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someone somewhere probably already drew this but here's the centaur kiss anyway

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it's stupid. I can't not feel ashamed of my existence. being a lesbian and nb sucks so much it's not even funny. I feel like I'll never find people who will love and care for me despite that.

sorry for the vent. I just don't have anyone that I can talk to about rn

personal stuff again

is there any joy at all in being trans? my discomfort with my self is only growing each year and I truly don't know how to deal with it anymore. I don't know what can I do to make it better and easier for me. I don't even know what transition means to me. I have no idea how to get what I want, partially because I don't really know what that even is. Sometimes I think the only way I could be happy is if I reincarnated into a completely different body, bc with this one there's not a lot that can be done. My circumstances don't allow any change and I don't think my body itself can be fixed the way I want. I really can't stand being a woman anymore. I can'ttttt. But I also can't stand the idea of rejection and prejudice from my family and friends

please, is there any trans person dealing with it to give me any tips?? Or anyone that went through that and is now happy??

sorry if what I said is confusing I just didn't feel like giving a whole 3 paragraphs on my feelings in depth.

#i hate to be that kind of person but how can i ever not think i deserve death for being the way i am #sorry im just not really okay #vent #personal #queer #lesbian #transgender

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personal stuff again

is there any joy at all in being trans? my discomfort with my self is only growing each year and I truly don't know how to deal with it anymore. I don't know what can I do to make it better and easier for me. I don't even know what transition means to me. I have no idea how to get what I want, partially because I don't really know what that even is. Sometimes I think the only way I could be happy is if I reincarnated into a completely different body, bc with this one there's not a lot that can be done. My circumstances don't allow any change and I don't think my body itself can be fixed the way I want. I really can't stand being a woman anymore. I can'ttttt. But I also can't stand the idea of rejection and prejudice from my family and friends

please, is there any trans person dealing with it to give me any tips?? Or anyone that went through that and is now happy??

sorry if what I said is confusing I just didn't feel like giving a whole 3 paragraphs on my feelings in depth.

#i feel like theres something so heavy in chest that clings to it on my bad days and theres not a lot that can be done #transgender #vent post #personal #queer #nonbinary

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a few farcille doodles i did between comms

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chilchuck!

#AAAAASAAAAJAAJAJAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANSAAAAA #.....am i bi #dungeon meshi #chilchuck

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drawing is so hard it's not even funny jeez

at some point you know the anatomy is fucked and you COULD fix it but omg does it take willpower

#artist on tumblr #my art tag #oc art #original character #digital art #original characters #wip #lineart

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avatar girleens

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he's very found of worms. they tickle his arm☝️(dude is a fucking weirdo, just ignore him)

#on a bigger theme: it's just that as a son of Hades there was sort of a connection to this kind sof earthly creature that eats of the dead #its strength comes form the unalive. just like luca's powers does #theres more to it but imma keep it to myself cause i hateeee talking abt oc lore #makes me feel like im clinically insane #artist on tumblr #my art tag #oc art #original character #digital art #greek mythology #digital illustration

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‘don’t you want your favourite character to be happy???’ no? i want my favourite character to be interesting. i want me to be happy. which sometimes involves my favourite character being in exquisite agony

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bro got turned into a goth babe

#artist on tumblr #my art tag #oc art #original character #original characters #digital art #wip #lineart

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oh they super understood the assignment this time holy shit

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Sutematsu Oyama (1860-1919): Japan’s First College-Educated Woman

Full entry (with footnotes) here. Patreon here. Art notes behind the cut.

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Say you can't sleep, baby I know 🍭

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still figuring out how to draw my girl falin

#artist on tumblr #my art tag #wip #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #fanart #falin touden

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chilchuck moment

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when did this happen???