wisheswagered

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okay so i'm sorry for the lack of activity & the emma starters i owe, otl. depression + mental health has been acting up again, a little worse than last time, and it's been super hard to get myself to do anything. i'm gonna try and work on stuff when I can, though!

#ooc #replying to messages will also be slow but i will try!! you're free to poke me if you want too <333

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WILL YOU SURVIVE?

WISHESWAGERED: an independent multimuse for characters from the game identity v, written by meri. a horror themed blog featuring frederick kreiburg as the primary muse. if interested in interacting, like or reblog this post, and i'll take a look at your blog!

#identity v rp #idv rp #video game rp #anime rp #manga rp #indie horror rp #new promo while i'm in my emma-loving era... i can't help myself ;ww;

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DOES ANYONE WANT AN EMMA STARTER?? c:<

#ooc #IDK she's always been one of my idv faves but i don't usually feel like SUPER strongly about her. like esp compared to frederick. #but for some reason today my brain is like.......... EMMA WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD #idk i love her a lot!!!! #fred is still my number 1 but she is so <3 #starter call. #anyway i got her new s tier because i have no self control help meeeeeeeee (i love it tho)

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man that last reply got me thinking about frederick trapped in the manor again.... he's so????

it's not enough for him just to be able to help people with music. because to him, even if he wasn't doing anything, he thinks that someone else would just step in instead and do something else that could fill that role just as well. because of that, he specifically craves like......... to be able to do something that no-one else could, i think??? something only he could do, something that makes him truly needed, in a way so that if he wasn't there, something would really be missing.

maybe it's selfish. a need to be special more than anything else. or maybe it's not. idk, but like............ i have gotta say i find more traits in frederick to relate to every day SDJGKSFHKG

#ooc #headcanons. #IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN WHAT I MEAN BUT IT'S LIKE............. when you feel like you aren't truly helping people or it ''doesn't count'' becaus #someone else could do what you're doing just as well as you can............. and probably would even if you did nothing?? #i really struggle with this sometimes idk. and apparently frederick does too; as i have just discovered now- #it's not a trait i like in myself because it /feels/ self-centered but it still gets me!! maybe it's not though???? idk #anyway frederick kreiburg i love you so much and it's kind of cathartic to have him experience the same struggles tbh. #truly the muse of all time!!

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frederick kreiburg i love you

#frederick. #YEAHHHHHHH!!!! #i love you so much frederick.............. c:

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Music. Of course. For a brief moment, Frederick wants to scoff - what good can music do now, he thinks - but then he catches himself mid-thought. How... could he of all people ever think such a thing? It almost feels blasphemous.

Because for Frederick, music has always been his salvation. Music is the one thing that's kept him going, lifting him out of the darkness that drags him down, keeping him afloat in a world sinking in madness. Suddenly, he feels ashamed that he could ever forget that, even for a moment.

He'd always thought that he was the only one who was saved by music in that way. No-one else ever seemed to understand it's value, not in the way he did, but... if anyone could understand... could his fellow survivors really be saved by music in the same way music once saved him?

It seems impossible. If it hasn't even been enough for Frederick until now, how could it be enough for anyone else? But in spite of that doubt, he clings to the thought anyway, because it's something he wants to believe in.

"...I can't believe I could ever forget..." he speaks aloud with a wry smile, more to himself than to Emily. To be honest... he still thinks perhaps that there's nothing his performances can bring that couldn't instead be provided just as well by something else, from someone else. It's frustrating, demoralizing in a way that he can't shake at the moment. But those thoughts are surely unforgiveable. For Frederick, there was nothing else that ever could have saved him. Music was his only shining light.

"Miss Dyer... I believe you might be right." Frederick sits up a little straighter, and for the first time, it feels like there's something behind his gaze that isn't emptiness, even if he's still so, so tired.

"One must never underestimate the power of music to heal the soul." And more selfishly... a part of Frederick hopes that it won't just be someone else's music that helps the survivors here, but his own. That maybe here, he'll find the inspiration he needs to compose a masterpiece he's been missing for so long.

"A musician like me, who's been dealing in cheap imitations... I still doubt that my skills could be enough to heal anyone as I am now. But if I were to compose a new piece..." Doubt suddenly bites at him again, like a viper. It's too scary to have hope. "Could I truly be needed...?"

"This manor is so dreary... I believe music could help bring some peace to those of us who are trapped here." It was rare to see the Doctor smile, mostly because she didn't bother faking it anymore. But this wasn't fake. Emily could treat a hundred different ailments, but it wouldn't fix anything in this place. People would always get hurt again. It was just a temporary heal. But...maybe talking to Frederick like this could truly heal a significant part of him. Maybe this could really help.

She turned her gaze away as she looked over her papers again. "Our physical wounds will eventually heal with time, but the mental damage only continues to grow in a place like this. I remember reading about the effects of music on the mind when I was younger. I believe your skills could truly bring some good to this manor, Mr. Kreiburg."

There was a pause before she looked back at him. "Or perhaps you could investigate a different pastime. Many Survivors want nothing to do with the occupations they held before coming to the manor. Perhaps you need a fresh start. Unfortunately, I cannot make that decision for you."

