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So I have some hilarious news… 🏳️‍⚧️

Getting older I think I’m just realising that everything I take for granted about myself is just… incorrect.

Past Me: “I have so many crushes. On everyone. I’m like super pansexual” (is asexual)

Past Me: “I have no energy, I can’t have adhd.” (Literally has adhd. Not even the inattentive strain, the hyperactive strain.)

Past Me: “I haven’t cried in years, which means I have complete control over my emotions.” (Is depressed. Has severe anxiety. Constantly dissociating because of extreme emotions.)

Past Me: “I have high-functioning Autism. Most of my symptoms barely exist. Honestly, it’s probably just disappeared over time.” (Has a breakdown every 4 months.)

At this point the only thing I’m certain about is… suspiciously side eyes my gender identity.

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Will really spun all that bullshit about killing with his hands being preferable because it’s more “intimate” just cause he can’t shoot for shit

#call him out op 🙌

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i love how in this scene hannibal mirrors will's social cues instead of politely responding like he would normally

#literally because Hannibal isn’t influenced by peers according to bedelia #but like 10 seconds after he meets will he’s like #“imma mirror this guys behaviour #which is such a show of respect like wow #I didn’t even think about that until now

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Was just told I focused too much on minor obscure aspects of a text to properly analyse it. If that’s not an Autism diagnosis I don’t know what is.

#especially because my analysis is unique and likely proper #but just didn’t fit within what I was supposed to talk about for the task #autism in academia #autism #neurodiverse stuff #its the neurodivergency #neurodiversesquad #autism comedy #actually autistic

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This is exactly what I was talking about!! I have no idea how common it is, only some of the Autistic people I know have said they experience this, but that’s the case with a lot of Autism lol, nothing’s really consistent.

Also, when I was younger I was told mine was anger issues! But this sat wrong with me because anger issues usually stem from a sense of entitlement (ie. I deserve better than this, how could this person do this to me) which was not my experience of it. I conceive of mine as a more frustration kind of anger. There are things people are doing that are hurting me sensory wise and I can’t change it, so I feel trapped and highly frustrated.

But your experience of it may be different, and Autistic people often do deserve better treatment, so the entitlement kind of anger is usually justified in the first place. It’s just directed at the wrong thing.

An unfortunate repercussion of the infantilisation of Autistic people in media is that we rarely see the autism anger. Not like meltdowns (because that’s not anger y’all that’s overload) like legitimate just anger at people. For existing.

You talk to a person and it overwhelms you purely because it’s socialisation and you want them dead. Just so you don’t have to talk to them again. You fantasise different ways they could die. Could you get away with their murder?

Brownie points if this is shown with coworkers or customers.

… Spock is excluded from this critique. You can tell he’s planning his coworkers deaths (affectionate). And Will Graham; he’s definitely planning his coworkers deaths (derogatory)

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Emotionally Regulating be like:

Good news! You completed step 1 and recognised you were emotionally unregulated.

Bad news! Yo Narrator what was step 2 again? Narrator??

#shaking in a corner like “I’m feeling an emotion and it’s not rational #still shaking in a corner but hey #autism #neurodiverse stuff #its the neurodivergency #neurodiversesquad #autism comedy #mental health #rejection sensitive dysphoria #rejection sensitivity #adhd comedy #adhd mood

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Clearly it’s establishing clinician-client boundaries, so there is no emotional transference and a healthy relationship between the two. Which worked so well.

(Technically that is supposed to be established by the therapist, not the client, but Hannibal was too busy simping hey, collaborative practice.)

Listen I am studying Will and Hannibal's therapy sessions cause it helps with what I need to recap for my exams but i can't identify which type of therapy consists of "reassure your therapist that he is indeed your therapist and you are not just having conversations"

#the real question is does Hannibal use a peer framework for his therapy #(this bit reminds me of when people say Hannibal was a good therapist #and I try not to cry because so so so many ethical breaches #but also #is the purpose of therapy to help your client reach their inner self #or just make them a less deviant member of society. #in that sense Hannibal is more of an anti-therapist #which I’m not against

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I'm begging you to take this quiz oh my god

i thought it would be easy but only my 2 and a bit years of absorbing dialogue from gifs and rewatches got me through

#you know I never thought of them as similar #I think it’s because Will has Hannibal to compare him to #so he doesn’t seem insane #whereas Patrick is literally the most psycho person in the room #most of the time #but thinking about it #yeah they’re both quite similar

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Nothing happened to me

#dude something about this is just #so perfect #like perfectly describes why that line hit me so hard #wow

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Barbecues this. Tim tams that. Come on guys, be honest, Australian culture is complaining about the government but refusing any systemic change

#also intergenerational trauma #literally every symptom of intergenerational trauma is just a cultural norm #no matter what group you’re in #it’s hilarious #but nah #it’s beaches #australia #Australian culture #Australia politics #Australian #australian politics #cultural politics #ausgov #what can I say #most of us are either people who migrated here after abuse by the our countries original political system #or people are being violently colonised #or both

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Toxic family member: I feel like I’m walking on eggshells around you!

