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i wish my thoughts were coherent enough to put here because these guys are all i think about. 25/7 babey up in here is Them. unfortunately my brain works in vague stew and im lucky that i manage to find enough chunks to put together into what is maybe a fanfiction every few months

#literally why cant i just have nice put together thoughts about my faves #why does it always have to be microwaving them unil they explode like an egg or perhaps potato #ramblings

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i need to start tripling my wordcount estimates for fics. i started my latest wip because i thought itd be a nice, short, simple concept as a nice break between thinking about bigger projects….and im already 14k in

im not even at the end of the first chapter! this wasnt even meant to be a multi chap!!! i was going to write something cute and fluffy and a smidge angsty about maria having a little expedition to clints farm, and it has once again run away with the leash

at this point i start every fic i post with ‘this one got away from me a little’ and im starting to think that brevity simply does not come naturally to me, maybe i should put up a fence to keep the ideas in

#gone are the days where i used to post 3k fics #i remember posting my first multichap at 30k and thinking it was sooo long #ramblings

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writing about maria being a mechanic is making me so normal. im being so normal about her being smudged with oil, im so normal about her taking a tractor apart

#ramblings #maria hill

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me reading straight up pornography: hmm… this one just doesn’t have enough accurate character psychoanalysis to get me off

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she has that sadness in her eyes that you only see in alcoholic captains of doomed arctic expeditions

#maria selkie au #just maria in general tbh

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Currently working on a fic about maria being dragged to clints farm and i just KNOW its going to end up so much longer than intended despite being (supposedly) a oneshot. like who do i think i am? someone who writes oneshots? the last think i posted was over 20k and i still made it one chapter. its a curse.

#ramblings #maria hill

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A Bullet in the Body’s Worth Two in the Barrel

Clint&Natasha, T/M, whump, hurt/comfort, detailed injury

Clint never took the shot in Budapest. He was very adamant about not taking the shot in Budapest. Problem is, now Natasha is asking him to - and he thinks he loves her enough to believe her.

Read it here!

#hey guess whos really REALLY bad at remembering to link fics here <3 #this one was just a lot of excuse to write some gore tbh #i love beating nat up and having clint deal with the consequences #its such a fun dynamic between them #this one is a little lighter than the last in the sense that at least they trust each other now #this dynamic has yet again been the miracle cure to the most extreme writers block ive had in a while #words #natasha romanoff #clint barton #clintasha #sort of? #its ambiguous #fic links

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heya! one of my fav questions to ask smut writers - would the characters you write most would ever fuck a clone (or AU or time travel) of themselves? alt and slightly more fun question - would they be in a threesome w/ their clone (other) and their current partner?

This is such a funny question lmao. Strangely enough I've never actually thought about it, and now that I am there is a bunch of different ways i could interpret this. I write fanfic, my hobby is basically just overthinking into a word document. So anyway, please enjoy a far more in depth thought process into my three main girls than you were probably expecting. Also to preface, I'm going off of MCU canon rather than anything shippy or the way I have actually written them in fanfics (if you ask me again a month from now my thoughts will probably have changed, I am incredibly inconsistent with character opinions like this lol)

Maria:

Somehow, she was the first answer that came to mind. If you asked her straight up I think she'd say yes and follow through. Her reasoning would be that logically, who is going to know what she likes better than herself, plus she doesn't have to deal with all the social and emotional aspects of one night stands or relationships. It's efficient. Being the director of SHIELD doesn't make for a great sex life. As for a threesome, I think she'd probably say no and I don't know how to explain that one. She's not into the clone, so she doesn't need them there if she's already got another partner.

Just for fun, I think if Maria was introduced to a clone / forced to live with one in a regular context, she'd probably just recruit it to help her get work done and half her chores. Maybe they'd use each other for some cuddle therapy because god knows she's not emotionally mature enough to ask anyone else. Sex would maybe be a thing if she was particularly pent up, but purely in a physical way

Natasha:

Nat's a little harder, but I think if you asked her she'd say yes BUT if you actually gave her a clone she'd be wigged out. I don't think she'd sleep with a clone at all, but honestly I don't actually think she'd sleep with anyone unless she felt particularly safe with them (if we're talking Nat who has healed a little by the start of the MCU, past Nat who can barely function might be more likely to fall into past tricks)

A threesome is also out of the question, though somehow I think she'd think about that one a little longer. (She'd probably love to be in a Maria sandwhich though.)

