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JIKOOK - the most beautiful couple in the world 💛💜

#jikook

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WHERE ARE THESE SCENES COMING FROM

#begins youth missing scenes #please let there be a season 2 #begins youth #begins ≠ youth #bts begins youth

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Season 2 when???! 😭😭😭

#wtf begins youth #i need closure #please let there be a season 2 #begins youth #begins ≠ youth #bts begins youth #I loved this show right up until it ended #begins youth broke me

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Dang it. I was actually doing better about not obsessing over Begins ≠ Youth, but then I was listening to Angel pt. 2 (over and over again on repeat because that’s what I do when I get a song stuck in my head) and the lyrics kept making me think about Cein and Jeha. I didn’t want to write another sad scene inspired by Begins ≠ Youth, but I couldn’t help it. These freaking characters and their tragic stories just won’t let me go.

Fan Fiction

Content warning: Begins ≠ Youth damage, if you know you know, if you don’t, don’t read.

Begins ≠ Youth: Breaking Beautiful Things

Cein placed the last photo into the fire. He watched it all burn away to nothing. It seemed fitting to burn it all here, in the home he had once shared with his mother. He would let it all go. Maybe leaving was exactly what he needed. Maybe his wounds could heal if he stopped picking at this scab.

Cein sat there until the flames had died and the ashes cooled. It was time to say goodbye. Goodbye to this place and all the pain it held for him.

The floor creaked and Cein spun to find Jeha entering. “Hyung, I finally found you.”

Cein turned his back to Jeha. “Leave,” he commanded sternly.

“You wouldn’t answer my calls or messages,” Jeha continued,ignoring Cein’s order.

“Then I will leave,” Cein turned toward the door.

Jeha stepped between Cein and the door. “You would leave without saying goodbye?” Jeha asked, the pain clear in his voice. But Cein would not meet his eyes and just stepped around him.

“Wait!” Jeha pleaded, falling to his knees and resting his forehead against the charred floor in a bow, words flooding from his mouth, “I know you are angry with me. It’s all my fault that you are being transferred. But please,” Jeha begged, “give me a chance fix this. I’ll tell them what really happened.”

“What really happened?” Cein repeated bitterly, spinning to face Jeha. “What really happened Jeha? I hit you. With a brick. That’s what really happened.”

“But it was my fault,” Jeha protested, raising his head to look up at Cein, tears streaming down his cheeks. “It was my fault you were here. My fault Mingook went after you.”

“I hit you Jeha! That blood,” Cein yelled, pointing at the stain they both refused to look at, “that is there because of me!”

“But you didn’t mean to hit me! That was my fault too! Not yours! You were going to hit Mingook, but I got in the way. He thinks I did it to protect him. Thinks I care for him and he’s indebted to me,” Jeha laughed hysterically, tears blurring his vision. “But the joke is on him because I didn’t do it for him, I did it for you Hyung. You’d be in prison right now if you had hit Mingook and I couldn’t let that happen. Not because of me.”

“And you think that somehow makes it better?” Cein snapped, the edge in his voice sharp and resentful. “Am I supposed to be grateful Jeha? How am I supposed to feel knowing you did this to protect me? I’d rather be in prison than have to live knowing that I hurt you. Now I can’t look at you without seeing you crumpled on the floor, bleeding.”

They both stayed motionless, Jeha’s quiet weeping and Cein’sheavy breathing the only sounds in the stillness. “I can still fix this,” Jeha said weakly, staring down at his hands that hadn’t left the floor.

Cein spoke softer, the anger dissolved into pain. “Stop protecting me and focus on protecting yourself.”

Cein turned once more to leave, but a timid hand reached out to feebly grasp his pant leg. “Please, don’t leave me,” Jehawhispered shakily. “I love you Hyung.”

“Don’t love me,” Cein replied coldly, masking the shattering he felt inside. “People that love me break.”

Cein pulled his leg free and took another step toward the door.He couldn’t let Jeha see the tears that had escaped his eyes.

“I need you,” Jeha called desperately, his crying intensifyingwith panic, but unable to move from where he knelt on the floor.

Cein clenched his fists, fighting the urge to scoop up this broken boy in his arms. To tell him he love him too. But he knew if he allowed himself to do that, he’d never be able to let go. And he had already done enough damage. He had to get Jeha away from him before he ruined someone else.

“You are confusing what you need with what you want. You don’t need me. You need to take care of yourself. You need to study. To make your mother and step father happy. You need to protect yourself from being hurt. By me, Mingook, even yourself. You need to live Jeha.”

“I can’t say goodbye,” Jeha choked.

“I can,” Cein said, telling himself as much as Jeha. “Goodbye Jeha. Take care of yourself. Eat well. Live happily.”

At that, Cein left, without allowing himself one last glance back at his misguided protector. The little brother that wanted to be the hyung. He feared seeing the pain in Jeha’s eyes would risk cracking his resolve and he couldn’t afford to let that happen. He knew he had hurt Jeha just now, but this was a wound he could forgive himself for inflicting.

Cein would never forgive himself for hitting Jeha, intentional or not. And Jeha’s confession had only made Cein hate himself more for being the reason Jeha had put himself in harms way. Cein should have kept Jeha at arms length. He had been a fool for thinking they could be each other’s family.

Cein knew the damage family could do to each other and still he had used Jeha’s love as a bandage for his own wounds. But he wouldn’t be selfish any more. Even if he would never say it out loud, Cein loved Jeha. That was why he'd cut Jeha free before there was no hope of healing from the wounds. He wouldn’t scar Jeha the way his mother had scarred him.

Cein would walk away from this life. From Jeha. He deserved far worse than being alone. Still, Cein could take comfort in the fact that Jeha’s life would be better now. His step father was finally giving Jeha the acceptance he desperately needed, even if he tried to convince himself he didn’t. And Mingook wouldn’t dare to hurt Jeha ever again. Jeha would finally have the family he had given up on. Jeha’s wounds would heal and he would live. That was enough for Cein.

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Jeha cried until numbness replaced the pain. His face was streaked with black ash where he had wiped away countless tears. His entire body felt heavy with exhaustion. Or maybe it was resolve. Hyung had left. He was gone. And Jeha had no more tears. All that was left was a key Cein had discarded the same way he had Jeha.

#I can’t stop thinking about Begins Youth #wtf begins youth #why is it so sad #begins youth has damaged me #begins youth #begins≠youth #begins youth fan fiction #bts begins youth #bts hyyh #fan fiction #min cein #jeon jeha

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I have noticed these same scenes and had the same theory about another season. The only one I hadn’t noticed before was the Hosu one… good catch!

My biggest reason why I think this is possible and not just scenes that were cut is because the one with Jeha in the street seems like it should have never been recorded as part of season one as written. That scene specifically looks like it could be part of an alternative timeline.

Could I be wrong? Sure. I know I desperately want another season and could easily be grasping at straws. But it seems like a huge mistake to include scenes that would be cut in the official trailers. There were so many scenes they could have used. How could so many be included that didn’t make it into the show?

OK. WAIT A SECOND.

another OST from Begins ≠ Youth ("Breathe") was released (the first one was "Take It All" which is absolutely a work of art) and in the MV of the last one THEY INCLUDED THIS SCENE

?!#?$?$+(#??!!#?# SIR DID YOU THINK I WOULDN'T NOTICE?!

they just added another scene THAT WE DIDN'T SAW IN THE SERIES in the middle of the mv like nothing and didn't elaborate. so the only explanation i can find to this is a reaffirmation of the fandom "theory" that we will actually have another season that has most likely already been recorded:

so here are some more scenes that i realized haven't happened yet ↓

ALL THESE SCENES seem to be important and i wouldn't see an explanation as to why they would delete them, especially this part that i had already commented on once:

after the end of episode 12, this scene seems to me even more that here we see Hwan after already traveling through time trying to "fix things" this explains the feeling that this scene conveys that he knows the boys while the others seem confused...

AND A FEW ADDITIONAL SCENES OF MY PROTECTED BABIES AKA CEIN AND JEHA

99% chance this is the scene before the one where we see Jeha helping Cein with the injuries from the fight. the curiosity to know what made Cein get into a fight with those boys in front of Jeha is consuming my being, i need answers!!

this one i believe is Jeha talking to his mother? maybe? and Cein looking from afar maybe remembering his own mother and missing her or something? or concern for Jeha because he knows what his relationship with family is like? idk... but also as hyyh yoonkook sickens the neurons in my brain, i also thought about the possibility of it being Jeha talking to a girl and Cein getting jealous [sorry i'm not normal about them and i know it.]

now, inhale exhale inhale exhale

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.

when how why what??!?!?!!

is this one of the results of Hwan changing things and this happens instead of the brick scene?! because we see Jeha walking like that before, could it be that after managing to prevent Jeha's half brother from sending those false messages and setting up the trap, Cein finds Jeha walking in the middle of the road among the cars and runs to help?? HELP ME

at the end of the day, this all only fueled my hopeful mind and made me even more certain that season 2 is real and now we just have to wait for it to be released. otherwise i'll kms /j

#please be true #i need a season 2 #begins youth #begins ≠ youth #bts hyyh #begins youth theories #bts begins youth

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Omg! I am dying with excitement!

Minimoni Vibes

OMG what a beautiful surprise to look forward to on the 25th May

It looks like it was filmed around the time of Jimin’s fan meet given the hair and the nails.

Also Album Exchange?????? Does that mean we get part two of minimoni music when Jimin releases his album. We are entering another golden era I can feel it.

Post Date: 18/05/2024

#freaking out #park jimin #kim namjoon #right place wrong person #come back to me #jimin #rm

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He loves his Hyung ❤️

softest thread you'll see today: all the times jeha took cein arm in arm </3

#jeon jeha #min cein #begins youth jeha #begins youth cein #bts begins youth #begins youth #begins ≠ youth #hyyh yoonkook #bts hyyh #he loves his hyung

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Ha! 🫰

As a most excellent friend pointed out...

...if you're currently dating Park Jimin, you'd respect his intense, almost pathological need for privacy.

...and if you're currently an ex of Park Jimin, we all know that NDA will not allow you to drop hints and fuck about on your social media.

So, ya know, keep being mentally unstable jealous...

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Yep 💜💛

#jikook #own post

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White day follow up

Perhaps it went unnoticed at the time because we weren't aware of the exact date when Jimin and Jungkook had dinner together (until someone discovered the date on Jimin's fridge). Or maybe it was because after realizing it was after their final concert in Seoul on March 13th and before White Day, we were left speechless 😶

...But the other day, while scrolling through short clips on Twitter, I decided to watch the episode again and I couldn't help but notice their phone call in the car just minutes after they were together on stage together, and Jimin practically asking him about the chicken to order (from their usual choices, of course😚).

These two cuties were quite sly in 2022 and 2023…, yet, they managed to spend a considerable amount of time together without our knowledge, and maybe even without their fellow members noticing every time (you know what I mean)…

They are used to call each other even after shortly being together, they've tried different kinds of chicken, and the one who doesn't live in the apartment takes charge of the kitchen as if it's his domain 😶 😶

Btw.. that night they have enough food to invite some friends, opt for a cozy night in, perhaps locked away for at least 24 hours until the White Day dinner the following day 😶.

MENU LETTER

Papa Park stew

2. Ordered Chicken

3. Chef Kook

4. Others

PS: Anyway, for the sake of improvement, because life is boring without challenges… here's my first 'incorrect jikook' LOL

#jikook

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He wanted to stay at Jimin's house like he used to before all this.

I've been hearing it from lot of Jkkrs. But are you sure 😭 he was living with JM. Yes we have few similar car moments but other than that ? There is no info

Why would there be in4? Do you know what being in the closet means? You sound stupid

Okay, it has been a very eventful day. But I'll tackle one Jikook ask for the road coz I got 1AM on my end.

Anon, Jikookers have something called common sense. Thats how we came to the conclusion that Jikook were living together and even though it might just be occasionally rn for their safety, I will be using present tense.

When members first moved out, Jimin was the only one who purchased a dilapidated house and anyone could tell he sure as hell wasn't living there. So all 6 others were accounted for except him. So where was he living? Then him and JK were sharing cars all the time. For years. Not "a few moments". And when Hopekook became neighbours, we saw Jhope, Jimin and JK share cars a few times. Again, super sus. Why was it always Jikook at the crime scene?

Anyway, let's look at a few moments in no particular order.

Exhibit a) Spotted outside JK's apartment multiple times.

Exhibit b) Namkook on that one live and RM talked about the cafe infront of their house.

Why is he using our and why is JK nodding in agreement? Last I checked Minimoni are the ones who live in 9/1 not JK.

Moving on

Exhibit c) JK says he will make pizza while looking straight at Jimin which is what prompted Jimin to think he was talking about their home.

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But then JK clarified that no, he meant at work.

Exhibit d)

When they go home, JK will let Jimin rest. Right. Not sus at all.

Exhibit e) I feel like this sentence went over people's heads.

Jimin doesn't wake up and go look for Jungkook. He wakes up and the first thing he sees, is JK. Thats literally everything right there. Honestly. But sure, I got more.

Exhibit f) My memory is hazy on the context. But RM asked JK why he had watched something. I don't remember what. But JK replied that he watched it because he was at home with him. Him in this case being Jimin.

Exhibit g) Jimin was project manager for BE. So as they were winding up RM told everyone to send their shit to Jimin once they were done.

This part conveniently doesn't get translated but Karmy were kind enough to let us know, when JK taps Jimin's thigh he says; I'll just show it to you.

To recap, anon. Jimin will be at home so everyone else needs to send him their work but JK doesn't need to because he can just show it to him. Because he will already be there with him.

Exhibit h) A favourite of mine. So basically their favorite chef comes over for this episode and brings with him 7 knives including for Suga in absentia. So just so we understand, 7 members, 7 knives.

Basically, members are trying to one up each other and JK is like "we got 2 knives so we win" 👀 Are y'all getting that? Every member left with 1 knife each, but the Park Jeons are way ahead of them because they have 2 knives. Why is JK counting Jimin's knife??

(Side bar: Jimin's face is everything. He knows bae is slipping but he can't do anything without calling attention to it 😂😂)

Exhibit i) Last one since I'm out of image space. This one came from our president. Jimin tells us he hangs about at home naked and Jhope added that JK is usually in charge of music. Jimin's face was e👏🏾very👏🏾thing!👏🏾

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There you have it. Jikook live together. Jikook boyfriends. Jikook real.

#jikook sus moments #jikook is real #jikook

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Omg I love them!!!

sharing this hilarious compilation video! love bts and their lack of boundaries with each other!

https://twitter.com/yehbts/status/1428843920688041994?s=21

honestly this brought me so much joy this morning! wanted to share the wealth!

YES! I saw this the other day and laughed so hard. Literally one of my new favorite videos. I sent this to my non army friend because I tell her about BTS on occasion. Reminded her when I told her that they were all super close and touchy with each other? Yeah, this is what I meant by that 🤣

Her response? "My God, the fanfictions for these guys probably write themselves, huh? Love that for them. I want to be friends with them!" 😂😂 she really isn't wrong

Editing because I found another one, which is different, but still AMAZING and so I'm sharing it here too. It's the Part 2!

#because its all strictly business #edits i love #bangtan boys #how bts love each other #Bts

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Really great observation. That scene… like so many others… was truly devastating.

One of the things that the drama did was reveal an incredibly important part of hyyh vmon's dynamic that has always been there but I just didn't get before.

We know that Tae looks up to Joon as an older brother figure that he can rely on, and that Joon takes this responsibility very seriously despite being so young himself. What used to confuse me before was that Tae's safety was his responsibility, but Joon never stopped him from doing those illegal activities. In fact, he would join him.

In every one of the hyyh pairings, there's a give and take.

Jihope is made of two liars and one is in the hospital room pretending to be well and the other is there pretending to be sick but among the white walls and hallucinations and fainting and pills they give each other something solid to hold on to, a tether to reality.

Yoonkook is a cycle of addictive self-destruction born from the co-dependency of someone who latches on too obsessively and needs hurt to feel alive, and someone who cries guilt but can't help but hold on to the one person he can hurt again and again but won't disappear no matter how hard he tries.

So what did Joon get from vmon? What was the take part of this give heavy dynamic? I honestly can't believe I didn't see it before.

"Do you know what I hate most about myself? I get used to things, whatever that is. I give up and don't even fight on- no... I don't even want to fight."

Joon who is only 16 but is the breadwinner of his family, who works and works and works to support all the people who rely on him, whose worth is determined by his reliability and even temper and maturity in every situation. The first to forgive, the hardest to anger, doesn't even complain when he locks away the box that contains all his potential and dreams for people who suck him dry and give nothing back.

"I see you pouring out your anger and I get vicarious pleasure. After that, I grill you not to do that and even rationalise to myself that I'm right. That's who I am. I'm a despicable coward - so who am I to console others!? How could I understand other people!?"

