a-wintone

[a-wintone]

Exorcise, absorb. Over and over. Exorcise. Absorb. No one else understands what cursed spirits taste like. It's like swallowing a dirty rag that's been used to clean up shit and vomit. Who am I doing this for?

[a-wintone]

nice argument, however i have monkeys at typewriters typing your ip out dumbass. as soon as one of them gets it right youre fucking dead

[a-wintone]

Cherry memories

Somebody like yourself, true and kind, would never understand this aching heart of mine

I'm no good at living, but I don't wanna die, and so I write songs to pass the time

I feel it everyday, the words, the hate, the sheer disgust of everybody as they look my way

It's why I only write songs that hurt other people now

And songs without a soul like the one that you're hearing now

(c)"Thought crime " by Yorushika, cover translation by Rachie

#tgcf #heaven official's blessing #tgcf fanart #mu qing #my artwork #i am obsessed #with him in particular #this songs lives in my mind rent free by now #yorushika #thought crime #rachie #tian guan ci fu

[a-wintone]

I can't forget, I can't forgive you

'Cause now I'm scared

That everyone I love will leave

me

(c) Conan Gray, "Family line "

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #my art #jjk fanart #satosugu #gojo satoru #geto suguru #this was actually a pic for d12 of inktober #im going through the satosugu heartbreak #again #520

[a-wintone]

After ending

Nothing's left.

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #gojo satoru #satosugu #my art #my artwork #procreate #i have no funny tags in mind so this post is pure angst

[a-wintone]

My crush asked me if I'm bi, but little did he know I said yes only bc he exists

#the friendzone is killin me #I've dreamt about him last night #this shit is getting serious #AND I DON'T LIKE IT

[a-wintone]

I stay up all night

Tell myself I'm alright

Baby, you're just harder to see than most

I put the record on

Wait 'til I hear our song

Every night I'm dancing with your ghost

(c)"Dancing with your ghost", by Sasha Alex Sloan

#mdzs #mo dao zu shi #my artwork #mdzs art #lan wangji #wangxian #love them #procreate #oh yeah the ANGST baby #sorry

[a-wintone]

[mdzs] Analysis of Jiang Cheng’s name and character traits

After my previous posts on WWX and LWJ’s names (now LSZ’s also), I decided to do another one on Jiang Cheng, as I think this reference sheds so much light on his significance in the story.

Jiang Cheng’s name derives from a poem by renowned Tang Dynasty poet Du Mu. “云阔烟深树，江澄水浴秋” (yún kuò yān shēn shù, jiāng chéng shuǐ yù qiū) translates to “vast clouds and mists entwine the deep forest trees; autumn bathes in the clear river”. Cheng (澄) itself means “to make [sth] clear and unclouded”.

The poem paints a vivid picture of autumn’s colours dancing on the clear water. Interestingly, the phrase 秋水 (directly meaning autumn waters), is used to describe a longing gaze, deriving from the Chinese idioms 秋水伊人 (meaning the friend one is longing for) and 望穿秋水 (meaning await with great anxiety).

My heart aches at this discovery. Doesn’t this bring to mind JC’s plight of persuading WWX to abandon the dark and perilous demonic path, his envy of WWX and LWJ’s relationship, the months he spent waiting anxiously for his return from the Burial Mounds, and looking after Chen Qing for 13 years whilst keeping faith that one day he might see his brother again? JC’s father chose his name to mean “clear, untarnished”, however throughout his life he lived in WWX’s shadow... he hid his true feelings towards him behind brash words in life and raging condemnation in death.

Jiang Cheng’s zi, or courtesy name Wan Yin (晚吟), comes from a poem by another Tang Dynasty poet Xu Hui. “茶香秋梦后，松韵晚吟时” (chá xiāng qiū mèng hòu, sōng yùn wǎn yín shí) translates to “I wake from a hazy nap in autumn, enshrouded by the fragrant aroma of tealeaves; at dusk I saunter and recite poetry, the pine branches swaying in time”. The words Wan (晚) means “at night” and Yin (吟) means “to recite” or “to cry/lament”. The poem’s depiction of a deep sense of abstruse melancholy – as the poet spends his days in Autumn idly, being indifferent to the world – is widely quoted by Chinese literati of today’s age.

To me, this is a great depiction of how lost and despondent JC would have been the first few years after WWX’s death. Let’s not forget that he is the only surviving character in the story who lost every single person dear to him the moment WWX died – it’s hard to imagine how he managed to rebuild the Sect without anyone by his side...

Bonus trivia: Both JC’s birth and courtesy names are taken from scenic moments set in Autumn. In Chinese tradition, the Autumn season is associated with the emotions of both courage (霜气横秋) and sadness (秋风落叶), the act of mourning (秋祭), and is also connected to the Westward direction, often considered to be the direction of dreams and enlightenment. These words depict JC’s key events in mdzs – courage when he saved WWX from the Xuan Wu cave, sadness when WWX defected from the Jiang Sect, mourning when he lost all his loved ones, and enlightenment when he found out about the golden core and finally resolved his inner turmoil.

#JC is so precious please protect him at all costs #jiang cheng #yunmeng bros #i cry for them #every fucking time #damn im even sadder now #mdzs

[a-wintone]

Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment

[a-wintone]

was suddenly moved to draw a toony sort of character design .. but this is a bit too close to 2013 tumblr sexyman for my own comfort

#so cool #this reminded me of soul eater

[a-wintone]

Yo, what did he do?

and list go on since

[a-wintone]

Gate… close.

Wendell Berry / Tim Seibles / James Baldwin / Mahmoud Darwish / Mary Oliver / Mahmoud Darwish / Octavio Paz / Madeline Miller / Florence + the Machine / Trista Mateer / Ocean Vuong / Akutami Gege, Jujutsu Kaisen

#I AM IN TEARS #satosugu #this made me so emotional oh god #i love them i love them i love them so much #i want to punch something

[a-wintone]

It was never about the babies, but it doesn’t matter even if it was.

[a-wintone]

what are ur beliefs

whatever’s funniest

[a-wintone]

ugh i'm so mad i'm going to go home and touch my husband's tits so i won't be mad

[a-wintone]

[a-wintone]

The Untamed + text posts pt.2 (pt.1)

bonus: