rusty25

[rusty25]

what the actual fuck

we did it everyone. we’re no longer allowed to talk about the CISGENDER MALE CHEST because it’s sexually explicit

[rusty25]

There is a stir. I'm trying to find the words as I'm gathering my thoughts.

How do I tell my loved ones about all this, and my fears, without sounding cryptic?

They didn't tell me about any of this when I was there less than a week ago. The voice in the phone was not familiar enough. They are asking us to gather to one place. We can't write down what we're gonna hear there, and I think the same goes for calls too.

I'm afraid for my life. I don't know if I should put that extra scalpel blade in my shoe or write a will.

I can't tell if this is my anxiety talking or if I have an actual reason to be scared.

I'm exhausted but I don't think I'll sleep tonight. I just want to tell everyone that I love them.

#tw transphobia #lgbtq #lgbt #trans #transmasc #transgender #lgbtq+ #ftm

[rusty25]

I saw your march dump collage on IG!

I was surprised, and still am, honestly, that you still haven't blocked me. It feels like an honor.

You look happy. It's good to have seen your smile, even if it's only through a screen.

I looked at you and I thought, "my love." I don't know if that's good or bad, but since I'll never send these, I can be honest that I did think that.

It would mean the world to me if we could reconnect. I don't know what your situation is, how possible would it be for us to meet again. If all goes according to plan I'm leaving this city soon, and...

Five more years.

-dummy

P.S. In one of their reels, Alok used the phrase "(how dare you make) Heaven on Earth" and it reminded me of you.

#letters i'll never send

[rusty25]

it's so surreal to put on testosterone gel while I'm bleeding

#lgbtq #lgbt #trans #transmasc #transgender #lgbtq+ #ftm #trans hrt #ftm hrt #testosterone hrt #testosterone #cw periods #tw periods

[rusty25]

a few days in a hospital and your skincare routine falls apart so easily like a house of cards damn

#lgbtq #lgbt #trans #transmasc #transgender #lgbtq+ #ftm #top surgery #gender euphoria #hospital #skincare #skincare routine

[rusty25]

I'M TIT-FREE, MOTHAFUCKAAAAAAAAAZ

#lgbtq #lgbt #trans #transmasc #transgender #lgbtq+ #ftm #trans joy #top surgery #double mastectomy #mastectomy #chest surgery

[rusty25]

to love a trans person is to love yourself. if you can't love yourself, you can't love me properly.

#lgbtq #lgbt #trans #transmasc #transgender #ftm #philosophy #lgbtq+ #trans love #self love

[rusty25]

going on dating apps just to swipe left on everyone

[rusty25]

please, please, please put the weights back after you're done. especially plates. not everyone is as strong as you, and we still want to use the machines without being injured while re-racking YOUR weights.

#gym #gymlife #gymhelp #weights #weight lifting

[rusty25]

literally Plato

#ancient greek philosophy #plato #philosophy memes #philosophy

[rusty25]

I hate being right

[rusty25]

me with my ex more than a year ago: *does extensive research on how to love a depressed person and I how I can be a good partner*

me right now: *is the depressed partner*

#just kidding I'm single

[rusty25]

I'm in so much pain I am burning with rage

[rusty25]

*in the middle of a mental breakdown* can't forget my skincareeeeee

[rusty25]

there are some people you talk to for the first time and you just *know* they were mean in high school.

[rusty25]

I see your "it's embarrassing how far down you have to scroll when you are required to enter your year of birth at registration"

and I raise you "it's embarrassing how far down you have to scroll to find the Minecraft version you last played with and know"

[rusty25]

I'm afraid

To keep the book open

That you lent me

I'm scared

Your scent will escape