I forget sometimes that Tae is older than Jungkook when he represents the clinging to youth aspect so well. He's loud, he's brash and angry and kind and rough and empathetic and raw around the edges in all the ways a child is allowed to be. Joon doesn't get that, he's not allowed that. So he lives through Tae, lets him pour out all the emotion and the thoughts he doesn't let himself say.

That scene at the container after it was set on fire breaks me because it represents this so well. He was almost murdered and he stands there silently while Tae yells at Jin all the things he doesn't let himself feel enough to say. It's like Tae is talking for him in that moment, straight from his heart, and that's what he gets from it. That night only one of them watched his home go up in flames at the hands of people he holds not an ounce of power to, knowing that they expected him to burn along with it. There are three people there in the aftermath and it is only him that doesn't cry. That just smiles and thanks Jin for the warning and tells them to go to bed.

I want to scream. How did Dogeun end up being the character I felt the most physical hurt for. How is his apparent normalcy the most tragic thing in a show littered with suicide and murder and mental illness. Agh.

#so much pain #begins youth dogeon #kim dogeun #begins youth #bts begins youth #begins≠youth #bts hyyh

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Omg. Please let this be true!

WE WON, THE FEAR OF IT BEING OVER WIL BE DELAYED YESSSSS

#give me hope #begins youth destroyed me #apparently I want to suffer #begins youth kdrama #bts begins youth #begins youth #begins ≠ youth

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lol. Truth

#this show killed me #still processing #wtf begins youth #begins youth #bts begins youth #begins ≠ youth #funny but true

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Welcome to my new coping strategy. The scene in that doctor appointment shook me. Haru’s change in expression was so shocking and unexpected. I had to write something inspired by it.

Fan Fiction

Content warning: mental health, hearing voices, toxic parent

Alone - Begins ≠ Youth

Takes place on the way to Haru's appointment in episode 3 (around 31 min mark)... tag me if you find a GIF of the fake crying and then when Haru drops the act!

Haru could feel his stomach twisting in on itself. He was on his way to another psychiatric appointment to check on his progress and medication dosage. He wasn’t on edge about his appointment though. He was never nervous about talking to the doctors, he’d told the lies so many times before that they come easy now. But that voice, it doesn’t lie, and the words it whispers to him scare Haru.

Everything was all falling apart again. The truth he was always running from had found that video. Hosu had seen the comments and already Hosu was pulling away. Haru had known all along that his friends weren’t really his friends. It was all a lie, like everything else. They didn’t even know him. And as soon as they learned the truth of who he was, they would run from him like everyone else had. And he’d be alone. Again.

Haru shook his head and grabbed his ears, but he couldn’t block that voice. It wouldn’t let him lie to himself. The truth was that he was already alone. He’d been alone ever since that day. But he was having so much fun pretending the lie was real, so he would keep pretending he had friends as long as it lasted.

Haru’s mom watched him in the rearview mirror. “I know you’re disappointed about not going with us to the United States. We will all do something fun together this summer when your brother comes home.”

More lies. He’d be in the hospital again over summer break. They both knew it.

The lies hadn’t stopped for 7 years. That day Haru got lost was the first time he was aware of being alone and the crushing terror of that feeling. He had wanted nothing more than to be safe in his mother’s arms. To have her squeeze him so he could feel her with him even when his eyes were closed. But that initial safety he felt when they were reunited was an illusion. He would always be alone after that day.

Haru’s mother had rushed to his side, tears of relief in her eyes. He wished he could go back to that day, when he believed her tears were proof of her love for him. When he had believed the lie. She hadn’t loved him, she loved being seen as the caring mother. She loved when everyone saw the lie and believe it to be true. So she wept and rushed him off before he could find the strength to stop his tears and tell anyone about the horrors he had seen.

Even when little Haru was home safe and dry, warm in his bed, his tears hadn’t stopped. They had slowed, falsely comforted by his mother’s presence at his side, but they continued to leak from his eyes even after they had long closed from the weight of the day.

Haru had woken with a scream the next morning. His mother appeared by his side and told him he was safe. Believing her, he told her about the monster in the arboretum and the child he had trapped.

Young Haru had been confused by her reaction. At first he thought she was scared for what had happened to him, her hand over her mouth and her eyes wide. But he reassured her that the man hadn’t hurt him, his cuts and scrapes were from falling when he ran away. But she just sat there, staring at him.