#ic #crownshattered #v. frederick; tag tbd. #thinking about frederick's quasi-religious sort of relationship with music............. man........ #normally he'd never be so openly vulnerable like he's being now; but i feel like in the manor after everything he's gone through #especially shared with his fellow survivors... it feels natural to him here?? #he is Growing........... slowly. ;ww;

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i am on my hands and knees begging for the new character letters for orpheus & grace................... i could only read antiquarian's over on the asian server because of only being able to do one birthday event per character a year ;~~;

#ooc #IF YOU SEND ME THE LETTERS............ I WILL CONSIDER MARRYING YOU KSFJHDSKFJHDSJFKHDSJKFS

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YALL 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

here

#YOU GUYS............................!!!!!!!!!!!!! #god i just noticed this 10 minutes ago and i've been SO excited since then. please i need to know more RIGHT NOW-

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Being in the paper doesn't seem like that much of an accomplishment to Frederick, but he supposes he's grown used to being in the public eye - be it for praise or slander.

But from her answer, it sounds like there's not much more he can tell her. After all, anything he knows is only second-hand, through investigations into her life after the fact. But...

"I'm not sure how you would expect me to know that, Miss Woods." he replies curtly, adjusting the sleeves of his coat without thinking. Whether it matters or not... is something only they can decide, perhaps. Unless she wants to know if it matters for escaping this place, which isn't something he could know any more than she could.

...He can't just leave it at that, though.

"When I... looked into you. I read about your time at the orphanage. It sounds like it was quite the ordeal." He seems uncomfortable once more as he speaks, but hides it well enough, as he thinks about the things he'd heard - about electroshock therapies and runaways...

"I believe that orphanage was converted into an asylum at some point during your stay. ...Does that sound familiar to you?"

"i happened to read a newspaper article. i was in the paper! do you believe it?" emma's mood seems to shift, eyes brightening for a moment, before dimming once more. it seems she was heavily thinking about quite a few things at once. and mr. kreiburg's deferring answer ... didn't seem to answer any questions that lingered.

her lips seem to turn at his question, head lowering. "nothing much. i remember ... my father, miss emily, the orphanage... the fire.." she stops speaking right then. her body language changes, shoulders lifting as if she is trying to hide herself from feeling the emotions that suddenly come on, like she was struck. "that doesn't matter though, right-? or does it..?"

#ic #mlssamericana #v. frederick; tag tbd. #tw asylums // #tw torture // #NOT 100% SURE HOW TO TAG THIS BUT....... #emma............. i love her......... ;ww;

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okay frederick replies are coming up, i'm almost done with one of them, but while i've got muse for her, would anyone like a demi starter?? <3

#ooc #MY OG IDV FAVE............ she holds a special place in my heart <333 #starter call.

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OKAY SO.... LIKE THIS POST FOR AN IVY STARTER??? IF YOU'RE INTERESTED C:

#ooc #starter call. #i wanna write her so so bad...

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Now that she's out, Ivy is officially added as a muse!! I may not understand like 50% of her lore but listen your honor. i love her. SDHKJVDSK

#ooc #i want to try and get her but i can't afford to spend money rn......... gotta wait till next month. cries #anyway i'll post a starter call soon for her if anyone's interested so!!

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I want frederick kreiburg to kill a man. send post.

#ooc #OKAY I'M MESSING AROUND EJFHKJDFS BUT LIKE #a verse set in the real world where frederick kills someone and has to deal with that... would be SO interesting......... #idk if it'd be related to the manor or completely unrelated #like i have no specific scenarios in mind yet #but him with another muse either both being in on it and having to cover it up... or him being discovered... or him hiding it and feeling #guilty... idk. #wishlist.

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i suddenly feel like.... post-manor escape threads where frederick DOESN'T have any memories of what transpired there. well, consciously, at least. idk, would anyone be interested in plotting something out...??

#ooc #that and pre-manor threads too since i don't have many of those atm #wishlist.

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𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐟𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 ?

the rose hip fairy

laid-back and unconcerned with material goods, you value your freedom above all else. woe betide whoever thinks they can tame you. still, people in your life may feel hurt by your detachment. don't fear commitment; love is not a prison.

the crab-apple fairy

you take pride in having a down-to-earth and practical nature. sometimes you're as sour as the little crab-apples, and about as stubborn, but you have a heart of gold and plenty of wisdom to share. your perfectionism when it comes to yourself should not be projected onto others; allow yourself to be gentle and sweet, too. it does not make you weak.

tagged by: no-one! tagging: everyone who wants to do it!

#ooc #( memes. ) #THE GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!

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𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐮𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝 ?

ruined by loneliness

you are so lonely. you are miserable in your solitude. you hate that you cannot bring yourself to reach out, to ask for help. you will be forgotten by all who never knew you. your biggest fear is that you will die alone, and you know this fear will be seen to fruition. you refuse to extend yourself beyond the box that others put you in. and it is a box that no one dare come near. you are lonely because you are afraid of yourself.

tagged: stolen. uwu

tagging: anyone who's brainrotting about their muse(s) right now!

#ooc #( memes. ) #this tracks tbh................ #i'm so emo about him today.............

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would anyone like... a starter...?? c:

#( self reblog. ) #god my frederick muse is AWAKE thanks to the new skin reveal <3333