Me: Whatever eggshells you’re walking on are the wrong goddamn eggshells

#autism #neurodiverse stuff #its the neurodivergency #neurodiversesquad #autism comedy #mental health #toxic family #I’d tag this is as family trauma but she’s not threatening to break my arm anymore so it’s more toxic really

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Day 2 of writing a better Harry Potter series than JK Rowling

Introduction. Page 1 [here]

#Harry Potter #harry potter fan fiction #Harry Potter comic #harry potter fanart #harry potter fandom #harry potter fanfiction #original comic #1940s #1940s London #1940s fashion #albus dumbledore #albus #professor dumbledore #I know it seems like albus is being good in this one but it’s okay #he is an asshole in this comic #don’t worry #I like to maintain character consistency #I’ve also decided to make his clothing actually weird rather than fashionable #because it’s ALBUS DUMBLEDORE #(side eyes fantastic beasts) #I enjoy him being a red head though #also him having lavender robes in the books but grey ones in the movies is extra erasure #so he has purple everywhere #minerva mcgonagall #professor mcgonagall #minnie mcgonagall #she’s in fourth year at this point #and not in the best situation right now you may notice #but don’t get used to her she’s more a reoccurring guest than anything

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Day 1 of writing a better Harry Potter tv show than JK Rowling (not a hard task tbh)

Starting our protagonist Ashvryn and antagonist Tom Riddle (they did not, in fact, get off on the wrong foot).

Set in the 1940s, it will hopefully explain why Voldemort is being such a dumbass in the books. Has a bit of expansion on Neville’s grandmother, Augusta, too. Minerva moonlights in it. As canon compliant as I feel emotionally.

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#harry potter #harry potter fanfiction #harry potter comic #harry potter fanart #harry potter fandom #Tom riddle #original comic #slytherin #ravenclaw #augusta longbottom #minerva mcgonagall #Harry Potter prequel #albus dumbledore #is there too I guess #voldemort #tom marvolo riddle

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She’s an absolute menace (I love her)

#if you wanna see her during her reputation era I posted that before #but this is her younger #(she just arrived to a ball in this #specifically because she was told to look presentable) #she’s a menace #primrose #goddess of light #TSOS #can you tell I’m struggling with her complexion? I’ll work on it #fantasy art #art #art stuff #digital art #fantasy #fantasy oc #oh and the dress is supposed to be feathers #shut up #fashion design #corruption arc #pt 1

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✨revenge dress✨ (also she’s killing a bunch of people but it’s mainly the dress)

#primrose #goddess of light #TSOS #art stuff #digital art #fantasy #beautiful dresses #fashion design #fantasy art #in her defence she needs to kill those people #seriously she is the most morally upright OC I have #part of my pantheon #literally she’s a goddess lol #corruption arc #pt 2

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Went on Ritalin for the first time today and had the very intriguing realisation that if I was just Autistic I would rarely speak. I speak to seek dopamine. My dopamine needs were met and so I just, didn’t want to talk. Literally had to force myself to. Found it very overwhelming with no upsides. Wow

#has anyone else experienced this? #audhd creature #audhd #actually audhd #audhd things #audhd brain #adult audhd #neurodiverse stuff #its the neurodivergency #neurodiversesquad

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Hannah Gabsby said why do people shame us over being sensitive? Sensitivity is a good thing, it means you notice when something is bad and appreciate when something is good in 2017 and I’m still not over it

#literally broke me #I stopped the show recording and just had a processing error #for hours #because like yeah #why would you want to be numb to everything #feels very unsafe and boring #why wouldn’t you want to know when something can be hurtful to yourself or others #why wouldn’t you want to enjoy things to their fullest extent #sensory sensitivity but also sensory appreciation #emotionally sensitive but also joyful #but also excited #but also taking a stand and using positions of privilege to counteract shame #but defending myself #I’m still going insane over it #nanette #Hannah gabsby #autism #neurodiverse stuff #its the neurodivergency #neurodiversesquad #autism comedy #trauma #mental health