As for simply living with a clone, I think she'd hate it. I think it would creep her out big time. That girl already has trust AND identity issues, she does NOT need another person who looks exactly like her running around. In the comics she literally has her identity stolen and misused MULTIPLE times, she does not need this in the MCU, even if the the clone is inherently good. She's not trusting it. If she is forced to live with it, she is ignoring it at hard as possible.

Wanda:

Wanda took me so long to decide on, and it might be because I haven't written much about her in a long time. I could honestly still be presuaded the either way so I'm going to look at both. Firstly, my brain says I just don't think she likes herself enough to put up with it in a lot of what we see of her. Especially post Wandavision, I think looking at the effects of the Darkhold would probably be painful. HOWEVER, maybe if you asked AoU Wanda she'd say yes, because she thinks it'd be fun to try it once. What could go wrong? It's only herself. Wandavision Wanda would probably say yes (I'm imagining Agatha asking her as a bond building game haha, and Agatha definitely says yes.) And maybe post DSMoM Wanda would say yes, because she believes that no one else would be safe around her, though I think sex is probably the last thing on her mind HAHA but, that's what the question's about so! Basically I think my thoughts come down to: Wanda is a very curious person, and if she's not too busy wallowing in selfhatred and depression, then she'd say yes because it'd be interesting to see what it's like.

As for a threesome, honestly I think she'd be down. Marvel could say she learnt how to duplicated herself just to make it more fun for Vision and I'd believe them. A clone is basically the same sich, right?

And finally, I don't think she could live with one. I think she'd probably just deny it's existence entirely which would probably also desintigrate it literally too. The worst case I can imagine is that she has to see herself doing things that she picked up from Pietro, seeing the way that he lives within her and reminding herself in a horribly roundabout way what it was like to live with him

Bonus round: Clint would say yes immediately to all of the above. For science.

Honestly I think I could write an entire essay for each character on this topic, thanks for asking!

#answers #ramblings #maria hill #natasha romanoff #wanda maximoff

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this year is definitely the year my fics get weirder

theyre not necessarily happier, in fact i think that mightve gotten lost somewhere in the wip pile, but theyre certainly weirder! they certainly say something about me…

#ramblings

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every time i get such horrible writers block i always turn to clintasha angst. why? i dont think anyone truly knows, but theres something to be said abt making that man patch up his best friend in the whole wide world while she does her best to not let him

#ramblings

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i want to write that sad wet pathetic blackhill retirement fic so BAD but my brain hates the english language rn. its marinating. ive got ideas. theyre going down like feral cats. i will write this some day

#ramblings

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the way i forget to post anything on here for weeks at a time and then i get creative block and dont shut up i keep having THOUGHTS but my brain wont let me type them into anything coherent

ive got like seven different fics that i want to write but my brain is simply not in the building

#does anyone have any magical suggestions #does anyone want to cast a spell on me #ramblings

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I write so often about maria being a soft lover, because i truly think that she tries her hardest to be compassionate when shes afforded that luxury, and i think the privacy of such moments compared with the intimacy of finding a partner of some sort is the perfect environment for that

HOWEVER on the flip side, how much of her father haunts her all the way into her relationships with others? how often does she find herself being rougher with her lovers? she spends her whole life being commanding and i dont think that switch is as easy to turn off as she wishes it was, i dont think the violence of her life takes a backseat just because she wants to fuck someone, i think it takes work to turn herself gentle

it probably tears her apart inside some nights, but its also pretty hot to think about her railing someone to get the aggression out of her bones, to settle the constant alertness in her muscles. its just a little bit hot to imagine her gripping hard at someone to keep them steady for her, to see the way her teeth are bared around the way she almost growls. her hair is coming out of its updo and shes all sweaty. her voice can growl orders and praise just as well as it can bark them and her hands are large enough to wrap around a wrist or two, perhaps a throat

idk man. i just think that maria probably isnt that gentle before she teaches herself to be — and even then, isnt a woman allowed to indulge every so often?