When her eyes eventually softened, and her hand placed calmly in her lap, she finally spoke. “Haru, it was only a bad dream. You are just a normal boy that got lost in the woods. You were scared. Anything else you imagined is not real.”

Young Haru had believed that lie. Or at least, he had wanted to. How could his young mind imagine that his mother would lie to him? Even now he didn’t understand the lie. He didn’t know that his mother had read about the missing boy in the paper. How the parents had been scrutinized and questioned. That she and others had judged the parents for every misstep they had ever made. But even if he didn’t understand the reason for the lies, he knew the truth now, that she had lied to protect herself and the lies would never end.

Haru had believed the lie for as long as he could, but the truth found him shortly after on the city bus. That monster in his nightmare had gotten on the bus and looked right at him. That moment, his world shattered. That was the first time he heard the voice. It had told him to run. To live. But he had frozen, too scared to even breath, and that was his first trip to the hospital.

But the lies hadn’t stopped. His mother wouldn’t let him speak the truth and Haru had been alone ever since.

“Your appointment won’t take long, it’s only a quick follow up,” Haru’s mother said. “Just tell the doctor how well you’re doing. That nothing has changed. Your memories haven’t returned. Your medication is working and you feel normal. When you’re done, I’ll drop you off at school so you can see your friends.”

Haru nodded and gave a reassuring smile. He wondered if these were the lies she believed herself. Or did she also have a voice that whispered the truth to her? She was always angry when the truth surfaced. She’d drop the act of pretending to love him and the cruel honesty would slip from her mouth. That she was exhausted by him and this life. But those moments were the only times Haru understood his mother. He knew the exhaustion well.

So many lies. Each one an impossible weight.

He had no memories. Lie.

His medication was working. Lie.

He was fine. Lie.

His family loved him. Lie.

He had friends. Lie.

He wasn’t alone. Lie.

He was living a normal life. Lie. This wasn’t living.

This wasn’t living, but it was the only life Haru had and he wanted to live so bad, so he would pretend this was living. He’d never give up, no matter how exhausted he was from running from the truth.

Haru slumped against the car window, his exhaustion in this moment felt unbearable. Haru wanted the lies to stop. He wanted to be free of the weight of them. But he would bare it because speaking the truth meant all the lies would be exposed. Everyone would know. Then they would leave, like they always did, and he’d have to face the truth that he was alone.

So instead, Haru would lie like he always did. Then he’d go back to school and be with his friends. Even if those friendships were a lie, he could pretend he wasn’t alone when he was with them, and sometimes he actually believed it. So he’d hold on to them as long as he could, even if it wouldn’t last. Even when the voice whispered the truth in his ear. Even if he would always eventually have to admit that he was alone.

#my new coping strategy #because i couldn't get that scene out of my head #park haru #begins youth haru #begins youth fan fiction #bts begins youth #begins youth #begins≠youth

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This entire thread was a great read. As a fetus ARMY, I learned about all this after they announced their companionship enlistment. So I didn’t have to suffer with the thought of them being apart for so long. That had to be incredibly painful.

Such beautiful points made too. One of my favorites:

Jimin is more contained, but he’s the type of lover who misses you and will plan a whole trip to meet you, buying cake on the way, presents, and balloons. Jungkook is the type to come at your window in the middle of the night cuz he can’t wait.

So glad they have each other. Can’t wait to see their travel show!

I am glad Jimin went to see Jungkook in NYC to be there for him when Seven was released however it is making me a little bit concerned how much Jungkook needs Jimin, because of enlistment. I feel like he will struggle a lot without Jimin (in general). They really used to be together seven days a week when they had group schedules and I fully believe Jungkook would spend all his time with Jimin if he could so it will be really tough for him I think.

Oh anon, hi… your ask moved me in an unexpected and aching way.

Cuz now we have a full new moment to add to the list, together with Jungkook asking Jimin to come over or invite him for a whole live. The list that I named “Jimin’s Jungkook’s soft spot”. And is this one.

Military service, you said. It’s hard to do this but I feel like AVOIDING OUR FEELINGS is worse🫂

It’s gonna be a big change, we know that. We know BTS waited for a long, long time, before actually talking about it, openly talking about it with us, because it was a hard pillow to swallow. For so many reasons.

And when they did, they cried. So, as long as you can be happy of serving your country (which you’ve already been serving for years, man🫡🫡🫡), it would be better to leave things just like they are.

