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I hate when people are stupid but think they’re right it genuinely pisses me off so bad

#ryan.txt

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Its so important to ✨feel your feelings✨ because that's what abuse does- abusers take away your right to feel anything they don't want you to feel. They tell you shit like "you're crazy," "that never happened," and "your anger doesn't matter! I'm more important!" And it's imperative to fight back against that. No one ever has a right to tell you your feelings don't matter. Regardless of who they are, what they've told you, how long you've known them, or how much you care about them. Your feelings are much more important and it's imperative you protect them.

#txt dot jpg #wait…. you’re so fucking right #okay no more downplaying my feelings #recovery journey

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pretty much what u need to do when you hate yourself and think you're irredeemable is make a pinterest board titled "[your name]core" and make it about how haunted and irredeemable you are but. aesthetic

#txt dot jpg #THIS IS SOOOO REAL #me with my doomed by the narrative board #I also have a me core board but it’s not haunted and irredeemable

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I’ve heard “you remind me of my ex” more than a couple times. Good. But I’m going to show you that I’m nothing like them. Let’s watch that tv show together that you used to love before what they did. Let me take you out to that restaurant you haven’t ever been back to. Put on that album that they hated so much. Tell me everything about your special interest and I’ll actually listen with happy interest. I’ll give you all the affirmations you’ve been looking for. They didn’t appreciate you, but I will. We’ll help you replace all those bad memories with new ones. We can do it together.

#I’m gonna cry n throw up #txt dot jpg #need this so bad

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You can try your best and people who are determined to portray you as bad will still do so while acting like they didn’t do anything to make you act the way you did. So act however who gaf they’ll demonize you regardless

#ryan.txt #fucked up people #(if u think this is abt u it’s not) #directed at someone tho! #fuck you lmaooo

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#words

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#memes #wait tho….getting there #(jk my esteem is so low) #but with how ppl keep treating me like I’m awful when I’m trying so hard to be good… #so close to just being insane

[bpdohwhatajoy]

No matter what, there will always be people who treat you bad and then convince others that you’re bad.

#ryan.txt #hate it so much I hate people #nothing changes I’m tired #I’m tired of not being the perfect victim I’m tired of being demonized #I’m tired of people making me look bad #I’m tired of the injustice #I’m just tired

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sometimes i wonder what kind of person i'd be if i hadn't been ignored as a child

#txt dot jpg #yeah

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The version of you right now is deserving of love. Not you two years ago when you had more of your shit together, or the five years later version where you’ll surely be thriving. The version of you right now. The one that might just be okay, or is really struggling, or is bored and unproductive. That version deserves love. Having trouble accepting this is fine, but actively denying it is not. Your value is intrinsic, and finding confidence in that is mandatory.

#txt dot jpg #recovery journey #getting there

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If you know someone is extremely traumatized and has bad trust issues and you spend 6 months getting them to trust you and open up to you only to fuck them over and put them through the same shit they’ve been through countless times, FUCK YOU

#ryan.txt #fucked up people #cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized

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Traumatized Tired and Tormented

#ryan.txt #bpd #borderline personality disorder #cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized

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People moving on and forgetting about me while I have to deal with the irreversible damage they’ve done to me and have their awful words and actions play in my head like a shitty movie that never runs out of film

#ryan.txt #cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Someone who constantly triggered you and reminded you of multiple abusive people and you had to communicate over and over to that they hurt you because they would never change and they violated your boundaries multiple times knowing his traumatized you are: you just weren’t always nice to me😪you hurt me too😓you need to work on yourself too

#ryan.txt #fucked up people #truly the fucking audacity

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— Fiona Apple

#words #and with that I’m sleeping fuck this

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#words #trauma

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having a crush is like being possessed

#txt dot jpg #and that’s why I don’t anymore