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Hell yeah

This animation without the filter because it fucked with the framerate for some reason (this isn't the intended look otherwise, but bleh)

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I'm afraid of my (physically, emotionally, and psychologically) abusive ex finding my tumblr and doing something with it

I used to date a guy who was a pretty violent criminal. And he was abusive, and I've been using my poetry as a vent since then, but I feel so afraid he'll find it and come back and kill me or have his buddy come beat me to death. What do I do, how do I stop seeing him and hearing his voice when I close my eyes or start to go to sleep? He's stared showing up in my nightmares. Texts about "getting back together" or knocks on the door, or breathing next to me while I sleep. What do I do I need to get away from him but he's already 100 miles away, I'm so terrified

#i need advice #advice #give me advice

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TW: Domestic abuse, stalking, suicide

The void has yawned to swallow me Like a shadow you still follow me Worms will turn and fields burn But under the sun my bruises are unearned You kill and think it matters to no one But you'll find my way through to the sun VOID VOID VOID VOID VOID

#poetry #original poem #poem #original poetry #poets on tumblr #short poem #I think of suicide whenever I picture his face why can't he let me go free. #I'll never see him again but he's still there in my nightmares

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Free eerF

Get the knack I'll get you back I smell the sound and staff I hope you understand Sometimes I feel like I don't have a chance But when that time comes I just remember this song I was born to a reptile and a typhoon I was raised on a screen and taught by a cartoon I am no one without someone like you I am a piece of faux wax plastic fruit

Take me down to break a crown I how you are found Though it's gotten unlikely now I think it's true that we have somehow Found a way to eat a vegetable world And we are nothing without a 20 year old girl

I was taught how to eat my own I was educated on the importance of the sound And I learned how to cow the moon When there was no more room

I heard a prophet sing every other week I made myself a puppet and he named me meat I helped to remove the king from his throne and put him in a carseat I am a big part of why you can't get a job or a lover

People hope to hear me tell them about what's waiting in the future I'm frankly facing backwards There's some argument for me being god But I don't like to entertain narcissistic thoughts I own my own belly though it's full of rocks

Free free free free free free free me from my line Singing in the midnight "free Ukraine/Yemen/Turkmenistan/Palestine" There's no way you know what you're looking to find It's no crime to be born inside It's no life sentence or free ride A silver spoon can be the veneer of lead And when you reach thirty you're poisoned till you're dead And there's still a place for a short man to crack his head

Barbarians make better lovers because they use more butter Like some Chinese pilaf empty abraham undercover I took myself a Swedish lover I hope no one can discover that he's made of clay made of clay

Words backwards that make themselves like how I am if you turn me inside out and then reverse the sound.

#poem #poetry #original poem #poets on tumblr #original poetry

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Part 2

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Part 1

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jesus holding a lamb based on that painting of jesus holding a lamb

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Gurrrl I like almost everyone, till you've physically assaulted me at least 3 times I like you

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Is there a rockabilly section of Tumblr?

Because I have some Chris Isaak hot takes and a whole lot of Jerry Lee Lewis to be conflicted about

#rockabilly

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That feeling when you look at an old photo of an ex and simultaneously hate him and wish he was physically there with you

#please be relatable #relatable I hope #oh god what if only I feel this #I'm so gay #oh my god why are dudes both the worst and so pretty

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Jesssssseeee we need to CCOOOOOOOOOKKKK JESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEE WALTUH! WALTUUUUUUUUUUH!

Real

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the turkey swiss on rye incident

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LMFAO OMG

This is getting out of hand

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Slash is the one who got me...

Long hair, top hat, sunglasses.

Guys like that have permission to ruin my ENTIRE life

a rainbow shirt in target won’t turn your kids gay but trent reznor will

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Reminder that your opinion on social issues you've never encountered is not only irrelevant, but unwanted

If you feel the need to share it. Politely fuck yourself

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I had hoped we'd see each other again

We weren't ever really friends

Objects of mutual lust and delusional love

Feeling so nonplussed and soaring above

Oh I know it means nothing to you

I am the only thing you want to do

You've put me in a box inside of your head

Painted me and all the town red

Broken but beautiful like Kintsugi

The time is right you see right through me

Transparent empty air swallows your heart

Where should I even start?

#poetry #poem #short poem #original poem #original poetry #There is a complicated eroticism to knowing you're unwanted. Something so sexy about the removal of self. It's this alien feeling #No one really writes about that alien feeling do they?

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listen i know each actor brings their own spice to a role, but i just can’t take timothee chalamet’s wonka seriously 

where is the madness behind his eyes??? the malice??? the complete disregard for the laws of mankind and decency???