That’s why I don’t get anons telling me that Jungkook is someone who likes change, and wants to change, so he should be tired of his long term relationship.

Wanting to evolve and experience different fields, different lifestyles, different hair colors, different piercings, push your own limits, or WHATEVER, doesn’t equal to wanting a fucking earthquake to shake your life. Or, in this case, leave everything you have at home to wear a military uniform. BTS are not that patriotic.

Even people who like change want stability. Balance. Peace of mind. These two things can co-exist.

In Letter, Jimin asks his lover “will you remain the same, like when we first met?”. Does it mean he wants Jungkook to act like a 15 years old? “Change” has different meanings and nuances based on the context.

Imo, if you’re looking for chaos, and you’re unsatisfied with your relationships, and you want your life to be a costant wild long ride, either you’re avoiding something or you’re just unhappy. Consequently, you’re unable to sit still with your thoughts and can’t even think of stopping. Taking a deep breath. Taking care of the good old things.

It’s like assuming that time will make you tired of your parents’ love, your sibilings’, your grandparents’. Some types of love and affection are built within our hearts. So you can travel all over the world and discover new places and people, but you’ll always feel like coming back, even just for a while, to them. They should be (sometimes they aren’t) our safe place. And you ALWAYS come back to safe places.

Psychological digression apart, here’s where Jikook comes in the game. They are that type of love. The safe place. God I’m already getting emotional

They are the type of love you run to when things get tough, but also when they get funny, happy, curious, unstable, sad, mad. They’re each other’s comfort. And what I mostly appreciate about it, it’s the indipendence and self-consciousness they keep, even when relying on each other.

They don’t depend on the other. They are different individuals. But they grew up together during their difficult teenage years, so they helped the other with discovering himself. They share the same passion, music, so they always helped each other with artistical growth. They spent years of their lives together, so they made the other a part of it.

They discovered themselves and not always matched. Jungkook discovered to like tattoos all over his arm, Jimin on his back. Jungkook understood he likes oversized clothes, Jimin just easy and casual. Jungkook focused on his hip-hop style, Jimin on modern and contemporary. Jimin wanted to express his deep and hidden self with his album, Jungkook decided to take the first step with an international song which doesn’t completely represent him.

They know the other is gonna be there for them, but they also know they are different human beings and that their happiness can not be completely held and protected by the other.

That’s why they also see friends, they travel by themselves, they don’t necessarily feel like the other MUST BE the first one to listen to their songs. That’s not what matters. That’s not what makes the bond more real and deeper or not.

And, of course, they support each other. They just want the other to be happy and satisfied. Healthy and strong. They appreciate the other for who he is, and not just because he cares about them. There’s almost no personal interest.

When things get sad and unsatisfying, they’re gonna be there too. They’re gonna handle it together.

They also need each other because of the feelings and emotions they shared together. The moments and the memories. The hardships. When I say they are each other’s comfort, I mean to say that they’re not in a standard and normal situation. They are closeted.

Well, they’re a brave closeted couple. Flirting on camera all the time pretending we’re not there is bold as fuck. But still, this is not what gives them freedom. They’re still holding something back. Even though things improved in comparison to the early years.

Having to manage the band, the public, the company, the cameras, maybe their families too, and this anomalous relationship, was/is not easy. So you learn to give each other strenght.

Their chemistry, platonic or not, is special.

Jungkook is the reason why Jimin is doing all of this. And viceversa. They’re each other’s first motive. We can’t compare their situation to ours, or the ones we’ve seen in movies. Every relationship has difficulties, but they win the first place. Sorry.

This is trust, after all. Even though you keep and preserve your self-identity and personality, you inevitably give a piece of you to the other. This is love. And this is inevitable.

Jikook showed each other their vulnerability. Their weaknesses. Their dark sides. They literally and metaphorically got undressed in front of each other.

Being self conscious should just give you the chance to take that piece back when things end. Hard to do it, but we should all be able to keep walking when someone we love stops forever.

What was I talking about?😦

Oh! Military service. Now imagine how hard it must be for them to separate. How hard it is to stay away from your comfort person. Your love. Your half.

It’s scary, it’s new, it’s challenging, but most of all it’s hard. It must be hard to distance yourself for 12+ months from the person you love. We’re not talking about not hugging in front of camera anymore. This is not about a shooting-day thing anymore. This is about a fucking long period of time, during which they’re not gonna be able to completely love each other.

