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all of this starving has made me genuinely stupid. i can’t count things anymore, i can’t read something once and understand it, and i can’t have a conversation while doing something else. i used to be intelligent and i prided myself on that but my brain cells are rotting away. i have a big vocabulary i just can’t remember any of the words i used to know. i read a lot but i can’t retain information for more than 2 minutes anymore.

and i just hate that i’m doing this to myself. what if i just stay this way forever, even if i do recover?

i don’t know what i’m going to do when i go back to school in the fall. my brain isn’t working properly but i can’t bring myself to start eating more.

my attention span has disintegrated along with my body. i don’t know what to do.

#not pr0 ana #anarecca #ed rant #ana rant #waif

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does anyone else love to not eat but also have an intrinsic fear of fainting?

#not pr0 ana #anarecca #waif

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my favorite thing about having an ed is not having a personality until i eat dinner (aka real food)

#waif #not pr0 ana #anarecca

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little women is and is and is the best movie in the fucking world

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i’m back bitches 

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really starting to lose my shit again tehe

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amen 💋

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it’s funny that my thinspo pinterest has gone from just skinny people to genuinely emaciated people

love that for me

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i’m so ready to be skiny lmao it’s all i want

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Why does binge eating always feel so good but soo bad at the same time ?

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you know it’s bad when you wake up sweating from a nightmare about accidentally eating 1500 cals and then thinking it was real lmao

#ed stuff #tw ed mention #not pr0 ana #anarecca #anamia

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this is shitty but does anyone else feel like that because they eat three times a day they’re fine and don’t have a d*sorder because i know i restrict and everything but i still eat like more than most people

idk i’m just feeling guilty :/

hope everyone’s doing ok

#anarecca #not pr0 ana #tw ed mention #ed stuff

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i hate my life :)

#messy french girl #heroin chic #kate moss #waif #coquette #anarecca #alexa chung #not pr0 ana

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I’m currently on bed rest so this lyric from funeral felt really real today. So I drew a little cozy ghost to make me feel better.

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