be good at sex unlike a lot of people I've been seeing recently. he gave me some nice hickies on my tits, since guys like to do that I guess. he also didn't make me suck his dick which was awesome. I had him lay down a few towels and after that he said that he was going to go grab something and be right back. that's what J---- said every time he was going to go grab a condom. instead, W---- came back with a big-ass vibrator.

He spent a good 30 minutes just making me cum over and over again with it. it was much better than the vibrator I have at home and the amount of pleasure I was getting was insane. it was so intense that the vibrator ended up cutting out twice. after the second time, he ended up actually setting it to the side. he laughed and said that it was hot because the motor was overworked. he said something about how a lot of girls can't do that, how they can't cum back to back for so long like that. I thought that was more of a guy thing. I didn't realize that it was also the same with girls. since I was cuming so much and I just naturally squirt a lot, the towel actually didn't end up doing very much. there was a big ass wet spot in the middle of his bed when he rolled me over.

he started with me in doggy style before he just had me lay flat on my stomach. this was a new position nobody else had ever done before. he fucked me like that for quite a while before he ended up pulling out. apparently he was also going to have an issue finishing. he says the medication he was on didn't stop him from getting hard, but did kind of make it difficult for him to ever actually finish. we talked for a little bit more and decided that I should spend the night. The problem was I had had the equivalent of four red bulls and he quickly fell asleep, but I was wired. I laid there for a little bit, trying to go to sleep, before I remember that I had to take my birth control. I obviously hadn't brought it with me and he said that if I wanted to go home I could just wake him up.

so, I woke him up to let him know about the birth control problem. however, we ended up making out again and soon he had me on my back. we fucked again and this time he was actually able to cum, which he was very pleased about. We ended up talking again. I was trying to get out of there by 1:30 and I didn't leave until almost an hour after that. he drove me back to the bar where I had parked my car and I ended up going home. we talked about how much of a good time we had and how we would definitely want to do it again. and I would. I don't know if this even counts as an appointment since I didn't get paid for it. I think I just had sex with somebody. I guess I relapsed back into my Tinder era a little bit. but it had been so long since I had had good sex. B------ wants to meet up with me again, but that's not till Wednesday.

Total Earned: $3,360

Body Count: 14

Dick Pics: 13

Sex Ranking:

B------

Him

T-----

W----

P------

F----

A---

G--

R--

T-------

J--

M--- (x2)

D--

M---

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