#nsfw #ramblings #maria hill

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i wish i could write abt nat being a dom more but shes too fucking whipped for maria or wanda to do the things i think itd be fun for her to do!! im sorry!!! every time i write about her she becomes the snarkiest sub to ever exist!!

i just want to write about her fucking someone lazily. i want to write about the way shed trail her hands over someones body as she knows shes not quite giving them enough. the idea of her smoking a joint too, the shotgunning, the trailing her hands over them with the joint between her fingers still. her life is so busy, why not take her time when she gets it?

shed be so good at degradation too, shes so good at hissing things through her teeth. ‘if i dont tell you, how will you know when to shut up’ style, its so easy to imagine. she shows her teeth so much too, shes probably a biter when it comes to it, her hand in their hair and her teeth at their throat

#brat isnt the right word #but she sure as hell isnt taking orders #im not even sure where i was going with this #i keep having nsfw thoughts that arent developed enough for a full fic #nsfw #ramblings #natasha romanoff #black widow

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This might be an overly niche hc but i think maria is mildly allergic to oranges, i think they give her migraines - and i think bananas make her mouth numb. obviously exposing allergies as the sort of person she is is an awful idea - though theyre not deadly - so no one really knows apart from nick and phil, but they try not to eat oranges in the same room as her because sometimes just the smell of them is enough

#ramblings #maria hill

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I finished bootstraps and spider bites a while ago, but I just keep coming back to things like the playlists you made. I find myself thinking about their little punk universe so often, I love the way you wrote all the characters in that story. I just wanna say thank you for creating that beautiful, cool and unique world, and deciding to share it with us🫶

Im so happy that it stuck with you, thats definitely one of the highest honours i could ever hope for as a writer - and if it helps, they havent left my head at all either, even if I’m not planning on extending that universe. i see little things that remind me of them all the time haha (most recently, the concept of clipping your carabiners together - so that maria doesnt get separated in a crowd before shes too comfortable in them)

#answers #bootstraps and spider bites #punk au

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Having some thoughts about Maria being a bit of a service top, but they’re not coherent enough for a fic, so im gonna toss them to the wolves out here <3

So we know that woman eats pussy like shes starving right? we all agree on that? we agree that she doesnt beg but she will say please as nicely as she needs to on her knees if natasha so wishes, if it means that she can get her hands and lips on her and show her just how much she loves her

her own pleasure has never been at the forefront of her mind (ill get into that in other posts, and every fic i ever write) and natasha does everything she can to get maria to enjoy herself as freely as she likes but the thing is there is just nothing better to her than making sure natasha is happy and satiated, and who is natasha to say no when she looks at her like that? how is she supposed to refuse when Maria puts so much effort into having come so hard her ears ring?

maria just loves being able to do something good, she loves being able to see the direct positive effect of her actions, she loves hearing her name in that voice and she loves the way natasha looks at her with all of the love in the world. she loves the way natasha holds onto her like she needs her as close as possible. she likes to feel useful

half the time it doesnt even cross marias mind to do anything about the flood in her pants until natasha asks, but sometimes, more often than most people would admit, natasha doesnt even need to return the favour to have maria rutting against the bed and coming entirely untouched

sometimes natasha just sounds so pretty, and she grips at marias hair in just the right way, and she’s practically making a puddle in marias palm where she fingers are buried up to the knuckle and maria just cant help herself

natasha finds this incredibly hot and the most endearing thing in the world, and she only loves maria more for the fact that she doesnt seem to shy away from it. when natasha asks her the first time she notices, gentle and careful, maria doesnt bother to hide the fact, she says she simply enjoys it that much, and natasha kisses the taste if her from her lips with a chest fit to burst

from then on, natasha picks up on it each and every time, and maria allows her gentle teasing about it with dopey eye rolls and carefully considered crooks of her fingers, but at the end of the day she knows that natasha loves it and she could never she ashamed by how much she loves her in turn

i wish i could word it better but yeah. maria coming in her pants because she enjoys eating pussy too much. maria laughing when natasha motions to let her help because her boxers are already ruined and shes too sensitive to go again. natasha dragging her up to rut against her thigh anyway because as long as maria can kiss her she can always go again.

#nsfw #ramblings #blackhill #maria hill #natasha romanoff