akwardweasel

[akwardweasel]

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[akwardweasel]

Everything you like just reminds me of you

[akwardweasel]

“Hey, haven’t seen you in awhile?” they asked

“Well, I’ve never been myself in awhile” I answered

[akwardweasel]

Don’t hesitate

I survived an accident yesterday

And I thank God that Im still alive

But I also thought to myself

Keep doing whatever makes you happy but within limits

Tell her how you feel

Tell her that you love her

Travel all you want

Enjoy your youth if you have the chance

Give more to your parents

Show your love to them more than you display currently

You dont know what’s going to happen to you after today

But you only can pray for the best

Note to everyone who’s reading this post

Xoxo

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[akwardweasel]

It’s true

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[akwardweasel]

“She might give signals, but you dont want to jump to conclusion”

[akwardweasel]

I tried to write you a love letter, Because god, love, it’s what you deserve, But the words wouldn’t come out right, And it ended up a lot more like an apology. I love you, I wrote, Because the words looked so damn pretty on the page - But then I crossed it out, Because I am trying to be truthful. How could I love you? I don’t even know you, Not anymore. I miss you, I write next, and I cross that out, too, Even though it’s true – So true it aches; sometimes it feels as though missing you Is all I ever do. (which isn’t true, I drink cups of coffee but never finish them, I write poetry in pencil at 3am, I wear friendship bracelets and walk barefoot in the rain, I live, and every moment of my life leads back to you.) I brushed by a woman wearing your perfume And suddenly I couldn’t get you out of my head; Couldn’t fathom why I was anywhere but In your arms. I don’t even know who I’m apologising to anymore; I miss all of you, I love none of you, All I know is that it’s nearly September and I wish it was the start of summer again – I wish I could redo it all, Turn back the clock.  (except that if I could turn back the clock, I would stay far, far away from you, I have learnt my lesson – you can’t get addicted if you never try the substance) ((except you can, and I haven’t, and if I could turn back the clock I’d hold your hand so much tighter, knowing it’d be the last time I’d get to)) I keep checking my texts, though I know there won’t be one from you – I pushed you away, I know that, My fault, my fault, my fault – You should probably stop reading now. You should probably leave me now. I’m sorry – Please, I’m so sorry. I wish you could tell the difference Between my anger, and my inability to reach out to you – I wish I could, too. Everything is unravelling, love, Everything is falling apart, And I’m not sure how to do it without you. I should’ve known it’d end in pain - I can never do it quite right, I can never make anyone stay, But you don’t care and I shouldn’t care and it doesn’t really matter now. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I don’t blame you – I hate this callous, cold version of myself too. You made a mistake, you regret it, I get it – I’m sorry, I’ve had so many friends be ambivalent to whether I am in pain I forget my actions and words can hurt, When so many have been apathetic marble statues. This was such a bad apology, I’m sorry. What I’m trying to say is, It’s not your fault I can’t tell the difference Between hate and hurt and love, Especially when I feel none of them. It’s not your fault we became a tragedy, And you aren’t to blame For the force with which I hit the ground.

[akwardweasel]

“Don’t let go of my hand”

Promise- James Arthur

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[akwardweasel]

[akwardweasel]

what’s the mood for october?

[akwardweasel]

Chose to finally let you go, dreamt of you that same night

Damn hahaha

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[akwardweasel]

It’s sad to picture that things went from “When” slowly ending to “If”

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[akwardweasel]

‪You place burden on yourself just to lessen others load‬

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[akwardweasel]

I dont want to make her uncomfortable

So im stepping back

[akwardweasel]

You guys broked her, she was suppose to experience the best of enviroment and leave without bad memories

Your selfish reasonings and actions took a toll on her

Now she will forever remember this side of the world

Scarred and not being able to show her true self

Believing that being who she is inside will effect others

You thanked when she is leaving

Thanking her for her presence made you a better person

But she left with apologies weighing on her shoulder

You know she is fragile

In the end you still thought for yourself

You dont love her

You only love the feeling you get when you are around her

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[akwardweasel]

He remembers why he started

But now, he doesnt know why he continues to strive

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[akwardweasel]

Was I in love with you?

I was

Now?

Im not sure, I dont even know where to start

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