They’ll keep in touch, they’ll maybe meet sometimes too? I honestly don’t know everything about it. But it won’t be easy.

Jungkook missed Jimin so bad during his solo work. He missed him like air. He loves him, he wants him by his side. It’s normal, it’s human.

He might be used to not always sleeping with him, or not spending all day with him, but going DAYS without meeting must’ve been hard.

In his Audacy On The Bru Radio, Jungkook said he was sorry for making us wait for his solo activities. And he said that “those times for himself helped him”. He was clearly referring to those sad-moody-lives months. The white day spent alone lives. You get what I’m saying?

It’s been such a long time from those lives so I don’t feel like making a whole post about it anymore. But that man was struggling. I’m not assuming it was just because of Jimin’s absence, but the smile on his face when Jimin commented was as bright as the sun.

He missed him so much he had to tell him on weverse. Jimin told us he missed Armys, and Jungkook just replied “I miss you too”.

He went live whenever Jimin was not in town, not around, or abroad. We were side hoes, but that’s fair. I consent😑.

Jokes apart, he maybe felt a little bit lonely. And Jimin hated that, anon. He even commented once with “I came over to another place for work😭”.

“I’d love to come there or be with you but I fucking can’t goddammit😭” kind of vibe. My heart.

And again saying “You’re so cute with your gloves on” or “I want to tie your hair back”. Jimin might be the worst tease ever, but he’s sweet and romantic. That man was ACHING. Just like I am.

Jungkook is the type of lover who wants to spend quality time with you. Who wants to know if you slept well or not. Who wants you to tell him the stupidest and most useless TMI of the day. He’s the type of lover who thinks that hearing your voice and feeling your presence is enough, whatever you’re saying or doing.

He’ll give it attention, no matter how big and important or little and easy it is. He’s devoted. Expecially when it comes to little things and gestures, but not only.

Jimin, on the other hand, is just as much loving and caring as him. He needs quality time too. He’s just way more private and reserved about it. What he showed us on weverse, is ALWAYS protected by the “hyung” card. As for Jungkook, he has no cards. He’s at a disadvantage on this.

Jimin’ll fly STRAIGHT to NY just to spend time with Jungkook and support him, and come back like NOTHING HAPPENED, but won’t go live with him on a regular July morning. He’s meticulous when it comes to “love demonstrations” choices. He’s not that impulsive or “childish”. With childish I mean innocent, innocuous. Jungkook just goes for it. Jimin does that too. He sometimes goes crazy for love too.

But it’s more rare and targeted compared to JK.

To put it easy, Jungkook is just a “Jiminie come over, Jiminie I’m coming over, Jimin Jamayn Park Jimin Set me free Like crazy Jimin’s interview” all the time.

Jimin is more contained, but he’s the type of lover who misses you and will plan a whole trip to meet you, buying cake on the way, presents, and balloons. Jungkook is the type to come at your window in the middle of the night cuz he can’t wait.

Jimin is not like this, but he still melts when it comes to Jungkook. His tone becomes soft and tender when he talks to him. When he knows Jungkook is arriving. When Jungkook is too close. When Jungkook hugs him or touches him.

He tries to play it cool, but Jungkook touches the right strings. And Jimin lets him do that.

It’s gonna hurt, surely.

For both of them, anon. Jungkook is just showing and showed it more, but Jimin also needs Jungkook’s presence, voice, body, laugh. Jungkook is just less closed on it. In general, he’s not that good at hiding what he’s feeling in that moment, if said feeling is strong.

When he talked about military service in his 24/05 live, he looked kinda “down”. Like, resigned.

“I have to go too. I’ll go and I’ll come back”.

So, imo, military service will change a lot of things. I think 2025 will be a revealing year. Not that they’re coming out. Oh, I don’t think so. The come back year won’t be risked. But their dynamics will be telling. Maybe, at that time, there will be no need to hide and keep it low as much as they’re doing now.

If they’ll keep it low anyways, it’s gonna be a personal life choice. And that’s fair. Privacy saved a lot of famous couples.

They’ll probably be the closest they’ve ever been. And if they will, they’re very likely to last forever.

They’re very likely to be each other’s life love. Each other’s forever soulmate.

Thank you for stopping by💜. Feel free to share your opinions, I’m curious💜.

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